Welcome to Living a Life of Gratitude.
I'm Sarah Wiseman.
Becoming the I Am.
When we first arrive into the world we're so blissed out with oneness it's hard to track on anything else.
Everything we encounter in those first weeks and months is all part of one.
Mother,
Father,
Toes,
Fingers.
In wonderment we experience everything as the universe of us and we are in awe.
Our toes are a source of amazement.
See how they wiggle.
All we have to do is think wiggle and our toes oblige.
Our fingers move,
Clasp,
Reach,
And grasp.
All we have to do is desire something and our fingers grab it.
As we grow older into toddlerhood and childhood our body becomes our universe.
Our running,
Stretching,
Jumping,
Dancing body and its utter fascination.
The sheer joy of moving our bodies fills our waking hours.
Simply being takes our attention.
We are perfect oneness for those days,
Weeks,
Months,
And years until one moment we experience something that does not feel like one.
The world cleaves asunder.
We feel pain.
We know discomfort.
We experience anxiety.
Fear takes over and in that instant we become unbearably separate.
It's not just us and our body anymore living in blissed being.
It's us,
Our body,
And these new and terrible things called fear,
Panic,
Anxiety.
It's the black hole and at some point in our life,
Most often when we are very young,
We fall down it fast and hard.
Yet interestingly it's in this pain,
In this myth of separation,
Where we have our first consciousness of being unique.
For the first time standing alone in our crib crying for the person who does not come or does not come soon enough,
We understand that we aren't just one of one,
That there's more to it.
At this time the self begins to emerge.
For the first time we see ourselves as separate and we begin to ask questions such as,
Who am I?
How am I different?
How am I unique?
Many decades later we will visit our self again at other stages of emergence with new questions.
Why am I here?
What is my life's path?
What is my life's purpose?
Sigh.
It's a long road of discovery and in the end when we reach our final step at the end of our lifetime or when we become enlightened,
Whichever comes first,
We see clearly all of our questions were misguided.
Separation is a myth and yet when we are emerging as our young separate selves,
This is our hero's path to walk this journey.
It's our rite of passage as we're emerging from childhood into adolescence to have thoughts such as,
I'm different,
I'm unique,
I'm special.
Before we can become adult,
Before we can become conscious,
The self which knows itself as separate must emerge.
We will develop our different unique and special gifts or we will neglect them.
There are many ways to make this journey.
Our path begins with the first step but we often have no idea where we're going until we've traveled for a while.
At first we are one.
Then the separate self emerges.
The journey back to one,
Whether it takes a few years,
Decades or a lifetime,
Is our journey of soul growth.
Consider today your separate self.
This is the part of you that makes you unique,
Special,
Different,
Even while you are also one.
Think back to your childhood.
What were you good at?
What were your gifts and talents,
The abilities that came easily to you?
Now consider your unique,
Special and singular gifts and talents,
Whether you have used them in this lifetime yet or not.
Give thanks for the separate and original self that is also you.
