We're calling on Amma's grace,
The Creator's grace,
To help us really put into practice what we're learning and to walk this because this is what's going to make the difference to the world and to our own lives.
May the grace just give us enough peace to do this,
Enough trust to do this.
May we open and just get all our needs met.
And when we feel anxious,
May we learn to turn to the Creator.
And just until Peace returns.
Yeah.
So it is.
Yeah,
So.
This is a multi-level satsang.
We're going to be.
More and more as time goes on.
We're going to be connecting.
To the bigger love within us.
At a pace we can Manage.
Dislike.
You know,
A few weeks ago.
There was a satsang about the imagery of a little hut in the center of a courtyard surrounded by a palace,
This is really what's going on psychologically for us.
Is a palace of our true nature,
Of our true personality,
Of our king and queen this emperor and empress that is the state of the person who is.
Embodying the truth.
Available to any of us.
This is a very,
Very democratic process.
Some of you have been feeling a little heavier and a little more conflicted.
So don't worry about this.
This is what happens when you come into more love power.
Remember Alma talks about how the artist starts with an ungainly big boulder.
And he begins his chipping work.
He takes his hammer and chisel and works away.
This is the same process by which we move from our ego selves into realizing that we are eternal.
I'm going to step back and draw in a little bit of science to help you.
To help your understanding.
To help it get bigger because you guys.
This is what solves things when our understanding gets bigger.
We more effortlessly move into our true self.
When our minds are bigger,
There's more room.
We're not doing the bad and good things so much.
Dope.
I want to talk about your atoms,
You,
Your atoms.
Are billions and billions of years old.
And they The material.
And your body comes from stars.
Really,
We are a startup.
The carbon.
Calcium,
The iron.
All from start.
You know,
Who died and exploded.
Left their atoms kind of buzzing around the universe.
I want you to realize you are a startup.
The other thing I want you to realize is the first law of thermodynamics is energy.
Could never be destroyed.
It just changes form.
So the energy that you are made out of.
That the atoms are made out of can never be destroyed.
And these atoms.
Actually.
.
.
In your body.
Every day,
Trillions of atoms leave your body.
And are replaced by atoms coming from your food or the air.
So it really is scientifically proven that 98% of the atoms in your body will have left.
Will have been replaced within a year.
We are in a way.
Patterns.
That organize our atoms.
We've got our own unique pattern of consciousness,
Just like the snowflakes that I've talked about.
Every snowflake's different.
They all look the same.
You know.
Scientifically,
And I don't really understand how this is possible,
But scientifically,
Waves.
What makes it look that waves are moving is the atoms inside are going up and down.
They're just going up and down,
You guys.
And when they're going up and down,
They create the pattern of the wave that seems to move.
Again,
You know.
And you know,
In a funny way,
This is like,
Why the spiritual journey can be difficult because we get hypnotized by ordinary reality.
By what our world looks like and also by what our relationships look like.
We look like we're the child of somebody.
Or the parent of somebody.
It looks that way.
And there's a level,
Yeah,
It's true,
But on a deeper level.
Were patterns of atoms.
And on a deeper level than that,
We're souls.
The atoms in your body have been stars.
Animals.
Planets.
Genius people,
Great people.
Bank robbers.
Who knows?
Who knows?
But,
You know,
Knowing the way the world works,
I bet that as we wake up,
Our atoms are more likely to come from wise people.
No.
But it's kind of unquantifiable.
It's like that's where we go into the realm of poetry with the journey.
I also want to tell you where separation comes from so you can see.
The biology in it.
And Move beyond it.
Okay,
So you guys,
I'm really hoping you don't hold this to your hearts.
As an explanation of separation and gut.
Hopeless about it.
Okay,
Because Everything is one.
Any of us can wake up in a lifetime.
Again,
This is quantum mechanics.
You know electrons They're in super positions,
So they are like a coin that's been thrown up in the air,
And it could land as heads or tails,
And they do not decide until we observe them.
If we formally observe them.
We can say where the electrons are,
But the rest of the time They're just in a cloud and kind of they're in all positions and no position.
So I want you to think of like that you're an electron cloud.
And you're sitting on a chair.
The chair feels hard.
The thing is,
These clouds of electrons repel each other.
Okay.
You know how.
It's the opposite charge that attracts positive to the negative.
Or,
You know,
Masculine to feminine.
That's a beautiful one.
But in this case,
The.
The electrons are repelling each other and in fact there is a tiny bit of air between what you're sitting on and you.
Microscopic.
But there will be a separation.
I know this is.
This just feels intuitively all wrong,
But it is what the math of quantum mechanics says.
So what we feel as touch,
We're actually feeling the two forces.
The two electron clouds in the chair and in us,
And they're repelling each other.
And that is what we feel is touch.
So this is why we can go into intense feelings of separation,
Premasutra thinks.
This is,
Nobody has said this.
I think this.
This is kind of where our separation comes from because on a cellular level or an atomic level,
There is.
But at the same time,
You guys,
Everything is one.
There is absolutely no separation.
At all.
The same being.
Created.
The person sitting in the chair and the same being.
Created.
The chair.
It's all the same.
But I'm raising this.
Because I want to talk about integrity for a few weeks.
Integrity is when you reach this feeling,
This kind of atomic level of separation,
And you connect up with your being that is in everything.
Now,
To do this,
Take some courage.
This is why it's hard.
Because there's a level like our atoms feel like they're separate.
Through our electrons.
I even thought about,
You know,
Not even telling you this.
In case it upsets people,
But in a way I want you to see that the the separation where where the separation comes from on a you know,
On a like scientific level.
So you know,
So you can get through it.
Because that's what's integrity is.
You get through your ego.
Connect up with your divinity.
And you walk that.
And every day you allow more and more of your divinity through.
In your choices,
In your thoughts,
In your actions.
This work is profoundly transpersonal.
That's why I can hear your thoughts.
And that's why I get information about what to tell you,
What to say to you.
What you most need to hear and understand so that you can move into truth more.
It's the whole reason many of you know this,
Why I work with your early memories.
And your early dreams.
If there's any heaviness that comes up,
It is just your disowned power.
So just embrace it.
Please,
If you ever feel any heaviness,
Just embrace it.
And you will become light again.
Were tempted to go into self-pity and resentment and go,
Oh,
I can't do it.
I don't know how.
Mom,
This doesn't work.
Ha ha ha ha.
But remember,
This isn't a technique.
Awakening work.
It's going right to the heart,
Right to the truth,
And it takes time.
To kind of accept this.
It takes time for the atoms to shift,
To move out,
To make room.
It's like the same principle.
It takes time for our old understanding to leave and to get the new understanding while in our bodies.
This is not a quick fix.
This is non-dual work with a heightened emotional component.
It's like non dual with a nod to the feminine.
Okay,
You're allowed in after all.
Really,
That's what it is.
Because non dual can get so very masculine.
In its approach.
And it's good.
It's all good.
It's all good.
We're moving into how to the gradual feminine way.
It's more gradual.
I feel like I'm losing you.
And a growing back to just coming back to embracing you and you guys work this moment with just now embracing yourself wherever you are.
Something was resolved there.
You know,
Some of you are deeply ambivalent about really doing this,
And so you can embrace your deep ambivalence,
You know?
And just ask what why it exists.
In the universe,
Ima will show you.
Okay,
I'm really losing you.
It's funny.
You guys,
There's nothing,
There's no way around it.
This work is dedicated to waking up.
There are many other teachers.
So I want you to just admit that.
That you're hanging out with a no-nonsense one.
And so why are you doing that?
You could just ask if so.
All right.
Ringly.
It's very beautiful to get answers like that.
To get the answers.
That flows in and it will be like a piece of your soul just coming back in.
You invite disowned parts of your soul in through them.
To doing this.
It's just like coming,
You're on a path and all of a sudden there's a wall right in front of you,
You can't go any farther.
But you can't really go back.
So you're standing there in front of the wall and you go,
Okay,
Universe,
Please show me why this wall is here.
It will show you.
It will show you your inner reason why it's there.
I promise you.
I'm going to give you some silence to compose yourselves,
You guys.
I mean,
There's been a lot of very deep information,
Like Premsud is very at home with all this,
Like I forget.
I forget how boat rocking it can be,
Truly.
I'm like,
Come on,
Come on,
Get it.
No,
But I remember in the old days,
You know,
Steps could be very boat rocking.
That's it.
That's it.
There's,
You know,
If this is bothering you at all,
There's more love in my words than you realize.
There's more love behind this than you realize.
You know,
The helpful thing is you each have your destinies regardless of how you're feeling right now.
Of what you came to learn.
And that kind of trumps everything.
Because it doesn't matter whether you resist.
Or whether you flow along with it.
You will learn what you came here to learn.
So even if a person goes into fear,
Spends her whole life in fear.
They learn something about what they came here to learn.
Yeah,
We can't avoid learning in the lifetime.
They might learn the high cost of fear.
Because fear is a very high cost at the end.
It's much better if you can learn to face it as you go.
I'm just going to hold you energetically for a while.
You know,
With our.
Clouds of electrons repelling each other.
It's when we experience the transpersonal power of being loved.
We connect up to our soul.
When we come to satsang,
It's a It's an opening for our souls to come in.
It gets strengthened.
I can feel how willing some of you are and yet you feel like you bang up against this wall.
And it's a wall of your intellect.
This is where a lot of us will go into learned helplessness,
Thoughts hopeless.
As a child,
We would have banged up against our parents' closed hearts.
And so what happens in.
Adulthood is Our souls bang up against our own closed hearts,
You guys.
The thing that your hearts,
I can feel it,
Are close to is yourselves.
Please don't do this.
Or don't do it for long.
Or if you're doing it for long,
Just embrace it.
Yep.
I'm stuck here.
I can't get past it.
I'm stuck.
And be with being stark.
The universe will give you more and more information about what it feels like to be stuck.
You guys,
You see how it works.
It's like the dam and the river.
The pressure builds.
It builds and builds and builds.
We get so uncomfortable with our lack of self-love.
We feel tense.
Tired.
Tuning.
And you know,
When that wall,
When we get through that wall,
There's just a rush of relief as the water is just.
Plunge into their freedom.
This is just how evolution works.
You guys,
We go through intensely uncomfortable periods when we're banging up against a wall.
And we can go,
We can go like,
Oh,
I'll never get through it.
And you know,
That's the wall talking.
That's your eco talking.
I don't know how long it is going to take for.
This shift to be made,
Like Christianity was accepted by Rome 300 years after Christ's death.
So I'm wondering if it's going to take 300 years for us,
For our emotional IQs to rise enough to do this kind of work.
For the mainstream.
It's funny with that,
Some of you started waking up.
Some denial cleared there.
You know,
Maybe you're seeing like your worth,
Like seeing the value of your courage of stepping forward and doing that.
Now.
You know.
The bottom line is.
It depends on the number of us that have spiritual openings and walk it about whether the human race survives,
Or whether we're just an experiment that Didn't.
Amma has said that there's more light in the world than dark and that if it ever became darker more dark than light.
That the universe would just be dissolved.
The universe and everybody in it would just be dissolved and she doesn't say start again.
I promised you to think we'd start again.
We're like children of our souls.
Sometimes children die.
You know,
I don't know how else to work with you guys except to be very blunt.
And also to give you know-how about how to get through this.
I can't sugarcoat things,
You know.
Remember the angels at NDE and the angels were They were praising that woman because she got out of bed every day.
Like this is the thing,
You guys.
We're loved like this.
You may be behind walls and you don't feel it,
But I'm here to tell you we're loved like this.
It's all love here.
You know,
I was working with someone and they always present as,
Oh,
I really want this.
I really want this.
But They've been stuck behind a wall for a while.
So my work with them was to help them.
See why they didn't want to evolve,
To help them admit.
All the reasons they didn't want to evolve.
That's how you embrace yourself,
You guys.
You just embrace the reality of yourself.
And by doing that,
This person made progress in the session.
The wall got definitely thinner.
Like majorly thinner just because they were admitting.
They voiced to me.
What they've been hiding from themselves and pretending to hide from me.
All the reasons why it was scary for them.
All their withholds.
And they didn't just say it intellectually,
They felt the withholds.
They felt the wall inside them.
They embraced the scared child within.
In the safety of the.
Conversation and communion between us.
So the resistance.
Got smaller.
A lot of you guys like judge yourselves.
And don't come near me,
But judge yourself.
And that's okay.
But you also might want to like think about You know,
It's possible to set up a session for a deep.
Look at what's holding you up.
But even that might be too scary.
You guys,
I have no agenda at all.
Apart from Amma says that she feels sometimes with us,
She goes like,
Well,
When are they going to get this?
Like a human mother,
She said,
When are they going to get this understanding,
This particular understanding that they're stumbling against?
So it's a little like that.
But I know how hard it is.
You know abraham i didn't uh asking for too much input.
He gave it to me,
But I didn't ask for it.
Because he was too scary.
And he was male,
So I didn't really think he'd get out.
With some of the stuff.
Well,
Also,
You know,
Different culture and everything,
But.
.
.
In his big,
Wide,
Embracing way,
He helped me a lot.
He really saw me.
So I actually really see you guys.
So you always have that.
I see all of you really,
Really,
Really deeply.
And I hold you in my heart.
You know,
When you,
The embodiment.
Comes.
If you're embodying,
You will have periods where you feel really heavy,
Really light.
You'll have periods where you feel really,
Really tense.
You'll feel sometimes like You're surrounded with mountain air.
CLEAR!
You know,
The negative ions,
The clarity of mountain air.
It energizes us.
You might have an experience of just that.
You also might have an experience of.
The other thing,
Oh yeah,
I used to get is if the shutter is like a camera focusing,
All of a sudden my eyesight would become blurred.
As clear as a newly focused camera.
Right.
That would be a shift into truth for me.
Like I had all these just by paying attention.
I would notice what these experiences have happened.
And then I would also notice kind of what had created them.
And what I noticed was it was a shift into truth.
A shift into more self-love.
More self-acceptance.
You guys,
We find our power when we accept it.
Ourselves and our situation.
And it can be the hard thing to do because we want it,
Our ego wants to keep the fight going.
We feel like we'll die if we're not fighting this.
Bottle about whatever it is.
It's like a mom,
You know,
If you've got a mom with,
If you got a child with six fingers.
There's a shock a bit,
And then the acceptance,
You know,
This child is still precious.
That's what acceptance is.
It's like seeing the preciousness anyway.
With whatever flaw it is.
You just see the preciousness anyway.
There's a big.
Tip.
Do the things that make you feel light.
And taller.
And more peaceful.
In your actions,
In your words.
Do things,
Speak things that make you feel better.
Kind of noble in a good way,
Not in a superior way,
Just where the soul feels it's worth.
You know that you're kind of taking the higher ground.
And it's hard in a way,
But it's kind of like a great relief.
It's like.
I was given an opportunity to be promoted by this person who is really good at getting people,
Healers traveling and really good at getting groups for them to meet them.
And get paid well and everything.
It was her expertise.
I knew that it wasn't.
My hai is good.
Like it was really tempting because I had the feeling that I was going to travel and help people.
So there was part of me that was like,
Yes,
I really know this is meant to happen.
But there was this whole feeling about like,
You you that it hadn't happened organically that it was like It's like making an advertisement,
Kind of boxing it and twisting it and promising great things,
Probably,
To the people who turn up at workshops.
I couldn't do it.
If I had done it,
I would have felt terrible the whole time.
We know.
So this is,
You guys,
I have to say that I know I'm speaking to people who know.
And I also know they're pretending not to know.
But you guys know exactly what I'm talking about.
All of it,
Actually,
All of it.
Underneath,
You totally get it.
That's why Amma says you can wake up people who are really asleep,
But you can't wake up people who are pretending to be asleep.
They're saying no.
Part of the power of this work is I know you know exactly what I'm talking about.
In the old days,
I used to just work harder,
You know,
I would try harder with a person and there's some people who came for years and I realized they didn't really want to know,
They just wanted attention.
That's when I got tougher,
You guys.
That's why I'm tough.
You guys all know what I'm talking about.
You've all felt your solar energy.
Yeah,
You guys,
You know,
We all come in with things.
Uh.
.
.
Like goals in a way.
Um This is Pramasutha's experience.
So.
.
.
This is part of what makes the journey a little bit confusing because we have our own idiosyncratic needs.
Like I know somebody who really needs touch.
He came in with a soul.
Thing about this life really needing touch,
Like that he would need touch,
Perhaps to reach his soul.
And this is certainly like Pramasutra.
It's like where,
You know,
Amma's hugs or Abraham's massage,
I could not get it just intellectually,
Needed the touch.
This person needs touch too.
This person is English.
It's so interesting.
So there is the setup,
Partly.
About you know,
The difficulty,
A little bit of a resistance to touch.
And also,
You know,
The prevailing thing that's going on in the world today is kind of non-touch.
So all these things are challenges.
For the person who came in with that,
But it's solvable just as they move into truth.
So I know another person.
Who it dawned on me that he came in with a soul.
It was a need really,
Like it was set up.
For him to like power.
Now this,
This fellow was a bit he was kind of like the most disrespected member of his family.
Disrespected member of a chaotic family.
He got solved by,
He learned a skill.
And he does it very well.
And he works.
You know,
As a self-employed.
Like it's a carpenter.
Which does very,
Very good work.
He stays in.
He has a big.
.
.
This need for power is met because he set up a life where he has power.
He's got power with his work,
He does a fantastic job,
And he's got,
As a self-employed person,
He's the boss of things.
So this is part of what you guys.
We.
In the whole package of us.
We might be resisting something like that.
We might have a need that we're not valuing,
But something that we came in with.
And so this is why I want your arms to be really big around yourselves.
So include.
Something like this.
You might come in with a real need for acceptance.
So you might think that you please people too much.
But that's part of.
Something that you came in with and the positive.
Positive pole of wanting acceptance is actually,
That's a negative.
Twisting yourself to fit in.
And the positive for is,
Is Agape,
The acceptance of God.
Like God-level acceptance,
Like total acceptance.
Of what is.
Yeah,
You guys.
This is why I want to open your minds to like even your atoms come from stars.
You're so.
.
.
It's like there's an infinite story in you.
There's an infinite.
Your pattern is coming from an infinite energy.
We might feel small and Very limited.
But our origins are infinite.
You know,
Earth is almost as you know it's like being at Harvard or Yale like it's known in in the non-physical realms to be just where Uh,
The soul gets a level of Subtle.
Learning.
That is immensely valuable.
Like our souls.
Develop.
Through our lives,
You guys.
That's how important you are.
In fact,
In my early years as I was developing,
I experienced what felt to me like my soul was even having a crisis.
And I was going,
What is this?
This is just weird.
It was like a deeper level of pain.
And I'm going,
What is this?
But I actually think it's true.
I think this was part of where my soul was growing,
Was developing.
And after that,
Things got easier.
I'm getting a message from the ethers that there is a level of fellowship.
Developing.
It is.
Yeah.
Pretty rare on the earth plane.
The level of fellowship.
Between all of us.
Yeah,
And I'm also getting this.
This bulletin that there's a level of purity in Many of you that makes you feel kind of Ashamed.
At what you experience as your lack of purity.
Like you're human.
Expression.
But I'll tell you.
Just I promise you this just keep going and what happens is if you're carrying a very deep level desire for purity,
You will get it.
But you get it after seeing all the darkness and giving it over.
You guys,
Give it over.
I could solve nothing.
Christ said of myself,
I can do nothing.
Prama Sutta could not solve her ego troubles at all except by giving it over.
And it becomes easier if you feel understood by somebody.
If you feel understood by somebody who you feel is in truth.
It's easier.
I mean,
Just thinking about Alma.
Helps.
That's it.
But you might feel understood here in a way,
Deeply understood.
And able to give over.
We cannot solve it,
You guys.
It is our souls that solve things.
We just make room for our souls.
We fall out of our love affair with the ego.
And we make room for our souls.
It's like telling an old lover,
Okay,
You can go now.
You can go and open the door for the real one,
For the one you're meant to have,
Really.
You open your door to the soul like this.
And you're sitting on part of your soul.
You're in a room made out of your soul energy.
Really,
You guys.
Really?
This is where in the bigness,
You see,
We can let go of our stuff because the truth is just so wonderful that why would we want to hold on to these chains?
When we don't need them.
The more you just continue on,
It's like you make friends with yourself and the whole world becomes a friendly place for you.
So,
You know,
Don't worry,
You've got lots of time.
You know,
Not to be complacent,
But you have a lot of time and things can change dramatically in two years.
You know,
The other thing I wanted to talk about with integrity was like that pack of cards I talked about,
You know,
Throwing,
There's one.
One way that the pack is perfectly ordered,
Say.
And then there are a million ways for it to be just chaotic.
And this is the second level law of thermodynamics that We go from order.
To chaos.
To disorder,
To entropy.
But the usual.
That the earth plane is programmed,
Is tipped to move into disorder.
It's you know the how the earth plane changes when The soul energy doesn't change,
But on the earth,
Everything is mutable.
It changes.
So things become better.
You know,
Disordered,
Like the human body,
We start off like.
Really strong and resilient.
And as we get older,
We get more things.
Often,
Not for everybody,
But often it's the more things start not functioning.
You know,
More problems start.
It's just moving into disorder.
Okay,
This is why integrity is challenging,
Because there will be one choice,
Basically.
That's the best for your soul energy.
For the best for you moving into truth.
And there will be you know,
Countless.
Other choices of you that are you staking your ego.
This is what our conflicts are about.
We set off on a journey and we go okay i want to embody my soul so the soul says okay do this and the ego starts screaming.
So we get in a conflict,
We get in the soup,
We get in the stew.
And if we just are in the stew,
Just keep praying and be in the stew,
What will happen is clarity will come.
And we will seamlessly be invited into the most perfect choice.
The ego falls away by going into these stews.
It's like the process of you know,
Coal turning into a diamond.
The pressure builds.
It was just cold,
The pressure builds,
And then you got a diamond out of it.
It's the same principle.
So this is what you guys live through.
This is it.
We go through this,
We go through these intense periods.
And sometimes in an intense period,
We will not be able to stay still and we take an action that's out of fear and it will backfire.
The results will not be good.
Because it had fear in it.
The results of the choice that's made from sitting with the conflict to come into clarity.
Or your best guess at clarity,
Like you're,
You know,
You're not 100% sure,
But it feels like this might be the thing to do.
That's what to do.
And then look at the results of your choices.
Because if the choice.
Turns out,
If you made a choice out of fear,
I promise you,
It will cause you sorrow.
So if you see this sorrow,
And seal it.
It will your fear will get smaller.
It's so simple,
It's just to do it.
And as you have more and more practice on the journey,
It is easier to stay just patiently in the soup until clarity comes.
Before taking an action and age helps with this too.
That's the big secret,
You guys.
Just watch.
And when you.
Get in the soup,
You feel it?
Be with it.
Be with the conflict,
Whatever it is.
Till clarity comes and it will,
You know,
When you take a choice,
You won't be 100% sure you'll just go like this is,
I feel like I'm following the breadcrumbs.
I'm just going to try this.
Now,
What will happen is it will be most likely a good result.
And then you build your trust this way,
You guys.
It's the same with somebody who's working with people.
I used to,
You know,
Get information about in the early days working with people,
And I wouldn't know whether it was true or not,
Whether it was really coming from truth or not.
So I would experiment with it.
I would just tell the person I'm getting this.
And then I'd see the results of it,
You know,
And over and over the information was proved to be helpful and was accurate.
And that's how I started trusting more and more what came to me.
It's a very practical process,
You guys.
It's not cerebral.
Yeah,
This is what I want you guys to walk it.
You just go and you go through periods of conflict.
And then you're just with it,
You know,
Until the end.
It's like you find the gold till you find the gold.
Some kind of clarity.
And I'll tell you,
This will change your bodies.
This is what allows us to receive guidance more easily.
It purifies our body.
It weakens our ego so that we can hear this still small voice better.
Yeah,
This is the heart of this work.
It's so interesting.
I'm like sort of speaking at the tail end after saying everything else.
And we can all do it.
But it's like walking without guardrails.
It's like riding your bike without your training wheels.
It is how you get off your training wheels is by doing this.
Then you can really walk it.
You know,
And fear comes up.
View will come up like.
You know.
You guys come up strongly I told you that you know.
Every time I'd go to see Abraham,
I'd get,
For some years,
I would get checked at the border and searched.
It was like awful.
It's like even though I knew even then it was I was scared to go see Abraham.
So I get pulled in and searched every time.
And then it stopped happening.
Just observe,
You know,
Observe.
Like,
Okay,
I'm clearing fears.
I'm getting served so well.
I mean,
But I wasn't so clear about it.
It's easier to see in hindsight.
At the time,
I'm just like,
I always get checked at the border,
Poor me,
Or whatever.
We are parading the border guards,
You know,
Who were just acting on my scripts.
You guys,
This is why we might as well not berate people because they're acting out our scripts.
Remember,
It's.
It's really easy to get what I'm talking about if you want to.
You know,
We get it so that we can watch our ego tricks.
We can admit them and we get sort of humble and we're not so prideful.
We just admit all the tricks our ego does.
And we watch for them.
Don't take them too seriously.
It's like,
Okay,
My ego's doing this.
Oh well.
That's it.
Again,
Remember the Guidance.
Coming that there was a level of fellowship that was coming through the satsang that was being created on earth.
Through the start segment was bringing in a level.
A fellowship that was very,
Very unusual,
Especially in the West.
This is really,
Really true,
You guys.
Remember Gabriel and his message,
Tell them the truth.
To turn inside,
Yeah.
And you guys,
Please just keep embracing yourself.
It is like It is like having a,
This is my experience,
Like driving in a like a really big truck.
You're driving in a really big truck.
And you've been going this way for a long time and suddenly you see that this leads off the cliff and you have to start turning.
To avoid this cliff.
And it's so hard to turn this truck because it's got this momentum behind it.
And it takes incredible energy sometimes to steer it.
Away from the track it's on.
This is what it's like dealing with the ego.
Please understand this.
Please be gentle with yourselves if you're having trouble turning this track.
Please,
Or a barge.
That's another good example.
Steering a barge.
For the early years,
Transformation is like steering a barge.
Truly.
For everybody except the people that came in with,
You know.
Total little garbage.
It's for everybody.
They may not talk about it,
You guys.
Questions?
Comments.
You guys are awesome.
Okay,
Good.
Laura.
Yes,
Sweet one.
Hi.
You know,
I feel really.
.
.
I'm trapped until our thoughts work.
And then I get up and on my head,
Just like you said before,
And I think,
Oh,
I'm not doing it right.
Um.
.
.
I'm moving in a couple weeks.
And The universe seems to just open it up and everything is happening so easily.
Um.
.
.
People around me are not happy with me.
And that's.
The hardest thing for me is wanting people around me to be happy with what I'm doing or not doing.
That's the ego.
Yeah,
But just embrace it,
You know?
I mean,
It's very human.
Yeah.
You know,
Kind of.
Laura,
I always feel that you need to just let yourself be more,
You know,
Just.
.
.
Okay.
We all upset people when we do things like move or make a change,
You know?
Yeah.
You could,
You know,
Ask the universe why.
Why it matters if you but maybe it's just obvious why it matters,
You know.
Just.
.
.
You know,
Sweetie,
You just need to like,
I think just you.
Breathing is a total achievement.
You know,
Like with your brain stuff,
Like just go like the angels are celebrating me getting out of bed every morning.
Okay.
Yeah.
They are.
Yeah.
Okay.
So put keep steering your mind that way.
Like,
Yeah.
Okay.
All right.
Thanks.
All right.
Like you guys sometimes when I'm speaking to you guys like I say I hit this wall of anger and you guys like if I worried about like my experience with you,
Kind of a lot like on unconscious levels is that you don't want to hear what I'm saying.
So Laura,
Do you see what I mean?
That's just part of this satsang,
This premasutra feels.
Kind of push back sometimes.
You see what I mean?
It's just kind of.
.
.
You know,
It's not nearly a bad thing.
It's just kind of what it's like helping people come out of their egos.
Okay,
Let's go back to being praised for getting out of bed every morning,
Truly.
And I really feel that really strongly.
Actually,
You know what,
I feel like truly I'm getting this information that there are several angels there.
With you.
Clapping,
Praising you for getting out of bed in the morning with all that you deal with.
I mean it.
Thanks for listening.
Yeah,
Good.
Good.
Right,
Yeah.
You guys.
Yeah,
For us to go to the love underneath everything,
You know,
We can try to evolve.
The code of the love.
And the only reason I spell out the how-to's is because Our culture is so body-based that we don't have an idea of how to evolve.
So that's why I have to spell it out.
But really it's all oriented towards.
Hoping and helping you guys feel the love behind everything.
The loving things that you're made out of love.
You can trust this look.
And you're being held in it.
Yeah you're being held in this love you guys There is immense care for you.
There's immense care for us,
And if we're failing at a step,
Really,
You cannot fail.
But if you're struggling with a step,
You will start.
If you're oriented towards truth,
You will start.
Attracting energetic help to help you make the leap.
Think this way.
This is the truth of it,
You guys.
And that it's known how tough it is here on earth.
And the only reason anger comes up,
It's coming from you guys.
It's coming from your subconscious level.
It's coming from a level of your ego that doesn't want to be disturbed.
And so I work with that.
I work with that all the time.
It's just very human.
Of course it's this way.
It's just that Pramuk Sutta can see it.
It's not a sin or a bad thing.
And eventually what happens is this anger is getting thinner and thinner and thinner.
Yeah,
And you guys,
We're in a culture where,
You know,
Nobody's listening to each other.
I went to get,
I had to get my cholesterol checked.
And so I was like,
Getting blood work,
And the woman was lovely,
But she didn't listen to a thing I said,
And she actually told me what I just said to her.
She told me what I just said to her as like a point to instruct me.
I'm like,
Oh,
I have great empathy for all of us.
Try to evolve!
Trying to wake up!
There's no errors.
It's impossible for an error.
There's no error,
Ever.
Ever.
It's like there are a million choices possible,
And if you make all of a million,
You will achieve enlightenment just because you've made them all.
And the level of information it's brought you.
Really,
That's kind of how it goes.
You know,
My GP has had something wrong with her and it was something that she.
She's from Romania,
And she felt it wasn't the processes that were dealt with this difficult genetic thing.
Weren't that great.
So she struggled for about like 18 months and she finally found somebody.
Who could help her on some other country.
I don't know what it was,
But it's very good help and she's very happy.
With the results.
And much more upbeat.
So this woman,
She didn't give up no matter what she faced.
And she got ridiculed by Western doctors.
And told she was being difficult.
She just kept going and her love of herself was intense enough that she went right till she,
It was salt.
And this is what we have to be like on the journey,
You guys.
Just like that.
It will all get solved if you just keep going.
You come to these breakthroughs,
These big jumps.
You know,
Nothing might happen for a year,
You know,
And all of a sudden,
Boom.
It's how it goes,
There are plateaus.
I remember when I was 47,
I realized that it was 13 years till I was 60 and I thought to myself,
I'm not that far on the journey and 60s coming,
You know,
I was in a plateau and that's what got me out of the plateau.
I kind of,
It's like this,
We just bumble.
With our very human selves.
Right.
And please honor yourself wherever you are.
Remember that really helps.
At the side saying where I was saying every place you are at.
Is a respected place on the journey.
Yeah,
And remember,
If you're stuck,
The Universe will just lovingly give you more and more information about how painful it is to be stuck.
And this is what helps us.
Blast through the dam and the river.
Over and over again.
That's it.
And as the years pass,
What happens,
You guys,
More and more of you get on the journey.
I don't know how to explain it,
But you just become more in the journey.
You're not You're just more in it.
And that helps it speed up.
And everything has a season.
And Amma has said before that she likes the journeys that kind of bring enlightenment in old age.
She likes that best.
And,
You know.
Again i couldn't i mean i'm not who knows what ama means but I look at it as,
Well,
There's a respect for the cycles of the earth plane too there.
And an embrace of the seasons and the years.
And the learnings that happened at the,
You know,
Child level,
Parent level,
And then grandparent level.
I hope you know how loved you are.
Bye.
And remember,
I,
You know.
We're coming to a close now,
But I have no idea how much first Abraham.
And then,
ABBA.
Loved.
Me like she loves all of us,
But I had no idea of the depth.
And the totality of the commitment.
Until,
You know,
Latterly.
I couldn't,
I didn't know it was there.
But it was always there working with me,
And the same principle.
In a much.
You can't even compare.
The same principle operates with the set sign.
I hold you in great love and understanding.
And the spiritual journey,
The structures,
The steps and structures are the same for everybody.
The main thing you might ask yourself if you're feeling like,
You know,
You're doing it wrong,
Just casually ask Amma,
Speak it out loud.
Alma,
Why do I always feel like I'm doing it wrong?
And then wait for an answer.
Please,
You guys,
This is taking our power.
This is the answer to learned helplessness.
We can do this.
We'll get an answer.
I promise you.
Somebody just came out from behind a wall.
See you tomorrow.
See you tomorrow.
It did.
It just came out.
It's so wonderful.
No.
Yeah,
You guys as well.
You know,
I.
It's,
You know,
When to know when the cake's done or when the stew's done and not to overdo it.
You know,
Mess with,
Or when a painting's done,
You don't want to mess with it.
You don't want to,
I just want to leave it here with this point.
Yeah,
And it's beautiful.
And if this one person came out of the wall,
This is where you guys are all going.
The stuff that happens in the satsang.
At each week,
Different.
People make a shift,
But it's where everybody's going.
All of it.
We all go together.
And if you're arguing with this about where I'm,
You know,
With this,
This thing about like,
Where I'm saying,
We're all going there.
And if you're going,
Like,
I don't know if I'm really going there,
Speak to Amma,
Go,
Amma,
Why am I thinking this way?
That's taking your power,
You guys.
Okay.
Well,
I'll get the videos to you soon.
And.
Many,
Many blessings.
