Poem: Not Easy To Say, Not Easy To Feel

The shame compounds and I spiral down,

The tunnel of not easy to say,

Not easy to feel.

Shove your coping skills down your throat.

I'm tired,

Scared,

And find it hard to breathe.

I reach my hand across the moat and float within the stream.

I float and float,

Hoping you won't leave.

But standing,

You pull on your coat and give me time for me.

All I have is time,

And so I grieve.

The not easy to say,

Not easy to feel.

And I don't know how to say it all again,

To make the words begin from beginning to the end.

The shame compounds and I spiral down.

I don't want to be held in a file,

Have you nod and smile.

Be that case of such and such,

The girl who cries and sleeps too much.

I want you to wait,

And I want you to see.

The not easy to say,

Not easy to feel.

The shame compounds and I spiral down.

The tunnel of not easy to say,

Not easy to feel.

Please wait,

Please see.

I'm tired,

Not easy to feel.