Welcome,
My name is Kelly Johnston and I'm so glad that this meditation has found you in this moment and in this time of your life.
The words I'm about to share found me at a time in life when I felt most hopeless,
Alone,
And lost.
And I really was needing to borrow faith and direction from the people and healers around me until those feelings could be alive again in my own body.
I remember sitting down every morning for months and months with these words that eventually became my prayer.
I would say them out loud with devotion until I knew every word by heart.
The first few weeks doing this,
I felt so uncomfortable I could barely let the words cross my lips.
My voice was shaking,
Tears were streaming down my face.
There were so many days where I felt myself fighting every part of this prayer that I did not actually believe.
But something in me told me to stay with it.
And then one day,
It shifted.
Not only did I start to truly believe the words I was saying,
But I started to live the words that I was saying.
These words were alive.
It felt like nothing short of a miracle.
My life has evolved in a way I never could have imagined since I devoted myself to this prayer.
And so I feel so inspired to share these words with you now in case you are in a similar place of needing to borrow the energy of hope and inspiration.
So taking a moment to fully come into the body,
Finding yourself in a comfortable position,
Softening the breath,
Relaxing the face,
And softening around the heart.
Allowing these words to gently enter your space.
Mother,
Father,
God,
Creator of all that is,
I really ask that all beings that are in my highest and best get called into my space in a way that feels like fun and pleasure and joy and interest and curiosity.
I ask all men and all women who are in my highest and best to naturally find their way to me.
I ask that I be free of fear of sex or no sex and instead just really try to find a space where I'm calling in and calling in and calling in those beings that are meant for me.
That are meant to help me in my healing process.
That are meant to help me in my elevation.
That are meant to help me bring me back to myself.
I just want to feel that community and family of people that are so willing and so loving to help me flow into my experience one after another,
Again and again,
More and more,
Day by day,
Week by week,
And month by month,
Until I feel so certain that there is so much goodness in the world and so much kindness in the world.
That wherever I go and wherever I decide I am,
I know there is someone for me.
And not just one someone,
But multiple someones.
There are groups for me and friends for me and loves for me and lovers for me.
And it all becomes one cohesive whole in which I feel certain as I get to know my authentic self,
My light shines brighter.
And in my light shining brighter,
I call forth from the creative source all those that match my shining light.
I know that it's possible.
I know that it's even probable.
And I give myself as much time to feel how I feel until I know for sure.
