My dear fear,
I see you my fear,
My fear of being insecure,
Fear of not being good enough,
The fear of not doing enough,
The fear of uncertainty,
The fear of not knowing where I'm heading next,
The fear of failure,
The fear of future,
The fear of being an imposter,
The fear of losing myself and never finding myself again.
I see all of you my dear fears,
I see you with my awareness,
I see you with my eyes open,
I see you here in my life coming up over and over again when I'm trying to do something new,
Something that I've never done before.
I know you have a very important role to play in my life.
I know you are here for a good reason.
I know you are programmed into me for my survival.
I know I cannot avoid you.
I know I cannot suppress you.
I know I cannot get rid of you.
So I am taking the courage to see you right in your eye.
I will not give you my power.
I will see you but I will not surrender to you.
I acknowledge your presence.
But I will not succumb to your pressure.
I know you are there for a reason to protect me from the unknowing.
But I also know that I'm here to express my complete self and even though you may try to hold me down,
I will rise above you.
I will rise above you and shine bright.
I will do things that I'm scared of so that you can loosen your grip on me.
I think that's the only way out.
I will take those steps,
The courageous steps,
In spite of you being here.
Yes,
I know your presence here.
I am not undermining your presence.
You have saved me in past but today I want to tell you this.
You cannot control my life.
I will not allow you to do so.
I appreciate your presence but I will continue to do things that I truly desire even though they are uncomfortable for me.
Because I know anything out of my comfort zone is how I fly,
Is how I rise beyond you.
And again,
The goal is not to undermine you but to acknowledge you and still follow my heart's calling.
And still take those leaps of faith and still make an attempt to get closer to my dreams and goals.
Yes,
I know you want to protect me but I have to trust this journey for myself.
I have to fly and I have to fly in spite of my fears.
I have to rise in spite of my fears.
And while I see you,
I also choose to walk past you and maybe embrace you in a warm loving hug so that you can soften into my desires.
You can soften into my courage and you can guide me when I truly need you.
Thank you for being there in my life.
I see you.
I acknowledge you.
But I also choose to walk past you,
To embrace you and to accept you but not surrender to you.
Thank you.
