Welcome dear one.
This meditation is for parents who find themselves wishing that things were different.
I invite you to breathe in and breathe out and allow yourself to begin to settle into this space,
Feeling the energy of this space,
The calm,
Maybe the scent of beeswax or incense,
The sound of my voice settling in,
Feeling the earth beneath you and allowing gravity to bring heaviness and connection to your body,
Exhaling from the places in you that resist grounding,
The parts of your body that hold tension,
Feel the earth holding you like a mother and with your next in-breath allowing that to soften those parts of you,
Trusting the breath to go where it is needed and with your exhale easing worries,
Stories,
Rehashing what happened or trying to control what happens next,
Allow your body to release and be here in its natural grounded state and with this grounded feeling,
Knowing that you are connected to the earth,
Allow yourself to feel heaven above you,
Let yourself be touched by the air and sense its temperature and texture,
Take time here to connect to the clouds,
The sun,
The stars,
The moon above you and all that's beyond those levels,
The cosmos and all the love and nourishment it provides,
Feeling that connection to the sky,
Maybe your spine lengthens or your crown straightens.
As you feel that knowing,
The father sky is always there above you,
You are here a column of light connecting earth and heaven,
Both groundedness and airiness,
Made of bones and minerals and fluids made of bones and minerals and fluids but also made of light and feather down stardust and love,
Feel yourself here,
Right here,
Breathe in,
Breathe out,
Soften into your presence and in your life right now,
You find yourself in a gray area,
Unable to see,
Your relationship with your child is difficult and you wish it wasn't so,
You wish you didn't have to weigh your every word,
You wish you weren't upset by their lethargy or recklessness or terror,
Terror,
You wish you didn't have to deal with teachers or psychologists or your sister-in-law,
You wish you felt like you had it in you to be the kind of parent this kid really needs,
The supportive understanding parent who gives them exactly what they need to heal and grow,
Who accepts them,
You wish all of that,
Of course you do,
You love them,
Your love is powerful and bright and so here in this quiet space,
You begin to feel a breeze,
Gentle,
Just the right temperature,
The air moving softly,
Feel the breeze against your skin,
Your hair,
Hear it rustle the leaves,
Smell the scent it carries,
Feel the motion of life around you,
Feel the motion of life in you,
Open your senses to the movement,
Beautiful,
The thing is when we hold ourselves in a place of wishing things were different,
We remove ourselves from the flow of life and forget that things are always changing and always different,
Our mind says it's going to be like this forever but nothing is forever,
Life is in motion around you and in you,
Your child's situation is changing,
They're different each day,
Your response to their situation shifts,
Your ability to be the right parent for this child grows and changes as you grow and change,
As the breeze blows,
As you evolve,
Your mind may have concluded that you're stuck in this thick grey fog,
That you've been here for a long time and you might be here forever,
That's just a story,
Fear speaking,
Not knowing,
Wondering,
But you are light,
You are the light that connects earth and sky,
You are wise and dynamic,
You are so much more than a bewildered parent,
You are love itself and you carry that with you every day as you move forward,
As you wake up and say good morning to your family,
As you move through your day with them,
You are that light,
You are that light as you move through the ever-changing world from this moment to this moment and this one and this one,
You are light in this moment and now shifting your intuition,
Your sensing toward the horizon,
Let your heart follow the breeze from I wish it were different to what's next,
Hold the question in front of you,
Just wondering,
Asking to be shown,
Let your heart touch that horizon,
What can you feel there,
What is your heart sensing,
Does it feel warm or cool,
Soft or firm,
Take in the feel of it,
The energy,
What's it like,
And if it takes a form,
Just notice what's there,
A light,
A shape,
A being,
You don't have to make sense of it right now,
You don't have to see it clearly now,
Just notice that it's there,
Allow the sky and the earth,
The spirits and totem animals and your ancestors,
All of your supports to show you your horizon,
If what you desire is more ease,
Or patience,
Or assertiveness,
It is there for you,
You are creating your future in this moment,
You are envisioning,
Tossing seeds in front of you and moving toward them,
What do you see there,
It's your horizon,
You are moving toward it on the breeze with every inhale and every exhale,
Breathe life into what you envision,
What you desire,
What you know is possible,
Move toward that state of being that you envision,
That way of being that you are bringing into being as part of creation,
Your love is powerful and bright,
Your light is powerful and bright,
What's there on your horizon,
Let the energy of that horizon be imprinted upon you,
Knowing that each moment is new,
That the peace and capability you desire is possible,
That possibility is there just ahead of you,
The next version of you,
A new way of feeling,
And feel that imprint on your body,
Is it in your belly,
Or your heart,
Or your spine,
Feel it there in yourself,
The column of light that extends from your root chakra to your crown,
That extends from the earth to the sky,
Feel it there within you,
Your path,
Your being,
And taking a moment here to acknowledge what you've been shown and how you've been blessed,
What word or phrase captures this for you,
How will you carry this experience with you,
Where is it in you,
Inhale and exhale,
Breathe in energy from deep within the earth and exhale it to the heavens and receive the breath from the universe and through your body deliver it to the earth,
And when you're ready before you return express what you need to express to the spirits and guides that have traveled with you and shown you this horizon,
Feel their support and love,
Know that you are them and they are you,
And so now slowly slowly returning,
Returning to this time and place,
Maybe wiggle a toe or a finger gently slowly,
Knowing that all of this is within you as you go forward on your parenting journey,
You have plenty of time,
Maybe begin to stretch or move a bit and when you're ready opening your eyes,
Massaging your face,
Your arms,
Your legs,
Preparing to go forward and when you're ready step gently into the rest of your day,
My bright blessings to you.
