Yeah.
Do you know,
You know,
I had I worked with this psychologist,
Who did this particular therapy from a woman in Holland or whatever,
Anyway,
For three years,
Thousands and thousands of years later,
Dollars later,
I have basically a psychotic break after working with him,
Because what he did was,
Like,
If we were very mismatched in vibration,
And basically,
He was doing a technique on me,
And I wanted to wake up,
You see how stupid I was?
I mean,
How deluded?
I mean,
I was I had some degree of awakeness spiritually,
And I go to a guy just because he's got a PhD and a six month waiting list.
And I pay him thousands of dollars,
And he would do this technique,
I would talk about something was bothering me,
He would do this technique,
He would touch my body.
After three years of this,
I have a psychotic break,
Which I've had enough experience with losing my noodle by this point that I actually keep it all together,
I do not require hospitalization,
I can function,
I can take care of the kids.
But on my skin on my,
The etheric level,
You know,
The of the sheets,
The one beyond the physical,
And you go into the etheric,
I had like,
You know,
All the places he'd worked on me,
It was it was like I had cuts all over my etheric body.
It's like it was a big wounding,
Draped wounding with pus coming,
It was like the etheric like pus stuff coming from the levels where it's so me up,
Because we're so me up.
It wasn't.
And my Dharma was to move into truth,
I just got hypnotized by this guy's,
Well,
By my loneliness by this guy's PhD,
And it was in the 80s.
And nobody was talking about spirituality.
And anyway,
And I'll tell you,
After that,
I had authority,
Bethan,
I had a spiritual authority as a result of surviving that,
You see,
It's like people listen to me after that,
When I spoke,
My body actually became healthier,
I became more united,
It helped me that then these things do help us.
It's just that I think they're not too many people strong enough to be able to walk through what I walked through.
And that's,
That's my concern.
So when there's a sense of anything that I've done,
That hurt anybody,
I immediately go back to what I experienced with when my core wounding got hurt again.
So yeah,
It was like,
It was a big deal.
But I think that this thing with the this psychologist was,
Was probably worse.
Do you know what I mean?
Because it went off for three years,
I had a lot of trust built up with him.
But again,
It's like,
And then also miracles started happening more in my life.
Like it was,
It was this huge clearing,
It was like a big garbage truck clearing of my Everest ego.
But it's really why I'm so devoted to people,
Because I know what it can get like.
Yeah.
Does any of what I just talked about make any sense?
Is there anybody confused about that?
It's kind of how I got past the concrete was going through that experience.
After that,
I could work.
Thank you.
You understand it.
Thank you.
Thank you.
I Yeah,
I got to concrete and then I'd be able to access more of the astral level after that.
So it was all good.
