I am slowly learning.
Take a moment to find a comfortable seat or lie on your back.
Allow your eyes to close and rest your hands comfortably on your body.
Take a couple of deep inhales and exhales here.
I am slowly learning.
I am slowly learning what it means to be human,
What it means to be fallible,
To act bad or to be at my worst and still want to grow from it.
I am slowly learning that I can be intelligent but also do stupid things sometimes.
I am slowly learning that growth can be messy,
That we can grow in the most quiet and dark moments.
I am slowly learning that the people who trigger me end up being my biggest teachers and it's so important for me to thank them even if they don't end up staying in my life.
I am slowly learning that the harder I am on myself,
The tougher I am on others.
So learning forgiveness both giving and receiving is not a weakness but a bold act of love.
I am slowly learning that I can sit with discomfort and pain without letting it define me.
No matter how broken to the earth I am,
I can still choose to rise.
I am slowly learning that I am worthy,
That it's okay to take up space and to use my elbows to navigate this world.
I am slowly learning that gratitude is so much better than entitlement,
That just because I had it tough before doesn't mean I am more deserving of a good life because we are all equally deserving.
I am slowly learning that seeking nuance can be incredibly freeing because life is not this or that,
Black or white.
Life is dynamic and we humans are complex.
I am learning not to assume the worst.
I am slowly learning that we are unfinished products with many loves to contend,
Battles to fight and we could all use the benefit of the doubt from time to time.
I am slowly learning that people who love you can be insensitive sometimes because we all have a wounded inner child.
I am slowly learning that I don't need to have all the answers in the world to move forward and to enjoy how to be.
Reflection and patience are powerful resources.
I am slowly learning that it's okay to set aside impulse and discover what is waiting to be found,
Not necessarily what we want to find.
I am slowly learning to find more magic and meaning in the most mundane and ordinary.
Most of all,
I am slowly learning to be less anxious about the unknown,
The uncertainty particularly in this pandemic.
Life is random and unpredictable but we are incredibly resilient beings and at the very least we can strive to put our best foot forward and just keep walking.
A step at a time.
I am slowly learning.
Take a deep breath in.
Take a deep breath out.
One more time,
Inhale and exhale.
And one last time,
Exhale.
Honoring wherever you are.
Thank you for practicing with me today.
I'll see you again next week.
