You know,
My mom,
Who's doing us a great spiritual service by being my example of what not to do,
Right?
Although,
You know,
She triumphed on her deathbed.
She did a lifetime's work on her deathbed,
So it's all good.
And she helps us.
I know she does.
And she's happy that I do this,
That she'll have no trouble with it.
Anyway,
She used to,
Like,
Be interested in the spiritual journey and did human potential things that were big in the 50s,
60s,
And 70s in North America.
And at the same time,
When she and I were talking,
And I would be talking about dreams or intuitions or whatever,
She would say,
Oh,
I don't pay any attention to that sort of thing.
And I'm like,
Okay.
And I'm thinking to myself,
Well,
If you don't pay any attention to that,
What do you pay attention to?
And I'm like,
But this is the,
This is the,
What the,
How do you go on the journey without this kind of paying attention to the subtleties of our experiences,
Our dreams and our,
You know,
Just the subtle perceptions that come.
They're the journey.
That's it,
You guys.
How your body's feeling,
Your intuitions,
Dream of the dream made you feel.
What happened after the dream.
And this is the journey.
So,
You see,
In the West,
We tend to,
You know,
Look for boxes.
What box do I have to open to go on the journey?
And it's like,
It's actually to come out of the boxes,
To just go forward with,
I just want to be a wise person and just have kind of be open-ended about it.
And just let the universe take you where it takes you,
You know.
So,
Sometimes students will say to me,
Oh,
Yeah,
I don't pay any attention to that sort of thing.
And I'm like,
Oh,
Do pay attention,
Do pay attention,
That's the journey.
Yeah.
That's your isness.
That is your,
That is your getting to know the,
You know,
You're getting to know who looks out through your eyes.
We forget this.
We forget to put this in part of our equation about who is looking out through our eyes.
And we make it all out there.
But the thing is,
Everything we see that's out there is just being hallucinated by us.
It's reflecting back us to us to wake us up.
So,
Remember I've talked about when I went to England and I was hired by the meanest editor in England,
Like famously mean.
And it was like,
It was just like an iron filing to a magnet.
I mean,
That he reflected my complex.
I was there.
And then as I faced fear,
And not only fear,
But I faced the disregard I had for myself.
I faced the contempt I had for myself and the disregard and I faced it and I decided not to continue with that.
I decided to love myself.
Then none of that stuff happened again.
It just all stopped happening.
When we get the lesson,
Different things happen to us.
We're sending out kind of an energetic storyline that invites a particular storyline to happen to us.
Yeah,
That matches the storyline that we're carrying in the cells of our body.
And through prayer,
Meditation,
You strengthen the soul in the cells of your body and you dislodge this ego.
And you start,
The storyline starts getting,
Starts fading away.
So they get scrubbed off.
