Breakthrough Training With A Hawaiian Kahuna

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Breakthrough Training With A Hawaiian Kahuna

by Premasudha Janet Hobbs

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With her signature humor and ability to put words to vague perceptions and feelings, together with her healing touch, Premasudha's work is life-changing. She has a truly great knack for assisting people out of the emotional prison of their ego/intellect into true freedom. This means that sometimes even serious diseases disappear too, as part of the emotional shift into a new more love-based understanding.

Hawaiian Spirituality Healing Freedom Love Personal Growth Parenting Self Love Mental Health Anger Forgiveness Emotional Healing Parenting Challenges Spiritual Journeys Spirits

Meet your Teacher

Premasudha Janet Hobbs

North Vancouver, BC, Canada

Meet your Teacher

Premasudha Janet Hobbs

North Vancouver, BC, Canada

Transcript

This video is about becoming lost and then becoming found. In it I'm going to talk about my personal experience and I often do, But it's to help make the spiritual training kind of or the spiritual information more understandable so we can see how it applies in human situations. And also it's a, You know, In lots of ways it's the story of going to extremes and of everything seeming to be all is lost and yet from that came just this priceless 24 karat gold knowledge. And so we should just never give up, Just never give up, Keep going. But anyway I'm going to go back to, Actually I'm going to go back to some early days where I remember going to a channel and she said to me, You'll never be free until you show your father, Express your rage to your father and show him your soul. And I remember thinking, Well, How do I do that? You know, But I was willing, I was willing. And I remember actually going and having a chat with my dad, Seeing if maybe I could, You know, Find my freedom through some chat with him, But we never really got anywhere. So I, You know, I was willing, But I sort of forgot about what she said. So then years later I went through some great difficulty in my 30s and some of you know this already and it's in my videos, But blow by blow it was this. And I'm going to tell you this before I get onto really the heart of the story. But anyway, So my son had leukemia, Had another beautiful baby. My husband left me. I went to a psychiatrist who was really into channeling, But he had no understanding of the spiritual journey. And I ended up becoming quite destabilized. You know, I can't even say it was him with the channeling because I listened to his channeling obsessively. Anyway, I had too many stress points in too short a period. And I ended up having a really bad nervous breakdown. And so then I was so madly trying to fix myself because my, Fix myself because my, My sons had gone to their stay with their dads until I recovered. And I was trying to fix myself so hard that I ended up having another bad one. And at that point, You know, It felt like this was not going to be an easy fix. And I didn't even know whether I was going to have any kind of a life. It felt to me, I felt so on the rocks on every level. So, But you know, As I spoke in another video, I, I wrote a letter to the universe and asked that within six months, I'd be able to pick up my kids. And indeed in six months from the height of my illness, I was better enough to pick up my kids and took them home. But you know, I really knew this soul wounding wasn't solved and I was very motivated to have a full life. I had watched my mom just kind of put a bandaid on her own wounding. And I knew that didn't work and I knew that part of the reason I'd gone into so much pain is because she put a bandaid on. And so what happens is the wounding just continues. It snowballs and it sort of can get worse with the next generation. Anyway, I knew that I had to do something that it was not anything I could just put a bandaid on. So I took the boys and I studied with a Hawaiian kahuna. We lived on the land and I wanted to grow and understand life more and understand myself. So you know, Abraham was a very wise man and he'd risen in the tradition of kahunas and to his great credit, He'd taken the training, The knowledge and taken it to white people. They're called haoleis. We're called haoleis, Yeah. Anyway in the tradition, If a true blood Hawaiian shared it with somebody who was not, They risked being murdered. So it was a very brave thing for Abraham to teach Caucasians. And so I was lucky. But so we did the training and there was at one point there was this orange ceremony. Now you know, This is Hawaii. It's warm. It's you know, We're learning the Aboriginal ways. Anyway, There's this orange mud ceremony where you have to take off all your clothes and cover yourself with orange mud. And then you do this sequence of walking, Sort of do these circles of walking. And anyway, I was in my 30s. I wanted to heal. So I was up for anything. So I'm walking along and I pass Abraham and Abraham's approaching and I swallowed him because I'm very grateful to him for helping me. He turns to me and he says, You are a terrible mother. And walks on and I walk on it and I'm kind of in shock. I'm like, Okay. And I'm thinking, Well, Here I am. I've had all these, You know, I've been sick. I brought my kids. I'm wanting to heal. And then I'm going like, How dare him speak to me this way? It's like, And it was like his words for me, They, A couple of things. One is they carried every, All the judgment that I had felt in my life coming particularly from males. That was one thing. And I had a lot of judgment from males. It was written in our family. It was very oriented toward the male. And the second was, It's like all in all the religious thoughts, You know, To when you're a thoughtful woman, You kind of notice that, You know, Feminine is kind of distrusted sometimes in religion. So all this was like, I was feeling like, Man, If I don't say something, If I don't do something, I'm going to be smaller my whole life. And it really felt a life or death moment that if I did not respond in truth, That I would never get out of this emotional prison I was in. You know, It's an emotional prison. I mean, There was even in this idiosyncratic thing in my family is my dad had a really rejecting mother. So I'm born and both parents look at me and go, Oh, She looks like Franny, My dad's mom. So it's like, So it starts right there. I'm going to be a problem for him, Right? But I didn't look like her at all. It's just the whole thing's the weirdest thing. Anyway, This is part of what I was struggling to come up out of. And you know, My dad had like criticized me and squished me a great deal. So, And I was a spunky kid. So it was very difficult for me. So when Abraham, I'm getting this big squish from Abraham and it feels so unjust because I had done everything to heal to, So I could be a mom to my children. I'd even walked into a second breakdown because I was trying so hard to get better to be a mom to my children anyway. So I'm really cooking with this. It's like we circle around again. And this time I really know that if I don't do something, I'm going to be forever smaller that I'd never get out of my wounding. So I walk by Abraham, I move and I stand right in front of him and I say, How dare you speak to me like that? You don't know what it's like to be a mother. You don't know what it's like to be a parent. And I start pounding him on his back. I'm seeing red. I am just pounding him with all my strength. I hear this sort of shock, Gasp behind me from some of the other women. I don't care. I'm just, I want my freedom. To Abraham's credit, He put his arms around me and just held me and said, Keep going, Janet. So he didn't fight me at all. You know, He didn't resist me. He just embraced me and embraced my state and with great compassion. And really it was the whole point of why he said such a provoking thing. He was wanting to get through my shell. He was wanting to give me an opportunity to allow this shell to come off me. And this shell had this, Was this rage and underneath it was this fear and grief that I was, You know, That when he put his arms around me, I went right into the grief, The grief that's underneath anger because fear and grief are underneath anger. And the grief is the grief of feeling so separate from all that is. And I just stopped with this grief that was just deeper than the, Deeper than the earth. I don't know how to describe it. It was like the grief of my own, The grief of the power treating mother nature, The grief of just all the hurt females have and all the hurt males have. And the pain of children, It was just, It was just all of it. And Abraham just helped me. He said, Keep going. So it went on and on. But the psyche, You know, We can't feel that depth of feeling for too long. We can feel it for maybe five or 10 minutes. And then there's a circuit break that comes in, Just it's, We start stabilizing. So that happened. And then Abraham sat with me afterwards and he talked about, To show me that he understood my pain, Which I already knew he did, But he was talking about in Hawaii after the war and the GIs, You know, The GIs left and there'd been some girls that they left pregnant and they'd been promised, They, You know, The guys had promised that they'd marry them and they hadn't and they'd been pregnant and they jumped off the cliff. He was talking about the pain of betrayal, Not just the pain of, You know, Feminine pain. And so, You know, And then the women who gasped later, I, They told me that they thought he was going to murder me, Which is, You know, It's kind of like, You wonder, You know, That, That okay if you stand and you, That if you just remind me of like, Oh, Women have to keep quiet, Come in, Sit down, Shut up, Don't, You know, Or else you'll, You know, Get burned at stake or something. If you really rise up, You know, You're going to get, You know, It's not allowed. So, It reminded me of that, That they had that response because, You know, He wasn't going to murder me. I mean, He's a very loving, He's a very, Very powerful guy, But he was a very, Very loving guy, Obviously, Because look how he handled me and I was just, It was a very, Very delicate spot for me on the journey. And you know, If it had been mishandled, It would have been much harder for me, But because he handled it so well. After that, I was a lot freer. I was a lot more peaceful. I was, I was far more forgiving of myself and also forgiving of males and understanding of males. You know, I just had more heart. I am very grateful to him that he did that. It's like, He was such a powerful man, But you know, He, That's the thing about, You know, I notice about that isn't always in our culture. Like he could be extremely tough off the charts, But he could be, He could meet a woman in any depth of grief or trouble she was in. He wasn't scared of it. He had the whole spectrum. So he could be the deeply, Deeply feminine and the deeply, Deeply masculine. I think sometimes with our civilized living that sometimes we get cut off from both our depths and our heights. We sort of are kind of numbed in the middle and we don't have access to our deep feeling or our deep power. But the reason I'm telling the story is, Is one, You see that makes sense with this channel saying, You know, You had to show my father that my rage and then him soul, Like the, My soul, I, I, I, I did it with Abraham. And then, You know, About five years after this, I realized, Oh, I did that with Abraham. You know, Express my rage and showed my soul. Yeah. And I, I stood for myself. It was a self love that I, That I responded to what Abraham said. I didn't just kind of numb out and pretend it didn't happen. I love myself enough that I knew it was an important moment. And, You know, I think I had all that trouble, Really in my life to wake up because I, I, I was carrying a really heavy resistance. And so the universe had to be pretty tough on me to crack through my shell. But as I turned and became willing, You see, I got like such great help. There was Abraham to help me, You know, And I got more help from Amma. You know, I've been hugely helped this life, Just part of why I just want to share. Okay. Thanks. Thanks. Thanks for listening. Bless your hearts. I hope this helped. Bless your hearts.