This is from Leslie.
In times you struggle,
You hear the words that I've shared,
Begin again,
Don't cling,
Don't fight it,
Just begin again.
And yeah,
And sometimes you struggle,
And sometimes we struggle with it.
That's part of it,
Right?
The struggle is the separate self,
Right?
Doesn't want to let go.
Doesn't want to let go.
So the struggle,
Just notice that.
Notice the struggle and I'm not getting it.
Can I just be okay with that?
Not getting it,
Not getting all of this yet.
Okay,
Not getting all of it.
Can you just notice even a relaxation into that?
Not getting all of this.
Okay,
A little more space is needed,
A little more practice,
A little more time,
But I don't have to beat myself up about this,
Right?
I don't have to put more struggle on top of the struggle,
Right?
We're not making,
You know,
You're not controlling the awakening process,
You're not controlling how you take this information in,
How this manifests in you.
We're not controlling any of this.
And so the struggle,
When we say I'm struggling because I'm trying,
I'm hearing the words,
I'm trying to begin again,
I'm trying not to cling,
But I keep doing it,
But then we're just adding more tension on top of that pattern,
Instead of even just saying it's okay.
I'm not controlling this either.
I'm not controlling this either.
It's happening as it's going to happen.
And I can let go of the struggle,
Of the struggle.
They'll just say,
It's okay,
Not getting it yet.
But it's coming in,
It's coming in at some,
You know,
At some level,
It's coming in.
It's usually that we have an idea in our minds of where,
Of how this should be looking,
Of where I should be.
That's usually where the struggle comes in,
Because we have this idea that I should be further along,
I shouldn't still be experiencing this stuff.
I'm trying so hard,
And it's not working.
Instead of,
It's happening the way it's happening.
In acknowledging that,
You have begun again.
This is happening the way it's happening.
Breathe into that.
Be okay with that.
Just keep putting one more foot in front of the other.
And be okay with wherever you are on the path.
We all started somewhere.
Step one,
Right?
We all started there.
And it's,
There is a lot of struggle on this path.
It's not necessary,
But we all go through it.
We just go through it.
We just go through it.
Sometimes things are a little bit easier than others.
And it feels really good,
And it feels like we're really getting it.
It's like,
Yeah,
This feels great.
And something comes out of left field,
And it's like,
I'm not getting it.
I can't begin again.
I'm clinging too much,
Right?
And even as best if we can,
As best we can in that moment to just say,
This is where I am.
I'm not controlling this either.
This is where I am.
Can I breathe into this?
The struggle of the path.
You know,
The teaching that maybe you're not getting yet.
You know,
Yet,
Yet,
When we hear these teachings,
I mean,
They're so,
And they're so the opposite of what we've been taught to believe our whole lives.
And while it resonates,
Right?
And I think none of you would stay on this call or keep coming back if it didn't resonate,
Right?
Because when we hear the truth,
I think it does it.
It opens something inside of us.
And we're like,
Yes,
I'm getting it.
I'm getting it.
And we're like,
Yes,
That feels right.
And yet the old beliefs are still in there,
And they're so entrenched.
And we live in a society and a culture that embodies these beliefs and values.
And so we're trying,
You know,
To,
To not just take on new beliefs,
New beliefs,
But to unravel the old beliefs,
The old model that isn't working.
And it's hard.
It takes time.
And we have to have the utmost patience with ourselves.
The utmost kindness and compassion.
That wherever I am is where I am.
And breathe into that.
And let go in that moment.
This is where I am.
And that's okay.
That's okay.
Because that's practicing.
You're not alone with that,
Leslie.
You are not alone at all.
Hearing the words is the first step.
And that they resonate.
Be grateful.
Not everyone hears this stuff and it resonates.
Most of the planet doesn't.
It doesn't resonate at all.
Most of the planet doesn't.
It doesn't resonate at all.
So that it does resonate.
Be grateful for that.
And wherever you are is where you're at.
It's,
It's like,
You know,
It's like a flower,
Right?
That we plant a seed in the ground and we water the flower,
You know,
We water the seed.
We make sure we have good soil and nutrients and sunlight and shade.
And the flower grows and we can't make the flower,
Oh,
It should be blooming by now.
All we can keep doing is just caring for it.
This is the hard part for us.
We so want to be further along because it does hit something in us when we hear these teachings.
It awakens something,
It awakens something inside of us in that moment.
But it's not,
It's not,
It's not your own wisdom yet.
And it takes time.
It just takes time.
Patience.
And just accepting wherever you are on the path,
Accepting it.
This is where I am.
Okay.
Okay.
And I can be with this too.
Okay.
This is okay.
And just breathe and be okay with it.
Wherever each of us is on the path is where we are.
We can't fight it.
It's just the ego trying to reassert itself.
Just be okay with where you're at.
Just be okay with it.
