There are so many things I do well at,
That I'm great at.
Then there's the things I draw emotional comfort from,
That are so destructive for me.
I'll give in to urges that become this boatload of regret.
It's hard for me to uproot the cycles that have been here for so long.
Sometimes,
It's all I know.
Sometimes,
It's what I hold dearly to.
Yet I see the self-destruction it brings.
And now I want to break the cycle.
I want to start a new one.
A better one.
A healthier one.
One that builds me up instead of tearing me down.
I get that this is not one straight,
Linear path.
I can expect setbacks and screw-ups along the way.
But I can also see myself slowly carving a new path.
The one that leaves the cycle of defeat behind me.
The one where I can intervene with myself.
Even with saying,
I feel like doing something destructive,
Instead of actually doing something destructive.
I witness my tendencies and the power I've given over to lack of control,
Low self-worth,
Shame,
And self-sabotage.
When I feel an urge,
I choose to fill it differently.
I sit and draw out what the cycle of defeat looks like for me.
And then I draw where I can break the cycle and turn to healthier comforts.
I am worth it.
I am worth the time that this takes.
I practice the awareness that leads me to choosing differently.
I practice the reflecting on how I can improve.
When emotions ride high and strong,
I can cope in new,
Healthier ways for me.
I go to my safety plan when I feel triggered.
I am able to make the shifts.
I am able to make the changes.
I am already making shifts.
I am already making changes.
I am a good person.
Absolutely no one is perfect.
Absolutely no one has it all together.
I am just as worthy and valuable as any other person.
I am on a healing journey where I partner with self-awareness,
Self-forgiveness,
And self-love.
I give myself time and space for a safe release of overwhelming feelings.
I am continuing to teach myself how to move away from a destructive cycle onto a compassionate one.
I nourish myself with thoughts and actions that help me and don't hurt me.
I am giving myself loving kindness and inner peace.
I am breaking every cycle that has put me down.
I am building every cycle that lifts me up.
I am coping differently now.
I am coping better now.
I am coping and getting relief without destruction.
I rise to meet how human and worthy I am.
I rise to find there is a powerful change happening right now inside me.
I rise to give buried emotions a safe place to speak.
I am using caring actions to cope and find relief.
I am rewriting this pattern.
I am breaking the cycle.
I am stepping into freedom.
I am breaking the cycle.
I choose empowering activities.
I am breaking the cycle and giving myself a healthier me.
