I don't know exactly when it is or when it was that this consciousness,
This human consciousness,
Began to coin words.
But I can tell you that most of the words that have been created by this mind,
Such as the word patience,
Was done so in order to avoid impatience,
To avoid the restrictions inherent in resisting unwanted conditions.
Because here I am and I am tailgating life.
I am rude.
I am a bully.
And I see myself to some degree,
But am incapable of understanding why it is that way.
So I decide that what I need is to be something else.
So I idealize a state of consciousness and I call it patience.
Do you have to be told,
And I guess we do,
Not to hurt yourself?
Human beings actually have to be shown that they hurt themselves,
That they don't know they hurt themselves,
They have to be shown it.
But once an individual is awakened to the fact of where it is that they harm themselves,
The same consciousness that is brought into an awareness of itself will no longer do it as it is done before.
So you don't need a word to describe holiness.
You have to be it.
We all want to be patient,
Which is the same as saying we all want to stop suffering from a nature that doesn't understand anything about real relationship and how to use it.
Because can you see it?
I don't know if you can see this yet,
But I tell you that when we have words,
And I'm not saying there's anything more patience.
I've given thousands of talks on it.
I love the idea of it.
But can you see that it is a punishment to you?
I'm not a patient person.
So the ideal becomes the whip.
And the strange comfort comes to a divided mind that believes by hating itself for not being what it's idealized proves that it has the ideal within it,
Which if it did,
It wouldn't have to punish itself.
This is probably heresy what I'm doing.
But in truth,
I've never seen it quite so clearly before.
Humanity,
This consciousness lives in an almost ceaseless servitude to a series of ideals that were created by desire that couldn't complete itself through its own opposites.
And so it found ways to name things for itself so that it could have something to reach for instead of seeing itself as it is,
In which the reaching ends because the self that believes it's different than what it's suffering from disappears in that moment.
