Dear God,
Universe,
Or whoever is listening,
I don't know what to say anymore.
I've tried being strong,
I've tried holding it together,
But right now everything feels heavy and I'm just tired,
I'm tired of pretending I'm okay,
Tired of pushing through when everything feels stuck.
There's this quiet ache inside me,
Like I'm drifting,
Like I've lost the map.
If you're out there,
If anyone is out there,
Please send me something,
A sign,
A shift,
A reason to keep going,
Even if it's small.
Because today I don't need a miracle,
I just need one breath that feels a little lighter than the last.
One thought that doesn't spiral into despair.
One moment where I don't feel so alone in this.
I don't know what comes next,
I don't even know what I believe in anymore.
But I do know that I am still here,
And maybe,
Maybe that's enough for now.
So I'm asking,
Hold me,
Guide me,
Remind me that even when I feel lost,
I'm still moving.
Even when I feel broken,
Some part of me is still alive and listening.
I want to believe there's still something good ahead.
I want to believe I'm not forgotten,
Even when I can't feel it.
So I'm asking,
Stay with me,
Please just hold me for a moment,
Guide me back to myself.
Help me remember that this moment isn't the end,
Even if it feels like I'm standing on the edge of something too big.
And if nothing else,
Please let this be a turning point,
Or at least a pause that softens the weight.
Let this be the breath that leads to the next.
Let this be the start of something softer.
I don't need all the answers,
I just need to feel like I'm not invisible,
Like maybe life hasn't given up on me yet,
Like maybe I don't have to either.
So I'll keep breathing,
I'll keep listening,
And I'll keep whispering this prayer until something shifts,
Even if it's only inside me.
Amen.
