Today on the Wild Dove series,
Reconnecting with your heart.
Your heart asks for your attention one million times a day and most of the time you ignore it.
You go about your life being strong,
Being solid,
Being resilient,
Being unstoppable.
The needs and longings that stem from your heart get put on the shelf.
The cries for help from your heart are drowned out with external stimuli,
Other people's worlds,
Words and stories.
We are too busy to listen to our own inner beings.
What happens over time when we ignore our hearts wisdom?
The close sign comes on.
Your heart can no longer take being ignored.
The voice of your heart turns from a boisterous passionate scream to a dull murmur,
Barely recognizable,
Far too easy to not even hear at all.
Your heart,
Your tender loving heart can take no more of you not letting it do its one job,
To feel.
Everything there is to feel in this messy,
Beautiful,
Raw,
Present,
Authentic life to be listened to.
Your heart wants nothing more than to be followed and to be heard.
Close your eyes now and place your hands on your heart.
Feel the faint beating pumping against your hands.
Feel this beautiful organ,
Always working for you,
Always efforting so hard to keep you alive.
Say aloud to your heart now,
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry heart for all of the times I have ignored your messages.
I'm sorry heart for all of the times I prioritize helping someone else heal over helping you when you needed me most.
I'm sorry heart for not listening to and tending to you after you sink,
After you break.
I'm sorry for ignoring you when you tell me something is too much or something is not right.
I'm sorry that you have been screaming at me,
That you have been telling me exactly what to do yet I still search for the answers outside of myself because I haven't fully trusted you.
I'm sorry heart,
Please forgive me.
I love you.
Thank you.
Feel your heart responding to you,
Embracing you with pure love.
The embrace of a friend you've gone too long without seeing and listen,
Listen well.
As your heart says back,
Dear one,
I forgive you.
I will never stop giving you my all no matter how hard you effort to ignore me.
My messages may become dull and weary from extended periods of not being heard but that doesn't mean I am not there.
That doesn't mean I don't love you with every inch of me.
I only ask that you continue to listen.
Listen to when I drop,
Listen to when I sing,
Listen when I whisper,
Go.
Listen when I whisper,
Leave.
Listen when I ask for silence,
Listen when I tell you something is done,
Something is over.
Listen when I tell you it's time to heal yourself.
Listen when I tug you in certain directions even if it makes no logical sense to the brain.
Listen when I say it's time to shut out the external noise and tune into me.
Listen when I say choose the beautiful mystery and I will support you through it every step of the way.
Trust me as your accomplice,
As your greatest tool,
Your inner jewel that will always guide you home.
You are here to feel everything my love.
Insurmountable heartache followed by sheer joy,
Gut-wrenching pain and ecstatic earth-shattering bliss.
Utter confusion and absolute certainty.
Devastating loss and divine intervention.
True loves and loves that seemed like they were true but it wasn't meant for you.
Blazing fury at the injustices of the world and the still peace of being surrounded by tall forest trees.
Loss in the slow refilling of the space that loss left empty.
And I,
I will be here with you through it all.
Remember to always come back to this very space right here.
And on me,
Eyes closed.
And I will respond.
And I will be there for you.
And I will beat for you.
And I will feel for you.
No matter what.
No matter what.
