Power Grows With Self-Awareness And Acceptance

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Power Grows With Self-Awareness And Acceptance

by Premasudha Janet Hobbs

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We can embrace ourselves and take our power any moment we choose.A Dear One described facing a harmful dream figure and refusing to allow herself to be hurt.My own experience tells me that this simple dream action will impact her life in a wonderfully powerful way. When we run from our own truth and Awareness, it chases us because our job is to be true to our divine Nature while living our lives. So, feelings of restlessness, meaninglessness, frustration, and even trouble sleeping can all arise from denial. We don't have to be perfect. It is understood how difficult the Earth plane can be. Finally, as defenses get worn away, it gets easier to embrace ourselves as we are. Aspirations of perfection go out the window as we realize that all we need to do is embrace ourselves as we are. When we love and accept ourselves as we are, it becomes much easier to become the people we were born to be.

Self Acceptance Compassion Divine Grace Heart Opening Spiritual Guidance Dream Analysis Emotional Healing Inner Child Work Compassion Cultivation

Meet your Teacher

Premasudha Janet Hobbs

North Vancouver, BC, Canada

Meet your Teacher

Premasudha Janet Hobbs

North Vancouver, BC, Canada

Transcript

Uh huh. Many blessings to you all. Thank you for coming. It's so lovely to see your faces. We're calling on grace, Amma's grace. Surrounding you. I can see it around your faces, You guys. I can see. Light and activity. Around your faces. You're held with great. Compassion, And understanding about what it's like here on the earth plane. And I remind you that Kristen. . . Sonnenberg says. That the angels. Praise us for getting up in the morning. I feel this is true. Okay, Well, May we just have an exuberant? Our together with great. Opening of our hearts. And may our lives be blessed, And so it is. Huh. Oh, It's so lovely to see you. So I just, Before. This morning. I was overcome with feelings of utter compassion for what Amma goes through. To help us and what she's gone through her whole life. And as I felt this compassion, I made more and more room for Pramasuta in my heart. I made more and more room for all of you. Okay. For all of you. In my heart. You're all ready. Namaste. It's all the same heart anyway, But. I want you to know that. My heart got bigger this morning. And there's more room for you. Or room for you. To just. . . Be how you are, However you are. And that is how. The divine being that you are is in human form. You never can be wrong. You never really can be in error. Yeah. And the only time teachers get A couple things. I know from how Amma's been with me. That if I was really holding on to a level, She'd do chop chop. And then there was times where I really should know by now, You know, It's like, She'd given me enough time to learn. She put a lot of energy into helping me and now it was like, Learn. Okay, Now that is as loving as a hug. Because she knows that our souls want to evolve. Any teacher knows this. And please don't take it personally. I'll tell you, Alma has been like You know. I've gotten in trouble before, You know, More than once. So, Truly. You know, That feeling of having poked a bear, That kind of trouble. So, Please. If you feel like I've remonstrated with you recently, Don't take it too seriously. Okay, Just get the lesson. And move on. Perfect. Yeah. Just do your best. It will all be good enough. Okay. So this is a dreams and memories type thing. So, Does anybody wish to come forward? Or if you have anything you want to say, That's okay too. If you're really proud of some shift you made, You can talk about that. But we'll be, You know, We'll hopefully everybody will have had a chance to. Speak in these satsangs for their memories. So that's important too. Okay. I pass it over to all of you guys. Has anybody not come forward with an early dream or memory? Marion, Have you come forward? No, Not yet. Hello from a Sudan. I love it. Sweet words. Well, How about it? What's your. . . Do you remember a dream? Or first thing that you remember, Early memory? When I listened to the last satsang, I think it was Susan. That spoke and she. Like when she spoke. I remembered a dream and I didn't. Pick up yet because I thought I don't have a dream. I can't remember a dream, But then it just switched. So it came to me that it was. And I was about 12 or 13. Is nothing earlier than that? Nothing earlier? Not that I can remember. Okay, So go with this. Yeah, That one, That one, No. Just came again and this is one I really remember because I dreamt that I was in a bathing. . . What is it? Schwimmbad, Like the bathing place in the summer. And that I was. That I wanted to jump from a really high. . . Point in the water, Like 10 meters high. And I haven't, I haven't. Jumped. Of five meters. I had to jump from three meters. Plateau. Because the teacher just said I should do this. And that was really scary. But I had to did it. So I did. So and then I dreamt that it was a year later or so. That I was jumping from a 10 meters plateau. And I really. Remember how I climbed up the ladder. The pool did got smaller and smaller as higher when it came because it was so high and then I stood there and then didn't know if I could jump or not. And then I. Um. . . I got brave and did it. I stepped forward and I flew, Flew, Flew, Flew, Flew, And I woke up when my feet met the water. And it's, Um. . . Made me so nervous the whole day, Like in real life, That I didn't know how it felt. How to land there. After being so brave and jumping and flying down to the water. That I packed my stuff. My swimming suits. And went to the swimming bath. And jumped. So you did it in real life? When I was hot. When I was 13. Because I didn't. Because I didn't feel how it felt coming to the water after being so brief and flying and flying and flying and being scared and didn't know how it ended. Yeah, Very interesting. So what, What's your feeling about it? But sometimes I do. Do have to do things, Although I'm scared. And although I just don't have a clue how it will end. Although the mind is making up whatever it seems. I'm sort of impressed with the kind of the rite of passage that a 13 year old would have a dream like that and then feel dissatisfied and actually have the bottle to go jump off a 10 meter thing. It's good. I mean, It seems good. Peaceful warrior energy, You know good selfhood good Yes, A few years later I read that only Teenage kids? And pregnant women have dreams about falling. That this was a falling dream. So I read this, I have no idea if it's right or not. And I didn't have any falling dream afterwards. Not even when I was pregnant. So maybe it's true. I don't know. I just want to say that, You know, You guys were all scared of falling into our hearts. Okay. This is what we're scared of. I mean, We fall in love. That's okay. We've got someone to cuddle, But falling into our hearts for us. Yeah, So just. Yeah, Well. . . It's good. I mean, It just seems very positive. There's sort of a little bit of a cutoff between, You know, The flying and the physical experience, Which you You know, I know you, So I know that this kind of runs. But at the same time, You took action like that to get a direct response. I mean, I just think that's very auspicious you did that. That you took that action, Just feels really sort of important that you did that. I had no chance. It was like three or four hours of the day with a real feeling of I don't know how it feels to land there. If it was. Like if it did make sense to jump and to make this step forward. Actually, It was only a step forward. To fall then because I had one step and then I was flying. And the pool was so small, Like 10 meters high, 5 meters is the water, 1 meter 50 was I, Like high. So and I was so scared to jump from the three meter thing. A year before. So it was really, I don't know why I dreamt it. And actually, I don't know why I did it, Like then in real life, To make it. Yeah, It's also, You know, Facing puberty, I just think it's great. Yeah. Do you have an early memory? I thought about that too, And I have some early memories. Like and uh and the surrounding of my grandmother when we were little and were there, Not before we went to Berlin. My mother and my father got divorced when I was three. And she went to Berlin from Bavaria, A small village. 16 houses village to Berlin. So that was the step. And Um. . . The scene, When I thought about what scene would it be, It's the scene when my brother and I were in Bavaria. But not when we lived there, So I was maybe five. And he was seven around that, So he's two years older. And we were. I'm always playing outside. And Well, We were. Catching grasshoppers. Like in in the field. And I always did what he did. Like when he was climbing on something, I was climbing again. But not this time. Because he was like we were catching the grasshoppers. Like it makes me really sad. And he was catching them. With his hands and I couldn't because I didn't like the feeling when they were jumping around in my hands, But I wanted to play with him. I thought of how I could do it and I took some. Some MT. Yogurt cups. My grandmother always had this little yogurt, So I take those. I took those and then. We went out again and played again and then. Suddenly, He took the grasshopper he had in his hand and pulled out his legs. Right. And I couldn't do anything. I knew I can't. I can't fix the grasshopper, I can't. Put the legs on again, So. Then I knew it would die. Right. My yogurt. Bolts fall down and ran away. I was screaming. Because I couldn't. Yeah he did what he did and i felt so i was so Right now it feels. . . Like that. It is so clear. We are so one. Sorry, Say that again, What? The last couple of sentences? We are, We are so one. Like I felt that he was pulling up the legs of this little tree. Grasshopper was so, So mean and so. Um. . . I don't know the word in English. Bedeutungsvoll. Yeah, Cruel, Yeah. Yeah, Cruel, Cruel is mean but. . . Bedeutungsvoll means it really. . . Full of meaning. Okay, Thank you, Saskia. That it was full of meaning that he did this? Ian. I can't explain it. Oh, I think you can. This takes some time. It said a lot about him. It made a difference that he did this. It made a difference to me. I didn't feel so at one with him. No, No, Not with him, Not with his action, But with the grasshopper. You felt one with the grass. And afterwards, I could. Like know why he did it, Why he was so angry and what happens in the family. But nevertheless, This moment was so, It was so. . . Happy before and in one second everything changed. Are you friends now? Your brother and you. My brother and I. . . Not yet because not not now because he's still he's the one I prayed for or ask you to pray for. Okay. Oh yeah, I remember. Yeah, Yeah, Yeah. Okay. I don't have a. . . I don't, And how old were you? You were five or six? Did you say? Yeah, Going back. And this is where your grandmother lived, Right? So you're visiting from Berlin. Yeah. Okay. We were there for almost every holidays until I was maybe 14 or so. Yeah. You know you guys yeah. This moment. That happen like this are in a way are profound individuation moments because they we pull back from the other person, Like in shock. And basically, The only place to go to is the creator. So these moments, Sometimes we're scared of them, And sometimes we even deny them. Like in adulthood, There may be a really difficult moment and we really hear something that we really find unpalatable, We might smooth it over because we don't want to face that we think differently. So it's really important to admit The power of these moments feel really deeply and then take it all to Amma. Yeah, It's very sad. It's sad. It makes me sad. What your story and your brother's troubles after and. Yeah, Your little tender little girl heart, Right? Yeah. And you guys, Women, We are pro-life, OK? It is with the feminine, She will be pro-life no matter what. Okay, So. The masculine. Or a little more, You know. Cavalier. So it's just also how it is. I remember. My son. Had my dog's whiskers, The golden retrieval's whiskers, Which really kind of was crippling for her but wasn't particularly, He didn't have a malicious intent, But it's like, I would never have thought of doing that. Yeah, So I just feel like. Sending your brothers some prayers right now. There'll be a way that he's here too because of your. . . Your memory and you naming him. It's good. And also, Marianne, I want to say that I can see that you've got a greater capacity to be in touch with your emotions now. Since I last really talked to you. No, It's really good. It's fantastic. It takes courage. That's it. That's recovering your true power. It's fantastic. Yeah, I just want to honor that. Thank you. Is there anyone else who wants to speak or make a comment? You guys, I just want to say a couple of things that sometimes, You know, You go through periods where you might feel really uncomfortable on the journey. And just be there. Just be there, Don't take it too seriously. Just remember. Remember these words, You know. Yeah. If you can stay with being really uncomfortable without running. You can get through anything. So it's not to invite discomfort, But if you. . . Do feel really uncomfortable, Just be with it. Keep turning to Amma. And remember that you're becoming free. It's not wasted. And sometimes when we're on the verge of a big step, The ego really. . . Tries to get us back. And rattles a lot of chains. So just keep breathing, Just keep going. Know you're on the right track. Yeah, Please, Please, There's some of you. You know how I'm out. When she gives us hugs, Sometimes she strokes our arms. I have this feeling of like wanting to stroke your arms, You guys, Like soothing. Soothing you. It's all okay. It's all okay. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, Please. Yeah. Right soothing you, Please. Yeah. You guys, Just. . . Yeah, It's just. . . You know? It's an ongoing. . . Fast. You know, Just. . . Yeah, Just. . . We think too much, You guys. I mean, We've been taught that way. And the ego, When we're moving into truth, The ego can give us a lot of thoughts and everything. It's soothing. It's soothing. Yeah. Okay. April, Mr. Good, Laura. Laura. I have a shift to tell you about and I'm afraid to say it because I don't want to jinx it. Between trying to move. And I had a negative reaction to some medication this weekend. I couldn't think at all. And I'll wait. I've been having to. I had to be totally helpless. And keep going to the Creator. You've got to do this. Because I can't do it. I can't figure it out. Yeah. That's all. Yeah, Good. Might be sort of nice not to be able to. So, Yeah. Yeah, Just keep taking it to the creator. That's it. Okay, Has anybody else not come forward, Not had a chance? Um, Or is everybody. Yeah, Mitchie. Mint cheese. Yeah, Sorry, I'm just fooling around with my. You know. Oh, Here we are. Okay. Mitchie. Hi, Sweetie. How are you? Fine. Very fine. Thank you. I wanted to share a dream, But it's the same with Marion. I was already 12 or 13, I think. So I thought maybe it's too late, So I didn't share it before. OK. Well, Try it now. Sure. I was standing in the forest in the night and it was very dark. And then I recognized that I'm standing in a very small river. Just my feet were inside the water. And all of a sudden somebody came behind me and pushed my body into the water and then I drowned. And I was so shocked and scared that the next morning I talked to my mother and it was such a big thing that she had to do some. Ceremonies of I don't know. For all my lives. Because I thought it was something like that. It took me weeks to sleep well and to get out of this anxieties. Okay, So what do you think about it? Mmm. I think. I'm not sure if I remember it right, But there was no reaction of myself. So I just felt I have to die. There's no chance to move or to escape. Yeah, I think I was not. I'm not sure what do you think about it now that dream what's your like, What's your take on it? Like, What's, What do you see in that dream? And how does it relate to your life? Are you proud of that? Yes, The last days at the last call we had this topic about stereotypes and male and female I know. This person behind me was a man. And I think it's also kind of this lack of trust into man in my life. And yeah. I was never scared about darkness or something, But this kind of unknown behind me always scared me a little bit. Um, Yeah. But I had no idea about it. Yeah, Carl Jung would say the forest is a symbol of self. You know, Alma says that she she's in a river and we either jump in. Or not, You know. Yeah, So. It's You know, I think the point of the dream is very auspicious. It's actually to It moves you into the river of life, Even though you drowned, Right? It's a very small river. Yeah. That's, Yeah, Now yeah so it's just the beginning a little bit of a kind of a life force coming through but The thing I feel about with you psychologically is please understand this. Male coming in behind you is part of you. It's sort of like. . . This is what this unconscious male energy does to you in your life. You guys, This is how I really want you to look at your dreams, Okay? Look at them as, You know. . . The self is speaking to you to help you. Heal and balance. You know, He sneaks up on you and does this. I feel that you will feel this in your life. It's sort of like, Remember I was saying to you that it was time for you to become adult. It's kind of like there's this, It's a picture of absolute powerlessness. Yeah. And you're not, But I know you can feel like that and act like that. Yeah, Right. Right. And that's the heart of what I really want to communicate to you. This. You know, You're going to have to solve it. You're going to have to go conscious. On your unconscious material you guys as you proceed on the journey. What has been unconscious becomes conscious. So this energy that's been functioning like that, You can go conscious. About it in yourself. Yeah, And the first step. Is to watch. This is the importance of witnessing, You guys. We watch. We watch as maybe something that's happened over and over and over in our lives. We watch it happen yet again. And then you be fully with your feelings. With everything about it, You just watch it. This is, In a way, It's too big a step for you right now, Nishi. Yeah. Yeah, It's for you to realize, Though, That you are going to help to deal with this material. Nobody can save you. You. Have to Let yourself wake up. You guys, This is something, It's really important. You know, Christian Sundberg talked about how when he was in utero with the family he had chosen, Was too scared to go forward. So he used all his will and might and he willed himself Out of there. And caused a miscarriage. So I want to draw your attention to this is the level of our power. Like if you. Really, If you do things like lie on the bed and with all your heart and soul, Will something, Will yourself to awaken. We can do this. This is, You know, In a funny way, This is the kind of stuff that teachers, That spiritual teachers did in order to get where they are. Do you get it? This is the stuff I did, Even though I wasn't in utero, I would be using that level of will. To evolve. Before, Especially before I knew Amma. Right? You guys have that capacity. Many of you don't want to use it. You don't want to admit it. You don't want to use it. And there's no blame. We're conditioned. I get it. It's there. It can be activated. Activates. You know when it will activate? When you realize nobody else can save you. Right. And it doesn't even have to be as violent as his description of, You know, With creating miscarriage. It can be done. Gentler in a way like But I just want to say that level of power is in all of you. Right. And there's no rush, Like. And there's no demand, But I just want to keep sort of telling you this. Because you'll wake up to it. And yeah, This is a pattern. Is she from other lives? And we've been in this patriarchy. You know? You can go conscious on it. Yeah, Gradually. Gradually. You know this is it's it's like d It's like you've got a weave. You're re-weaving it, But you're also pulling out the old threads that don't work. And it takes time to pull them out, You know? You know. You could even Uh. . . You know, Play around with, Go back into the dream. And turn. Before the guide pushes you. Turn and look at it. Put Ama next to you and turn and look at him. Yeah, But does it feel right or does it seem impossible or. No, When you told me this, I remembered a dream I had one month ago. It was kind of similar. I was in a bathroom at a great store. And I was sitting on the toilet and somebody was at the cabin next to me and then the light went off and he was climbing into my cabin and told me that he will rape me. And I was very clear. I could open the door and I walked outside, Looked in his eyes. I imagined his head, I couldn't see him because it was very dark. And I told him, You have two possibilities. Oh no, You have just one possibility. This will not happen. I will leave the door. I will go outside and we will not. Turn and so I cannot see you, You have the chance to escape, But it will not happen, I will go out. And it was full of fear, But it was so clear that nothing will happen. And then I walked outside. Yeah, And then. He followed me. And I felt his presence behind me. And then I thought, Oh my God, When I will not turn around, Maybe he will take another woman and rape her. So I decided to turn and look in his eyes. And. . . Yeah, We looked into our eyes and then yeah, I walked away. Yeah. It was very powerful and it had very much strength. I was also afraid of, Okay, Now he knows my name, Knows my face, I know him. So. I don't know what to do, But I have to face it. You know, This is the kind of thing I live for. Let's just sew it! That is it, You guys. That's it. That's what every woman can do. And in their own way, Men do it. For when they have to. You know, Stand up to the woman for whatever she is. Yeah, But that's stunning. That's actually you know that is just what you needed to do psychologically. That's what what I was actually. And you could tell like when I was saying all that stuff and you're thinking well I've already done that. Right. Yeah, I was looking at my dream journal, So I remembered I had already such a dream. This lightens the world of emotional garbage. Every time we turn and face our fear, The whole world gets a little lighter. It is the most powerful thing we can do. I'm just. . . Gobsmacked. I'm very pleased. Yeah. Now you guys if any of you have had dreams where you didn't do that like please it's like this is just this is give yourself slack this is Mishi's time to Take a stand. Yeah, She has to do it now. It was beautiful. It was very seamless. Is anybody else moved by that dream? Any other women? Yeah. It's empowering. Right. Yeah. Thank you. Yeah. That's it. That's it. I mean, If women did this, You guys, The whole world would rebalance. This is it. Mother Nature would be so happy and we'd stop with these guys that are, You know. The Epstein's and the. You know, You know exactly what I mean. Yeah, We women, We're super, Super powerful. All we need to do is take our power. That's it. I'm like, I'm thrilled out of my tree. No really, I'm thrown out of my tree. Truly. Good. Wow. And those of you who were moved. I'm like so. . . Happy for you guys that you let yourselves be moved. Yeah, This is what this work is. See you tomorrow. Yeah. So you'll know each other's faces, But don't worry, Don't worry. He'll go seek help now. The dream stopped early enough. Yeah, Are we giving them to Amma? When you turned and looked in his eyes, What did you see in his face? What did you see? Anything? No, There was no hope. I think totally shocked of my clarity and that I was so brave. You're right. This is the thing, It will be honored, I told you that story about the woman who was picked up to be raped and she went into, In her case, She just went into compassion for them and they couldn't rape her and they had raped and killed, There'd been a series of women taken out to the moors. In England and this happened and they took her out there and then they brought her back. They couldn't hurt her. This is the same principle of wise people being able to walk through jungles without being bothered. If you're carrying love, There's a level of protection that is just infinite. Wow, Let's see. You got a gold star today. Oh, Cool. Okay, Made my day. Both you know you. Guys, I'm celebrating this because I know Michi, Okay, Too. So please, I'm not raising her up beyond anybody else. And Marion, You know, Your dream and your heartbreak over the grasshopper. Was super touchy. I just know Mitchie. And I also know how scared women can be you guys. I have been doing this for 30 years. I gave up on my own generation. Do you understand? With, Come on you guys, Come on. I gave up on them. No, It's just like the 30-something. Are doing it, You know? I should just zip it before I make my pies. Okay. Thank you. Thank you. Anybody else have any dreams or memories or is anybody proud of a ship they've made? Not that you have to be or should be. I want to really, I want to communicate love to you guys and embrace you and soothe you. I don't, I don't want to push you at all. At all. Right. Right. That's it. That's it. You're okay the way you are. All of you. Beautiful the way you are. You know, As a flower unfolds or a child grows, It's like they're beautiful at each stage. Nikki, I also think your thinking will get clearer as a result of this, Doing like that, Just your thinking. Will be clear and you'll be able to be more dispassionate. And. Yeah, And they'll be less static. You guys, When we take our power, We have less static. But our minds calm down. Our thoughts, What thoughts we have are clear. Yeah, Okay. Just everybody's. Funny, Everybody's being asked to receive love. You know, It's like, I feel like I'm not asking you guys to, But I can feel like we're all being asked to receive love. Let me put it like that. Yeah, All we can do is our best. It is there. And it works on us all the time. And we cannot fail. I don't know if you guys are feeling this. I'm feeling a little bit of. Like it's kind of like a little bit of feeling of heaviness, But in a good way, Kind of the heaviness of silence, The heaviness of unconditional love that is just being asked to come in. I'm not talking about that emotional heaviness. I'm talking about It's like the heavy fullness of silence. The heavy fullness of unconditional love wanting to come in. Through. Through the cells of your body. When unconditional love comes in, It strengthens the truth. Above. And R. Ego. Get smaller. So it's like the sun gets bigger in the skies and the clouds get bigger. That's it. And you are enough. Some of you don't feel like enough. You are enough just as you are. So you are, How could you not be enough? Of course you're enough. Couple, There's kind of a feeling of somebody feels at the breaking point. Just keep breathing. Keep breathing. Let's keep breathing. And we can embrace the feeling of being at the breaking point. Just embrace it all. You won't break if you embrace it. Just embrace it. That's often how we feel just before we're going to sprout. We feel like we're at the breaking point and then just embrace it and we sprout. That's it. That's it. That's it. Some of you are letting light in. Through your roots. Somebody's, Somebody's. Taking off his jeans. His arms were chained and he's going, I don't have to do this anymore. You know, Arms are reaching out and embracing. So if our arms are chained, It's hard for us to embrace or reach out. This gentleman is coming out of these jeans. So he'll be more better able to embrace. And reach out. Almost says the ashram is like a forest for her. Because they're like a field of flowers for me, Really. Is there any other dreams or memories? Prana Siddha. Yeah, Petiva, Sweet one. Can I talk about a recent dream? Yeah, Please go for it. I guess what made it more sort of powerful was the fact that so I'm moving in with Harvey right in the next couple of weeks and so we're bringing our families together. Yeah, He had a dream the same night I had a dream. And he had the dream about his ex and I had the dream about my ex. Exactly, Yeah. And so I was just so shocked by that, Like so shocked. And his dream was that she was crying and saying, Why don't you like me? And my dream was that I was reminiscing. Over missing him, You know, Like I missed him. And one of the camaraderie that we have. And he was in my house. Doing a business call. It was a very strange dream and I was embarrassed because I was looking at old pictures. And feeling this really heavy, Heavy sadness. Of what happened. And he wasn't engaged at all, But I was sort of like as embarrassed that, Oh, He's in my house. He must have seen that I was looking through all these pictures and reminiscing about him. And then he was in my office, Like on a call. But there was no interchange between us at all, Like none. And I just felt deeply sad. Oh, Yeah. Yeah. Sorry, Her ex was crying and saying what she crying and saying that she didn't understand why he didn't love her anymore. And that she didn't understand why he was so angry with her. And that, You know, That things didn't work out. And like, Yeah, Did he say how he felt about the dream at all? He was angry. He said he felt angry. He said he felt very hurt and very angry because, You know, Of the way that things have transpired that. Yeah, He didn't want to, You know, He never wanted to end his relationship really like it so he was. Yeah so he was feeling like he's getting pulled back into an old drama that doesn't make sense and yeah he did it didn't make sense to him and for me it's been so long you know like it was such a such a long time ago that i don't have the i don't I still have the hurts, They're there buried, You know? But I don't, I don't wear them the same way or I don't, I don't, They're not so close to me like they are for him. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And he's still fighting the battle with his kids. So he's, So he's in it, But mom was deeply sad. Like I just felt this real sense of sadness, Loss. So what do you, What's your feeling about it all? Well, I was disappointed when I woke up because I'd had some really lovely dreams. Like over the years, I've had some dreams where we've really come together and chatted and like, It's been really nice. And you know, When I got sick, He was deeply concerned. Like he told Jack that my son, He was deeply concerned about me, Very worried for me and always was asking Jack and it touched Jack's heart that he was so caring and worried about me. You know, And yeah, He's a nice man. He is. Yeah, He has a good heart. He's a nice man. And I think that was part of it too. I just think that was part of it too. It's like there's nothing like evil about him. Do you know what I mean? Like, There's nothing me. Yeah, There's a really, Yeah, No, Really no stand up guy. Like he's, You know, Yeah, A human being. And so I think it was just the sadness of that, That I feel a disconnect, Like, I would love us to be able to talk, I would love to be able to, To talk to him and not have this, Because even the caring that he showed to Jack, It changed Jack, Right? It changed his feelings. So anyways, Yeah, I just felt a great sadness, I think. I felt like, Well, What happened? I thought I'd had all these dreams of this being better. And yeah, So I woke up feeling a little bit like I wasn't, And it took me a long time to remember the dream. And actually it wasn't until Harvey told me he had this dream. And I went, Oh, I had a dream. That's what the dream was. And so then I remembered the whole thing after he, Told me. Well, In a way it's, It's not so surprising because right you're starting to. I mean you guys, He hasn't lived with a woman since his marriage broke up and you haven't lived with a guy. The couple of things. One is I have to say like just so just notice that you are like, When you walk when you realize the stream this kind of feeling of disappointment like, Oh, I thought right now. Right. And what I'd say is that this stream is taking you deeper. Do you know? So it's actually progress. It's not a bad thing, Even though You know it. Yes, So just you guys notice that notice how we greet these things, And it's very human, But yeah. Yeah, The feeling I get mostly is the feeling of that separation. And That is what we all come in to heal. Sweet one, You know. The separation. Yeah, Right. We don't like feeling it. We don't like acknowledging that it's actually getting in our way, That it's actually taking away our happiness or reducing our happiness. I'm just going to be with this for a minute. Yeah, It's funny. I want to say, You know, I'm not going to blame you, Sweet one. It's like this little. . . Hidden you that got humiliated, You know, That was humiliated. When you were little. Right so it can make it hard uh can make it hard to not help you, But it makes me cautious. I have to be careful with you. But I don't want to be so careful with you that. The work doesn't get done, Right? You're like a little kid bracing for a shot. I'm not going to criticize. I'm not going to criticize. It's just. . . This though the feeling of being separate. See? Sweetie, It will come up in any kind of soul work that you do. The separation will come up to be moved through. So first of all, You have to sort of see it and admit it, And then you can move through it. Okay, I'm gonna scroll back and just talk about how. When you actually get down to the business of living with somebody, Especially when they're other members of the family, Other kids, You know, It's bound to be a little challenging sometimes, Right? Yeah, Like how could it not? Are you worried about that? I was more before. I'm actually not as worried now. I feel this is really meant to be. So, I mean, I know you do too, So. Yeah, I do. I feel it's meant to be. And It's funny, I'm feeling like. . . I'm feeling like I'm asking you to kind of. . . Bend. And It's as if part of you doesn't want to do that. Like you've been so strong for a long time. Right, And you've had to be. You really had to be really strong. It feels different now, But it feels like, You know, It feels like I'm in a shift right now. Yes, I think you are, You know, Like, It feels like I'm just in this in between of like, Just take that step, Just take that step. And I know what you mean even when you're saying like, Bend. It's this. Making room. It feels like it's making room for more. Um. . . Yeah. OK, That's good. That's good. I can feel this openness around your heart. This is really good. Yeah. I noticed this, You pointed it out with Evie, You know, When we were talking about my eight year old, And I've noticed such a shift in working with her now. Really notice it's like. That work made me see her so much more clearly. Like really made me see the eight year old really made me see. What she's in. What she's experiencing with me, With everything, With all of them. Shit that's dumped on her. Um, And. Yeah. It's been beautiful, To be honest, It's been beautiful. No, I'll tell you that is you tapped into your soul energy, And it's beautiful. And it brought your eight year old self in. And so yeah, You get even more and Andrea, That's it. That is doing that is the the paydirt. It's the gold. And you did it. And you can do it more and more and more. Yeah. And I can see that too. I mean, I can feel that. Yeah, The more I just. Surrender to this, Like just the more I can surrender to it, The better it's going to be for all of us. That's it. That's it. Okay, Good. Okay, This is good to hear. Okay, Good. That's it. It just becomes obvious, Right? It's just like smelling the coffee. You just can't argue with it. It's just, Yeah. Well i think that's all i mean i i think part of the You know, It's a little bit with the group, You know, It's kind of. It's. But you know, Always when we're in front of a group, It's a little bit ugh. But she went. You're kind of new to this more sensitive level, Pratibha. Yeah yeah so we can always we can always work together Yeah, We can always meet and do more of that. Yeah but uh brave soul if we were doing this mother nature would rebalance you guys if all of us were letting in our innocent child energy there would be a revolution in the best possible way over the earth plane. Yeah. I feel like. . . Pratibha, Just keep doing what you're doing. You're starting to embrace, Like you're saying, OK, Yeah, This is all for the good. That's all for the good. And there are bound to be some ups and downs with all living together. Like with just the shock of it. Yeah. Just keep embracing, Embracing, Embracing. Yourself and everybody else. Yeah, I will. Yeah, You will. I can feel that. Yeah, OK, I can feel that. Yeah, I feel like I'm talking to the eight year old. This is really good. Yeah, It's like she said, I will. Yeah. And you're aligned with that, Which is why the words came through you, Right? So, Okay, Good. Good, Yeah, Fine, I will. You've got a great, Great house and a view. Sounds good to me. Yeah. I'm looking forward to it. Yeah. And he's another nice, Nice man. Harv. Yeah, It's a good man. Yeah. Thank you for speaking. Thank you. Anybody else got anything to say? You guys, When we're making a shift, Often we'll get a feeling of, We might get a little bit of happiness for like five minutes. And then it will keep growing. It's just like. . . We get these It's like a very quick, Like a scent of the ocean. The scent of spring, The scent of nectar. Ah, This feels, It's coming in. It will come in gradually. Comes in gradually, But those moments, You get more and more of them. Yeah, Kind of expanded. May be happy. Right. And that's embodying too. That is embodying. Hi Prama Sudha, Hi everyone, Lalita. Lolita, Where are you? Oh yeah, There you are. Yes, Sweet one. So I've been moving past weeks, Traveling a little bit, But I want to share, Speaking about this feeling you described right now, So I feel stronger in my body. I feel it physically, I gain some weight, A little bit, And my hair is growing more. So I just express my gratitude for that in this space, To feel it, To share it. Also, There is this fear, Because I'm back in Prague, Back home. And I started working after three months of not working. So it's hard for me. It's hard for my body and soul because it's not the work I want to do. I know that. But I'm working through these resistances now, I feel. Observing them more. And it was easier for me when I was out, Like I could have better distance, But now I'm back and I'm kind of trying to feel it out, Like, You know. What are you asking, Sweet winner? Yeah, I just wanted to share this moment of happiness I experienced. And yeah, I don't have a question, I think. So just that you're feeling stronger and. . . Your hair does look healthier. Like allowing myself to feel more. Not being away from the emotions. Now my body is learning that it's not dying when it feels. Those emotions. Right, Okay, Good, Because the ego's dying. It once. Yeah, But we're not dying. We're actually being reborn. It's beautiful. And I feel ready to be more open. I want to be more open to different possibilities in life. And feel like it's right. Yeah, So what I can feel is that you're willing to go higher like higher vibrationally actually you're willing to That feeling of being open to possibilities like that, It's actually where We're open to that possibilities, But it's also saying we're open to allowing our vibratory level to rise. I want to ask you, Why are you at a job you don't like? Yeah, Because. . . There wasn't another option at the moment. I didn't see it. But now I know there is, So I'm open to it. OK, Well, If this one doesn't suit me, You get another one easily. Or sometimes we change so much that it becomes OK to do the job. You're stronger. I want to validate you're stronger. You're more open. Okay, Just keep going. Just keep going. Yeah yeah it's slow you guys it seems slow Yeah, It's like pregnancy. But you know, Pregnancy, I mean, It's just nine months and you get a whole new baby. Nine months of evolution, Often you can get a whole new perspective. It's not wasted. Yeah, Thank you for this soothing energy today. It feels good. Right, You guys, Yeah. Yeah, You need it, I know. This world is in tumult. The sages in the East say the world's on fire. I mean, They say it's always on fire. You know, I think it's egos are burning away, Right? So it's on fire, Right? This interesting, There's quite a lot going on with all of you. It's like. . . This soothing and as if that will just help you come into the now more. Coming into the now. Most of us walk around stuck in past and future a lot. We don't realize it. As if you can relax into the now, That's it. That's the secret, You guys. That's where your power is. It's in the now. Yes, It is. I so honor you for the work you're doing, For turning up. For facing your lives. Just doing your best. Yeah. And please remember to. . . Praise yourself. Praise yourself, Yeah. Yeah, Please. I used to have like a voice of praise that I would keep going in me. And I used to think it's sort of like a used car salesman kind of voice. But I would be saying, Oh, Prema Sudha, That's so great. You're so strong. You're so great. Because inside I felt like so bad, Like not good enough and everything. So I had this. Voice. I don't really I just. No, It's like whatever works. Okay, Beloveds. Thank you. Thank you for coming. Thank you. Yeah, Blessings.