Poem: In The Space Between

In the space between,

My heart expanded for you,

Finding my way in the darkness,

Searching for an answer and a breakthrough.

In the space between,

With a pen and paper asking,

Who have I been and who am I becoming,

Beneath the endless questions and unmasking.

In the space between,

Little by little,

Unease will arrive,

Nine long months waiting,

How on earth am I supposed to survive and thrive,

When another is depending on me for its life.

In the space between,

I'll sit still and wait,

Questioning it all and forever in a fight-flight-freeze anxious state.

In the space between,

One woman dying to become another,

The most important role of all,

Becoming mum,

Mam,

Mom or mother.

In the space between,

Until that space becomes whole and fulfilled,

Not only with a babe but the birth of a new me,

And here I will attempt to love,

Nourish and gradually rebuild.