Protect My Peace

I replaced anxiety with agility and people still wanted to get rid of me or project.

When we're hurt inside,

We neglect to see the reality of our condition.

In and out of therapy,

Wishing to see things from under the haze one day.

Little did I know it was my own friends and family in my own way.

To meeting myself,

Leveling up my health,

My wealth,

Reconnecting to my power.

All the days I woke up at ungodly hours,

Sweating or screaming no,

I didn't get to.

Or whatever I say,

It won't make it change.

Without realization,

We get stuck in the same range of suffering.

I don't deserve to be treated this way,

But I used to stay.

Hearing my name against words that do not represent me.

Aching in the hollow embrace of being unseen and I probably look mean.

Am I going crazy?

Other words?

When words and actions don't align,

Losing sight of my own mind,

Ascending out of my spine in frenzy.

I need someone who I can depend on endlessly.

It's not you.

No sense in playing myself,

Getting overwhelmed.

I'm going to put it down and protect my peace.

To me,

You are deceased.