Hello and welcome to five minutes in nature with me Liz Scott.
Well I'm up on Dartmoor but quite frankly I can't see a lot.
One of the Dartmoor mists is thick about me and I can probably see maybe quarter of a mile ahead of me but other than that everything is just a mush of grey whiteness and this is a very atmospheric time to be up on Dartmoor.
Not many people about that I can see.
They might be in the mist somewhere.
This has been one of those days which has had some extraordinarily heavy rain downpours and this is just a bit of respite.
I might be lucky and I might get caught in a downpour.
I don't quite know but of course as you know I love getting out and today is a two-parter.
I'm going to share where I am at the moment and then I'm going to go for a little walk and come back and share a little bit about where I am at the end of the walk.
I had a comment today or I read a comment today that just felt a little bit inappropriate about something I'd created and it unsettled me.
Now I know that there is no thing about something out there unsettling me.
However I want you to be really clear that I am maybe a teacher on Insight Timer but I am a human being and there are times when it feels as though something out there has unsettled me and that's one of the reasons I wanted to touch base with you now just at the start of the walk I'm going on because it feels like my world is a bit unstable when I feel unsettled and it occurred to me that it might be really helpful for you to hear what it's like in real time for me rather than me reflecting back on something.
So here's how it feels for me when I get a little bit unsettled.
I find myself questioning myself,
Questioning whether I'm doing the right thing.
I find myself wanting to withdraw.
I find myself wanting to shrink back so when I hear a comment that I feel is unfair and has a bit of a nasty edge to it I don't relish a fight.
Instead I shrink.
That's my habitual way of being and it just seemed important to let you know this as I start my walk today because I'm curious.
I'm going to be reflecting gently on this.
I know not to get into the ins and outs and who said what and what I should say and getting into the story of thought and thinking and all of that.
I know there is no answer there.
I know and even just talking about it to you now I can feel that settled place of peace within me that is there despite being covered over.
A bit like this mist which is covering over Dartmoor the settled sense of peace is there but feels a little bit like it's crowded over a little bit with a bit of additional thought and thinking.
I know that's the place for me to look so as I walk I'm going to be bringing my awareness back there and I know that my thinking will try and drag me back to the story and what I should feel and how wrong it was for somebody to say that and the answer doesn't lie there.
I absolutely know that as I speak to you now.
So let me go walking let me reflect some more let me keep bringing my awareness within and I'll let you know at the end of the walk what arises for me.
I'll speak to you again in a little while.
Well I haven't walked that far and I have been reflecting and something's come through that feels quite pertinent for me and I haven't really been thinking about the person or the comment that was made or why they made it but what has come through is that as I move into this transition phase as I start to find my voice and share and be in the world I will inevitably come up against comments like this.
If I've got something to say and something to express that is going to be authentic from my heart then I will come up against more and more comments like this.
It's a sort of a what I'm getting is a sort of a message of like this is just a little bit of a taster of you realizing that as you express yourself freely so you will experience pushback and that's useful for me to see.
So I do thank the universe for this particular lesson.
That's what I'm getting from the universe from my deeper intuitive wisdom as I walk today.
