Does Spirituality Permeate Your Life Or Stay On The Edge?

Hello everyone!

Again,

Welcome to another video on SoulWidomins.

I'm really grateful that you're part of this membership site and I'm really happy that you're enjoying the content that I've been putting out there.

I wanted to answer a question that Robert,

I believe Robert asked this question and I thought it was such a brilliant question because I never even thought about it until he asked the question and I'm like,

Oh right,

Yeah,

That's how I do things.

So that's why I really do love the questions that you ask because it really teaches me about myself and more about the world and also more about what you're interested in.

All of those things I'm interested in ten times more than anything else.

So I'm really grateful for your questions and please,

As I said,

Please keep them coming because I am excited for them.

I'm excited to talk about the issues that you want me to talk about rather than what I want to talk about.

And the question was literally something like,

Is spirituality something that I do at certain times of the day or is it something that permeates all aspects of my life and all times of my day?

And as you can imagine,

I was very excited about this question because I love talking about spirituality,

I love talking about my relationship with God now that I'm finally comfortable with it.

It took me so long to get to this point and now that people are like,

Let's talk about God,

I'm like,

Yes,

Let's do it.

But also it was kind of interesting for me to realize,

Yeah,

Actually there's two sides to this situation.

First of all,

I actually sometimes feel embarrassed or ashamed of the amount of time I spend talking to God or having conversations with God or being with God.

Because sometimes it feels like,

Oh my God,

There are people who are dying in this world of hunger,

There's a lot of crazy things going on in the world,

What do you doing here?

Spending your time talking to God,

It seems kind of superfluous,

Even though it's not.

But my scientific mind,

My analytical mind,

My consumeristic mind,

My capitalistic mind says,

Hey,

You're wasting your time,

Do something more useful with your time.

So that's part of this issue as well.

So sometimes what I'll do is I'll want to spend more time with God,

But I get ashamed or embarrassed by it and I don't.

On the other side of the equation,

There's times where I'll just be sitting there not doing anything particularly formal about my relationship to God,

It's not like I'm meditating or praying or formally doing anything,

But I'll just be sitting there and just be basking in the glory of everything that I've been given and the glory of this world and the glory of God.

Everything around me,

The trees,

The leaves rustling,

The breeze blowing,

The clouds moving,

The water trickling,

All of it is just basically God reminding me of Himself.

You know,

Like it's constantly God telling me,

Hey,

I'm here and let's have a conversation or let's be together,

Let's just spend some time together.

And so a lot of times I'll just be sitting maybe on this beanbag or somewhere else and just be,

Being in the moment and saying thank you God,

Thank you God,

Thank you God,

Over and over again.

And that's something that I do a lot during the days and I just thank God for everything that I have,

Everything that I am,

Everything that I do constantly in my mind.

I'm like,

Thank you,

Thank you God,

Thank you God,

Thank you God.

And that literally is a lot of my prayer to God is about my gratitude for Him,

To Him and to her,

To it,

To that divine creator.

It's literally that's basically a lot of my prayer,

What it's all about is like,

Thank you,

Thank you,

Thank you,

Thank you for everything.

And so,

You know,

A lot of times I will have days where a lot of my days are just spent in this mode of gratitude and just saying thanks to the universe,

Thanks to the divine creator for making me,

For giving me everything that I have,

For giving me enough food to eat,

Enough clothes to wear,

Space to stay in a warm bed at night and all the other things that I've been given so much,

So much so.

So that's again another part of the equation.

And then also there's the last bit I would say is where,

You know,

I have days where I get very busy with work and I get distracted a little bit by it.

You know,

I'll be doing videos and I'll be writing and I'll be going to meet friends and I'll be doing this and that and sometimes some days get very busy where I'll get to the end of my day and I'll realize that I didn't have anyone's single conversation with God.

I didn't even have one basic conversation with Him.

And it kind of feels like I missed out somehow,

You know,

I feel like wow,

That was,

I mean I did a lot and it was a good day,

I mean it was a fun day,

It was a good day,

A productive day,

But somehow it feels like something was missing,

Like something,

It was empty of the most important thing you would say,

You know.

So I try as much as possible in those days when I have those days to lie in bed at night while I'm falling asleep and just repeat God's name or say thank you to God or,

You know,

Say the prayer of the heart which is Lord God have mercy upon me.

It's a Christian prayer but,

You know,

I really resonate with it and I've been saying it a lot,

You know,

Whenever I have time I'll just say Lord God have mercy on you over and over and over again.

Not that I'm Christian or anything,

Or religious in any way,

But that prayer has been repeated so many times over the centuries that it has a certain resonance to it and I love that resonance.

It's the resonance of faith,

It's the resonance of devotion,

It's the resonance of ultimate trust in God and that's the resonance that I want to build in myself so that's why I repeat that prayer.

And so that's another thing that I will do and so even if I get like 10 minutes of that,

You know,

Before I fall asleep because I'll just keep on repeating it while my eyes are closed and I'm lying in bed and I'll fall asleep to that kind of resonance.

I'll fall asleep to that vibration of being with God and it feels really good and actually makes me fall asleep faster and calmer and smoother because God's with me,

You know,

God's around me,

I'm speaking to God,

He's with me.

And so those are the three aspects of how I live my life in terms of spirituality.

I would like it if spirituality was with me in every moment of every day,

But as I said I do get distracted somehow and become unconscious I would say when I'm doing certain things and I'm like typing away and I'm so focused and I'm so important,

Look at me.

And I forget,

You know,

That oh yeah,

God's working through me.

It's not me doing these things,

It's Him or her and it.

And I wish I could constantly keep Him in my mind while I did everything,

Everything that I do with my life.

And that's again obviously something that I'm working towards,

Hopefully in the future I will be at that point,

But right now I'm not and I do get distracted and I get unconscious and I get into a mode where I'm like I didn't even think about Him all day,

How could I do that,

You know?

How am I living my life like this?

It feels really empty and soulless really because it's when I connect with God is when I connect with my soul,

My deeper self.

It's so easy to connect to my deeper self when I'm connected to God.

It feels almost effortless,

Right?

And so I think that's one of the reasons why I'm so connected to my soul right now,

To my deeper self is because I'm connecting to God every single day in whatever fashion.

It doesn't really matter,

Like it could be a meditation,

It could just be sitting here and appreciating nature as I said or it could just be sitting there and repeating some mantra over and over again or repeating my gratitude for Him or helping someone else out and giving gratitude to God that way because He's given me so much so I want to give back somehow.

There's so many different ways to do it,

Right?

I mean dancing as well I think is a way of being with God because you're appreciating your body and moving your body and letting go and just being alive and I think even just that is a huge,

Huge gift to God because I think that's a lot of what He wants us to do is to really be in ourselves,

To love ourselves,

To feel gratitude for Him obviously but also to be truly alive,

To have all of these experiences for Him,

All these experiences to learn more about ourselves,

All these experiences to be more of who we are rather than more of what other people want us to be.

And so there's many ways obviously to appreciate God,

To be with God,

To be spiritual.

There's so many different ways I'm sure,

So many more ways that I haven't even experienced yet and I'm sure you all have a very different way of being with God as well.

I would love it if you told me some of those ways as well.

But yes,

Spirituality is not something that I want to only do when I go to a temple or a mosque or a synagogue or a church.

I don't like that.

That's one of the reasons why I was really against the idea of religion in the beginning because it made me feel really hypocritical.

I'd be mean all day long to my family and then I'd go to a church or sorry a temple and then I'm nice to God and that's it.

And a lot of people did that in my circle as well where I would see husbands being cruel to their wives and children but then going to a temple and being really nice to the priest and to everyone around them and I'm like,

You know,

You're so freaking hypocritical,

God can see everything you're doing.

So just because you come to a temple and pretend like you're a good person doesn't do anything.

It made me really angry as a child because I could see the hypocrisy in it and I could see the hypocrisy in me.

And so I would just pray to God wherever I was because He was in me and I was with Him all the time.

So it didn't matter and I don't want it to matter even now.

He is with me all the time.

He's in me.

He's in my heart,

In my consciousness.

He is what makes me up.

Every cell in my body is made up of Him.

And so I don't need to,

And also the word that I'm using,

Him,

Is just because it's convenient.

It's not necessarily meaning that He is a man or He is a woman.

He doesn't have a gender.

He just is.

His essence,

His consciousness,

His energy is light and it's ungendered.

So I just use the word Him just because it's just easier to say it when I'm doing a video.

But I just don't want to be like,

Alright,

Here,

When I come here to my altar and pray is when I have God.

When I'm doing this other thing,

When I'm hanging out with my friends or having delicious food or having sex or whatever it might be,

Then I'm not with God.

That's not how I want to live my life.

I want to bring Him into all aspects of my life,

Good or bad.

I don't want to hide anything from Him and I don't want to hide any aspects of my life from Him or pretend like I don't need Him in those aspects of my life.

But again,

These are just things that I'm learning on my own and of course it's very interesting for me to speak about it because it really teaches me about what my real thoughts are on the subject because I'm like,

Oh really,

Is that how I think about it?

Oh,

Fascinating.

It's the first time I'm being open about these subjects in this manner so it feels very different to me than how I used to live my life before,

Which is very much like hidden spirituality.

I would hide and do these things.

I would meditate but I'd hide about it,

Like I wouldn't talk about it.

Or I'd hide in a corner or in my car and meditate or be with God or I would pray when there was no one around so no one could see me and make fun of me.

I don't want to do that anymore of course and I'm far away from that situation but I do sometimes still have moments where I'm like,

Hey,

What am I doing?

Why am I not bringing God into this situation?

He wants to help me.

He's always there.

Why am I hiding?

I'm sure I could say a lot more on this subject but I'm going to end it here and again if you want me to speak more about this,

Please let me know and I will keep on talking about it.

I love talking about God and about spirituality.

And hopefully this answers your question Robert and I'd love to hear your perspective on spirituality as well.

How does it permeate your life and all of your lives,

Not just Robert?

And share it in the comments below.

I'd love to hear from all of you.

Again,

Thank you so much for being on my membership site on Soul Vitamins.

I really appreciate all of your support and I shall see you the next time around.

Bye.