So we're asking for Amma's grace,
The Creator's grace for today,
And we've asked that the penny drop.
Yeah,
Yeah,
I can feel how much your hearts want this,
The penny to drop.
And so may it.
The buds do start to blossom.
Children grow.
The flow of the universe takes us into heightened understanding.
So you can relax on that.
There's a lot that has come to me in information coming from other people or other methods of study.
And I want to weave it all in to today.
There's a poet called Joseph Fasano,
F-A-S-A-N-O,
And he's worth looking up.
He's like a modern day Hafiz or Rumi.
David White,
W-H-Y-T-E,
Is another very illuminated poet who could really help you understand what these satsangs are communicating.
Okay,
Because we all get lodged in the religious way of looking at things,
And sometimes hearing a voice coming from left field makes dawn break.
So I just want to read you this poem from Joseph Fasano called Words Found in the Rubble of the Last War.
Yes,
We lived in a time of darkness and did nothing.
Yes,
We looked up and we saw the sky on fire.
We knew we had made the flames with our own hands.
Yes,
We wasted each breath on rage.
Children,
If any of you have survived this,
Start again with the simplest things,
We beg you.
Walk out through the garden of darkness and touch each other's faces in the morning air.
Slowly,
Slowly,
Say each other's names.
This is what we're doing.
Energies like Amma or Christ come,
Buddha,
Krishna,
Come when the humanity has gotten so lost that they come and they reset us on all levels,
Socially,
Spiritually,
Emotionally,
Intellectually.
We know we went from the Old Testament to the New Testament,
The old judgment,
Heavy judgment of the Old Testament to the comfort of the New Testament.
Even the ancient stories in India have this heavy judgmental weave in them.
It was all over the world.
It was our state.
We're now in a new one and we have to start at the beginning.
Kalidas,
You're very restless.
You've been very restless in the last few satsangs,
So I'm just gently drawing your attention to this because this will help you,
The fact that I'm speaking to you.
Everything that happens to us comes from a loving universe that is wishing to help us.
I want you to understand this.
Now,
You guys,
There are levels that I can hear your thoughts,
And one of the things I hear,
Or some of you feel,
I speak about myself too much.
I've really got this call to address this.
It is easy to talk in abstracts.
It is also easy to hide in abstracts.
There's a thing called spiritual bypass,
Which can happen with non-dual teachings,
Where people just go very linear on it and avoid the mud of the lotus,
Avoid dealing with their stuff.
Okay?
So,
This work is tailor-made to help you face your stuff,
And Pramasutta brings in her humanity to help shine a light on how universal our stuff is.
You know?
Mama says,
If you want to teach somebody something,
You come down to their level.
Okay?
That's it.
And when I talk about myself,
I'm actually talking about things that are the universal experience on the journey.
It's just a way of seeing it in a more open,
Friendlier way,
In a way,
In kind of a mothering way,
That will help you understand it,
That will help you make the leap from what I'm talking about to your own personal experience.
And you guys,
The bottom line with any spiritual teaching,
Students are always slow to see their own egos.
It's just what we're like.
Yeah.
But,
You know,
I'm coming in with a bit of a scalpel.
If you're critical of your teacher,
Look at how you live.
Do you live by donation,
With money coming whenever,
And sometimes not coming?
Have you devoted your life to the search and sacrificing income?
Just everything for that?
And some of you have.
Yeah.
But one of the things,
Okay,
And this is crucial to what I'm saying,
Because what I'm is not critical.
I want you to understand why I'm raising it.
Because just before you evolve,
Darkness will come up.
You will see darkness in your teacher.
You will see darkness in your mate,
In your friends,
Everywhere in the world.
And that is the signal that you're on the move for transformation.
And it is one step past that into your soul energy.
Right.
So,
I want you to catch yourself when you're in darkness.
I want you to turn up the prayer,
Turn up your passion to know.
Because that will take you over the threshold into a bigger understanding.
Right.
And I can feel you guys,
Like,
There's this feeling of,
I can't do it.
I can't do it.
So,
I've got something else to read to you.
And it's something Cassano said at the end of one of his poems.
He said,
Didn't you read this believing in the one hope it's showing you that you are holding,
That with the right words,
You could still be transformed.
That if you hear the right words,
It's going to change you.
We all hope for that.
And sometimes they do.
It is the love behind the words that changes us.
And it's us opening to the love inside that allows the words to change us.
And it's easier to open from the inside when you have a trust of the person who's speaking.
It just makes it much easier.
But that trust comes from time passing.
And it also involves a trust of yourself.
Do you trust yourself enough that you trust your data?
And if you are critical of your teacher,
You need to find another teacher then.
It's just like a friendship.
You don't,
If you're getting really critical of your friend,
You need to make space.
Maybe they're not the right one.
But maybe they are the right one.
And you're just listening to your ego.
I want you guys,
I would love you guys to be some of the rare people in this world that are actually humble.
Because the only way you get spiritual knowledge is through being humble,
Open to learn like a child.
Believing in yourself like a child,
But open to learn.
Yeah.
There's another beautiful poem that reminded me of what I was saying to Shibai Mae yesterday,
And which resonated with all of you.
And here's the poem.
And the ones who attended yesterday,
You'll recognize it.
What if after years of trial,
A love should come and lay a hand upon you and say this late in time,
Your life is not a crime.
That's it.
That's it.
You are the creator.
You're playing in the sandbox.
It can look like we're getting dirty in the sandbox,
But we stand up,
Brush off the sand,
Wash,
And it's all gone.
Yeah.
That's it.
I'm feeling some light growing in really the whole satsang.
It's this,
To get that you're beings of light,
And be able to see the darkness and let it go,
And not think that you're a crime,
That you've done something terrible.
You haven't.
Yeah.
Okay.
Again,
I want to open your lens here.
Open your heads with what I'm going to say.
And I'll tell you,
This information is coming to me absolutely seamlessly.
It's like presenting,
It's coming to me like just like at a restaurant,
Being served the hors d'oeuvre,
And the main course,
And the dessert.
This is how the information for the satsang has come to me,
With all this different information.
It's tailor-made for you guys.
Everything that I'm saying is coming from,
I would say,
You know,
The creator,
My inner Amma.
Right.
And it's tailor-made to get through to you guys.
So,
There is a little booklet that was written in the 60s,
1960s,
Called The Last Child Who Remembered the Old Sky.
And it is about there are 200 kids who who lived in the 1800s,
Who were between 7 and 8 in 1805 and 1815.
Okay,
So it's a pamphlet that was published,
But it's going back in time to kids who were 7 or 8 between 1805 and 1815.
And these kids grew up into adults who on their deathbed said things like,
You know,
There's something wrong with what's happened.
They all did this,
And there are 200 of these.
But as old people,
They said there's something wrong with the sky,
The sky change.
It used to be bluer.
The air used to be thicker.
There used to be,
You used to be able to see geometric patterns in the sky.
There were multi-levels.
When you looked up,
You would see multi-levels in the sky,
Like when you're looking through water.
These are what these people said.
And they said,
You know,
They all said,
Basically,
It disappeared.
And they were upset enough that they mentioned it on their deathbeds.
And the person who compiled the pamphlet was the granddaughter of one of the people who had been most upset,
And she spent years compiling this information.
Okay,
So all these people considered that something had happened to them that caused this,
That something had happened from the collective,
From,
You know,
That somebody had done something bad.
Okay,
You guys,
At seven or eight is when most kids give up on trying to bring in their soul energy,
And they go unconscious to it.
That,
Pramasutha feels,
That's what's happened to these people.
And not knowing how to transform,
They just carried this grief of their lost soul through their whole lives.
Okay,
This is what I don't want you to do.
This is why there's such a focus on transformation in this satsang,
And why I move,
Really,
Heaven and earth,
And give 100% of myself to help you.
Okay,
Now,
This seven and eight coincides with Jean Piaget's,
I think he was a psychologist or something,
But he watched the development of kids,
And he said,
Between seven and eight,
Children move from the pre-operational stage to the concrete operational stage.
So,
They leave direct perception for,
And their thinking becomes more flexible,
Organized,
And logical.
It's like the birth of logic.
Now,
This is why words have limits,
Because you're meeting them with your logical mind.
The perception part that was back,
But the child lost their innocence,
Is taking a back seat to logic.
So,
If you hear what I'm saying,
And you're always coming from that logical mind,
You will miss the heart of what I'm saying.
You have to open,
And if you open,
You can retrieve what that child knew.
So,
Again,
I'm coming back to my own experience,
Because I'm wanting to tell you some universal things that will happen in your journey,
And they're not widely talked about.
One is,
I remember having a direct experience of the stars suddenly becoming closer to me.
It was like when I looked up at the sky,
It was incredibly friendly.
The stars were friendly,
Like my friends,
As opposed to that when I used to look at them.
It was like they were a little bit,
You know,
Well,
I don't know.
You know what it's like to look up at the stars.
If you're not feeling very happy,
And you look up at the stars,
They're kind of like,
I don't know,
They don't add to your feeling of safety.
So,
To get to where I'm pointing,
You have to come back to more of your humanity,
Your human experience,
And some of you really downgrade that with,
You know,
My life is a crime,
I'm a miserable sinner.
So,
That makes it really hard for you to return back to that innocence of a child.
And I'm spelling this all out,
Not for it to be a permanent thing,
So you can move through it.
So,
You can see that logically,
It doesn't work to keep doing what you're doing if you're doing the miserable sinner thing,
That logically,
You will make more progress if you move into more self-forgiveness and self-compassion.
And that can give you permission to do that,
And that can make it easier.
That's it.
Again,
And I really want to encourage you guys to go look at higher levels of information.
Like I said,
You go to the highest,
And that opens you to receive the Creator's energy.
So,
Many of you walk around in kind of very low-level thoughts,
I hate to say this,
But it's true.
Very low-level,
Kind of egomaniacal thoughts without interrupting them.
Right?
I don't want you to do that.
I want you to interrupt your thoughts with higher-level contemplations.
It's like that's why I'm mentioning these poets.
Okay,
And I'm going to draw your attention to physics,
Because this is just what the world is like.
It would be like this for you,
Because if you think of a light photon leaving the sun,
Do you know it can take thousands of years for one light photon to get through the mass of particles to leave the sun to shine as light?
And this can happen to us psychologically,
Too.
And when you read high-level poets like this,
High-level information like The Way of the Tao,
Anything written by somebody who's really,
Truly awake,
It helps.
It's like it helps the photon leave the sun,
Metaphorically.
It will help you.
It will help free the light in you,
So you come out of all these particles of confusion.
I can feel some of you have shifted,
So you can really feel the confusion in your heart.
This is not a step backwards.
This is a step forward.
This is helping to clear the confusion.
Good.
Right.
You know that's true.
That's good.
It is.
Yeah.
Okay,
So I'm going to tell you something that I think might really help you.
And it is— I wrote out all this information.
And this information is,
To back up,
A very simple point.
And it's a revolutionary point.
And I'm going to give you some of the information because it will help you see how valid it is.
In 1990,
Two scientists,
Wayne Tano and David Weinlund,
At the National Institute of Standards and Technology in Boulder,
Colorado,
Performed an experiment using trapped beryllium atoms.
They prepared ions in one quantum state and let them evolve naturally toward a different state.
Left alone,
The ions would make the transition in a predictable amount of time.
But then they started watching.
They made rapid,
Repeated measurements of the ions during the transition.
And the more frequently they measured,
The slower the transition happened.
The more they measured,
The slower the change.
And what happened,
You guys,
They found—and I want you to hear this—measure often enough,
And the transition essentially freezes.
The ion state stays in its original state.
It stops all development.
Watching it prevents it from changing.
Our culture measures everything obsessively.
And we do this to ourselves.
We see what's wrong with us.
We'll see one thing that's wrong with us,
And we'll keep going back to it and seeing whether we've improved or not.
And I'll tell you,
The law of life is if you keep doing that you will stop development.
And that is why it's so important—I want to come back to this—to go up high and,
You know,
I want to say distract yourself with higher level information.
You know,
Coming from,
You know,
The way of the Tao,
These poets,
Whatever you can use—Satsangs,
Whatever you can use—so that you stop measuring yourself so repeatedly.
So that you give yourself time to grow.
We know if you've got a seed,
If you keep digging it up to see if it's sprouting,
It won't sprout.
This is what this physics is talking about.
And what's hard is our culture is so lopsided to the masculine,
Like I've said,
That we're quantifying everything.
You know,
In the feminine,
The realm of the feminine,
There's,
You know,
The veils.
A woman will wear a veil,
And you see it in the ashram when people are just wanting to go under,
You know,
Be a little hidden.
They'll put a veil on.
And,
You know,
That's what we need to feel okay about,
That maybe we need to wear a veil for a while,
To just let everything be veiled and to not know,
To go forward not knowing.
That's it.
You know,
We can go forward not knowing the more we feel loved by the Creator,
You know.
The more trust you have,
The more you can go forward with not knowing.
And again,
I come back to our upbringings,
You know.
The more we feel loved,
It's like little kids feel,
They're braver when they feel loved.
A well-loved child,
Yeah,
Is braver.
Mama tells a story of two kids in a shallow pool,
And one child's playing happily,
And one is panicking and feeling like they're drowning,
Even though they can put their feet on the ground.
And they're asked,
And one says,
Well,
I know my mom is right here and will come anytime.
And the other child who's panicking has no sense that their mom is near and will come anytime.
And again,
These sad sayings are to help promote feelings of safety.
And when,
You know,
You might feel criticized sometimes,
But I'm just saying these things to help your growth.
You know,
There's more of this poet,
Joseph Fasano,
What is a blossom anyway but a fist saying,
I can't do this anymore.
The fist says,
I can't do it anymore.
It can't live like this anymore.
So it opens and reaches out and says,
Hi,
Hello,
I love you.
Yeah.
Uh-huh.
That's it.
Right.
That's it,
You guys.
That's it.
And we all know that state of,
I just can't do this anymore.
And that's when things change,
You know,
Where we let things change.
There's another one.
Wake up.
Stay here in your waking and do it.
Finally,
Do it.
Open to the whole of it,
To the whole of it.
The wind that sings what's been here since the beginning.
Listen,
Listen,
Listen.
There is no one you're betraying in your changes when you become the whole wild song of what you are.
There's no one you're betraying.
You are,
In fact,
Given your gift.
You know,
He was,
This poet,
Pisano,
Was getting a hard time from some people because he posted his poems on Twitter.
And basically,
He said,
Look,
I'm just desperately trying to help you.
Yeah.
I want you to keep that in mind.
That's all this is.
And as a byproduct from Masuda gets helped.
Whatever I offer to you guys comes back to me in spades.
And my understanding grows.
You know,
With quantum theory,
Particles behave like waves and particles,
Both.
It depends how they're measured.
So,
If you have the double slit experiment,
If you have light going through two slits,
It will make a pattern like a wave.
If you have a measurement right at the point of where it's going through the two slits,
It will act like a particle.
But the thing is,
If you add up all the particles and look at what they do,
They make a wave.
This is all very solid science,
Everything I'm saying.
And if the light goes through,
Has already gone through the slit,
And you choose a particular kind of measurement,
It causes the particle to go through the other slit,
Even though it happened in the past.
So,
Our nuts and bolts understanding is not what's really going on.
And our nuts and bolts understanding of our own lives is not what's really going on.
It's way richer,
Way more complicated in a way,
Way more beautiful.
So,
Permacidathinks,
Where you look in the world,
And we have the bell curve,
And what shape is the bell curve?
It's a wave.
And everything in humanity is like a bell curve.
It's like at different points of our time,
If you remove the people who seem the least intelligent and the most damaged,
You lose the highest intelligent at the other end.
Because it is a world of duality.
We have both dark and light.
It's the way it's supposed to be.
We cannot improve it.
If you get rid of the people who are least intelligent,
You will lose the highest level of intelligence.
And if you think about it,
When cultures start doing that kind of stuff,
They fall into a very barbaric state of low-level functioning.
We're just not used to looking at our own experience or what's going on in the societies.
Even scientifically,
We're used to looking at science,
Measuring stuff,
And not really letting the penny drop that this is us too,
That these atoms and subatomic particles are in our bodies,
That they're us.
And these waves are the way our lives go,
What they say.
Particles and waves.
And we know we have trends,
Right?
That's a wave.
People might think that they're being very individual,
But there'll be a wave of people feeling that they're very individual.
I hope all of this is helping you get up off the throne in your head and walk down the stairs to the most beautiful,
Comfortable throne in your heart,
Where the air is fresh,
And there's enormous peace,
And famous flower petals are falling from your sky.
Right?
It is so much happier to live in the heart.
That's why,
You know,
People who are really awake can face death with equanimity,
Because they're in their hearts.
They know it doesn't matter.
A few minutes of pain.
Oh,
Well.
They know they're part of God.
They know they can't be destroyed.
They know that everybody who's doing this to them is just so tragically ignorant,
And is going to get the same thing done to them in another life as a result of this.
It's like,
Don't go to sleep in the satsangs,
You guys.
It's like,
You know,
One of the things about not having,
Getting regular income is there is absolutely no attachment.
And so,
The satsang is totally devoted towards the love of the Creator.
And it's why that sometimes if I feel that somebody is stuck,
And they're not budging,
I ask them to step back for a bit,
At least.
And there's great allowance for humanity,
You know,
But it's like that little bit that I talk about.
It's like,
This work is a little bit like this,
When Abraham's training and the being taken out two miles out,
And being dumped out with the sharks,
And the ones who really concentrated on peace,
Made it back.
There's a little bit of an arrow in the satsangs for,
You know,
Come along with it,
Come along with the love.
Do your best to come along with it.
If you're really doing your best,
I will feel it.
Truly.
There's some I know that are totally doing their best,
And I'm very gentle with them,
Because I know it's their best.
But it's like it shows up in Joseph's poetry.
Any awake person knows there's a real urgency.
Right now.
What was his response to the person on Twitter?
I'm just sort of desperate to get through you.
I mean,
It was a form of that,
You know,
He didn't say that directly,
That it really matters that you get it.
And,
You know,
Amma says in the time of Kali Yuga,
That unless there's some fear of God in there,
People will not grow.
She says in Kali Yuga,
It has to be there,
Because we're in such a dark time.
Do you see the logic of it?
You see,
What will happen is we'll be going along with our lives,
And then we get some shock that shows us how out of control we are,
That we have no control.
And we experience real pain,
And we don't want that again.
We want to avoid that,
So we start focusing on the Creator.
This is what commonly happens.
Once in a rare,
Rarely,
Is it just somebody is doing really well professionally,
And they're rich and famous,
And then they decide it's all worth nothing,
And they turn to God.
That would happen in the Age of Truth more,
Satya Yuga.
We're in Kali Yuga,
The darkest time.
So,
Often we have to get whacked before we wake up,
Or just be so generally unhappy that life itself is unpleasant.
Then we will wake up.
Yeah.
So,
It's sort of like,
In a way,
You know,
The way I was with my boys.
It was sort of like,
I loved them a lot.
They knew that.
But there was a part of,
Like,
Raising them as a single mom.
I was like,
You have to do this.
You have to learn how to do this.
One time when I had one son who was quiet,
But he was rebellious.
He also avoided leadership.
It was a sailing course that I paid for,
Which was hard in those days,
Paying for these things.
You had to become captain of the sailing ship for one day in this week.
He avoided it.
He refused.
It was so much what he did in his life,
Refusing these challenges,
That I said to him,
Okay,
Tomorrow you have another chance.
If you don't do this,
You're going to walk home.
It was like five miles away.
He was like 10,
I guess,
11.
He didn't do it,
And he walked home.
It was one of the best things I ever did.
Right.
I'm going to say more of this.
This is all,
You know,
My personal story,
But this has real relevance to you guys.
I homeschooled this kid.
And one of the things he did was avoid work,
And I tried everything,
Believe me.
And he still wasn't progressing well in my lights,
And I got scared to put him in the regular system because I thought,
Oh,
I'll just fail.
And indeed,
Finally,
Grade 11,
He went back.
And thank goodness,
There was a principal who after his halfway through his first term said to him,
Kid,
You better deal or you're going to get expelled.
And his grades went up to A's and B's after that.
And the principal's name was Mr.
Burns,
And I remember thinking,
Oh,
This is the principle of a spiritual fire where we get burned and we have to deal.
Yeah.
Right.
Right.
And these,
You know,
That's how physics and spirituality is woven into our lives.
It's right there.
And this same child,
You know,
He has enormous talents,
And he was at seven.
He got kicked out of Sunday school for asking a question of contemplation.
This is at his dad's house,
You know,
To church every week for the two weeks that he was there every year.
And he was kicked out of it because it was such a high-level question.
And the teacher couldn't deal.
Yeah.
I want you to look at your own experience and see these challenges that came,
You know,
When the universe was waking you up,
These hard times.
What was the universe saying to you?
What was it wanting you to get?
And when you look back at your life,
Look back whether you turned to the Creator or you just braced and endured,
Just dealt with it.
Or whether you went to the Creator,
Asked for help,
And followed the guidance.
Okay,
This is key,
You guys.
On that,
Your whole life will go.
If when trouble comes,
You just hunker down and deal.
Or whether you go to the Creator and you follow the guidance.
You go to Amma and follow the guidance.
This is what I'm asking you to do,
Is go to Amma and follow the guidance.
Read her book.
Read books by masters.
Read my books.
Really,
I get gobsmacked by the number of people who don't read my books.
And it's like,
Do you want to get this understanding?
Read my books.
Hello.
It's a comedy.
Yeah.
You want to expand your mind.
And nobody's in trouble,
You guys.
Come back to that.
Your life is not a crime.
I'm just shaking you awake.
Wake up.
Wake up.
Right.
That's all.
That's all.
Wake up.
It's like,
Wake up out of your self-hatred.
It is self-love.
Some of you are getting really restless.
Oh,
I can't love myself.
Yes,
You can.
Yes,
You can.
The Creator in you knows how to love yourself.
Yeah.
There's a whole other thing I could talk about with physics,
But I think it's going to be too much and overload you.
So,
I'll weave it in next week.
The other thing,
Again,
And I'm going to talk about myself.
One of the things with my son who didn't face these challenges,
It was a big mistake that I put up with it for so much.
I should have stayed with my instinctive toughness.
It was part of me that really knew he needed something tough to happen,
But I couldn't face it.
I was too scared that he'd go back into the school and fail or have a mental breakdown or something,
Like I just got lost in this fear.
It would have done him a lot more good if I had not done this earlier,
You know,
Been tough earlier,
But it was what we were learning together,
You see.
It's what he came into experience from me,
And it's what I chose to help wake me up,
Because this kid was the biggest gift of my life as a teacher.
That's it.
The people that rock us to the deepest spot are our best teachers,
Because they wake us up.
They give us a chance to wake up.
They give us a chance.
We come to that decision point,
Am I going to let this pain wake me up,
Or am I going to hide again?
The thing is,
You guys,
You're just hiding from what you already deeply know,
And you're hiding from your own beauty.
You're all hiding from seeing your own beauty.
You guys,
It's precious,
Precious gems.
Precious,
Beautiful flowers.
You're like precious gems covered in,
You know,
Tar,
The tar of shame,
The tar of guilt.
It's like clean that stuff off.
It's all so ridiculous,
Really.
Our storylines,
You know,
They feel so true,
But they're so ridiculous.
Okay,
Any comments or questions?
There's one more thing I can tell you.
The latest developments in quantum physics,
Which is,
Again,
The focus on the subatomic particles.
So,
They used to think that black holes,
That,
You know,
Something went into a black hole,
And it came out,
That in the black hole,
It reached the highest level of density,
Infinite mass,
Infinite weight,
And gradually just dissolved through Hawking's ultraviolet lights that they emit.
So,
Black holes emit,
At least theoretically,
Red light,
Which suggests it ends up meaning that all the particles just gradually dissolve.
Okay,
So it's an endgame,
This old view.
You know,
Death is just like the loss of everything.
Okay,
So now the latest is that they're coming back to what ancient India knew,
Through the string theory.
And now the latest is that in black holes,
What happens to matter is it gets elongated into one-atom strands,
Like a long strand of one-atom thick.
And this is called,
Wait for it,
The process of spaghettification,
Turning it into spaghetti.
It's sort of like cookies.
I always used to imagine,
Like,
You know,
In the 50s,
Nerdy kids and their mom bringing in milk and cookies,
Which is something that would have happened in the 50s,
60s.
Oh yeah,
Spaghettification.
But in these knots,
These strands are left in knots,
And it's called,
Wait for it,
Fuzz balls.
And these fuzz balls have every probability in them,
Again,
This cloud of probabilities.
Okay,
You think of knots.
You think of knots in your bodies,
In your muscles.
We get knotted.
We have knots in our relationship.
We get tangled up in relationships.
We hit the same knot with person over and over again.
We play the same dance.
We'll play it till we become more non-attached,
Till the knot is allowed to unravel.
In this higher understanding,
That's why you guys go up,
Go up to the higher understanding,
Because that unravels the knots at these lower levels.
Yeah,
Einstein said you can't solve problems at the same level that the thought,
That the problem constellated.
You have to go up or down.
If you're going down,
You're going more unconscious.
You want to go up and become more conscious.
Go up,
Go up.
Keep your mind up.
Mama says,
Don't roll,
If you fall,
Don't roll around in the mud.
Get up.
Yeah,
It's the hardest thing,
You guys,
Getting up.
I don't know.
I remember,
It was like,
Oh,
I have to face this.
I can't just get out of this.
I have to face this end deal.
Pramasutta knows the feeling.
You guys are all pretty monosyllabic,
I think,
After all this.
You know,
I feel like it's all a big poem,
But I just don't write poems.
I do this.
Remember that the light is coming to you all the time.
It's always coming to you.
It's always right there.
It's like grace.
It's right there.
It's just to see it.
You just need to see it.
When you see it,
It dawns within you,
Or it dawns within you and then you see it.
I don't know which.
But once you see it,
Okay,
If you're a serious student,
Once you see it,
You have to act on it.
You have to act as if it's true.
And if you can't yet,
You have to work with yourself until you do.
Many of you do the disconnection that happens in our culture.
We disconnect.
We know how to do this.
We get an insight.
We disconnect from it.
Don't do that.
Weave it in.
This is this training.
Weave it in.
Change your thoughts and your behaviors as a result of this new information.
You know,
I could go on for hours about this science.
When a photon hits an electron,
The electron goes up.
It goes up into a higher orbit around the center,
Around the nucleus.
You guys,
It's like that's the whole point of Satsang.
So you go up.
You get enhanced.
You go up to a higher understanding.
And you get the experience of the higher understanding,
Of being in your body with a higher understanding.
And that is what makes it become the new normal.
You keep coming to Satsang.
You keep bumping up until you launch there.
I mean,
This is why we love going to the ashram so much,
Right?
We bump up around Amma.
And our bodies get used to that vibration.
And that helps our growth.
And that's the whole point of mantras,
Too.
They keep the channel to the divine open.
Yeah.
Okay,
You guys,
I can feel you're OD'd.
But maybe somebody has something that they're really needing to say.
If no one talks,
I'll try.
Good.
Yeah.
I still have a question coming up again.
I have the feeling of sometimes I managed to go down the stairway,
As you describe it,
To be heart,
To be in the heart zone.
But often,
I'm also,
I have the feeling of,
Oh,
One month earlier,
It was so much easier for me and I'm stuck in the head,
That like I'm going backwards somehow,
I have the feeling.
Yeah.
It does feel backwards.
Is this normal to?
Yeah,
It's normal.
It's,
You're clearing it on a deeper level.
Okay,
We have these,
We come into the heart,
And then we lose it again,
Because we're clearing other levels of our psyche and ourselves and our past lives.
Okay,
So it's sort of like,
Think of it like,
Okay,
You cleared one to 50,
Now you're on one to 55 that you're doing.
You're doing 50 to 55 clearing of levels.
Yeah.
It is like this,
It's remembering and forgetting,
It is the light,
It is the dark,
It's just the main thing,
Richard,
Is watch what you do when you come back to the darkness,
Or when you feel in your head again.
Like this is what I'm saying,
Go higher,
Get a book,
Read a book,
Go to a poet,
Do something to help yourself.
Don't berate yourself for being there again,
Don't,
Do you see what I mean?
Yeah.
Don't roll around in it.
Yeah.
Don't roll around in the mud.
Yeah.
Don't roll around in the mud.
Yeah.
But what is something that helps lift you,
That helps,
You know,
Something that inspires you?
Right.
Right.
I'm glad you,
I'm glad you spoke because,
You know,
You may have to do,
It may not go like this,
But it may be like this for Richard,
That you might have to do quite a lot of work on this before you really tap into kind of a whole new garden in your heart,
A whole new understanding,
Till you tap into an understanding that's got more your soul in it.
Like you need to be patient with this,
It's like a gold miner,
The guy who patiently just keeps working the levels till he finds gold,
As opposed to somebody who,
Who digs a hole and then gets fed up and then goes and digs another hole,
Just keep at it.
Because you're a real candidate for finding this gold of your soul in a way that will help your whole life make sense.
Okay.
Right.
Yeah,
I really,
It's like that,
Like you're this gold miner and you're working at these levels and you're digging,
You haven't found this real gold yet.
Like you've,
It's like you've,
You've seen signs of it in the dirt,
Promising this gold.
This is for all of you guys to think of this,
Promising gold,
Suggesting that it's really true that there's a real deposit of gold there,
And there is,
Then just keep going and endlessly it's like into the head,
I mean into the heart for a minute,
And then we lose it and just keep,
Just keep that,
You know,
I think I can,
I think I can,
I know I can get there and keep the,
This is where you guys,
This is where I go to the things that inspire you.
Seek out these poets,
These higher level information,
Because that will start,
That will strengthen the gold in you and make it easier to find.
Many of you just get discouraged with yourselves and roll around in that you're doing it wrong or that your life is a crime.
Yeah.
Richard,
There's,
You know,
There's something,
It's sort of like,
You know,
Right now you're at the stage of chasing the witch,
And it's like you're going to move into a place of you and the witch,
You discovering that the witch was this incredibly beautiful,
Divine,
Feminine energy,
And that she just needed a little space to show herself.
She just needed a little compassion before she could show herself.
Right,
And that's key to you.
And that compassion needs to be shown to you,
As well as,
You know,
To your partner.
It's like,
To you,
This compassion for being a human being who's really struggling to find this gold within,
And who,
You know,
Gets tired and discouraged,
Yeah,
Great compassion,
Richard.
The thing is that you so need this space and compassion to discover the gold,
To discover this divine,
Feminine energy.
Not just the feminine,
In your case,
You know,
The divine masculine,
But the focus on the important,
Because you could miss it in your life.
You could spend all your time chasing the witch.
And this is where all my input will be to you,
Around helping you find this divine,
Feminine energy in you that would give you more space,
And more self-compassion,
And more peace,
And it's the gold inside you already.
If you say it,
It gets really warm in my tummy,
A good warm feeling.
Good,
It's like a well-loved child,
That's it.
We repattern ourselves,
And we become like a well-loved child,
And it becomes easier to find the gold within.
It's very good,
Richard.
You're really,
Really valuable.
You're really,
Really,
Really,
Really,
Really,
Really valuable.
Yeah.
And I see it,
And it's why I wrote that email to you.
Yeah,
I see it.
I want you to know I see it,
And I hold you in it.
And you guys,
I do this individually so strongly,
So I am doing it so strongly,
Individually for Richard.
When I'm talking to him,
He's the only person on earth for me,
Truly.
And yet,
At the same time,
I know what I'm saying is true for all of you,
Too.
I hold you like this.
And this is why I don't want you to create static between us by a lot of stupid criticism of premisuda.
It's like,
Please,
See the gold,
And receive the gold.
That's what this whole thing is about.
Right.
Okay.
So,
The penny dropped in a deeper way there,
Richard.
I saw this.
I don't know if you felt it,
But you will feel it if you haven't.
Yeah.
Good.
Jayma,
Good work,
Man.
Happy,
Happy.
Yeah,
They helped the whole group.
Yeah,
Yeah,
That's it.
And,
Like,
You guys,
This endlessly takes years at the same time,
Okay?
Endlessly takes years,
But live it as if you're going to be finding the gold any minute now.
Because that ensures that you will find the gold finally in your lives.
And if you're here,
You're sincere.
Truly.
There are only sincere people that can stand it,
Really.
Okay.
Richard,
Is there anything else you need to say?
No?
I don't think so,
No.
Okay.
Good work.
Thank you.
Yeah,
Thank you.
Yeah?
Masouda,
I also wanted to thank you that you called me out in the beginning.
And it helped me to,
Like,
Yeah,
Realize my new situation more,
As I'm in Egypt for two nights now.
Okay.
And I was,
Like,
Yesterday's satsang,
Yeah,
I was,
Like,
I was distracted all over.
And today I was,
Like,
As you called me out,
I was,
Like,
Hmm.
And I was,
Like,
Okay,
Yeah,
I'm restless.
And immediately what happened was,
Like,
I put my headphones on noise cancelling,
Because I sit on the rooftop,
And there's a lot of noise around.
And I went to my body again,
Into my breath.
And then I would follow the satsang way better than yesterday.
Way,
Way better.
Yeah,
It's actually been for a while,
Dear one.
It's not just this week.
Okay.
It's like three weeks.
It's a little chronic,
Actually.
Not quite that bad.
Not quite that bad.
At the same time,
I feel like I don't,
You know,
When I'm saying this,
I don't want to undermine you at all.
I just want to tell you that this restlessness of your mind is a bigger problem.
It's like,
It's your biggest problem.
Right.
And the thing is,
It's only a problem for the people who are really,
Really sincere Okay.
Right.
Please understand this.
It is the hardest problem for the most sincere people,
Because they really want to come into their hearts and their head screams.
Yeah.
And it's hard,
Particularly hard for bright people too,
Because when you're bright,
Your mind's a symphony.
Yeah.
Yeah.
So,
I really want to somehow transmit some comfort to you.
Yeah.
Yeah,
It's kind of,
I can feel,
You know,
As you're going forward on your journey,
You've left the ashram and everything,
It's,
You're in an uncertain territory a little bit.
Yeah.
So,
I'm wanting to give you some comfort somehow,
To transmit some comfort.
Yeah.
And again,
I'm saying only really,
Really sincere,
Brave people do what you're doing.
Right.
Right.
Yeah.
It's like Amma says,
That we're all like,
Everybody's got a different amount that we can carry.
Some people are heavy lifters,
They lift a lot of crap,
And other people can't lift that much,
But they do what they can do,
And they do what they came here to do.
You know,
There's no,
There's no,
But some,
Some,
Some of us have kind of a steep climb.
It's steeper than for others.
It's just,
It's just what we set out for this life,
You guys.
You know,
In,
In some lives where we've gotten really exhausted,
We will set up an easier life the next life.
And we won't have really steep climbs,
We'll have just gentle slopes.
And then,
You know,
We get kind of rested up spiritually enough,
And we'll do a steeper slope.
You've got a steeper slope this life,
Kalidas.
You know this.
Yeah.
But it's like your soul knows how to do it.
And by putting yourself in uncomfortable situation like you are,
You are actually activating your soul to help you.
You know,
You're,
You've come out of,
Yeah,
Yeah,
That's it.
Yeah.
Okay.
So,
I'm feeling all this light and information coming to you,
And it's all coming to you.
And I can feel like your head seems small,
A little small.
It's like your thought process is too small for you.
I'm wanting you to help include your heart more in it.
Okay,
You guys,
Okay.
Please understand that when your soul is on the move,
Your thought processes will get smaller and smaller,
Smaller,
Smaller circles of thoughts.
Okay.
Smaller and smaller.
And it's very uncomfortable.
Some of you live there,
Okay.
But I don't want you to do that.
It's like the point of the smallest thoughts are to bring us to the point of surrender.
That is actually the point of your whole trip,
In a way,
Is to bring you to the point of surrender.
And,
You know,
You may not realize that you've done it till after you get home,
You know.
I don't want you to judge yourself so fully.
It's sort of like what I was talking about at the very beginning with what the measurement does.
Yeah.
It stops our growth.
Don't judge yourself.
Yeah.
That resonated a lot,
The measurement.
Yeah.
You know what?
Your head got a lot bigger with that,
In a good way,
Like in a comprehension way.
Yeah.
It got smaller again,
As I said it.
That's so funny.
There it is.
There it is.
There's the measurement again,
Right?
Okay.
So,
Yeah.
Oh,
And now what I'm seeing is you've got a sign in front of your face and you're putting your head out this way and going,
I'm here.
This is just like,
I'm really here.
This is just,
This isn't too serious.
It's not a serious little game.
Really,
I'm here.
And I know you're there.
I know the real you's there.
Yeah.
I see the real you,
Calidice.
Yeah,
I want you to really get that.
I see the real you.
You might not want to acknowledge that,
But I do.
Right.
Actually,
You know what?
It's that you don't want to see what I'm bringing because if you saw fully what I was bringing,
You'd have to see it in yourself.
Right.
Right.
That's the way it works,
You guys.
You know,
Pray for self-acceptance,
Self-compassion,
Self-understanding.
Pray for that.
We kind of have to pray for the mother's arms around us.
That's where we'll expand,
You guys.
When you feel your mother's arms around you,
You can relax and just be yourself.
Yeah.
Right.
Good work.
I feel to leave you with this and not really speak anymore.
Yeah.
Yeah?
Yes,
Yeah.
Yeah.
I don't want to interfere with the process of growth with too many words.
Okay,
You guys.
Wonderful work.
Stunning.
Remember,
Your bodies are getting used to a higher vibration,
And that's what this is all about.
Okay.
Bye.
