I am learning how to hold multiple truths at once.
Which is to say,
I am learning the way both grief and happiness make a home out of me.
I watch patiently as this gentle awareness dusts the fireplace and tempers the flame.
The more I allow space for both to live their lives,
Not favoring one or the other,
The more room I make for visitors of all kinds to come and go.
Which is to say,
When grief begins to wail and I cannot find happiness anywhere.
I blow out all of the candles.
I ask them to meet me under the skylight.
Here,
Under the quiet of the stars,
We decide we are all fleeting,
Gorgeous things.
Even as life spins and swirls all around me,
I can remain at home within myself.
I let the power of a new perspective give me the gift of spaciousness.
I am learning how to not take life so seriously.
That I can always pause,
Take a nap,
And try again later.
I can remember what it is I have control of and what I am invited to let go.
Even when grief feels as though it has made a home out of me.
I know what is actually sitting beneath the surface is love.
I lovingly create space for all of my emotions to flow through me,
Knowing that each of them will pass and leave behind their wisdom.
The only constant in life is change.
I am learning to find peace in the unknown.
I am strengthening my relationship to everything that keeps me anchored,
My feet on the ground,
My hand on my heart.
My breath rising and falling like music notes into the air.
I am exactly where I need to be.
The present moment is a wonderful moment,
Full of blessings and a chance to start again.
I release myself from the confines of perfectionism.
My authenticity flows from my heart,
Spreading a warm light throughout my entire being.
Filling the room like the laughter of my dear friends.
I give myself the time and space to move slowly,
To release urgency,
And the need to know all of the answers today.
I practice the art of mindfulness.
I release all or nothing thinking.
And I choose myself and my life over and over again.