Interview: Becca Eve Young ~ Taking A Tour Of The Cosmos!

Hi everyone and welcome back to the Bite-sized Blessings podcast and my conversation with Becca Eve Young.

I just want to share with you that it has been a really trying few weeks for me.

A lot of stress,

A lot of sadness,

A lot of uncertainty,

And I talk a little bit about why some of that is happening in this conversation with Becca.

But yeah,

It has been really challenging lately to even encompass or understand or put forth the idea that this world is made of goodness,

That things are going okay,

That all is well in the world.

But I'm gonna keep on going and I'm gonna keep on keeping on and I'm gonna keep on bringing these stories that suggest that this world is a beautiful place.

So please know,

Please know,

No matter what happens I'm gonna keep this podcast going.

Now I want to introduce you to Becca who is so fabulous and funny.

She's a former corporate strategist turned soulful storyteller and she's devoted to the art of becoming.

In her profile it said after a plot twist or five she walked away from the societal shoulds to reclaim her voice.

And I was thinking to myself,

Oh my god I've had like ten plot twists in the last couple of years.

I can't even keep track of all the plot twists that have been happening in my life and I'm wondering if you're feeling the same.

But Becca and I talk a little bit about that in this conversation.

She's really funny,

She's charming,

She's down-to-earth.

And our conversation actually took place two different times.

There's the big part of the conversation,

Meet,

And then we met a second time to talk about her miracle episode.

And as you'll hear it was actually perfect and divine timing for me because of what I'm going through in my life.

And so as I noted in the conversation there's a reason for everything.

So now without further ado here's my conversation with Becca Eve Young.

So the month after he passed you know I'm back under the full moon just at a simple sound healing ceremony and I look up you know I look up to the heavens and I'm just like in the most grief I've ever felt in my whole life.

And I'm like dad you know I'm like if you're out there I'm like show me.

Who are you as a human being?

If you had to go to a conference and get up on stage and introduce yourself how would you do that?

Oh man who am I as a human being?

As a human being oh I could I could go I could go I could go super spiritual and super deep on that pretty fast.

But I mean I guess I guess as a human being I am I'm here to play and explore and I'm here to learn and I'm here to do that with all of the other eight billion souls on this planet that are here in this moment in time.

We signed up for this whether we want to admit it or not.

You're like you did sign up for this so.

You know just saying just saying so yeah I'm just I'm just here to co-create and learn and help other people shine.

I think at the end of the day if you I was introducing myself as a human because helping to lift other people up and help other people shine makes me shine so and I think at the end of the day that's what we're all I hope.

I mean we're trying to survive this earth school thing right but we're just trying to do our best and help everyone else do their best without you know crashing into each other all the time.

It's funny I was just talking to my therapist earlier today and describing an event where another human and I crashed into each other and she helped me kind of understand it and unpack it but yeah we cannot be sometimes we're not the nicest to each other and it takes a really big heart and a really big soul to want to actively consciously with intention lift other people up.

You know was that a journey for you or was it innate since you were a kid?

I would say I was just talking to someone about this other day that I had a flashback they're like what did you want to be when you were growing it up and I was like oh my god I wanted to be a teacher and I had forgotten that like I remember being in third grade and looking up to my teacher and being like oh my god you were so cool and look at you're standing up and you're just like sharing information and by sharing you're helping everybody and like I'm like that's the coolest and then I got lost you know as we do ah like doing the things and you know going to college because we were supposed to go to college and then you know then then then you know climbing the ladder and doing the stuff and then and that's that's not quite enough so then I was getting the MBA and then I was and I was flying to New York and then I was helping a team go public for five billion dollars and and and one day it was like oh you're miserable you know this is not a first time tale um and uh and so I had to lose myself completely to get realigned with that more true innate soul mission that I had forgotten and numbed for decades and what I think is really powerful and beautiful about that story is those worlds can be so intoxicating the power the money the belonging to this kind of group of people who are shifting and changing reality and creating big things it can be really intoxicating um so astonishing and amazing that you reach that point was it over time or did it just hate you all at once everything everywhere all once no it was like a I love that movie it was it was a definite gradual unraveling um of constantly ignoring my own intuition and joy and everything else because because there's eight billion of us on this planet and we're all reading from the same script like here's your play here's your thing and you're gonna you're gonna you're taught from a little girl that you need to get married and look cute and someone's gonna choose you and that is gonna determine your worth is someone outside of you telling you that you're chosen so let's just sign up for that out of the gate um and by the way it's all about material wealth so you're gonna have to have a house you're gonna have a car gonna have a nicer one you're gonna have to have all this stuff and literally that's the entire script of like and you're gonna have to look this way if you don't look like this person on this magazine I'm sorry you're not beautiful so so it's like this societal script of like not enoughness that we're all ingesting all day every day through magazines tv media everything your teacher and then one day you're like what what like what happened what happened and I didn't fully wake up until about five years ago which the pandemic did for so many of us because everything happened at once haha they didn't catch that one coming did they they didn't see that one coming um and so I mean my marriage is falling apart my job is falling apart um I lost a dear friend my dad was dying um and I get stranded on my own in the middle of the desert of Mexico and I had never lived alone in my entire adult life so all of that happened and I turned off the media I was like with my own thoughts for the first time of course as the universe does I was handed you know a little bit of a power of now and a little bit of a new earth you know as those are those little special books that have been planted and then all of a sudden it was like oh I am drastically off my path I've been ignoring my own self and my own intuition pretty much my entire life and it was time for like the most dramatic resets um and I think I would have gotten there eventually I would have realized how sick my corporate job was making me how unhappy was how checking the societal boxes was not fulfilling me um but I did get a nice hand from the universe of just like we're just gonna strand your ass in the desert for a while and just in a casita with a hot plate good luck that's funny I live in Santa Fe New Mexico and you know the rents here are insane they're just climbing and climbing and climbing and a lot of times people will rent out like a tiny little studio for twenty five hundred dollars and they'll say hey by the way there's no kitchen um but here's a countertop if you want you know some sort of weird appliance and oh here's an induction here's a little hot plate for you and oh and a tiny house and that's your kitchen and you kind of just because there's nowhere to live and because they can get away with it you're kind of and you think to yourself I need a place to live so so I get the hot plate thing I get it you learn to make you learn to make do really quickly really quickly and I think for me like I'm going from like the house with the gourmet kitchen and the you know the granite countertops and the stove and the you know the washer and dryer that sings at you and all that shit um and then being stranded in the desert you know the whole world shut down and literally in a casita yeah I had the hot plate like a college fridge you know and um I was washing my clothes in the sink like and everything was in storage up in the states and um at first I was like the you know the panic of losing all that stuff and then I then I was like wait a minute this feels really good this feels ridiculously freeing I'm not worried about mowing the lawn on my time you know or like repairing this or the other I was just like I have like nothing everything fit into like a couple duffel bags in the back of my car but I was like I feel like it wasn't immediate but I'm like I feel so good I feel so light I feel so like none of this stuff is directing my path anymore like you can choose then because you don't have the weight of all that stuff right it's like I have to keep the car I have to get the house I have to get this up and I have to do this it's like they keep you in the machine that way oh yeah and yeah and I I love how you talk about ditching the societal script why do you think we even have a is it to keep us like control I mean I don't know because I think back to my life and it started off a little strange anyway because I grew up overseas but then you know when we got back to the states it was you go to high school you go to college then when you go to college and you don't have a lot of experience with a lot of other people because you grew up overseas I went a little crazy and you know imbibed but I was simply trying to belong I just wanted to belong so badly and find community so badly and so you know I probably drank too much and went a little too crazy just in general but but it is there I was very cognizant of you do this you do this you do this hopefully someone will pick you and you'll get married you do this you do this so what is up with that societal script ah I know right I feel you I feel you I did all the same things like the numbing the drinking the this and it's just like I look back and realize I'm like I didn't I wasn't even conscious of choice it was just very clear remember and remember that this is the next thing you do at this age it's like this is the next thing that you have to do um and the societal script is funny isn't it it's like this societal cultural script that's always been there and it's I I mean I wish it weren't so but I feel like it does keep you in that just matrix of like purchase and consumerism and this and not enoughness because it fuels you know the the top pockets that are running the show um and it keeps you needy and keeps you purchasing it keeps you sick it keeps you feeding the machine of consumerism and no I mean think about it think about it like nowhere along the lines has ever been like you're a unique beautiful being and there's never going to be another one in the history of you in time and space what would you like to do with your journey how would what brings you light you know do you like school or do you like art or do you like this and like what should you create no it's like literally we're all handed the same playbill and I do think it's built to kind of feed that feed that machine yeah I don't mean to be a jerk but I think that playbill is so boring I know a lot of people follow it and I don't mean to offend anyone but it's it's like they put this limit on our dreaming um this limit on our possibility and well especially as women as well right I mean there's still that sense that we need to find someone who approves of us and picks us and says I would like to marry you I would like to spend my life with you um you know I was at worked for a corporation when I graduated college um for about two and a half years and I went to my aha moment was when I went to this big event and they were saluting the five-year tenure at 15 and their picture was like up on this jumbotron and music and food and it was like celebration and I looked at that jumbotron and I got this feeling in my stomach so much panic freaking out and the thing that came across my mind was this cannot be my life and that was the moment I left that and I was like I'm gonna change ever I'm leaving I'm walking away I'm done and so I've crafted a life that I want you know I don't have all the bells and whistles I mean I don't make a lot of money um I don't you know I don't have great health insurance whatever whatever whatever but I have freedom and for me that is the most important thing and I'm writing the own story of my life um and as your book says it has been messy messy messy it has been messy um but I've gotten myself out of my messes and I've stood on my own two feet and I haven't asked anyone else for money I haven't asked anyone for anything I've done it all on my own and and it allowed me to see who I could be in the middle of you know strife stress sorrow grief all that stuff um but I love that you you kind of urge us to that then tell us that the messy middle as it says is sacred and I love a good mess I love it yes yes oh just kudos to you for recognizing that moment and be like this is not going to be my story like this is not going to be my story like this is not my path and and it is it's about freedom because the only asset we have is time right time and what lights us up and being under like someone's like I mean my story like how many times have I been laid off and like with no you know like a great employee doing all the things that's like no one cares you're a number and someone else's script and someone's dream and someone's everything and that might light some people up fabulous do it go um but yeah we're just taught like it has to be outside of ourselves especially for women it has to be this person choosing you and doing this thing and everything else and I feel like the closer you to like get to knowing what really brings you joy and excitement those things that jumbotrons with like the 5 15 year plan you're just like can't you just see like can't you just feel the fakeness oozing off of it you're just like oh this is so inauthentic like the inauthenticity is just like I've used it's pungent it stings the nostrils and you're just like no no no and I mean we're we're taught to conform since school I mean you know school you get the kids up they do the thing I mean all of it all of it and how many kids want to get up at like 6am and start doing those curriculum stuff maybe they want to be in nature maybe they don't want to be in fluorescent lights all day you know like all of this is built around this consumptionism when it's like really out of the gate we're here to explore and create and so it shouldn't be this whole like societal here's the one path yeah yeah they I mean they I hate to use that generic word they but they really profit off of people who aren't connected to their own true selves because if you're not connected to what your heart is trying to say or or your life is trying to say then you will more readily acquit acquiesce to those in power so so yeah I am a hundred percent right here getting everything that you're saying but also I think I want to just applaud that you had this revelation you you know a lot of people have revelations and they don't take action they don't actually do anything but I can tell I mean just by your ebullience and how extravagant your spirit is I can tell when you have a revelation you're like I'm gonna run with this oh yeah yeah but I feel thank you so much for that but I feel that from you too it's like no and then once you see it there's no one seeing it right and so um yeah there was no one seeing it and then once you see it it's just like okay and it just it takes that coming back home to yourself when you were you've never inhabited your your true self right and it's turning off the programming like that's how I came into my knowing I turned off all the media I turned off all that I'm like I'm like the I mean they don't call it tv programming for anything you can google the whole intention of tv if you really would like to let's just call spade a spade and and so you turn all that off you turn off all the stuff that is telling you you're not enough and then you just finally are like and you always are looking outside of yourself right to teachers to other people to partners to parents something is this will you be proud of me if I do this and is this okay and what do you think it's like we haven't been asking ourselves right we haven't been like asking ourselves and the compass is right here and the way to begin to get into that is just you turn off x you know externalizing all your decision making encompassing you learn to trust yourself um and that and that takes time but once you do you know um so much starts to open up so much starts to flow um and and the universe has its way of bringing to you exactly where you're you know exactly where you're supposed to be and usually we feel so off because we're off chasing those societal scripts um and you know messy middle is we like to like talk about you know reinvention like it's this big mega thing you know like it's extreme makeover where you just she comes in like a homeless person and then she's like jennifer aniston afterwards like i'm reinvented and it's such the opposite reinvention is like the slow quiet choosing yourself in like micro moments day after day like building the self-trust because you've abandoned it to follow the script that you weren't ever given and you're like you're like this is a comedic scene but like i i would i would like to i'd like to make it a musical can i do that you know and it's trusting whether saying no to somebody that you know you know they're energetically they bring you down it doesn't make them a bad person but you just keep pleasing these people you're like i love you but no and um i don't really want on this career path i want to be a musician or i want a big bread or whatever and it's like i'm not doing this lawyer shit anymore so it's it's you know it's so simple it could be as simple as like reading a book for five minutes or meditating for five minutes when you made the promise to yourself and as you make these little micro decisions that like reinforce what you really want it starts to grow and it starts to grow and it starts to grow and then you start to actually really come into yourself and tune into like that intuitive feeling that is that like flush of energy in your chest that you can't you just know like when that warm pulse little it's like a full body yes and that's your internal compass that we all have that we've all tuned out to media and social and everything else that it just takes literal pause and patience and breath to find it again yeah silence i mean there is a lot of silence i know everybody thinks about silence as this oh there's nothing there but it's because they haven't experienced it for an extended period of time because there is a lot waiting out there in that silence and it's very patient it's just like whenever you can stop binging this show or whenever you can you know step back from the whirlwind that is modern life i'm waiting like we're waiting for you to like yeah unpack a whole bunch of stuff so um yeah yeah and it's always there waiting yes it's always there waiting um always to ask you the second question which is did you grow up in a religious household and if you did how did it evolve over time for you or for your family to your understanding now oh this is this is why i wanted to talk to you so i was raised a christian scientist so for those that are not familiar with christian scientists it is not scientology which is what most people think christian scientists in a nutshell um do not believe in modern medicine they don't believe in doctors i never saw a single doctor my entire childhood until i was 18 and at the very course of it's a christian religion it has the bible but it has key to the scriptures by mary baker eddie who was the founder of it and i did the christian science monitor and you might see christian science churches around the world but at its core they believe that you are a divine infinite being and that if you know your true essence as a spiritual being that you won't be sick that the body isn't real that mortal mind is not real and so that was that was that was a trip um growing up and my mom was pretty much christian science her whole life and it was just like this is what you do you go to church you believe in this there's like no questioning it's just um and so instead of going to doctors they have christian science practitioners so if you're sick you have someone pray for you and they pray for you to be better to know your true divine essence so that the symptoms are not real because the body is not real i remember distinctly being six years old in sunday school and i'm like all right so if the bodies aren't real then why do i have to brush my teeth before bed and the sunday school teacher looked at me and he's like rebecca keep reading and gas lit me and ignored my question and humor aside in that moment i was like oh i was like oh the jig is up guys like i'm like this is a web of lies and i'm like my parents don't know my teachers don't know and i was like i don't feel safe i was the they don't even know what they're doing i mean like my cat went to the vet and i didn't go to the vet and i'm like all right i think it would doctor you know what i'm like is the cat is the cat somehow more special than me i'm like i had glasses you know what i'm saying so i was like this is not i don't understand this isn't adding up and so i just pretended my whole childhood i would go to church i put on my dress when i behaved i would get ice cream and french fries afterwards and so i thought it was a good deal but the whole time i felt like i was playing a part and i wasn't i didn't feel like i could safely voice my concerns and no one was going to talk to me about it and it'd be interesting what would happen if they had um it would be interesting what they hadn't had so so then i was like i don't believe in god i don't believe in anything once i was 18 i was like nope no religion no nothing um i would say pretty much atheist and but there was always something there was always still something there like i was i always loved like ishmael and celestine prophecy and like alchemist and like little things like that would come into my life and i'm like i'm like there's something there and i can feel it but so my entire adult life they were always sending me still christian science articles we want you to believe you'll be and this little pleasing girl is like you know like i had mono in college and i had 106 temperature and i sat in their house for weeks before i went to the hospital because i didn't want to be a bad girl i didn't want to show them that i wasn't a christian scientist i mean my brother got injured as a kid he should have gone to the hospital he didn't so there's a whole line of like kerfuckery um with all that however universe has a sick sense of humor um an amazing sense of humor it took until my getting stranded in the desert everything falling apart marriage coming to an end getting laid off abroad and the shut down they literally put dirt in the road to keep me there i couldn't fly out i couldn't go anywhere so um i'd love to ask you the final question of the podcast which is i would so appreciate you sharing you know it can be one story or two stories a story in your life where you've experienced something that you felt was magical miraculous or mysterious anything you'd like to share yeah oh well this is this is easy um this is easy they're by far head and head and shoulders above the rest there's a moment that i will as magical mystical that i will forever ever be grateful for and it happened um 30 days after my father passed away and um the 30 days before prior you know i'm under the full moon and i'm just you know he'd been sick for a long time and i just set up to the sky um you know when he's ready i want him to go peacefully and i got the call the next morning that he passed and of course you go through the whole month of like the grieving and if you haven't lost a parent like oh and if you have you know it is um nothing quite prepares you for that and you know my dad and i i grew up very religiously and he was always trying to convince me of something greater and always trying to convince me uh to expand my spiritual side my whole life right up into his death and i just stubborn and so the month after he passed um you know i'm back under the full moon just at a simple sound healing ceremony and i look up you know i like this is like oh give me every time i look up to the heavens and i'm just like in the most grief i've ever felt in my whole life and i'm like dad you know i'm like if you're out there i'm like show me and you know i get into the breath i'm just lying down i'm just trying to like get grounded and just breathing feeling the music being in the moment and i'm sitting there lying there and all of a sudden i feel a hand brush across my forehead and i'm about to open my eyes and ask why in the world is the sound healing person touching me right now like i'm about to pop them open and i'm just like and there's no mistaking those hands there's no mistaking those fingers and in an instant i'm out of my body i'm in darkness but it's everything and there is no time there is no space there is no before there is no after but everything just is and i am a cluster of golden light and in front of me is another cluster of golden light and the best way to put it is that it's dancing and i know that it's my dad and we speak to each other without words but yet instantly in our minds and i'm like dad is this what we are and he replies right into my mind he's like yes he's like aren't we so beautiful and i'm like he's like i'm so happy he's like i'm home and i have a million questions that i want to ask in this moment but there's one that just bubbles up that i can't put down i'm just like dad can i stay i think i just want to stay and in that moment i'm dropped right back into my body i can feel myself come into it i feel the weight of it i it's so dense it's like where i just came from is so light and so beautiful and so i feel myself come into it and i of course i'm sobbing my heart could explode i'm trying to process what just happened i look around and i'm sobbing and people are looking at me but like it's like through a veil it's through a glass and i can see them but it's like a bomb has gone off so i can't i can't quite hear but i'm just sobbing from like pure joy pure bliss and eventually like the hearing comes back and i'm just like okay oh my god i'm just what he can't like he came you know i can't believe i can't believe he came and took me the best way to put it is just a veil over from where we are he's right there and we're right here but it's just right there and as we're sharing i'm going around the circle and i'm just sobbing i'm like this is what happened and the people next to me one next to me said that she saw a little bit of white light around me when i was laying there and the next guy shared that when he was laying down he kept hearing this voice go dad dad i'm dad and he didn't understand like what was happening until i shared he's just looking he's like yeah he wanted to make sure it was very clear that everybody knew that he was there and so of course you know from that moment on my life was forever changed forever changed and yeah it's the most magical mystical life-changing moment i will like i still can't like it it's it was beautiful but imagine my father is in the process of dying right now so i suspect that he'll be passing away within probably three months so it'll be the first parent that i'm going to lose so your story really resonates with me and um you know it's it's so interesting right because you and i had a prior conversation in a prior interview what did we think four months ago yeah and then yeah and then now here we are four months later and four months ago my father wasn't at that threshold but now he is and so it's interesting to be re-meeting with you and having another conversation about this really powerful experience you had with your father because it's so topical for me right now and what's going on in my life and also gives me a lot of you have no idea comfort and it's a balm for my soul so thank you um i think oh well i'm curious you and your father must have been very close were you best friends i mean i was like i'm you know i i was like i was or i am like daddy's girl through and through like i was always a sidekick we were always like off shooting hoops or swimming or telling stories like yeah we we had an incredible like incredible bond and yeah yeah i mean there's so many you know like parents of that generation like we we bonded in so many ways but like we didn't always connect like the you know in the deepest way like that i always feel deeply seen and heard emotionally but like there was this unspoken there's this unspoken just deep profound love between us and even after he passed i go back and all these all these photos where i'm like leaning on dad and i've got dad like he's like boosting me like there's just so many uh you know moments and i just i almost didn't realize how close we were until he passed um and even after that now i still i still feel him i have you know there's been moments where there's been very clear direction i feel uh closer to that that infinite you know wisdom that is in all of us and um at night i'll sometimes he'll come and it's just in the form of like this gold light that is in the peripheral and i'll just come quickly and then it's gone but i know he's there um and so i know the pain that you're going through but it's so hard but like they're leaving us here in this existence but they are the suffering ends and they're so happy and they're so complete and the same will happen for us you know and so it's just it's hard to lose him in this experience but he is more alive and i feel closer to him now than i think i ever did when he was here wow do you do you kind of consider him i mean it's almost like he's become this guardian angel for you yeah yeah yeah absolutely because i mean so i mean through that there was a lot of ways i tried to get you know access to that energy again but like i wanted to get back to that feeling and try to get there again um but there's been a really good channel or medium that i've connected with that's helped me once or twice and and dad came through like immediately and she's like whoa the connection between you two and i was very skeptical at first i didn't you know give information but there was phrases and things that he brought up and said that only he would have said that no one would know and so um you know he's he's he's like i'm so proud of you you know i'm watching over you i'm always with you you know he's like this this this in life like you're okay to do that and this is this don't do that you know so he's still he's guiding me more now than he ever has and so it's like just a beautiful magical um connection and that all without that moment i don't you know i i can't even i i can't fathom i just can't fathom life in this moment in time so yeah i just i'm sitting here listening to you and thinking what a huge gift right because certainly many people the world over millions if not billions have had a parent pass away and not had an experience like yours and i think it's a testament to the connection you two had it was so powerful the love was so fierce that you know he was like absolutely not i am not you know going whatever into the light or whatever he's in the light but he also you know he's like i'm gonna i'm gonna be here for her i'm gonna show up i'm gonna help her you have this amazing ally on your side um and it's it's just born out of pure love which i find astonishing yeah it's yeah it's the purest it's the purest love and i don't know you know i don't have experience with this i don't know if i hadn't called out to him in the way that i did if it would have happened like i don't know because it was there's certain windows after people pass where you have a little bit stronger connection um between this realm and the next and it was 30 days after was under the same full moon but i mean i it was one of those ass where it was like i was a drop into that heart center and it was with my entire being i was like it was soul to soul it was like a it was a telegram across the universe and i just i just i asked with every ounce of that energy that i had i just begged i'm like if you're there show me and it's you know it wasn't like you know i'm just in the shower thinking of me like it was just a it was a it was a it was a bat so you know a bat signal i'm like are you there i love that i'm like this is what we've been doing wrong nobody's been using the bat signal you gotta use the intergalactic bat signal up to the universe you gotta say oh you gotta put it out you gotta ask you gotta say i need you oh i love that that's like the perfect ending for the podcast frankly um um you know just talking to you and hearing this story um you know i heard a little bit of it before but this fully fleshed out story um it's so interesting because uh i've had several people come up to me their parents are passing away too and you know nobody really knows what to do with this thing called death is i mean it's really confounding for a lot of people it's very well it's scary nobody wants to admit it's going to happen to them it's the unknown country you know it's very mysterious um we can't get out of it none of us are getting out of it you know stories like these i think can be such powerful reminders that hey you know what you see out your window here what you see in your daily life that this is that's not the end of the story that's not the end of the story of this reality or this universe and we need stories like yours and your father's and the love him showing up for you and still being present because it reminds well it doesn't remind some people have no idea how to tackle death but your story suggests another way of viewing that threshold and that change in that transition and that all is not lost and and those who go before us are still here you know if they want to be if they want to be they can still be our fiercest allies our staunchest advocates um yeah watch over us whatever your story is incredible because it's going to give a lot of people a lot of hope oh well i mean that that makes my heart so happy and that's why you know i wrote about it and it's just to give people hope in that way and you know one thing that happened afterwards is you know like he didn't come to my mom in that way and he didn't come to my brother in that way and there was you know i shared and there was just like you know they were of course excited and happy but like that hurt and you know i don't i don't know i don't know why he was able to come to me in that way besides um it was just a soul agreement between us and so if your loved one when that loved one passed if they don't come to you in that way there i there is not a shadow of a doubt in my mind that they're with you always they're with you in the car they're with you when you are you know out and about they're protecting you they're with you their energy is with you and i know this and so just because the the veil or the realm between this thicker density that we're in where they are doesn't mean that they're not with you it's just we can't we literally can't see or have access to them and that's by design and so um but they're they they they go on in the most beautiful way and we will go on the most beautiful way and this is just this lovely earth school dream that we're all a part of where we learn and grow and journey and explore and create and experience because we signed up to do so i love that i feel like we should all every single person living on earth should have a t-shirt that says i'm in the dream are you um because you know i think well i don't know i have met some people that don't think this way just putting it out there yeah yeah you're like you know i didn't i didn't think this way i didn't think this way a couple like give me you know four or five years ago i before this happened i did not this was not my belief um oh my god this must have shell shocked you well yeah that's why i mean that's why it's like it's gonna get messy because like it got so messy after this you think it would get better oh no no no no no no like the way what that showed me coming back into this existence i was mad i was like i was the pain of it the the the the it's like going from like you know piloting an intergalactic you know light like traveling spaceship into like the first bicycle without shocks you know with no seat it was like i'm like i just got severely downgraded you know and i'm like i you know it was like from first class to cargo i was like so like life just got very hard um and so it took a lot of mess and reflection and breath and meditation and studying and sharing and all the things to get to a real place of gratitude for why we are here and the point of it all um because that existence is waiting for you but i can tell you the the sip of coffee in the morning and the sun on your face when it rises and like all of this that we get to experience through this lovely avatar is you you know that's part of the beauty of the the the pain that goes with it the duality and so you know i'm grateful for all of that now um but yeah it's not it's a process i love that you said a bicycle without a seat i was and what came to me was i hated those banana seats do you remember those yeah you're sliding down horrible banana seats yes my bike would have a banana seat i'm just putting it up yeah yeah i had the banana seat i had the banana seat it's just that the ergonomics were just not there who invented that i don't know and like it doesn't even go with the body so like why no why like the mystery that will never be solved that is one of the unsolved mysteries but we basically said a universal intergalactic bat signal is needed and no banana seats and no banana seeds yeah you gotta you gotta you gotta put your manifestation out there so and that's it that's my delightfully charming conversation with becca um i enjoyed every minute she's a light in this world she's funny she's down to earth and she's trying to figure it out just like the rest of us are um you know with all the plot twists that we are actually you know trying to deal with in our lives gracefully might i add she's doing it oh so gracefully and don't forget there's an easter egg here at the end of the outro where you'll hear a little bit more about becca and a little bit more of our conversation um i'm so grateful to becca for being on the show and i'm grateful to all of you who listen to this podcast if you do listen and you do like what you hear please do consider leaving a rating or writing a little review wherever you find the podcast i really really think this podcast can help people and lift their spirits and remind them that magic is all around us if only we open our eyes thank you for listening and here's my one request be like becca understand that our ancestors those close to us those who are no longer here on this physical plane they're just millimeters away in a vastness and a beauty that we can't even begin to comprehend but guess what they still love us they still want to be a part of our lives and so if we open our hearts and we open our minds to the possibility that they are still all around us wanting love for us and in a place where all answers are given i think it would behoove each and every one of us to start conversations with them entertain the idea that you can have conversations with your father or your mother or a favorite uncle who's passed away it's an illusion that death is final it's an illusion that those who are no longer here physically we can never talk to again they're always here just like love is always here and we should never forget that that love lasts forever and death is just a doorway it's so interesting that now we've reconvened and we're finishing it up and i'm in this place and you have this powerful salient story for me that is providing a lot of me a lot of comfort i'm just gonna put it out there so so thank you becca honestly it's the timing is eerie so well that's where you know there's a divine force at play it's exactly as it should be yeah and you know i'm sorry to hear about your dad it's you know i know i know i know what that whole thing journey is um and we're in a society that doesn't like allow you to you know talk about death and to like it to be a thing so it's just this is the tsunami that's just waiting to fall and it's it's all the things it's the fear and it's the loss and it's the um unknown and the yeah it's it's awful yeah it's awful um and yeah i just i'm glad that i'm just glad my story can just help you through it a little bit you know