Relationship Healing: Healing Your Wound Of Mistrust

Hello beautiful and much welcome to this practice that's all about finding more healing clarity in your relationship.

Do you repeatedly struggle with trusting someone's love and commitment?

Is it hard for you to find safety in someone loving you although all you long for is just to surrender into being held?

This practice is a gentle and effective invitation for you to look behind the patterns of mistrust you hold alive within yourself that affect your inner capacity to bring a healthy and supportive level of trust into your relationships as well.

You'll be transforming your inner mistrust towards yourself into a source of connection,

Safety and freedom for you and the world around you.

So if you are ready to make a change and heal,

Take any comfortable position and let us start.

Okay there you are.

Welcome yourself into this present moment you've gifted yourself with.

I'm recommending to feel your feet or at least one part of your body on the ground really connect one part of your body to the ground.

Maybe you are lying down,

Maybe you are seated so that mother earth can really support you through this practice with a sense of safety,

Grounding and trust.

And as you are arriving in this place I'm inviting you to visualize the heart of the planet and send a spiritual hello to this heart of the planet,

The core of the earth.

And just set the conscious intention that it's connected to your heart and as you breathe and as you arrive let this connection be a grounding force,

A force that's providing safety,

That's providing unconditional trust and love.

With every breath you might visualize a flowing loop flowing from your heart to the heart of the planet being nourished,

Being supported,

Being filled with any quality you need as it comes back up to your heart filling you nourishing you and supporting you.

As you breathe,

Breathe with the rhythm of the earth.

Let her invite you into a more calming,

Peaceful and surrendering state.

And take note of your body's reaction and you can support your body whenever you wish with a physical touch,

A touch with your physical hands just signaling your body that you are safe and that you got you,

That it's safe and it's okay to let go,

To open up and to surrender into the ground.

Beautiful.

You are exactly where you're meant to be.

There's no need for pushing into anything there's no need for judging you for anything.

This is the time to just be,

Feel and to expand with every breath so that you can create space within yourself for whatever wants to move through you today.

And so that you create the permission to let go whatever is ready to go today.

There you are.

Feel the loving protection of mother earth,

Feel how she's embracing you,

How she's telling you that you are loved just the way you are.

There's no need to prove anything or be anyone apart from yourself.

I'm inviting you to connect to an inner part of yourself,

An inner place of yourself where you have a broken trust towards yourself.

Continue breathing and see what arises.

What do you feel?

How's your body reacting?

Place one hand on your chest if needed and just ask yourself show me a place of an inner broken trust towards myself.

What do you feel?

What do you know?

And what do you see?

What is that aspect,

That version of you about that you mistrust?

That version you were taught to mistrust in?

Is it the version of you that is lovable,

That deserves to be loved unconditionally?

Is it the version of you that deserves to be trusted,

That innocent essence of your being?

Is it a vulnerable version of you,

A fragile version of you?

Is it a version of you that's freely expressing itself,

Herself,

Himself?

Surprise yourself by what you're perceiving right now.

Maybe let that version,

That aspect of you really appear in front of your inner eye as an image,

As a figure,

As a mirror.

That version of yours that wasn't loved in one of your experiences,

Maybe as a child,

Maybe as a teenager,

Maybe as an adult lover,

As a partner,

As a friend.

Which inner belief of mistrust towards yourself was created that time?

A belief that saved you that time?

A belief that protected you from being misunderstood,

Being broken,

And being too vulnerable in an environment that wasn't safe?

Whatever you are seeing right now,

Whatever you're feeling,

Whatever you're remembering right now,

In your mind or in your cells of your body,

I'm inviting you to continue breathing and to remember Mother Earth is there.

Holding you safely,

Never judging you,

She sees you,

She feels you,

And she trusts you.

She knows you are doing your best,

You have always given your best and all you wanted was to be loved.

Because it was your right,

It is your right to be loved unconditionally.

So receive that love she's offering to you,

That comfort.

Let that flow towards your heart,

Be of the color of the frequency that you need.

Surrender into her arms as you find compassion for that version of yourself.

Beautiful.

Take all the time you need here to feel yourself,

To find compassion for yourself,

To breathe,

To remember.

And when you are ready,

I'm inviting you to see yourself in the relationship that you are having currently and where you struggle to trust,

Where you struggle to allow love and surrender to happen.

Just see yourself in that relationship,

Maybe it's a love,

A romantic relationship,

Maybe it's a friendship,

And ask that picture what would happen,

What would become possible in that relationship if you were able to bring that mistrusted part of yours home,

If you were able to take responsibility and care for that wounded part.

If you were able to choose healing.

Just watch the image,

Watch the movie in front of your inner eye.

Which energies would you be able to hold within yourself without having to project them onto the other?

Which offer of love and connection would you be able to receive instead of building walls?

Which truth would you be able to believe in,

A truth that you are still doubting?

This is not about blaming you for anything,

This is not about judging you.

This is about empowering you,

The whole of you,

To empower the inner parent to take care of the inner child or the inner lover,

The inner friend that was broken.

This is about you choosing that trust and wholeness will define you and your present life and not past wounds and mistrust.

It's not about how much change you are capable of making today,

It's about seeing what's possible and taking the first step.

So whenever you feel ready,

I'm inviting you to bring that part of you home that you mistrust so much.

Bring it home by giving that part what it needed by then and it never received.

What does this inner child,

This inner teenager,

Inner lover or friend need?

What was it they needed to hear by then and they never heard?

Notice that you are many parts,

You are that version that is empowered,

That is a healer,

That is trusting into the present moment.

There's that wounded part and you can choose which part is defining you right now.

Take care of the wounded,

Mistrusted part and ask Mother Earth to give you whatever you feel that part needed.

That inner luck,

Let it be filled,

Not by the other person that you are currently having a relationship with,

But by yourself and the source of unconditional love and trust,

That's the Earth.

She's always with you.

Let her remind you and tell you that you are a wanted child,

A wanted woman or man or human beyond gender,

That you have the right to be loved,

That you are whole,

That you have the right to be loved and to feel loved and to be loved and to feel loved.

Let her tell you that she sees you,

She feels you and tell yourself how much you trusted yourself,

You trusted yourself so much that you did your best to protect yourself.

And today you're ready,

You're ready to choose afresh.

Provide for yourself,

Choose colors,

Choose words.

The most important part here is that you feel what you are giving,

That you feel what you are receiving by the Earth and by the Earth,

Everything that you can feel becomes an inner reality.

Check in with yourself and see how much is possible right now to receive,

Don't force yourself into anything.

Continue breathing and continue feeling you are safe,

Even while receiving love,

Even while receiving trust.

You can breathe and you are safe.

And notice how much responsibility you are taking off the other person's shoulders,

A responsibility he or she can never fulfill because they weren't there when your trust broke.

They are here to give you a new experience whenever you are ready.

So watch yourself filling that gap in your heart or that gap in any part of your body or around your body,

To fill that hole with love and with trust.

With forgiveness and compassion.

Watch yourself being filled and being transformed into that version that you know you can trust.

That version that takes care of herself,

Of himself,

That provides,

That cares.

Wherever you are,

Invite the Earth or the cosmos to bathe you,

To cleanse you in a rain shower of trust.

In a rain shower of healing.

Maybe it's more like a basin you want to enter,

Maybe it's rain.

Invite the energy of water which is so transforming and knows everything about connection.

Receive the gift of transformation,

Of safety while feeling connected.

And watch how your body is ready to let go,

How you're releasing your jaws,

Your shoulders,

Your hips,

Maybe your feet,

And you are letting go.

In your own time,

In your own pace,

You will let go of the mistrust and you embrace the wholeness that you are.

You can stay here for as long as you wish,

Take all the time you need.

Feel yourself,

Receive the support of Mother Earth or from the cosmos.

And whenever you are ready,

Breathe yourself back from your trance,

Back into this physical space you are in.

Open your eyes and feel.

You might feel the wounded version of you,

But feel as well the empowered version of you,

That version that's ready to remember trust and safety.

In your own time,

You'll get there.

Thank you so much for your courage,

Thank you for your time.

Thank you so much for inviting healing into yourself and into your relationship today.

I wish for you the most loving and peaceful day ahead.

All my love,

All my light to you.

Thank you.