Release Anxiety Struggles - A Musical Meditation

Imagine you're inside the bridge of command of a spaceship.

You can close your eyes and see in front of you a 180 degree bow window.

Outside,

There are clouds swirling peacefully.

You hear the soft buzzing sound of the engines.

This vessel is your very own imagination ship.

With it,

You can fly away from the outer world and deep inside your inner world.

It is fueled by your breathing.

So now,

Take a deep breath in,

Deeper than you usually do.

Hold it in for a few seconds.

And then breathe out very slowly.

Slower.

You're still breathing out.

Pace the outflow of air.

For a second time,

Breathe in deeply,

Starting from the abdomen and then expanding the chest.

And breathe out slow,

And as you do,

You allow the slow breathing to send you inside,

As if you were going to a far and distant place.

The slower you breathe out,

The more intense this feeling is.

For a third time,

Breathe in as deep as you can,

From the abdomen and then expanding the chest.

And then you breathe out very slowly,

And as you do,

You allow the natural decompression of the chest and abdomen to send a wave of relaxation throughout your whole body.

You may feel as if you wanted to go to sleep.

The far and distant place brings you to a state of hypnosis.

But we don't want this.

We want to find a state of hyper-awareness instead.

So rather than drifting off,

You now place your whole attention inside your hands.

Release all the muscles inside your hands,

And aim to find a sensation of tingling,

Fullness and warmth.

These are called deep body sensations.

They are used by your unconscious mind,

Which is so much more powerful than your surface mind.

Stay within these feelings.

The fullness makes you feel as if your hands were thicker than they usually are,

As if there was a cloud around them of about 10 centimeters in all directions.

You can visualize a cloud all around your hands,

Swirling and moving.

You can feel the heat and the slight tingling.

Now bring that sensation through your wrists and arms.

Visualize this cloud going up the arms,

All the way to the shoulders.

Then bring the clouds around your feet,

Which is a little harder,

Because they're farther away.

Now bring the cloud up the ankles,

Lower legs,

Knees,

Thighs.

And feel your arms and legs being immersed in a thick,

Warm cloud.

Feel the warmth.

Now bring it around your head,

Down the neck,

Upper back,

Chest and abdomen.

Now you notice a clock hanging in the middle of the bridge of command.

You have now fueled your spaceship enough for you to make the jump inside the inner world.

The ship starts to go faster and you notice that the clock slows down.

The ship is going faster.

The clouds around your body are stronger,

More prominent.

The clock slows down.

The ship increases its speed.

You feel even more relaxed and deeper inside the cloud that surrounds your whole body.

The clouds outside the window start to go faster.

The clock slows down.

The feelings of relaxation and comfort increase.

You feel as if you are going into a different world.

You're now approaching light speed.

You enter hyperspace.

Go through the tunnel.

You see the entrance void to the inner world.

You go through it.

And you're finally flying over your very own inner world.

From above,

You can see its five continents.

The fields of gold that represent your earth realm.

The star seed forest that connects you to the wood element.

The crimson city,

Your fire heart center.

The mystic mountains,

A symbol of your metal element.

And the ancestral sea,

Your water center.

A blue portal appears in front of you.

With your mind,

You go through the portal.

And find yourself inside a beautifully decorated room.

This is the parliament of your inner world.

In front of you is an aisle.

And at the end of the aisle is a golden throne.

There are rows of benches on both sides where the ministers of your inner world are sitting.

They represent all the parts of you that take the throne depending on the situation.

By the throne is the prime minister who is responsible to protect you.

And create a channel of communication with all the other ministers.

Allow your mind to freely create it.

It could be human or part of a different kingdom.

Male or female.

Real or abstract.

It is the master of the heart.

Just have the clear intention that it represents the link that connects all the parts that make up your personality.

Now ask the prime minister to call to the throne.

The minister responsible for your safety.

Who runs all the emotions related to survival.

As it walks towards the throne,

Give it a shape and a form.

Again it can be human or not.

Male,

Female.

Abstract or real.

Let your mind decide.

Now communicate with this minister.

Without hearing any voices.

Just let the communication happen on its own.

Just have the clear intention.

That you are aiming to thank this minister for all the work it has done so far.

Tell it you understand.

That the tools and resources it has been using.

May have been developed a long time ago.

But that now that you've grown.

You believe there are better ways.

More effective.

Maybe less destructive.

For you to deal with these issues.

Ask the minister to be open to learning and growing.

To absorb new resources and possibilities.

As the minister accepts.

The prime minister opens a double door.

And all together.

You walk through.

And you're now on the grounds of your inner world.

You are now walking on a beautiful path of your mystic mountains.

And walking with you,

Together with the ministers.

Is an archetype.

Who introduces himself or herself.

Let your mind decide.

As the pioneer.

The pioneer is the archetype that allows you to create.

And do what has never been done before.

And with a soft but clear voice.

The pioneer begins to explain.

That anxiety.

That feeling of discomfort.

Is there to help you.

And motivate you.

To do things.

That you thought impossible.

And that all you have to do.

Is find the courage to begin the process.

So the pioneer now asks you.

To focus on a fear.

On a what if.

That causes you stress and anxiety.

That stops you from achieving what you want to achieve.

As you do that.

The pioneer sets up an easel.

And a blank canvas.

And gives you a set of colors and brushes.

And asks you to.

Now think about how life would be.

If this fear and anxiety.

Would not limit it.

Prompts you to pick up a brush.

Focus on all the things you could do.

All the things that you will do.

And start painting right now.

Because I don't know what to do.

Between the likes of me and you.

So I breathe.

Slow and deep.

Longing for the first brush stroke to begin.

And the colors I see.

Leap out of me.

I don't want you to define me for what I have been.

Do we want us to fall down again in the big deep?

We can't let the past define us but what can we be?

Can we paint this white blank canvas and rewrite history?

The whispering colors of the old bristles true.

Or the feelings hung tight to memories.

The structure is shaking.

The shackles are loose.

Calling for something or someone new.

And now I breathe.

Seeking peace.

Weaving hues as streaming into tapestries.

As I close my eyes I'm ready to release.

I don't want you to define me for what I have been.

Do we want us to fall down again in the big deep?

We can't let the past define us but what can we be?

Can we paint this white blank canvas and rewrite history?

I don't want you to define me for what I have been.

Do we want us to fall down again in the big deep?

We can't let the past define us but what can we be?

Can we paint this white blank canvas and rewrite history?

I don't want you to define me for what I have been.

Do we want us to fall down again in the big deep?

We can't let the past define us but what can we be?

Can we paint this white blank canvas and rewrite history?

And rewrite history.

And rewrite history.

You notice that the beautiful painting that you have created has now transformed the world around you.

To accommodate it.

And as you walk on the path you see these changes.

But now you notice a large obstacle on the path.

A big boulder.

Have the clear intention that this boulder represents your anxiety.

That is stopping you from proceeding.

By the boulder is the archetype of the victim.

Allow your mind to decide if it's a woman or a man.

The victim is crying.

At its feet you can see a pickaxe.

But the victim is complaining.

I don't know how to go past it.

I don't want to face it.

This pickaxe is too heavy,

Too hard to use.

Together with the pioneer you pick it up and start hacking at the boulder.

As you go deeper,

Pieces of rock start to fly.

Keep hacking at it.

Each piece represents a smaller part of that fear.

A what-if statement.

Now pick one from the floor.

Let your mind give you the what-if connected to it.

Observe it.

Accept it.

And allow the music to make it clear.

As I look through the rearview mirror leaving regrets behind time's gift is distance wounds leave in scars to remind dancing through life grow where your feet are finding my voice,

I cry and move on looking for a moment when I'll have the courage to shine the thrill come my way,

I count the time the only way out is through step by step breath by breath I'll find a way to move the only way out is through moment after moment I love myself for who I am so that others shall too I love myself for who I am so that others shall too as I come to terms with what happened I'm laying new grounds to explore I'll foster my powers to fix what was broken before trusting fate has in store a million possibilities opening new doors never looked bad the only way out is through the only way out is through step by step breath by breath I'll find a way to move the only way out is through moment after moment I love myself for who I am so that others shall too mending the pieces mending the pieces mending the pieces mending the pieces the only way out is through step by step breath by breath I'll find a way to move the only way out is through moment after moment I love myself for who I am so that others shall too I love myself for who I am so that others shall too now that you have picked the what if that you want to work on the victim has changed it's not crying anymore it is very grateful for the help and so it gives you a chisel and a mallet with these you can now change the shape of this rock make it into something beautiful something that you can use something that can help you go past this boulder past the big rock is another archetype the shape shifter this particular archetype can help you understand and see the potential in everything so together you begin to work on the little rock changing its shape making it smoother more pleasant allow your mind to give it a clear shape and form freely make it represent a new what if statement a positive one one that complements it what if it can change your life what if it can make it possible what is it?

Let your mind give it to you what if I fail?

And this doesn't work out what if it doesn't come true?

And there's no going back what if I make a fool of myself and my house of cards tumbles down and my body and mind unfollow will it be a hard pill to swallow?

What if I could change course by being the red rose in the white rose garden what if I could change course by being the judge and deliver my pardon what if this changes my life forever what if I could let let it go what if I could let it be as it needs to be let it flow fast or slow till it shows its true purpose what if I start?

What if I leave?

What if I succeed?

And I have to go on and on and on what if tomorrow never comes?

What if this is my last chance?

What if it's all in my head swirling round and round and round what if I could cut the cord and I brave to look inside all of my mirrors what if I could cut loose embrace the reflections and become the seer what if this changes my life forever what if I could let it go what if I could let it be as it needs to be let it fly fly,

Fly for a pride the way to decide its new purpose what if I can be my whole self and embrace my whole truth what if I can make it and stand stand here as proof what if I drop the what if at the end and understand I've always been more than enough I've always been more than enough I've always been more than enough I've always been more than enough I've always been more than enough you arrive now at a large amphitheater all the ministers are sitting there you,

The prime minister,

The archetypes and the minister responsible for your anxiety take center stage you show the new statue to all the ministers and with a strong voice you begin to speak from today I pledge to shift my mindset I am not going to be worried anymore if what I do is perfect I will not worry anymore if it will be a mistake but I will learn from it I will cherish all the mistakes I make as little steps,

Milestones that allow me to grow to understand and to better myself in all the parts of my life because it's only by trial and error that I can become the best me so now I say this to you and please repeat with me I never lose,

Either I win or I learn and all the ministers together sing I never lose,

Either I win or I learn teacher what do you expect of me do you assume I should understand and accept every breath you breathe mother I'm only human what must I do to make you happy other than perfect it took me so long to stop spreading blame I am now taking the reins of my life ready to claim every mistake is my chance to grow a stepping stone vital to achieving every goal and so I embrace them with all my heart because I never lose,

Either I win or I learn I never lose,

Either I win or I learn father what are these rules you impart I'm trying no matter what I do it's not wide enough for you brother please understand me forgive me if I can't always be the role model that you need it took me so long to pick myself up I am now making the shape of my life and prove to me that every mistake is my chance to grow a stepping stone vital to achieving every goal and so I embrace them with all my heart because I never lose,

Either I win or I learn I never lose,

Either I win or I learn I'm ready to go the distance ready to run the extra mile I'm willing to do what preachers preach but never do to dream as big as I can dream ten thousand hours,

Blood sweat and tears tumble and fall and get back up because I never lose,

Either I win or I learn God,

Why is so serious if you didn't want me to sin why make it so sweet to win every mistake is my chance to grow a stepping stone vital to achieving every goal and so I embrace them with all my heart because I never lose,

Either I win or I learn because I never lose,

Either I win or I learn I never lose,

Either I win or I learn you hear a loud round of applause all the ministers are cheering and chanting your name they're very proud and impressed of the great work you've done something in the minister that travelled with you has now changed notice what it is may it be the colour of the garments may it be older or younger wiser or lighter may it be taller or smaller let your mind give you that change notice it,

See it you now enter the trophy room and inside you find an empty pedestal and there you place the statue that you have created knowing that you will add more as you take more rocks and make them into positive what-if statements you now say goodbye to all the ministers you approach a double golden door you pass it you are now back to the spaceship you're flying over your inner world once again you can see that something has changed here maybe the colours are brighter it feels more peaceful you now see the void and go through it you go back through the tunnel through hyperspace and back to the clouds and here you see that the clock starts to move again and the ship starts to slow down and the ship starts to slow down as the clock goes faster the ship goes slower and you start to feel the sensations of tingling fullness and warmth inside your body you realize you completely forgot about it it's now back and prominent the ship slows down the clock goes faster until it's back to its normal speed it is time to come back to the here and the now so go back inside your hands and aim to find that sensation of tingling fullness and warmth now when I count to ten when I get to eight you can open your eyes when I get to ten you'll be back here inspired and ready to begin a new path of growth one,

Two,

Three,

You're coming back four,

Five,

Six,

You feel your hands,

Shoulders,

Back seven,

Eight,

You open your eyes nine,

Ten,

You're back here you're back here in the now