Yeah,
But sometimes when we'd like go home for Christmas are also are sort of the injured child stuff comes up,
Right?
You know,
Like,
The,
You know,
The loneliness of the child,
The,
You know,
How you felt as a child.
Yeah,
You know,
Yeah,
Yeah,
I've said this before,
There's some sweetheart,
There's some kind of wall that I hit with you.
And I think you it's even a wall that you hit with you.
It's the more sincere the desire for enlightenment,
What happens is all these walls will come up to dissolve.
So that you can achieve true enlightenment.
Okay,
How can I go through this world?
Yeah,
We well,
This is the million dollar question that everybody in the sad saying everybody's like,
And they're trying to go through the walls.
And,
And lots of times we make things worse when we're trying to go through the walls.
I mean,
Just,
You know,
One of the common walls that I've,
I've had in the sad saying,
But it seems to be going away is that people would not take what I said seriously.
So when I just said to you,
You were feeling the sort of the solitariness,
The separation you felt as a child,
You were feeling again,
You kind of brush that off.
And it's like,
That's the place to start,
Man.
It's,
It's not them,
It's you,
It's you,
You're carrying it.
It's a veil between you and your soul.
It came from your childhood.
And it's like,
Part of you just doesn't know how to address this material.
And I get it because it's hard enough for women,
Let alone guys,
One of the things that will happen is your body will start to hurt as these complexes come up to be removed.
Okay.
The thing is,
You can't reach enlightenment till this stuff's cleared,
Man.
So it's like,
I mean,
How much do you want it cleared?
It's how much we really want to embody our God self that determines how quickly this stuff dissolves.
I would wish immediately.
I know.
I think it's like you,
You're just it's like,
You're just scared to trust.
Sweet one.
I mean,
You're scared to trust whether this one's words are really knowledgeable.
You know,
To actually go near the wounding to heal it.
And you've and you've made progress since I met you.
It's all good.
It's all good.
Yeah,
You're moving forward in your own way.
But for me,
You're Teflon.
You're the Teflon guy.
You know,
It just rolls off.
Maybe you don't think anybody can really help you,
You know,
Or maybe you just want to do it privately.
Well,
I would love that someone could help me.
It can feel very unsafe to let anybody get really close to us.
You know,
It's okay.
I mean,
I didn't let Abraham get close to me.
I let Alma get close to me to help me.
But if you just if you just accept that that loneliness that you felt at your parents was the separation from your soul that you're caring.
And that the if you feel the deep sorrow at being so separate,
You will tap into your soul energy.
