I had a dream the other day that a fellow I know was asking me how to deal with suicidal rage that was rising up in him.
And my feeling is it was a true dream,
That it's true that it is arising in him and he doesn't know what to do about it because he's a very reasonable man.
So rage,
Yeah,
A couple things.
One is it's a signpost of the ego clearing and the deeper the rage that comes up the bigger the step into love power,
The bigger the step out of fear actually.
But it's very unsettling for us,
Especially if we consider ourselves reasonable because it's sort of like most of the time emotionally we're like icebergs where a little bit shows and but the big bulk of us,
Of what's running us is underneath its unconscious.
So just to handle rage,
The more you can observe it,
If you can observe it,
And the more you recognize that it's your ego clearing,
The easier it is to not get caught in the storyline.
The more we're caught in the storyline,
The more we believe the rage and the more we're,
You know,
The impulse is to act it out and you know actually it out is just not helpful.
It's like,
You know,
My teacher,
Amma calls anger is a two-edged sword.
It hurts the person you're angry at but it also hurts you.
You see,
It is it's happening because it's coming up to be cleared.
So you know if you can do constructive things like,
I don't know,
Talk to somebody about it,
Write it out,
I would get in the car and scream,
Scream into my pillow.
We don't have to act it out.
It doesn't matter how strong the emotions are within us,
If we really get that it's just our ego and the storyline is our ego and it's clearing,
Then we can let it go and step directly into acceptance and love,
Into the most beautiful surrender and to truth.
You know,
The anger is historical.
If you think of children,
You know,
Think of the terrible twos and the tantrums.
You know,
When the,
This is when the ego is coming on and for children,
They feel rage about it because their experiences,
You know,
Being raised by two parents often in their egos that in order to just cope with the family climate,
The child feels impelled to disconnect from their soul too and just connect up with the ego and there's this feeling of utter despair and anger and annihilation,
Fear of being annihilated that the child feels because they're losing their connection to their truth.
It's horrific and the reason I know this is when I was studying with Abraham,
The Hawaiian Kahuna,
I was on the table once and there were several people working on me and I couldn't keep track of all the hands and suddenly I was three years old and realizing that I had to give up who I really was,
The truth of myself to fit into my family emotional climate and that my parents didn't love the real me.
They didn't even want to know the real me because,
You know,
They didn't want to know their real self so they would do the same to me and that I would have to become kind of a facsimile of myself,
Become more like someone turned into the person they wanted me to become,
Become more of a puppet,
You know.
It was just telling the extent of the anger and the despair and the feelings of being annihilated,
We're off the charts.
I mean on the table I was screaming and afterwards Abraham told me,
You know,
You don't need too many of those to find enlightenment.
Well I needed several but anyway.
This is what's going on in us.
I mean this is why,
You know,
In the news you have solid citizens suddenly erupting and murdering their families,
You know,
Because it's in many of us underneath and part of the journey of becoming conscious is learning how to feel really dense and comfortable emotions.
I was about to say commotions.
They do cause commotions but deep emotions without totally upsetting the apple card and that's why,
You know,
Practice and meditation practice helps or,
You know,
A physical activity dancing movement running,
You know,
Just so that this material can come up and we can find ways to express it without acting it out.
This is,
You know,
Really this really important time I've talked about that we're in this really important hundred years of we're deciding the future of humanity basically and we're about 70 percent through it.
So you know it's how we handle our own anger that really matters if you think of millions of people who,
You know,
With COVID and other difficulties,
Economic difficulties,
If the anger is,
You know,
Catalyzed it really matters how they handle it for really the future of the human race and so our power is to work with ourselves individually.
Yeah,
It really matters how we handle these things and,
You know,
We're all human so we're gonna blow it sometimes but then,
You know,
The more you steer into being able to just observe your emotions without buying into them so much or acting them out the freer you'll be and please,
You know,
Don't be scared of your anger,
You know,
It's just the other side of love.
I mean if you if you have really infinite love that you're wanting to express,
You know,
And it's not allowed,
I mean inevitably there'll be an emotional reaction so that's all the anger is.
It's really you're just clearing,
You're having kind of an operation and it's kind of the blocks to your divinity are clearing and it can be unsettling but I'll tell you if you just pray for it to come at the best speed you can handle and you pray for all the support you need for your clearing as you go along,
It will come,
It will come.
So just go conscious as much as you can over,
You know,
Your emotional states and if your if anger is coming up to be cleared it's a tremendous gateway to your soul.
So bless your hearts and you've got,
You know,
All my support and all the,
You know,
Much more loving people here on the earth.
They're all holding the space for you to be able to transform.
I mean God is certainly doing that and all the people who fought all the eco battles and all their,
You know,
The inner battles with anger and fear and have come to some understanding they're holding the space for you to be able to do the same thing and,
You know,
Watching videos,
Keeping your head up,
Keeping your mind up and steering towards,
You know,
God and a bigger understanding and if you know a wise person,
You know,
Staying in contact with them.
Anyway,
I know you'll be okay and my anger is clearing and you know,
If you wish to,
You can move into more freedom and love power and so be it.
Bless your hearts.
