Hello and welcome to the Sleeping Beauty Podcast,
A podcast designed to help you fall asleep.
My name is Diana and I'm your host.
Let's begin by getting comfortable.
Find a nice comfortable place in your bed.
As we begin to deepen our breath,
And we'll just take a few deep breaths here.
Just inhaling and exhaling.
Releasing any tension.
Relaxing the jaw and the eyebrows.
And just a few more deep breaths here before we come back to our natural breath.
Just filling the belly up like a balloon.
And releasing as we let everything go.
Tonight we'll be reading page 125 from the things you can see only when you slow down by Hayameen Sunim.
The person who betrayed you and left.
The person who stole from you and disappeared.
The person who stabbed you in the back and acted as if nothing happened.
Forgive them.
Not for them,
But for your own sake.
Truly,
Completely,
For yourself.
Not because they deserve your forgiveness.
Not because they are only human.
Forgive them.
So you can be free.
So you can be happy.
So you can go on with living your life.
It won't be easy and it will feel unjust.
A sudden gush of anger may pass through you.
Tears of bitterness may roll down your face.
Allow those feelings to surface and let them be.
Treat them kindly with your compassionate heart.
After honoring your tears,
Ask yourself softly,
Do I want to keep carrying this resentment in my heart?
Do I want to live as a victim forever?
When you feel ready,
Muster your courage and make up your mind.
Although your heart won't listen to your mind's decision,
Resolve to forgive and to free yourself from emotional bondage.
And then revisit your feelings of anger and bitterness.
Give them your full permission to express themselves.
How do those feelings manifest in your body?
Do they become tense muscles,
A rapid heartbeat,
Flushed skin?
Do they merge as shallow breathing,
As pressure in your chest?
Let the waves of sensations surface and recede.
Attend to the sensations moving through your body.
And when the waves become a bit calmer,
Look deeply and see what is beneath them.
Are there any hidden emotions beneath the anger and bitterness?
Do you see fear,
Shame or grief?
Is there loneliness and insecurity?
Rather than drowning in them,
Just observe them.
Why am I essere scorped so desperately?
And as your heart becomes more tender and open,
Turn your attention toward the aggressor.
Can you look beneath that person's mask and feel what is underneath such violence and dishonesty?
Can you sense his fear and security and unworthiness?
Can you feel loneliness or shame under the surface?
And rather than surrendering to him,
Observe him compassionately.
Inside of us,
There is a steep mountain of fear and a deep river of grief.
But there is also the compassionate eye witnessing your inner landscape.
May you find your inner witness the source of freedom and healing.
Good night.
