So whenever you are ready,
Close your eyes and focus on your breathing.
Focusing on your breathing allows you to quieten your mind.
And as you take your first deep breath in,
Take that breath all the way into your diaphragm.
Breathing in,
Connecting to your auric field.
And as you take your second deep breath in,
Take that breath all the way into your diaphragm.
Breathing in,
Connecting with your energetic field.
And as you take your last deep breath in,
Take that breath all the way into your diaphragm.
Breathing in,
And I would like you to bring up a memory in your awareness where you have experienced toxic masculinity.
And just sense who was involved and how it made you feel.
And as you do a body scan,
Connecting to your physical body,
From the top of your head to the bottom of your feet,
Let your body indicate to you where this energy lives inside of your body.
And take all of your focus and intention to that part of your body.
And I would like you to give it a color.
If it was a color,
What color would it be?
And give it a shape.
If it was a shape,
What shape would it be?
And on a scale of zero to ten,
How intense is it?
Zero meaning there's no intensity.
Ten,
It's very intense.
And what emotion and emotions does that energy represent?
And how do you know that that energy lives in that part of your body?
Is it a dull ache?
Is it a throbbing sensation?
A sharp pain?
Or tingling?
And as you take all of your focus and your attention to that part of the body,
The color,
The shape,
The intensity,
The feelings,
The emotion,
Allow that energy to spiral out and rotate clockwise out of your body and be in front of you.
And as you connect to this energy in front of you,
Allow it to split into two.
On the left hand side is the one that represents your abuser.
And on the right hand side,
It represents your inner self,
The one who was abused.
And I am going to say some words and I would like you to repeat them in your mind's eye.
And if there's something in addition that you would like to communicate,
Feel free to do so.
First,
We'll talk to the one who abused you.
I hate what you did to me.
I hate the way that you treated me,
Where you made me feel fear,
Unsafe,
Traumatized.
No one should have to experience this.
And when I needed love,
You gave violence.
When I needed protection,
You gave terror.
When I needed connection,
You gave me absence.
When I needed emotional safety,
You gave me your rage and your intimidation.
I hated your anger,
Your control,
Your manipulation.
And how you made me feel small and shame me for my feelings as you belittled and mocked me.
When I needed emotional sensitivity and softness,
You punished me with your absence,
Coldness and withdrawal.
You disguised your cruelty as jokes and dismissed my feelings,
Making me the problem.
And because of you,
I learned to silence my voice,
Making me think that my emotions were wrong.
I lost my sense of safety and the ability to trust and believe in myself.
You stole my right to feel safe and loved.
And I trusted you and you violated that trust.
You abused me and it wasn't tough love,
It wasn't strength.
You were supposed to protect me and instead you gave me danger.
I see who you are,
That you have also experienced this abuse where you've been controlled and experienced violence and anger and shamed for being emotional.
And you have carried this pain when you should have been protected and loved.
Instead you were terrorized and this has been passed down to you and nobody was there for you to teach you better,
To help you heal your pain.
And I'm sorry that you had to experience that in your life.
But I understand.
And now speaking to our inner self,
Thank you so much for showing up and wanting to heal.
And I am so sorry that you were harmed and made to feel this fear where you learned masculinity means danger and threat,
Where you had to protect yourself constantly.
And were hurt mentally,
Emotionally,
Physically.
And you questioned your right to exist without fear.
And I am so sorry that you have experienced this rejection,
Loneliness.
And feeling scared.
And you had to experience this violence instead of being treated with love and care.
And I am sorry that I was not there for you.
And you felt abandoned when you needed protection.
But I am here now to help you and support you.
Thank you for not losing your humanity.
Thank you for your gentleness and your capacity to feel.
Thank you for trusting and coming back and healing.
You are safe.
You are protected.
And you deserve to be treated with respect,
Kindness and emotional availability.
You are worthy of gentle treatment.
Worthy of emotional connection.
Worthy of love.
You don't need to carry fear anymore.
You can learn to trust.
I am here for you.
To love you.
To care for you.
To build you up.
And together,
We move towards healing,
Safety and loving connections.
You are loved.
Protected.
And so with love,
I let go.
I let go of any contracts.
Any pacts.
Any decisions.
Any vows.
Any promises.
Any karmic contracts.
Any soul contracts.
That I have made to the cycle of toxic abuse.
You are free.
I am free.
We are spirit guides.
Healing team.
Peace,
Release,
Remove and clear.
This energy from the cellular memory.
From the DNA structures.
From every cell.
Every nerve.
And every fiber.
I release it.
And I let it go.
Spirit guides.
Healing team.
Universe.
Please release,
Remove and clear.
This energy.
From all dimensions.
From all time frames.
From this lifetime.
Or any other lifetime.
From the point of creation.
I release this.
And I let it go.
And as you imagine.
This part of you.
The inner self.
In front of you.
I want you to give.
That part.
Anything that it needed.
In that moment.
If it needed.
To be loved.
Hugged.
Kissed.
Cuddled.
Made safe.
Strength.
Whatever they needed.
Give that to them.
As you allow.
This inner part of yourself.
To turn into a symbol.
It can be a symbol of your choice.
Whether it's a diamond.
Whether it's a flower.
And as it turns.
Into this symbol.
Allow this symbol.
To move closer.
Towards you.
Towards your heart.
Placed in the middle of your heart.
Safe.
Protected.
And reintegrated.
Now imagining.
A being of light.
Whoever.
You are connected to.
Whether that's.
An ascended master.
An angel.
Or a loved one.
Bring that.
Being of light.
In front of you.
And see them.
Holding.
A beautiful.
Healing.
Energy ball.
And this beautiful.
Healing energy ball.
We can infuse it.
With any.
Energy.
That we want.
So I would like you.
To think of.
A positive emotion.
Give it a colour.
And let that be placed.
In that energy ball.
And see that colour.
That emotion.
Swirling around.
In that energy ball.
Thinking of.
A second.
Positive emotion.
Allowing it.
To be placed.
In that energy ball.
Swirling around.
And a third.
Positive emotion.
Giving it a colour.
Being placed.
In that energy ball.
And this being of light.
Infuses.
It with their power.
Their energy.
And they move close towards you.
And they place that.
Into your heart centre.
And allow your heart.
To be infused.
With these positive emotions.
And these colours.
And it spreads.
Through your chest.
Down through your torso.
Down through your legs.
Your knees.
Your feet.
Back up.
Through your legs.
Your lower back.
Towards your upper back.
Round your shoulders.
These colours.
These emotions.
Going through your whole body.
Down your arms.
Your hands.
Your fingers.
Back up your arms.
Through your neck.
The back of your head.
Your forehead.
Your crown.
Your cheeks.
Your eyes.
Your nose.
And landing on your lips.
And feel these energies.
Positive emotions.
These colours.
Vibrating.
Through your physical body.
Spreading out.
Through your energetic body.
Your auric field.
I command a healing.
Of the highest order.
To upgrade.
Every cell,
Every nerve.
And every fibre in our beingness.
With the highest levels.
Of love.
Peace.
Joy.
Confidence.
As you bring.
A smile.
From deep within.
For the work.
That you have done.
As you feel those energies.
Taking a conscious breath.
Coming back to my voice.
Coming back.
To yourself.
And when.
Ever you are ready.
With love.
Peace.
Unity.
