You Take a deep breath in.
Deep,
Deep breath.
Into your nose.
And exhale through your mouth.
And just relax.
Hi!
So welcome at Old Patterns Keep Repeating,
Part 2.
Our past repeats until we reconcile ourselves with that.
Why is that?
Well,
Because there is still an emotional charge in the past.
That charge is a frequency.
And that frequency is a frequency that is not.
Not the real you.
In your human life,
So many things happen.
So many beautiful,
But also so many painful things.
It is all true.
It all wants to be seen.
Recognize.
And we can start to have a look.
The moment we open up.
To that way,
Way larger us.
The real us.
The divine us.
The Divine You.
Because that divine you operates on a completely different frequency level.
On another frequency range.
When we start.
To connect with that energy.
We expand energetically.
So we start to open up more.
Our energetic container becomes larger,
So to speak.
And our perception starts to change.
In this bigger container.
The energies that got stuck in the painful moments can start to flow again.
And that is the goal of all of this.
Free flow of energy,
Free flow of you.
Of your potential.
Of your life force that wants to flow to and through you.
In that free flow.
Things just flow and happen.
Without the contraction,
The pain,
The fear.
Fear,
Contraction of your energy field,
Contraction in your body.
It feels so uncomfortable.
And it's really there,
Showing up.
To show you an old emotional block.
That wants to be released.
And it is uncomfortable,
But it's also the signpost to where your freedom is.
In this session,
We continue from part 1.
In part one,
You created your lifeline with dots on it.
That's representing those difficult and painful moments.
And today We are going to work with that light.
So if you haven't made this,
Please go back to part 1 and do that first.
And if you have,
Well,
You're so welcome to see what wants to unfold from here.
As always,
We go about this in three parts.
First,
We start with a grounding practice.
And from there I take you along in the exercise.
And finally,
We wrap it up.
With a beautiful meditation.
I'm so happy you are here.
This is really powerful,
Deep work.
Deep work in reprogramming yourself.
Allowing to come up what wants to come up.
And hold that energy within you.
You have courage to do this work.
I'm so happy you're here and you're not alone in this.
We are doing this together.
So let's start.
By really arriving in this space.
Let's start with setting our intent.
And to feel the energy of your true divine self.
Who is always holding you.
Guiding you in this process.
Giving you whatever you need.
Keeping you safe and comfortable.
At all times.
So please,
Sit up straight with your feet flat on the floor.
Close your eyes for a moment,
Then start by taking a deep breath in.
Deep,
Deep breath.
Into your now.
And exhale through your mouth.
And just relax.
Let go of all the tension in your body.
Soft in your eyes.
Soften your gaze.
Relax all the little muscles in and around your eyes.
And feel that from there your entire face begins to soften.
Release the tension in your jaw your mouth.
Let your tongue become really relaxed.
Let go of the tension in your shoulders,
Your neck.
Your arms,
Your hands.
And breathe,
Breathe into your belly.
Take a deep breath in.
And as you exhale.
.
.
Quiet now.
Quiet some more.
Quiet your mind.
Quiet your thoughts.
And then again take a deep breath in and as you exhale Imagine.
That you are powerfully connected.
With the energy of Source.
At the center of this universe.
One clear beam of light.
Connect you.
Deeply with that light.
Deeply with that energy and frequency.
Pure clear white light.
Forms an energetic umbilical cord.
Between the energy and frequency.
Of your Divine Creator.
At the center of this universe.
And your physical experience here on the Earth,
Right now.
Focus on this beam of light.
And imagine that it is traveling through space.
All the way to the year.
And through the new Earthquake it is coming down.
Through all those beams of light.
It is filling those beams of light.
The whole grip.
Around the Earth.
Is filling itself.
With its pure source light.
It's traveling through the grid.
Until it arrives above your physical location.
It is hovering above you now.
Just imagine that you are sitting where you are right now.
And this life.
It's right above you.
Allow it.
The flow into your physical experience,
Into your physical body.
Allow this energy to fill your body.
Through the top of your head.
Let it fill every cell in your head.
Your skull and your brain.
Every cell is absorbing this pure,
Pure life.
Take a deep breath in,
And as you exhale,
Let it flow into your face,
Into your jaw.
Into your neck and throat.
Every cell in your shoulders,
Your arms and your hands are soaking in this energy.
Filling themselves with his energy.
And releasing all the lower frequencies at the same time.
Let this pure source energy.
Feel your chest and upper back.
Let it fill your heart's sense.
Let it fill your stomach,
Your belly,
Your lower back.
Take a deep breath in again and as you exhale Let it fill your hips,
Your thighs,
Your knees.
Let it fill your calves and shins.
All the way to your ankles and feet.
And let it come out through the bottom of your feet,
Anchoring you down,
Deep.
Deep into the air.
Take a deep breath in again and as you exhale Bring your focus to your heart and say.
I ask and intend.
To create a sacred space.
I ask and intend to release all distracting thoughts,
Energies and frequencies now.
I ask to raise my vibration to a thousand hertz and allow the energy of Source and my own higher self to flow through my physical experience now.
And I ask my spirit family of Source to please be present with me now and help me create and maintain.
This sacred space.
I ask and intend.
To look at my human story.
On a new level today.
And I ask to experience the truth.
I ask to experience the truth from my higher self.
I ask to bypass my human mind.
And retrieve only the information.
From my higher mind.
I ask and intend.
To retrieve information about the emotional charge attached to it.
To the events and experiences in my lifetime.
And I ask to release them.
With ease and grace.
I ask to be guided in this process and to be safe and comfortable.
At all times.
And so it is.
Take a deep breath in.
And as you exhale,
Imagine that you are sitting in this ball of light,
Your own sacred space.
Now ask to raise your vibration and to extend this energy field.
Up to 79 feet away from your body.
360 degrees all around you.
You are sitting in this huge ball of light.
And now merge,
Ask to merge with the outer edge of your energy field.
Ask to merge with your own spirit self.
It is right there.
On that frequency at the edge of your energy field.
Ask to now completely merge.
With your higher self.
Ask to feel the energy.
Notice how it feels.
What is different?
From a moment ago.
Stay in this energy.
Allow me to share some information with you from this energy.
And then we'll dive into the exercise.
Take a deep breath in and as you exhale Just relax.
And feel the energy.
Last week,
We began bringing your life story into view.
If you have worked on it.
I bow to you.
Yeah,
I know,
It is deep,
Profound work.
And it's really opening something.
Even if you've done just a little bit.
Just a few dots on your timeline.
It is the beginning of this beautiful process.
If you have done this work,
Bring this piece of paper in front of you.
If you haven't,
No problem.
Go back to the session.
Create on a piece of paper a timeline.
With Dotson.
Dots that represent your family background.
The background of your mom,
Of your dad.
And where they came from.
All their stories,
Difficult moments.
Where they felt alone,
Abandoned,
Afraid.
What have you.
Whatever you know,
Of course.
Everything you know about that,
You can put it on a line there.
If you don't know anything.
Just put one dot on the line for your father.
And one for your mother.
Those two dots represent the entire family background of your dad and your mom.
And then We start with a dot for your own conception.
Then for your birth.
And then all the things that happened after that.
This is what we are doing.
In session one.
One thing I'd like to add.
We are putting down dots.
But we have also things that lasted a little bit longer than just one moment.
Trauma can be caused by one event at one particular time.
Or it can be caused by things happening over longer periods of time.
For example,
You haven't had the emotional guidance,
The emotional understanding for a long period of time.
Or in your family you knew periods of lack.
That were really,
Really stressful for the entire family.
And for you.
Then you draw a line.
From the moment it started,
If you remember.
Until things got better and maybe there is a line that is lasting your entire life.
That's also okay.
On that line you put one dot.
That dot represents the entire line.
I hope it's clear.
Through the dots we begin to order your life story.
And the piece of paper is simply a representation of your own consciousness.
As you order the dots in the best chronological order as possible,
You order the energy within your consciousness.
You are moving from chaos to order.
Everything as much as possible in the right order.
And because of what you do on a piece of paper,
Your energetic field.
And thus your brain and your body start to reorganize as well.
And I can tell you,
That is really a huge shift in energy.
And that is quite a relief.
Okay,
And this is just a gradual process.
It's not a thing that you sit down and you just do and then it's ready.
Starts to open up something within you.
It creates space,
It creates coherence,
It creates calm.
Why is that?
Because what is allowed to come into your awareness no longer has to keep directing you unconsciously.
What happens is that we make space for the emotional charge connected to the events to integrate.
For the energy that got stuck to flow again.
And when that happens,
You can start to create your life on a new level.
Instead of repeating the old story.
In order to show them to you.
You bring them into your awareness.
So they can finally settle down.
The energy can be released.
The emotional charge can be released.
And from there.
.
.
Ah,
Inner peace,
Calm.
Freedom.
And an even deeper connection.
With who you truly are.
Can come from here.
Because this is it.
It is not the eve vent itself that keeps repeating.
The event that happened to you a long time ago.
No,
It's the unresolved charge that is still within your system,
That is projecting itself outward.
And therefore you are attracting.
From the outside world.
Situations,
Events,
Feelings that keep you in the same loop.
So the moment you go back,
Resolve the emotional charge within you.
You start to emit different frequencies out into the field.
And therefore attract different energies,
Frequencies,
Situations and circumstances to you.
When things become available for integration.
It can start.
To shift the energy and frequency.
And you can start to create the life you really,
Really want.
You don't have to go back and relive your past.
No,
You're here now.
Stay grounded in your body,
Feel your feet on the floor,
Use your breath.
Tell yourself.
How old you are now.
That you made it.
You are here.
You are safe.
And from this place.
Deeply connected to your higher self.
Anchored into your body.
How?
With your breath as your anchor.
We can just have a look.
From a little distance.
How to go about this.
We take the next step.
We are not going to look at what happened.
We are not going to use the stories,
The remembering.
We are going to look at what the energy is within you attached to this experience because of what happened within this experience.
We are going to look at the emotional charge.
That is energetically speaking the information that your body and energy field are still carrying.
Because of the experience on your timeline.
How do we do it?
We are going to let your higher consciousness.
Your subconscious speaking.
So you take a dot on the line,
And you take a pencil.
And we'll do it together.
Put your pencil on the dot.
And you start to make little circles from the inside out.
You start very small,
Close to the dot,
And with every circle you make,
With your hand.
You'll make the circle a little wider.
A little wider,
A little wider,
A little wider.
So you get large circles or not.
How big the circle is represents the emotional charge connected to this dog.
Every dot is what you may call the traumatic event.
An emotional charged event.
So,
We're going to see,
And not to think about it and make it up with our mind,
We are going to explore and discover what your subconscious and your higher consciousness show you about how much tension and emotional charge is connected to this doctor.
This is what you must know about trauma.
It is not the event itself that determines the impact.
It is the emotional charge that is still within yourselves attached to this event.
In order to be able to function,
Your conscious mind puts the event and the emotional charge away.
Especially when you are little.
There's simply not enough capability,
Not enough container to let the energy flow.
So your survival mechanism does one brilliant thing.
It just puts it away.
So you can function and live your life.
But this putting away does not mean that the energy is resolved.
It simply got stuck in your cell.
Your body,
Your subconscious remembers everything.
Every event,
Every circumstance,
Every feeling,
Every charge is written into your cells.
It is all information and it is right there.
How much charge and what charge is written into those cells differs per person.
The same experience can be deeply traumatic.
Meaning have a lot of emotional charge for one person,
And have a completely different impact on someone else.
Less charge.
It is all subjective.
One of the things that really matters is what happened inside your system.
While you were going through the experience.
Were you able to act?
Could you move?
Could you get yourself out of this experience for example?
Or were you powerless?
Imagine,
For example.
Two people in a burning house.
And just feel into the difference.
One person is in a burning house.
And he or she is getting rescued and carried out.
He or she survives.
Thanks to someone else.
Or another person manages to get out of that same burning house by him or herself.
Just feel into it.
Can you feel the difference?
In the second case,
He or she can still feel the strength in their legs.
The energy keeps flowing.
They can move,
They can act.
And they experience,
I can get myself out of there.
For the other person,
And thank God they're rescued of course,
But in their system,
Their experience is completely different.
Can you feel it?
In energy,
What the difference is.
Exactly.
When you get out yourself.
You feel the power in you.
And when you are rescued,
The energy of powerlessness is added.
The frequency of powerlessness.
Couldn't do anything,
Couldn't get myself out,
And my survival depended on someone else.
The external event may look almost the same.
There was a fire and both people survived.
But the information stored in their cells is completely different.
And then when you were little.
Well,
You couldn't rescue yourself many times.
So we all have that frequency of powerlessness within us.
And this is why,
When we look at our lifeline today,
I don't want your mind to come up with a charge.
I don't want your mind to decide,
This was objectively the worst thing that happened to me,
So this must have the biggest circle.
Now,
We are going to ask your body.
Because your body may tell you something completely different.
For example,
I discovered this in my own lifeline.
My mother became ill when I was six and died when I was nine.
My mind had already decided what the biggest drama must have been.
My mom died.
But when I did this exercise and allowed my body to show me the charge,
The circle around the dot,
My mother becoming ill,
Became much larger than the circle around her death.
And I thought,
Wow,
This is interesting.
I started to ask my higher self more questions about it and it started to make so much sense.
Because when a parent becomes seriously ill,
All the energy shifts towards survival.
Of course,
That's what a system does.
That is what we all do.
Surviving is the most important thing.
And then the whole energy changes.
In a family.
So,
As a little girl,
I couldn't understand it consciously,
But subconsciously I just knew.
There is nothing to gain here for me anymore.
As of now.
I'm on my own.
I have to do it all by myself.
So energetically,
Something shifted so profoundly.
Didn't understand it then.
But my body remembered.
And through this process,
I was discovering all these things.
And it feels so wonderful.
Wonderful,
Because I understand myself better.
But I also understand my parents better.
So I feel more of the unconditional love flowing through me.
In pure acceptance of our whole story.
And what everyone went through.
So this is what this whole process is all about.
Self-acceptance,
Self-forgiveness.
Becoming clear,
Clean and at peace with your life story.
And from there,
You will see.
That that ripples out.
Into the other persons around you,
Into your family.
Into everyone who played a part.
In your script.
In your life story.
So let's get to the work.
Take your piece of paper in front of you and we work chronological,
Down the line.
And we do that also to bring order.
You don't have to know what the point is,
We are simply going to be curious.
Don't analyze.
Place your pencil on the point and take a deep breath in.
And as you exhale,
Focus on your heart.
And again,
Visualize yourself in that ball of light.
Expanded out up to 6,
7,
8,
9 feet away from your physical body.
And merge with the outer layer of your energy field.
Ask to merge with your higher self.
And let's state our intent again.
Say from your heart.
I ask and intend to be guided.
I ask and intend to feel clearly,
Without any interference of my human mind.
What the charge is related to this doctor.
And now just imagine that your hand is being directed directly.
From your higher self.
As if your higher self is holding your hand with a pencil.
And directing it.
Trust your feeling,
Trust your body.
You just know.
When the circle is done.
Allow your hand to begin moving around the circle.
Trust your feeling.
Trust your subconscious.
Trust your higher consciousness.
Draw a circle and another and another.
Let the circle become larger until you feel stopped.
Let your body tell you when to stop.
Notice the moment when something within you says,
This is the size of it.
And then you stop.
Then we go to the next.
Put your pin there.
Start drawing the circles.
And stop when you feel the stop.
And then at your own pace.
Do every circle on your paper.
Take your time.
Stop when you feel the stop.
Or allow the circle to become very large when you feel that.
It's all okay.
I have dots where it's an immediate stop.
And I have dots where I feel like,
Wow,
I need another piece of paper.
Because it becomes so large,
It doesn't fit on just one.
It's all okay.
Take a deep breath in and as you exhale Put your pencil down.
Hmm,
Notice how you feel right now.
Take a moment.
To check in with your body.
Yeah.
You did it.
Let's Zoma!
Look at the piece of paper in front of you.
Look at your own life.
And then just have a little look with gentle eyes.
Like you're kind of zooming out.
Looking at it through your eyelashes.
Look at the entire line.
Look at how the energy moves.
Where are the biggest circles and the smallest?
Where is the biggest charge?
Where is almost no charge?
Where did your body surprise you?
Where does the picture your body created differ from the story your mind has been telling you?
Can you see a relation between more recent events?
And the events in your childhood.
A trigger in the present always reveals an older block.
And especially when the emotional response is a little bit too big.
Or what is happening now.
It is always pointing you towards the thing in the past.
And that disproportionate charge is information,
Everything is information,
And it's an opening.
So instead of fighting it,
Judging it.
Or making the stories in our mind.
We can just work with it.
As you focus on your timeline.
Which dot draws your attention?
Let's pick one.
Which circle is asking for your attention today?
And which one is saying,
Here,
Right here,
Start here.
If you have one.
Go to your heart and say,
I ask and intend to release the emotional charge that I'm ready to release from this experience now.
And I ask my higher self to guide me in this process.
Show me the first emotion.
And then focus on your heart.
Feel in your heart.
What comes up.
Maybe you get a feeling.
An image.
A picture.
As you focus on your heart,
You say,
I ask in intent to release my feeling of and just fill in the dots,
Whatever comes up for you.
But let's do this release together.
I ask and intend to release my feeling of confusion.
That I don't know where to start.
That I don't know what to do with all of this.
I ask in intent to release this confusion from every cell of my body.
From a conscious,
Subconscious and cellular memory.
Take a deep breath in.
And as you exhale.
.
.
Visualize.
Particles of energy.
Particles of confusion leaving your body.
Leaving your energy field.
Then again,
Feel again what comes up now.
For example,
Sadness.
I ask and intend to release my deep,
Deep sadness.
About what I have been through.
I ask in intent to release all of my sadness.
From my chest,
From my lungs.
From my throat.
From every cell in my body,
From my conscious,
Subconscious,
And cellular memory.
Take a deep breath in.
And as you exhale Visualize particles of energy leaving your body,
An energy field.
Beautiful.
Continue with this process on your own.
You can release layer by layer,
And know that what you release on one dot,
You are releasing on all of them.
When you tune into OneDot you may get very specific information,
Or not.
You will just get these feelings and just let them go.
As we did in the exercise.
You can continue this process.
And together,
Let's slowly move into the final meditation.
Where we will release some more stuff together.
Allow this process to unfold.
Trust that you have set things in motion.
And your higher consciousness will guide you.
Let's focus on our heart again.
Take a deep breath in.
And as you exhale.
.
.
Focus on your heart.
And safe.
I ask and intend to release all of my emotions that got stuck.
All my emotional charge.
My pain,
My sadness,
My anger,
And my fear.
My deep unconscious fears.
About the future.
And all my sadness,
Pain about the past.
I ask and intend to release all of these energies from every cell in my body.
And I ask to replace it with a new energy.
That allows me to focus on the now.
And create a powerful Brilliant.
New 3D experience.
Take a deep breath in and as you exhale Bring it.
A beautiful soul.
Yellow line.
Let it wrap around you.
Let this pure source light.
Calm you.
Soothe you.
Let it fill every cell in your body.
Let it comfort you.
And while you are wrapped in this energy.
As a blanket of love.
Focus on your heart and say,
I ask and intend.
So remember.
On a deep deep cellular level.
Who I really am.
My pure divine essence.
That is in pure alignment.
With my Divine Creator.
And that allows me to be in contact.
To be in communion with Creator.
And with my own True Divine Essence.
At any point in time.
I ask and intend to release my confusion and fear and the belief.
Of being separate.
From my true self and creator.
I ask and intend to release the frequency of separation.
That caused so much trauma within me,
To now being released.
Take a deep breath in,
And as you exhale,
Say from your heart.
I ask and intend to now replace all of these energies and frequencies.
All of these beliefs.
With a new belief.
With a new frequency and new energy.
And the obelisk that says that I am made with the fabric of Creator.
That I am an extension of Creator.
That I'm an aspect of the divine energies,
And therefore they are in me and around me,
Always.
I am always connected.
I am now choosing to believe this to be true.
I ask,
I intend and I choose to believe that I am renewed from the past.
I am clear from all the collective energies that keep me trapped.
In the fear of time and space.
I am now clear of these old collective memories and traumas,
And I choose to believe.
That I'm free.
I choose to believe that I'm free.
Free to create whatever I want.
Free of the fear of the future.
Free of the pain of the path.
Free to create,
To invent,
To do,
To believe,
To visualize.
Whatever I want.
I am free.
And I'm now choosing to remain focused on the here and the now.
And to be good at it.
I choose to be in the here and now.
And to feel good.
With no worries and concerns about the past or future reality.
Take a deep breath in and as you exhale feel the energy within you Feel how the energy moves.
Your entire energy field is being reorganized.
Trust the process to unfold.
Allow the energy to move.
Allow your higher self to do the work for you.
Allow your energy to shift.
Then,
One more time.
From your heart.
As of now.
As of today.
I am more and more empowered.
More and more connected to the higher frequencies every moment of the day.
I only vibrate.
At a higher frequency.
All day.
Every day.
I ask,
I intend and I choose to believe that I am the future.
That I am creating my future.
As I please it.
Free of any charge of the past.
I am in charge.
And so I will create my future in full alignment with who I really am.
For the highest good of myself,
For everyone in full.
And for the highest good.
Of humanity.
And this beautiful planet.
I will create.
A beautiful future.
In honour.
Of who I really am.
In honor of my entire life story,
Which I've lived up until now.
I am free.
I am free.
And so it is.
Take a deep breath in,
And exhale.
Stay in the energy for as long as you can.
Allow it to settle within you.
Allow the process to unfold.
Your guidance.
I wish you a beautiful unfolding.
Thank you for being here.
