I'm feeling trapped.
Small things feel so big.
I run out of steam so fast,
And I'm convincing myself over and over,
There's no time to take care of me,
There's no time to reflect,
There's no time to do the things that could help me,
Because I just have to deal with everything.
I feel overwhelmed.
I'm just in this cycle of trying to hang on,
Get through the day,
And survive another one.
I know I'm not where I am and I'm not how I feel when I'm at full strength.
I'm not even where I am or how I feel when I'm at half strength.
And I'm having this hard time even acknowledging that I feel overwhelmed,
That I feel so much pressure,
I feel the weight of too many demands on me,
I feel myself crumbling,
And I'm refusing to help myself.
Wait.
I can take a moment,
Without judging myself about how big or small this moment is,
I can take a moment,
A small moment,
And help myself to really look at what I can do,
Even the smallest things,
Because I'm feeling the consequences of being emotionally worn out.
It's okay.
I need to remember I can make a change that lightens my load,
Even if it adds to others.
Anywhere that I can bring down or let go of expectations,
I actively do that out of love for myself.
When I just gotta talk it out with someone,
I go to safe,
Trusted,
And supportive people.
I am bringing down the overwhelmed energy,
And I am building clarity.
I give myself many breaks,
I give myself many breathers,
I give myself many escapes,
I keep fueling what is helping me cope,
Me cope,
As I also dig deep for better systems of coping.
I adjust what I need to,
I communicate what I need to,
I go where I need to,
I am giving myself space to release the emotional exhaustion.
I am making time to recharge my batteries.
I can cope with life's challenges.
I can make it through this season,
Because I am doing my best,
And I give myself credit for that.
I stand up to self-criticism,
And help myself through these challenges.
I make time for what will help me,
Even if it's just for very short bursts of time.
I serve myself tools,
Systems,
And opportunities that boost my strength.
I am enlightened in how I am getting through this.
There is love filling me,
There is love finding me,
There is love fueling me.
