
Opening Into Deep Peace
A guided meditation led by spiritual teacher, Eli Jaxon-Bear. This was excerpted from his most recent Waking Up From the Trance of Suffering Retreat, an online 5-day retreat centered around the enneagram of liberation.
Transcript
Let's breathe together.
So just allow yourself permission.
First let's just go.
.
.
Okay you can do that too.
Alright?
You haven't already?
Let's do it together.
It feels so good.
Just.
.
.
Yes.
Let's do it some more.
Doesn't it feel good?
And I don't know about you,
But I can feel a certain sensation in the soles of my feet and in the palms of my hands.
Ahhhh.
And it can feel so good for the whole body to finally unwind.
Relax.
Ahhhh.
Yeah,
Make a noise when you exhale,
Okay?
If you haven't been,
Do it along with me.
Let's inhale.
Ahhhh.
Ahhhh,
Feels so good.
You can say that too this time.
We're going to inhale,
Make a noise in your exhale,
And say,
It feels so good.
Okay?
Ahhhh,
Feels so good.
Wow.
Now I don't know if you can experience the energy in your body right now.
Maybe it's like it's a certain sensation moving,
And as you become aware of that,
Ah,
Everything can fall down.
The places that are still holding can open.
You may not even have noticed that you're.
.
.
It's like having a fist for so long that you don't even notice it's a fist until as we take a breath together,
Ah,
Something deeper opens.
And it can feel so good as you fall backwards and down into this soft,
Vast,
Open space.
And I don't know if you know that it's possible to fall out of the body by falling backwards and down so deeply,
So effortlessly,
That it can seem like the body is floating above you as you fill the space inside and outside,
Deeper.
That's very good.
And as you fall in,
Your eyes can be open or closed,
It doesn't matter.
It can perhaps feel so good right now to let your eyes rest.
Ahhhh,
That's right.
In,
And down,
As your eyelids close and the effort of keeping them open suddenly releases.
And you can feel so comfortable and so relaxed.
Your eyelids can feel like they're glued shut.
And you can discover you're so successful in relaxing your eyes,
They can feel like they're glued shut,
Tested,
And the one who's testing stops and drops down even deeper.
That's very good.
As you fall in,
I wonder if it's possible that you can discover that there's a number 3 floating in space.
And when you can see the number 3 floating in space,
Or perhaps you can hear it vibrating,
Or maybe just feel it inside of you,
It doesn't really matter.
But as you become aware of this number 3,
You're going to notice something.
It's going to change color,
And that color is going to be in perfect harmony with your emotional body.
I don't know what color that would be for you.
But as you experience this number 3,
The color starts radiating in waves as it goes through your whole body,
Effortlessly,
Cell by cell,
Into the veins,
Into your lungs,
Into every organ.
So let's now again breathe,
And this time when we breathe,
We're going to feel it pumping the number 3's aura of healing light into every cell of our body.
Let's breathe it in now.
Ahh.
.
.
Yes,
It feels so good.
And as the number 3 dissolves into a ball of colored light,
You find yourself falling down to the next level of trance.
That's very good.
And I don't know if you'll discover the Roman numeral 2.
Two pillars floating somewhere in space.
And if you can see those two pillars,
You can notice they have a sound.
And if you can't see them,
You can hear them.
And if you can't see them or hear them,
You can feel them inside of you.
If you can't see them,
You can't hear it,
You can't feel it,
You can make believe.
Make believe right now that there's a number 2,
A Roman numeral 2,
Floating in space.
And its color is such a soothing energy for your electrical body.
That's right.
All the wiring,
All the miles and miles of synapses and connections can be soothed by the waves vibrating from the harmony of these two.
These two poles vibrating in a certain frequency that sends a color and a sound washing through your nervous system.
So all the old wounds,
The places where you've been damaged,
The places where you've been broken,
The places where you've been short-circuited,
All those places now come alive in the healing quality of this Roman numeral 2.
And that's very good.
And as this Roman numeral 2 dissolves into pure energy and sound,
You can find yourself sinking down to the next layer of trance.
That's very good.
And now the number 1 appears.
And I don't know if you can see it or hear it or feel it or make believe that you can see it,
Hear it,
And feel it.
And this numeral 1,
When you look at it closely,
It's pure reflective consciousness.
It's a mirror.
It's shining.
It's shining without light.
What a mystery.
How can something shine without light,
But here it is,
Vibrating,
Harmonizing.
And as your body and mind become still and even more nourished and quiet,
This numeral 1 turns into pure energy and your body absorbs it and your mind becomes even more quiet.
And then you sink in so deeply that you can fall out the other side.
And I don't know if you can become aware of the vast empty space in front of you and the vast empty space above you.
And if you can become aware of the vast empty space behind you and below you.
How deep.
What are you?
Are you different from this space?
If you're not a man and you're not a woman and you're not a body,
What are you in this moment?
And now from here I'm going to ask you to give rise to a thought.
Before you do,
Let your mind get really quiet,
So still.
Stop.
Now.
I'd like you to look into the vast emptiness and see a bubble of thought form starting to form.
And the bubble is the thought,
I am with your name.
Watch it rise.
I am whatever your name is.
Let it come into your mind and think the thought and notice the effect.
And let it dissolve back where it came from.
Where did it come from?
What's it made out of?
Where did it go?
Back to where it came from.
Now give rise to the thought.
I am love.
Notice the bubble forming.
Let it rise.
Think the thought and notice the experience.
And then the thought disappears,
Goes back to where it came from.
What was it made of?
Where did it go back to?
What are you?
That's very good.
You're doing really well.
Your note in this celestial harmony is already singing.
Can you hear it now?
Can you feel how good it is to be alive,
As formless,
Timeless,
Spaceless?
Very good.
You're doing really well.
Tests will come from here.
Realizations will come and tests will come.
All states pass.
What's revealed here is something that doesn't pass.
If you stay true to the realization and not to the state,
All states will pass through this realization.
That's beautiful.
So body-mind consciousness will return as it does.
It may seem to appear to be in a body or the body may seem to appear to be in you.
It doesn't matter.
If you stay as you are,
Regardless of the change of state,
You're free of it.
You can be a free actor in it.
You can be a beacon of love,
Regardless of circumstance.
So I'm going to leave you now and you take your time to slowly re-enter the world of form and time and space,
Which is an appearance that has disappeared and will now reappear.
And I'll give you a clue.
My teacher says if it appears and disappears,
It's not real.
Thank you for being here.
Thank you so much.
4.8 (66)
Recent Reviews
Hope
October 31, 2025
So beautiful thank you Eli Love and blessings to you
David
August 30, 2025
So happy you are here
Allison
August 14, 2025
Opening breath of pure catharsis leading into a deep inner sensory experience..
Sarah
April 4, 2022
So good ❤️
Ania
April 28, 2021
If it appears and disappears it’s not real - beautiful and so simple! Thank you!
Edna
December 18, 2020
Thank you, very relaxing.
