That voice on the inside that begs and begs in a way that says,
I want to be seen.
It's wild to me that we assume that we're talking to others,
Rather than realizing that you're simply talking to yourself.
It's not that I want others to see me,
I want to see what I am.
Which is also like saying,
I want to see that I love what I am.
And to miss that,
We look out into the world and demand that others love and see us.
And how exhausting that is.
But rather to be still and be the one that sees yourself.
To be the one that holds space for yourself.
To be the one that looks at your humanity,
The totality of your humanity,
And say,
I will love you.
I will be there for you.
You know what's somewhat comical about this?
It's looking at the normalcy of my life in relationships.
I can see those moments where I at least think I want my partner to see me.
If only my partner would love me this way instead of that way.
You know what it's like?
If only my partner could truly understand me.
And what have I seen time and time and time again?
Not only with her,
But with everyone.
Nobody can truly understand me.
Nobody can truly see me.
Is this not obvious?
And yeah,
It's a beautiful play of things when it seems like other people love us.
When it seems like other people understand us.
But isn't it true that it just seems that way?
For a moment in time.
And in seeing that,
Ultimately,
The love that I crave,
The being seen that I crave,
Simply does not come from the outside.
Do you notice this?
What's it like?
Even sitting here,
And let's imagine there's a thousand people watching.
And what if those thousand people were thinking,
Tiger,
You're such a great guy.
I love you.
You're enough.
Do you know that if that isn't seen inside of yourself,
It really doesn't matter?
Like sure,
It might be comforting.
But how many times has someone told us,
I love you,
But you're not available.
You simply cannot see the love.
And furthermore,
The more you see the love for what you are,
When somebody else says I love you,
Then it's super sweet because you see it on the inside.
That speaks a lot to the love that we perceivably allow in,
And the love that we perceivably push away.
Whereas,
As we walk about in this landscape called life,
We are experiencing the love we allow,
Or we are experiencing the love we push away,
And it looks like it's coming from the outside.
Do you see this great illusion?
This great illusion where it looks like we are experiencing the outside world.
Where it looks like we are experiencing all these other people,
All of these circumstances,
All of these conditions,
And we can feel so separate from all of those things.
And then,
In a moment of stillness,
In a moment of being deeply honest with ourselves about what's really going on,
We see that we're simply looking into a mirror that shows us how we see ourselves.
In many ways,
It shows you that this whole life thing is a journey of healing how you see yourself.
And it's not so much,
Even though it could be said,
To see yourself in a better way,
But more accurately,
At least for me,
It's seeing a deeper truth to what is.
Right?
It's like,
I'm not trying to be more positive,
I'm simply looking at what's actually true.
And what I find,
When I look at what's actually true,
Is that a lot of the negativity that I see is to see something that's not really there.
So as the negativity falls away,
What's left?
In the absence of judgment,
What's really there?
In the absence of blame,
In the absence of taking things personally,
What's really there?
You know,
In a beautiful way,
This points towards the nature of what is.
The nature of the truth.
Because in the absence of all that is false,
What is there is a beautiful space of allowing.
And what is that beautiful space of allowing if it is not synonymous with love?
Do you see this?
So easy we could kind of assume that,
Oh,
Okay,
I see the negative,
Therefore I need to create the positive.
I see the lack of love,
Therefore I need to create the thing called love.
But the truth of the matter is,
The love is already there.
It's the foundation.
Which wow,
It's like life isn't asking me to do anything.
Life is inviting me to see life,
To see what's really there.
My goodness.
But you also know what I see when I look towards reality,
When I look at what's actually there.
I see that in a manner of speaking,
There is a great destruction of this life I've created.
Whereas,
What I think I know,
How I think things should be,
Who's right,
Who's wrong,
Even where I think I'm going in life,
What I want to happen,
All of that disappears.
Which is interesting because how much of all of those things are so tied to the fear that I carry?
It's like the big long list of all the things that I desperately want,
They all disappear.
Oh no.
But it's also those things that are so tied to the fear that I carry,
A fear that I might not get them,
A fear that I might be wrong.
It's such a vast emptiness.
