When working on the relationship with your mother,
There are important things to take into consideration.
The first one being,
Regardless of how your mother was and the relationship you had to her,
Your current perception of her is what's going to dictate your relationship with different things in your life.
For example,
The relationship you have with money,
With your partner,
With living,
How you view all of this is dependent on the connection you have with your mother.
Regardless of if you currently have a relationship with her or not,
Regardless of her being on earth or having transcended,
What we're working on today is the perception we have of her.
We cannot always change the relationship with our mother,
But we can change how we perceive the connection with her.
So that's what we're going to work on today.
If you haven't done so already,
Close your eyes.
Become aware of your breath,
And begin to visualize a pink light expanding in the center of your heart.
Observe how this light begins to grow,
Filling up your entire body.
I ask that your guides,
Beings of light following the divine plan,
Come and aid us throughout this process by holding a circle of protection around you,
Where you know you are safe in the present,
And if at any moment you feel overwhelmed,
You can move and open your eyes.
Begin to visualize your mother in front of you.
Place your hand on your heart and say,
Either in your mind's eye or out loud,
I am safe.
I am here.
I am present.
Nothing can hurt me.
I am here.
I am safe.
I am present.
I am no longer stuck in the past.
And I do not need to carry what was never mine to begin with.
Behind your mother,
Visualize your maternal grandmother.
Behind her,
Visualize her mother,
And so on.
I ask that the women you come from stand in front of you,
Each one where they belong,
In the order in which they belong.
I'm going to ask you to imagine yourself becoming smaller,
And either in your mind or out loud,
State,
I see the history from which I come.
I see the pain,
The suffering.
I see the need to repeat and repair what is not mine.
I see the need to sacrifice myself in order to belong.
But I can't do this any longer.
I am only the little one.
I am only your child mother,
And I cannot be responsible for you.
I cannot change you.
I cannot exclude you.
Because in excluding you,
I exclude myself,
And I belong.
I belong.
I belong.
I don't need to carry your suffering.
I don't need to carry your rejection.
I don't need to carry your anger,
Mother.
I am only me,
Only your child.
Mother,
I cannot save you.
That is not my role or responsibility.
Mother,
I am only your child.
Mother,
I am not the other people you believe I am.
I am only your child.
Mother,
I am not my father.
I am not your mother.
I am not your father.
I am not your siblings.
I am not your friends.
I am not your partner.
Mother,
I am only me,
Only your child.
I am not who I remind you of.
I am only me.
I am only your child.
Mother,
I thought that I needed to sacrifice myself to heal the relationship with you.
But I now see that that was never my responsibility.
Mother,
I am only your child.
I am only the little one.
And when I take my place in the system,
I realize that I cannot carry you.
That was never my role nor responsibility.
I am only your child.
Mother,
I choose to no longer judge you.
Mother,
I choose to no longer carry your pain.
Mother,
I now see that I thought that I needed to keep myself small.
I thought I needed to be perfect.
I thought I needed to overachieve.
I thought I needed to physically look like what you wanted me to look in order to feel loved and seen by you.
But I now see that all of this has made me sacrifice myself for something that was never mine to carry.
Mother,
Your projections and expectations of me were never mine.
They are yours and I give them back to you with blessings.
Send them not back again.
Mother,
Today I choose to honor you by choosing myself fully without looking back,
Without trying to change who you are,
Who you were,
And what you did or didn't do.
Mother,
Today I choose freedom.
Mother,
Today the cycle of self-sacrifice and self-abandonment ends with me.
I now take the strength of all the women that came before me and go towards my own life,
Taking all the good that has already existed in my family system and multiplying it by millions.
Where there was abundance,
I multiply it.
Where there was love,
I multiply it.
Where there was health,
I multiply it.
Where there was joy,
I multiply it.
And I now take it as is mine by birthright.
And all the stories that are no longer needed,
I give them back to the system so that I can now move forward and create my own life.
You don't need to repeat any longer.
I thank all the women who came forward to show us their stories and all of those who were present throughout this meditation.
I thank your guides,
Beings of light following the divine plan,
And I ask that your space continue to be sealed as you integrate what was moved today.
And now thank yourself for having done this process.
Now continue on with your day or night knowing that you are held,
You are loved,
And you are safe to choose a new path without fear and without resistance.