Q&A Satsang: Love Face To Face

Last week I was talking about with Franka,

I was saying that there was this really high level angelic energy that was with her and it needed her to sort of decide to be with it.

And then Franka has gone into an opening of her high heart.

You see,

And the angels were not really going to leave.

They were just actually using me to put an exclamation mark about our processes,

About the process to remind Franka of this evolutionary work and to pay attention.

And you know,

Franka,

I'm using you as just an example.

You came back from the ashram and you were,

You know,

Her husband wasn't available to help with the kids.

So she was,

You know,

Slammed with a job and kids and not thinking in the higher way.

So the angels said to me,

Like,

Ask her if she wants us to go,

Basically.

So I'm wanting you to,

Like,

Realize it's real,

You guys.

And you do have to keep it in mind and keep letting the universe know that you're really interested.

You have to think of it,

Stay focused on it,

Remember it.

In this case,

This angelic input was just really,

It was to help Franka,

It was really to help you move into more faith of the process.

That's why they involved me with it.

Do you see what I mean?

So I could talk about the angels and then also support this movement into your high heart.

Most of us,

When we talk about heart openings,

You know,

It's that warm feeling and feeling more connected to all humanity.

But the high heart,

When that opens,

You guys,

You're moving into your soul contribution.

And that takes more focus and more attention.

And it's a real achievement to do it.

This work is high heart work.

You guys,

I promise you,

You get whatever you focus on.

Just keep focusing.

Just keep remembering the creator,

Amma,

The universe.

Yeah.

Just the same way you remember a lover,

Right?

Or a parent thinks about their children.

Yeah.

You don't have to force yourself.

It's like parents think about their children because they love their children.

Yeah.

Just let yourself love the creator,

Love your heart.

It's the most radical,

Revolutionary thing you can do.

Just move into your heart.

But I'll tell you,

The universe will take care of you.

It's like,

That's my example,

Because really,

I've been such a harem scarum personality,

You know,

And I survived.

So it will happen.

Okay,

So is anybody want to need attention,

Signal,

Signal me,

Come forward,

Speak,

And I will shower attention on you for a few minutes,

And then move on to the next person.

But if you want to discuss something,

Raise it.

Otherwise,

I'll just speak to what comes to mind.

Oh,

A funny bulletin is Laura,

I felt you come and sit next to me during Bajans with Alma was so funny.

That's so funny.

Yeah.

It's funny.

I mean,

I'm sure we're all in communication all the time.

Yeah.

Well,

Franca,

I'm going to like focus on you,

Sweetie,

Because we've just been talking about you.

So let's start with you.

How are you?

Just Yeah.

Yeah.

Hello.

Hi.

Today,

I'm actually feeling not really connected to my high heart.

Kind of.

I don't know,

I woke up this morning,

And I feel the separation right now,

To God and to myself.

And I had some topic that bubbled up today.

It's a financial topic with my ex husband.

And I can feel that this is I'm just kind of running from it the last few months,

I don't really want to go into it,

Because I know it.

It's a deep topic that is connected with trusting myself and trusting the things I want.

And I think they're right for me.

So this is really up today.

Yeah.

And yeah,

You know,

Franca,

This is a steep incline you're up,

You're on.

Right?

Yes.

Yeah.

And it's very similar to the way this one's walked.

You have a lot of strength inside you that you will access over time.

Okay,

Much more strength than you have any idea of right now.

Okay,

So these where you come and feel separate,

Where you feel separate will come up.

You know,

It's,

It's not a bad step.

It's just actually the integration.

We'll just hear in this integration of the high heart,

But these dreary days where we feel separate are challenging.

So the thing about are you needing more financial support from your ex?

No,

He's cutting it.

Actually,

He's saying that he doesn't want to pay the support for the kids anymore.

So we have to find a new solution for that.

And he just because I'm working now,

He's saying that he doesn't want to pay it anymore.

And we have to find something else to figure it out.

So,

Yeah.

Okay,

Again,

These challenges come like,

You know,

It's inevitable.

There'll be a challenge with this high heart.

I wouldn't let him get away with this,

By the way.

No,

Yeah.

Yeah.

The law requires that he pay.

I know some support.

Yeah,

Yeah,

Yeah.

Right.

We get these challenges,

Franca.

It's just tailor made.

No,

I know.

And I was I did pray to Amma today and ask her for help and ask for support.

And,

And then it was interesting.

When I finished this prayer,

There was like some noise outside that just made it supported this what I was just asking Amma for.

So yeah,

I know.

I'm good with that.

Yeah,

Yeah.

And just walk through it.

You've still got this angelic support.

I noticed Amma has been saying,

You know,

The ma'um meditation,

When you were Yeah,

She's been saying it's a really good meditation during the day.

Yeah.

Okay.

Yeah,

I do that.

You do that?

Yes.

Good.

Good.

Yeah.

Yeah,

Sweetie,

I can feel it's like,

Just this,

You know,

Integration challenge,

I can feel that you feel a little brittle.

Yeah.

I'm going to have to,

I'm going to increase the energy work with you.

Okay.

Yeah,

Thanks.

Yeah.

And just,

You know,

Go placidly like,

It's just Amma's Leela.

And these guys,

I guess,

I don't know,

Like,

You know,

I went through it with my ex.

Yeah,

It's just,

I feel like if I'm really,

Really tough with him,

He's gonna be tough with me with the times with the kids.

So this is just my,

What I'm afraid of,

Actually,

That he will then wants to have the kids like half half.

And I really don't want that.

So this is just the topic behind it.

But I think it is so but somehow,

Without this,

So yeah.

Yeah.

I just have the feeling for you to be careful.

Okay.

Yeah.

Careful with what exactly?

Well,

Just with the whole thing.

Just really,

Yeah,

Get really clear on what you want.

Yeah.

We should talk about this.

You know,

We should talk about it in the long run.

Yeah.

Okay.

Sure.

Okay.

Okay.

Thanks.

Yeah.

Blessings.

Blessings.

Anna,

How are you doing,

Sweet one?

Yeah,

I arrived home 20 hours ago.

So I feel not at home at all.

I wish I could be in the ashram.

And yeah,

So I feel sad and a bit lost.

And when I came home,

I could also feel the stuckness of the old,

The old things I'm right,

Not working with,

But running away from and I could feel them like they were palpable when I entered my apartment.

And I can feel it like the old thinking.

Yes,

The old.

And then Oh,

Yeah.

So and I was so tired because my the trip was a bit longer than I had calculated.

Oh,

Yeah.

Yeah.

Had a long train ride is when she got back from a long plane ride and then a long train ride.

And and the first plane trip from Kochi to Muscat was like,

Okay,

I had a very cheap ticket.

And it was like,

I was squeezed in a row of three with a huge,

Big man on my right side and a huge woman.

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Yeah,

But so I felt so.

I felt this,

I felt the,

The unwillingness to go home.

You know,

I could feel it in this squeezed in,

You know?

Yeah.

So.

I didn't want to go home.

Right.

It's like,

I could just,

You,

You don't want to go to your old way of thinking.

And,

You know,

You could change your apartment a bit,

Like change,

Move things around,

Change it,

Change it.

Buy new cushions,

Move things around.

Okay.

Change the comforter on your bed,

Make a,

Make a new beginning.

Oh,

Good.

Oh,

This is good.

It's good.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Think about the placement of objects,

Make a new beginning.

I mean,

Yeah,

You know,

Even if it costs a few hundred euros,

Oh,

Well,

You know,

You can afford it.

It would be a new beginning,

Like,

And then it would remind you.

Yeah.

Okay.

Yeah,

Good.

Yeah.

Yes.

You see,

You guys,

There's always an action you can take.

We feel hopeless and helpless,

But there's these things we can do,

You know?

Yeah.

Thank you.

Yeah.

Good.

Yeah.

You're another one who's in a,

You know,

A big step and you,

Yeah,

You'll,

You'll,

You're getting pressure from me about it,

But it's a,

It's a big step.

It's like,

If you want it,

You know,

It's,

It's,

God doesn't come cheap,

Anna.

Yeah.

You guys,

Lots of times inside us,

We are running a polarity,

Okay?

So I felt this in Anna.

I felt it in more than on Anna.

It's a polarity between sort of the,

The dominance and the victim or the rich one and the person with less power,

The,

The polarity.

So often we might have trouble.

We might feel like we're the victims,

But actually inside us,

We're also running the,

The bully part.

You see,

We live out,

We live out these polarities a lot.

We are either the dominant,

Powerful,

Rich,

Bullying person,

Or the victim,

One who doesn't,

Doesn't have power.

And neither are the truth.

Neither one is the truth.

They unite when you surrender to God and the sensitivity of the victim,

One is available to you and the strength and power,

The bullying,

Rich,

Dominant one is available to you.

They synthesize,

They unite.

That's what you see in premisuda.

Okay.

That's what I want to see in you guys.

And yeah.

So with Anna,

I see you play in those two polarities and I want you to unite them in surrender to source,

Surrender to Ama,

Serving divinity with both aspects of you.

Okay.

Okay.

Yeah.

And I feel hostage to the bullying,

Rich part of you sometimes.

And that's why I go like,

I'm not going to play this.

I'm not going to play in this polarity.

And that's when I'll,

I'll do something like,

Just like what I did saying,

I'll,

I'll pay for the apartment in Berlin.

Do you see?

I come right out of the polarity.

I step right beyond.

Yeah.

And just make a new path.

We can talk about this.

If you,

If you want a phone call.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Okay.

Yeah.

All of you,

If all of you guys get that you,

The strength of the dominant part and the sensitivity of the weaker,

More victim part of you unite in service to God.

Yeah.

And then you'll find that you can't get bullied.

And you can't,

When you're doing this,

People can't pull power trips over you.

Because you see how to exit the game.

You see an action you can take that is beyond that polarity of the victim dominant one.

Good.

This is very helpful to the group,

Anna,

That we've talked like this.

Yeah.

Thank you.

Anna is very brave and very long suffering.

Believe me.

Yeah.

My hat off.

Yeah.

Veronica,

Sweet one.

How are you?

Thank you for your email.

Hi.

Yeah.

Thank you for your email.

I'm doing pretty well.

Last night.

Last night I had,

Oh,

What happened to me last night?

I had a moment where I felt like I was losing my marbles.

I had a lot of rage come up.

It was because I was tired.

Yeah.

I was having a really hard time like processing my overwhelm.

Oh,

No.

Right.

But then I was able to do.

I thought your email was so,

You were so busy and so much going on.

And I thought to myself,

Oh,

She's going to get overwhelmed if she keeps doing this.

I did.

Yeah.

Yeah.

You need.

Yeah.

You need to come back to center more.

Sweet one.

That thing that Amma teaches us,

When you take a breath in,

You go.

Like you take a breath in and you make the sound.

And it means.

Basically,

Mother,

God,

Love and compassion,

Forgiveness.

And then when you breathe out.

And it's light and sweetie pie,

You'll save yourself a lot of trouble if you.

Set up some things that you can do during the day that bring you back to center.

Yeah.

And don't get too ambitious spiritually because it's an inward journey.

OK.

OK.

I needed to hear that from you.

You do.

You do.

It was way too busy.

I started getting worried.

I went,

Oh,

God.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Slow down.

Don't don't be so ambitious.

You know,

Your heart will show you the way and rage comes up when we're clearing.

And that's that's why you you don't want to get too ambitious.

Because you need to go slow enough that you can feel these things at a pace that you can manage so you don't just get blown away by it.

Or you have a nervous breakdown,

Which is what I did.

But I don't I don't think you're in danger of one,

But it can happen.

You just yeah.

I've gone through at least one before.

So I kind of know the signs now,

But I'm thankful that you're telling me to slow down.

Yeah.

That ma.

Oh,

Breathe in ma.

Yeah.

And then,

Oh,

As you breathe out.

And you can just play with it and keep going back to it.

And we can we can talk about it when we when we eventually have a call.

Okay.

Many blessings.

You're getting a lot of love from me.

There's a lot of love coming to you from the universe.

Thank you.

Yeah.

I love you.

Yeah,

I love you,

Too.

Thank you for coming with the world's better for you being here.

Sweet one.

Yeah.

Thank you.

Yeah.

Michael,

How are you?

Hi.

Not sure.

Not sure.

You know,

On the one side,

And thank you for your prayers,

Because I feel that through most of the week,

Ama was really close by my side.

Good.

It's almost like she's half in my body on my right side.

Good.

And so and a lot easier to to imagine.

On the other side,

I discovered another another couple of medical tests that I have to take yesterday.

So that doesn't make me feel very good.

But,

You know,

I think back to the video that you sent me from Krishnamurti.

About,

You know,

How suffering is wonderful.

Yeah,

Well,

In a way,

I know what he means.

Yeah,

Actually.

Yeah,

Actually,

But emotionally,

I can't.

I'm obviously when I'm confronted with a situation,

You know,

I can't get by into it emotionally.

So I guess I'm kind of sitting on the fence.

And I just figured,

Yeah.

Yeah.

Did you know,

Did you say stop waiting?

No,

You're waiting.

I mean,

All these extra tests that you're waiting for.

And yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah,

No,

It's all good.

Michael,

Tell you,

You know,

There are these a big challenge will often occur,

You know.

And the other thing I want to say to all of you,

Because I was talking with Trilla Tana getting emails,

And we're talking about the body.

Look,

Bodies get really out of whack with the journey.

You know,

Things can go like,

You know,

I didn't digest my food.

I had all kinds of like,

Struggles that,

You know,

I just ignored.

And they all righted themselves.

So I know that these are,

Are bigger than just say,

Not digesting food,

Michael,

But,

You know,

Things can look really bleak.

And then all of a sudden,

The situation changes.

Okay,

So that is my feeling.

I do not have a bad feeling about your medical things,

Even if there's something wrong.

It's like,

I just think it's,

It's,

It's,

You're getting a very big kind of experience of separation is clearing from your body,

You know,

And that's why you're feeling I'm not coming in on your right side.

That's your healing of your masculine.

So you're getting kind of an experience of separation carried by your body.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And you're just in it.

And,

You know,

The important thing is keep the focus on,

You know,

Understanding at least intellectually that you're that you're connecting up more truthfully with with the creator.

You know,

You won't feel it,

But you know that that's what's going to happen.

Right?

Even if it looks like an impossible hype dream that things could ever get better,

But they will.

Yeah,

Yeah.

Yeah.

Thank you for that.

I tell myself that.

And it's,

Of course,

Hard to believe.

And I think I think part of it is,

You know,

I used to go running and,

You know,

And all these things,

Which it's like,

It's almost like I was telling me,

You know,

Sit in your seat and stop looking outside.

Yeah,

Yeah.

Yeah.

Sometimes we just get kind of immobilized.

Yep.

Yeah.

Right.

Right.

Well,

I'm glad that you're more peaceable about this process.

You're not rebelling against it so much.

Or blaming other people.

Oh,

Gosh,

I hope not.

Yeah,

No,

It's good.

Yeah.

Yeah,

Just go through it.

I mean,

Things looked impossible with the leukemia thing.

And even with the breast cancer and everything,

It looked pretty grim.

And then I ended up not having to have chemo or radiation or anything,

You know,

Like,

Just,

Just,

Just,

Just be peace.

Talk to Amma a lot.

You are.

I can feel it.

You are.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Just do your best with it.

We'll be good enough.

Good,

Michael.

Saskia.

Thanks.

Yeah.

Bless your heart.

Saskia,

How are you doing?

Hi.

I'm getting,

I'm getting the next level exercise from the universe.

My leg was fine on Wednesday.

And on Thursday,

I got up,

I could hardly walk.

And I keep seeing and I kept seeing all week how,

How twisted I have to be.

And how numb I have to be to live this life.

At least that's what I thought or think.

And my body's showing me that.

And it's just deeper.

It's a deeper level of pain.

And that's exactly the feeling.

So I keep wanting to,

You know what you said to me,

Play in the purity of heart.

And I just didn't know how.

So I asked Amma,

Please help me.

I don't know.

She showed me this light again,

Much stronger.

I could feel it inside.

It was really,

Really nice.

And it's a bit like back and forth.

And,

But it's,

It's,

Yeah,

I'm okay with it.

Because I think I just keep seeing what I'm doing to myself.

And what really,

Really helps me is this,

Seeing myself on the deathbed.

That's that,

That experience.

Yeah,

You know,

I did it first.

And it was so sad.

I was just crying because I was dying.

But then it changed.

And at some point,

It was like,

Oh,

I want to get out of here.

It's so nice.

It's so nice.

So that that kind of changed the perspective a bit.

Yeah,

Sweetie pie.

I feel like you're gagging on the fact like this purity of heart thing.

It's like,

You don't realize that your true nature is pure.

Yeah,

Your true nature is pure.

This will help your leg release out.

As you understand it,

Your true nature is pure.

You don't have to.

Yeah,

You guys,

This is the semantics.

You know what I'm talking about?

Okay,

Watch your purity of heart.

It comes down to you,

You know,

Remembering that you that's your true nature.

It's not like I'm wanting you to fix yourself.

Yeah,

You can't believe it.

But but yeah,

I can feel part of you can't believe it.

But it's true,

Saskia.

Yeah,

You're and you're trying to do this by yourself too much.

You're trying to transform by yourself too much.

Um,

Can you can you get any body work or any thing for your leg or hip?

So something you can do.

I did I had acupuncture,

And I had some bone therapy.

It's all just financially,

It's all very expensive.

And yeah,

Yeah.

But I do get massage.

And that's that's paid for.

And that's Yeah,

I do that.

Good.

Okay.

Yeah,

I can feel it.

Saskia,

You you've trouble like,

Sweetie,

It,

This purity of heart is your true nature.

You know,

We have to see how out of alignment we are.

And,

And see how our ego functions and but seeing it,

It's the part of you that seeing it is your true nature.

This is,

Do you see what I mean?

This is the part that's witnessing it is your very pure true nature.

Yeah.

Right.

I'm just like,

I'm in like,

Jesus,

I then I don't have to twist.

You know,

Why am I twisting?

If that's my true nature?

That's like,

Well,

The question itself comes from the twist.

This,

Yeah,

You're,

This ego just wants to keep you busy and focusing on the twist.

It's like,

It's just being cleared.

Just seeing it is the clearing.

Please get this you guys just seeing it.

Okay,

So today,

Or,

Yeah,

At the at the ashram.

Here's an example.

Hanuvaja,

Bless her heart.

She was complaining to me that she couldn't meditate.

And she was distraught about this.

And then,

You know,

We talked a bit and then she mentioned that she was seeing in stark relief,

How,

How unworthy she has felt in her life.

So I said,

Sweetie.

This is what your meditation has brought you to this experience of,

Of seeing how unworthy you feel.

And when we're in these states where we're seeing up close and personal how our ego has distorted us,

It is very hard to meditate.

She says she was busy crucifying herself for not being able to meditate when she was actually doing the spiritual journey perfectly.

She had been meditating,

She had this breakthrough where she saw that how much self,

Her lack of self worth,

How big it had operated in her life and was feeling the,

The sorrow of it.

That's it.

So even though she couldn't meditate for a bit after that,

Oh,

Well,

In a couple of weeks,

She would be able to.

And having seen in stark relief how this lack of self worth was operating,

She,

In a couple of weeks,

She's going to feel lighter and more herself.

So Saskia,

You remind me a little bit of Hanuvaja.

It's like you're giving yourself a hard time for just being in the healing process.

You're sort of like a person going,

Oh,

You know,

Complaining about the scabs of the healing process.

Oh,

When it's,

You know,

With,

If you've got a cut,

It kind of ugly,

There's scabs and everything,

But it's just how the healing is.

You're just in it,

Sweetie.

Yeah.

You're just so used to stewing.

I'm so used to making it hard for myself.

Yeah,

You are.

That's all.

That's all.

So you could just watch yourself do that.

It's like,

Here I do it again.

It's a way that we women,

We keep ourselves small by doing this.

Yeah.

Yeah.

It's okay.

It's,

It's my hobby.

Yeah.

I don't get there.

Yeah.

Every woman here will know what this is like,

What,

Yeah.

So it's okay.

It's just,

It's good.

And just admitting it.

It's like,

This is what we're like.

And then it can fall away.

You don't have to take it quite so seriously.

Yeah.

Just do your best.

You and Michael are in this transition together.

So you'll come out together.

I think that's my feeling.

Yeah.

That's true.

And there are a couple of lions,

Like,

And believe me,

I have watched the spiritual journey in myself and others.

And so when I say,

Oh,

It's all going to be okay.

It's,

It's unmistakably it is.

And you are,

Guys are both making this transformational leap,

A big one.

Okay.

And they hurt.

Yes.

Yeah.

And they're scary.

It's kind of like,

Yes,

It's a gig.

Yeah.

Right.

Good.

Michi,

Sweet one.

Yeah.

How are you doing?

I'm fine.

But I had a lot to do the last weeks.

And then I,

Yeah,

I think it's similar,

Like Frank,

I felt a very high separation from the spiritual way and from,

From God.

And now I'm sad and I felt a lot of anger.

Yeah.

Is it worrying you?

Is it scaring you?

No,

It's not scaring.

It's,

Yeah,

I think I'm sad.

And I'm feeling guilty.

About what?

Because I didn't allow myself to do my spiritual practice because I had no time.

And yeah,

I set wrong priorities the last weeks.

You know,

The reason I,

I said in one of the sad sayings that some of you have your ideas of yourself and your,

What you think your problems are and what you're working on,

And you're holding it so tightly,

That I actually,

It stops me from getting through to you.

And you're one of the people that does this.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Right.

And I want to get through to your heart more,

Michi,

Because you're just adorable,

Sweetheart.

You are just adorable.

You have a heart of gold in there,

Sweet one.

Yeah,

And you're the last to know it.

Right?

Yeah.

Right.

Right.

But I know it.

I know how adorable you are.

I know how beautiful your heart is.

Yeah.

And you need to put your burdens down.

These guilts and your burdens about whatever,

Not doing it right,

Whatever,

You need to put these burdens down.

And just take a deep breath.

And remember that Amma is taking care of you.

The Creator is taking care of you.

Okay,

Thank you.

Right.

It's almost hard for you to receive love.

It's like it is,

Sweetie.

Yeah,

I know.

I know.

I know you know.

Right.

But Prima Sutta is relentless.

Prima Sutta is a river that just doesn't stop.

So,

You know,

Right.

It's like you deserve a lot of love.

It's like the way you live your life is very beautiful.

It's thoughtful.

It's,

You know,

You take care.

You're very loving.

It's like this withhold you have about yourself.

I just,

Yeah,

Need to drop it.

You need to drop this withhold you've got about yourself.

Of where you,

I don't know,

You over monitor yourself.

Yeah.

Right.

Right.

It's like there have been lots of days that Prima Sutta didn't meditate.

It's like some of this stuff is just human.

Okay.

Yeah.

You can meditate in the bathtub.

Do you know what I mean?

You can like.

Yeah.

You can ask for help sweeping the floor.

Right.

There's a lot of love wanting to come in.

And because you're too tight with yourself,

It has trouble coming in.

You're too tight and.

Yeah,

I can feel it.

Yeah.

Right.

Right.

Good.

Good.

You know,

The great thing about getting older is when you're older,

We get too tired.

The defenses get too exhausting.

We can't keep them up anymore.

It's like you just get too tired.

It's like,

I just.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Right.

How do you feel right now?

Yeah,

There's a relief.

But there's,

Yeah,

I can feel a lot of pressure.

But I don't know.

What does it mean?

Okay.

So it's just,

Okay,

You feel pressure on your heart.

So it's just your soul wanting to come in.

I know.

And it's,

It's just wanting to,

To make it,

To heal this,

You know,

To make the opening to the love more bigger.

So just,

You know,

You just say,

Let it in over the next couple of days.

It will start coming in.

Okay,

You don't have to.

You know,

It's just going to,

It's just going to come in and you'll have a more expanded heart.

It's really how it works.

That's good news.

Yeah,

This is good.

You see,

This is where sometimes when I've worked with people for years,

And they,

They sometimes still don't understand what I'm trying to say to them.

And so I think that you're going to start hearing me more clearly because this message is very loving and Michi,

You so deserve it.

You're such an older soul.

You're such a candidate to get it.

And love is invincible.

The Creator is invincible.

Right.

And there are many lifetimes behind this resistance.

It's not your fault.

It's not your fault at all.

I'm just calling it.

Because that's what this work is,

Right?

Going around calling,

Hey,

You drop the defenses.

That's kind of what I do.

Shake you,

Drop the defenses,

Let yourself be loved.

What's the matter with you?

Really?

Yeah.

Right.

Okay,

Good.

Okay.

May you hear me more and more clearly.

Any pressure on your body is the soul wanting to come in.

So just let it come in.

And it will take a couple of days to come in.

You know,

Sometimes I would feel pressure on the top of my head.

I'd say,

Okay,

Just come in.

And then in a couple of days,

I'd have an opening in my crown chakra,

You know?

Right,

Right.

It's a very simple process,

You guys.

Right.

Yeah.

Sweetie pie,

I want,

Mitchie,

It's like you're running a whole list of all the things that are wrong with you.

And I want you to make,

Write down a list about all the things that are right.

All your strengths,

All your talents.

I want a big list.

Okay?

And be generous and start with that you've got a beautiful heart.

You're beautiful inside and out.

Be,

You know,

Okay,

Make the list as if what you think Premasuddha would see you as.

Okay?

Okay.

Okay.

And then email it to me.

Will you?

Yes,

I will.

Okay.

And be,

Err on the side of being generous to yourself.

Okay?

Okay.

Okay.

I mean it.

Okay.

Good.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Okay.

Okay.

Good.

This is so much fun.

Trilla Chan.

Yes,

I'm here.

Hi.

So you've got my email,

Right?

I answered already.

Oh,

Did you?

It's interesting.

Topics quite dominant for me have been tackled before from,

I think,

Michael,

Also Michi a little bit.

One part is obviously what you were answering already.

That I'm,

You know,

The physical body ailments,

Pain or tensions,

Which are currently there,

Not only in the back,

They're getting better,

But also moving to the front,

To the intestines and all that.

That sometimes I give too much attention or worries,

Right?

Because obviously there it's dominant,

Right?

So I'm aware of that,

But I think it was in that process,

What I'm currently in,

I think it was,

I feel that is a real transformation happening,

That I'm getting more and more accepting to these things.

Totally you are.

Yeah,

But.

Totally you are.

It's all good.

Like I've told you many times,

Yeah.

Yeah,

But sometimes,

You know,

How it is,

You need some time to really accept it.

Still,

There is a worrying part in me.

What if it's something really big or dangerous,

Whatever,

How much external help do you need?

But I'm getting more and more and understand it has to do with my processes,

My emotional and spiritual processes.

The other thing.

Sorry.

Yeah,

No,

You go.

The other thing,

What Michi said also,

What I did in the last week specifically,

But also in the weeks and months before,

I'm much more gentle in my sleeping patterns.

So I allow myself to sleep longer because I feel quite exhausted in the last weeks.

I mean,

It has to do also with what I shared last week with the SEVA doing and all,

You know,

All the jobs I do,

Blah,

Blah,

Blah.

So I feel,

I mean,

I don't have a family in my back,

Which I have to take care of currently,

Right?

Even I would love to,

But I don't have.

So I have the flexibility to stay longer in bed,

Allow that for myself still to do my sadhana.

And it feels good at the moment.

Sometimes there's a little bit guilt coming in,

But I feel that's what I currently need to take more care of my getting,

Because I'm not fully in my energy.

So,

Yeah,

Not fully in myself.

So I don't punish me for myself at the moment.

Good.

So,

Yeah,

That's the main process in here.

Today,

I'm again at the German ashram and I have not done any official SEVA here,

Which is quite nice and a little bit on the laptop,

But mostly,

You know,

Just enjoying.

We did some walk and it's sometimes when you really step up for yourself,

For more self-care and don't jump in for every SEVA and all that.

Yeah,

It feels good.

It really feels good.

I'm doing the right thing at the moment.

Yeah,

And that's your data that it feels good to just follow it,

You know?

Yeah.

You know,

My body got very out of whack.

And like I said,

I would go to,

You know,

This naturopath,

I remember.

And every time I went,

There was something wrong.

And it would cost me like so much money for all these powders and everything.

And I finally like gave up and it never really helped anyway,

You know?

So I kind of just went,

I guess my body's just gonna like feel weird till I kind of recover my heart,

You know?

And that's what happened.

It's like as my ego got smaller and smaller,

My body felt better and better.

And I got more and more energy.

Yeah.

You know,

Just moving more,

Being more myself,

Just doing what you're doing,

Like following your own rhythms more,

Just,

You know,

Just going with the flow more.

Yeah.

What you're saying resonates so strongly because I remember,

You know,

These many years I spent in Amrita Puri.

And when I went to the Ayurvedic doctors,

To any Westerners or Indians or whatever,

They all came up with these huge amount of powders and the root cause is stress.

You're doing too much,

Blah,

Blah,

Blah.

And I felt always,

You know,

And I tried obviously my best and I grew to some level,

But I feel the ultimate and only solution is really to get into my heart and surrender,

Which is obviously not so easy with a finger snip,

Surrendering.

But I'm closer than ever to go.

And I think that's the only real solution,

The only.

It is.

That's the thing.

But,

You know,

When these professionals can help,

I mean,

Sometimes we get lonely with our pain and everything.

But notice,

You know,

What we need,

I think,

Is professionals who know about compassion.

Then the techniques would work better.

But sometimes,

You know,

They're doing techniques and there's not a big understanding behind.

So sometimes if you're evolving,

It's not that useful.

That's what I found.

It was kind of like the nuts and bolts thing didn't really help me too much.

Yeah,

Good.

That's what I found.

My body,

I came into my heart.

My body feels like a million dollars.

I mean,

I mean,

You know,

I mean,

I'm aging a bit,

But by and large,

You know,

I feel pretty good.

Yeah,

I think also,

As Franca said,

And I think I forgot who else.

I mean,

This staying in the heart is so challenging.

You know,

You have a few experiences which are pretty beautiful.

And then normal day life comes up and the separation kicks in.

Yeah,

I know.

Big challenge as well.

Yeah,

I know.

I know.

It's terrible.

It's like the little engine that could.

I think I can.

I think I can.

Endlessly think I can.

Come to satsangs.

Do everything you can to keep your mind up.

Yeah,

This is the this is the challenge.

Yeah,

I remember having lots of difficult days where it seemed like so impossible that I could ever find peace,

But I did.

And so I know you guys can too.

Just keep going.

You're doing very good work.

And,

You know,

My hat off to you,

Because I yelled at you for weeks and you kept coming.

And that to me,

It's like I have huge respect.

And you you are embodying more of what I'm talking about.

You you're just doing it,

You know,

So.

Yeah.

So give yourself a medal.

Medal of honor.

Yeah,

That's it.

Yeah,

Exactly.

Good.

OK,

Jenna,

Sweet one.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Oh,

Blessings.

Yeah.

Jenna,

How are you doing,

Sweet one?

Hi,

Everybody.

Today,

I'm noticing that there's a thread in what everyone has said that rings true.

And I want to thank you for the subliminals.

That has been a major help in coming out of.

Yeah.

Good.

Victim space.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And I think.

The Sava idea of Sava that Trilla Chan was just talking about,

And then also Veronica,

You know,

I think is was speaking to this,

Too,

That I'm asking Amma to show me where.

How to navigate service and find balance.

And for.

Yeah,

Where to put my.

Where to put my energy.

So that's.

It's been interesting.

I feel very different at work.

I'm actually sitting at work right now.

And I but I feel different here and that I feel like Amma is showing up in my teaching spaces and is I've been doing the thousand names and I feel like what I'm giving over is.

Like,

I don't know,

All of them.

Withholds that I had around bringing this energy and bringing my true self into professional spaces,

And then I feel like she's showing up and showing me that it's OK.

OK,

That is a major triumph.

Yeah,

Really,

Jenna.

That's that is huge.

Wow,

You guys,

This is how you do it.

Sometimes you move mountains.

You don't realize that you've just moved a huge mountain.

That's why I like I want to validate when you do this stuff,

Because you might ignore it.

You might not realize it's such a big thing.

But Jenna,

Like the there's I can feel that there's.

That there's centuries in this almost.

Wow,

Like in somehow for you to bring Amma,

Bringing the creator in to the structure like this is like.

I'm just getting this.

I'm just seeing this weave of what it took to get here.

And it's almost like.

I don't know,

It's like.

Hold on,

I just want to feel something just hold on.

You know,

This is going to sound really far out.

OK,

But I've learned to trust my.

The data.

OK,

But this does sound far out even to me,

But it's as if it's enhancing the.

The love on the other side as well.

Do you know this ship that you're making here on the earth is enhancing something in the angelic realms?

Do you know is if there's more of a flow than we think of normally,

We usually think that they're.

They're holy and they're always working with us and we're flawed and everything.

We don't think that maybe.

When we make a shift,

It makes a difference for them,

But it but it's as if there's making a difference,

Sweet one.

I've never felt this before.

So.

It's a big day for Pramasiddha too.

We all go together,

You guys.

We all go together,

But.

Yeah,

It's so funny.

How do you feel about what I said?

Does that sound just really confusing or?

I feel tremendous gratitude is what I feel.

Yeah.

Well,

You know,

Amma has a story that she talks about,

You know,

Even on the earth plane that the creator listens to us too.

So she said,

It's like this.

The mum's on a bus,

A child,

The mum and the child are on the bus.

The child sees some banana trees,

Wants a banana.

So the mum says,

No,

We can't.

We're on a bus.

And then,

You know,

This happens over and over again.

And finally,

The mum says to the bus driver,

OK,

Stop the bus.

And they go out and they get a banana.

And the child comes.

She's saying that our souls will do this for us.

You know,

It's like if we're the we have a personality,

If we're like wanting a banana like this,

The soul will,

Even if it wasn't kind of in the plan or anything,

The soul wants,

The soul will just sometimes just indulge us.

Just do you see what I mean?

Is it the human personality has some input too?

Do you see it's not we're not just kind of come in,

Sit down,

Shut up,

Just follow the rules from from a heavenly source that we have.

There's an interplay.

There's more of an interplay.

That was her.

Yeah.

And so it's like this with you and this angelic realm is this interplay.

And there there is.

It's something about it's very beautiful.

It's very beautiful,

This shift that's happening on the angelic realm.

So I'm going to stop talking.

It's Jenna.

That is a real achievement.

So good for you,

Sweet one.

And just keep keep the focus on the divine.

And it just slowly comes in,

You guys.

It just comes in.

More and more gradually.

Yeah.

And Jenna,

You're there's also a message coming from the divine.

It's and this angelic realm.

It said you're never going to be forgotten.

OK.

Yeah.

Yeah.

You're never forgotten ever.

Right.

Oh,

My goodness.

Right.

Oh,

My goodness.

And you're never going to be forgotten in the future,

Either.

Right.

We are our soul's beloved,

You guys.

We're their precious,

Precious.

Child.

Right.

Precious,

Precious child.

Yeah.

That's it.

Yeah.

That's it.

It's funny.

There's a feeling that you're going to start to access a bigger strength as a result of this,

Jenna,

As a result of this exchange.

You're going to feel a greater inner strength coming in.

And this is coming in from the soul.

It's a soul strength.

And that's what I say to you guys.

It's invincible.

That's what this one touched into.

When you touch into it,

It is invincible.

Yeah.

Well,

That's very good work.

I'm going to rush on to the next person because of our time limits.

Yeah.

Atiba,

Sweet one.

How are you doing?

Hi,

Primasuta.

I thank you for calling on me because I was so touched and deeply moved now that you were talking to Jenna.

Yeah.

And there was a moment that I felt the unity between the two realms and tears flowed down because,

As I mentioned often,

I guess from childhood on,

I was still longing to be back to the other realm.

And now in this moment,

The split was not there anymore.

There was a unity between the angelic realm and the human inside of my heart.

It was just one all of a sudden.

And I was so deeply moved to what you were saying to Jenna.

And so touched.

And it spoke to my heart.

Yeah.

I'm very touched and I'm grateful to hear this coming from you,

Atiba.

It's as if I'm,

At least for a moment,

I'm one again.

You know,

I'm one between the realms or something.

That's it.

That's it.

That's it.

It's like,

And those moments can be built on.

Yeah.

And when you get those moments,

They change your chemistry.

And they also change how our body functions.

Just,

Yeah,

This is what I would so wish for you,

Atiba.

That's so great.

It's so great that you just let yourself experience that,

You know?

Yeah.

Yeah.

Your face looks very innocent,

Really.

Innocent.

I was missing that when I called on you.

Yeah.

Well,

May you have more and more of those moments.

This is what this satsang is,

You guys.

This is what we're doing.

It's like this marriage of heaven and earth.

This embodying our divinities.

And when you do this,

You do get access to,

Like,

You know,

The information I get about these higher realms,

You just get it as a byproduct of allowing this unity that solves the separation,

Which is so horrible,

You guys.

Oh,

It's really.

It's why I'm so,

I just,

I can't stand it.

I mean,

I can't even stand anybody feeling this.

Yeah.

Yeah.

This is very good.

In this moment,

I don't feel lost or lonely anymore.

And no,

I don't.

These moments,

You know,

Once you start the embodying process,

Then you just get shown how to do it.

You just,

It just becomes more and more.

The importance is to have an experience of it,

Like you are.

And then you can build on it.

This is what I want all of you guys.

It happens over time.

Well,

It will.

This is you guys being born,

Being built in your body.

It's the new earth they're talking about.

Okay,

Our whole biology changing,

Our whole coming in with this more higher level,

Infused with the soul.

I'm so glad to you guys that we're doing this.

Yay,

Ma.

Yay,

Abba.

Yay,

The creator.

It's like,

Wow.

This is,

This is my dream coming true,

You guys.

Just keep going.

Yeah.

Oh,

Thiba,

You've,

It's fantastic,

Sweet one.

I guess,

It will.

Grateful.

Yeah,

We're loved.

You know,

We are heaven and earth.

Our bodies are made out of this love,

You guys.

It's just our egos,

You know,

Distract us.

But our bodies made us,

Guard us,

This love,

You know.

Yeah.

That's it.

Good,

Okay.

Work,

Thiba,

Yeah.

Get yourself back on the prayer list,

Okay?

I will write a little note also,

Because also I met,

I heard from other people I put on the prayer list,

And they are improving also.

Oh,

Good,

Good.

So good.

Dreams come true,

You guys.

Just keep going.

Just keep going,

You know,

Just be like,

You know,

I used to feel like actually just a tank that was just gonna go through anything.

That's what I used to feel like.

I'm just gonna go through anything,

You know.

Okay,

Good,

Thiba.

I'm gonna move on just because of our time,

But okay.

Thank you.

And,

Yeah,

Blessings.

Anne,

How are you doing?

I'm pretty fine.

I'm getting up in the morning,

And I go into meditation,

And I've got the feeling I'm still sitting in Kali Temple.

Yeah,

That's fantastic.

Oh,

Good.

Oh,

Fantastic.

Fantastic.

Good for you.

Oh,

May,

I'm gonna grace this.

I give my best,

And sit.

Yeah,

Good.

Well,

I had a very good one.

I did.

Yeah,

I observe that bad thoughts and judgments are sneaking into my mind during the day,

And how sticky they are.

Yeah,

Don't worry.

Just watch them.

Just use the subliminals.

You know,

Yeah,

Don't worry about them.

Don't worry about them.

They have no power.

If you can observe them,

They have no power.

Yeah,

Just keep the subliminals,

And don't worry about your thoughts too much.

Yeah,

Yeah.

If you notice your thought,

That neutralizes them,

You guys.

That's good enough.

Keep steering towards the silence within to God,

To listening to your soul.

You know,

Just keep steering that way,

And just put up with the chatter of the mind.

Yeah.

You are growing very quickly,

Ann.

My hat off.

Yeah,

It's very good.

I feel like I've got like a classroom of star pupils,

Really.

I feel like I got a group who were like quite shy,

But then after some months,

They're just blossoming like roses.

It's just fantastic.

Okay,

I'm going to move on.

Thanks,

Ann.

I'm going to talk to Miriam.

How about you,

Sweet one?

How are you doing?

Hello,

Pramasutra.

Hi,

Everybody.

Yeah.

I got goose pimples all over because I feel connected with all of you,

Which is great.

I'm using the subliminals like every day when I'm riding the bike or doing housework.

And it feels like as if angels put wings around me.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And it calms me down and makes me positive.

Yeah.

Which is great because like almost every day in the morning,

Like I need a half an hour,

45 minutes to get my feet out of the bed because in the morning,

I'm not that optimistic because there's so much stuff going on.

Yeah.

But I'm doing my things like I was very worried about my brother.

And suddenly,

I don't know,

I prayed and I put him on the prayer list.

Yeah.

And I didn't hear something about him or from him like for two weeks.

And then suddenly,

My mom called and told me that he was calling her to tell her that he's meeting a friend in another city and I don't have to worry about him.

And tomorrow,

I will see him.

So we'll see.

I guess you're right.

He will be okay,

I guess.

So this feeling that he was going to make a change within a month of when the prayer first started for him,

You know,

That it was better than you thought.

Yeah,

It seems it really seems so.

We'll see.

We'll see tomorrow.

I'm curious.

And because of my daughter,

Like I had an appointment yesterday with like in a counseling center with the youth center and other external helpers.

Yeah.

And I prayed in the morning that I would get some help from people who are not just doing it like kind of like yesterday and have no idea what they're doing.

And it worked.

I just I put my candles on and put like a picture of Amar in the middle and was praying.

And then I went to the appointment and like everybody was there,

Like four helpers and my ex-husband and then me.

And then I don't know,

I was sitting on a chair where I was so touched.

Like from the moment on,

I was talking and I had such a bad conscience or I felt guilty.

Yeah.

So many things.

And I was crying and I don't know.

And then the one woman who I just didn't know before,

Just something like,

You know,

Well,

Maybe you're sitting here because you,

I don't know,

Like you messed up.

It's parents.

She said something like that.

And I was like,

Where does this come from?

And then I was touched and felt even more guilty in maybe two minutes.

And then I was like stepping out of myself and was watching the situation.

Something in me said,

Well,

This is the ego.

Don't take it personally.

The woman doesn't know you.

And then I don't know.

I could make it to stay in touch.

And then five minutes later,

She apologized for her behavior.

Oh,

Yeah.

And so I was dreaming bad this night.

And I was like repeating the situation all the time,

Like once in a while during the day.

So it's not done yet.

I'm not over it.

But at least I could just step out for a moment.

And yeah,

That's very impressive that you could step out and become nonreactive right in the situation.

And I would say that that's that would be part of the reason why the woman apologized.

If you really been caught in it,

I don't think she would have been.

She would have apologized.

And I think the beginning of you learning to step beyond your ego,

Not listen to this ego stuff,

Whether it's coming from inside you or outside you.

Yeah,

Yeah,

There was there was one part in me that would just like looked at the bowl with water and the glasses and some part wanted to say,

Well,

Can I have a drink of water or can I go to the bathroom?

I just need to go and I will come back,

But I need to get out of here.

But then it just it just didn't happen.

I was I was sitting there and breathing and then she apologized.

And then so we have an appointment in,

I don't know,

Two weeks.

And then I think I will just mention it again that it was a kind of a weird start.

But yeah,

Maybe just my thoughts about it was that my pressure I was sitting on just flipped over to her side and then she gave it back and like like how it happened.

Part of the things like with helping professionals,

If you think about they're they're getting stirred up just like we are and maybe they don't have access to any wisdom way,

Do you know?

So sometimes professionals get caught in their own stuff,

You know,

And their own judgments come up and they just don't have any.

You know,

There's not many wise people around,

You know,

So.

So,

Yeah,

Be be careful,

You know,

Maybe and somebody else get somebody else.

If this doesn't work out,

You know,

Maybe there's a wiser person you could work with.

Yeah,

Yeah.

And in that moment when I was sitting there and was like first,

I was feeling like she punched me.

I just thought of you what you said,

I don't know,

Two or three sentences before that you said,

Be careful with professionals.

Yeah,

Like this was like the thing you said.

So but at least I'm happy that I that I got some of it.

We got some.

So we'll see what will go on.

So I don't know.

And you were non-reflective.

You're sort of the key like that,

Really,

That would allow her to apologize to you.

The point of power is in you,

Remember?

Yeah,

Marianne,

This is good progress.

From the last time we spoke,

I'm impressed.

You blow my socks off,

You guys.

I'm going like scholarship students,

Really,

Really,

Truly give yourself a pat in the back.

And it's such a joy to see you guys,

It's so worth it.

It's just a blessing.

And really,

The work,

The quality of work,

I'm like gobsmacked.

OK,

Bye,

You guys.

Bye.