So I invite you to get in a place where you can completely relax.
This is a meditation about the power of speaking your truth.
This is a clearing for you to be more free in speaking what you need to speak,
Having authority,
Having the idea that you don't have to abandon yourself any longer,
That your words matter,
Your ideas are important,
And you get to speak your truth.
So we're going to do a clearing on anything that is holding that back,
But right now,
I want you just to see how comfortable you can allow your body to get.
Taking some deep breaths,
And notice if there's any area that needs a little bit more maybe breath,
Or attention,
Or movement.
Nice.
So we're first going to start at the mental place,
So the question to you is,
Are you fully speaking your truth?
And maybe you absolutely wander around,
And you say what's on your mind,
And you have safety in doing that,
And that's a blessing,
But maybe you have been raised in situations or with people or in environments where you were taught just to be quiet,
Or maybe you tried and it didn't go well,
So you just learn why bother,
Nobody's going to hear it anyway,
It's not going to help.
So I want you to just do a little mental assessment.
When I think of speaking my truth,
What comes up?
Is it easy?
Is it hard?
Now we're going to go to the heart.
I want you to just put your energy and your attention into the heart space.
What do you notice?
What I'm looking for are the unsaid things,
The hurts,
The disappointments,
The grievances,
The times where you had to stay quiet,
Maybe you were forced to stay quiet because it wasn't appropriate.
Maybe you didn't know how to respond because it was a situation that was challenging.
Maybe you just gave up and decided why bother,
Nothing works anyway.
So I want you just to notice in this heart space,
Your emotional center there.
Can you see the hurt?
Can you feel the words that either haven't been expressed or need to be expressed?
Just notice the feeling of that.
Is there a heaviness to that?
Is there anger with that or something else with that?
And I want to let you know that this meditation is not so you go out in the world and share every grievance with everybody.
That's not what this is about.
But I think we sometimes need to start with awareness.
Like what is in me that needs to be expressed?
And maybe you first express it to yourself and then maybe you put it on paper and then maybe you share it with a trusted friend and that never has to go anywhere.
But I want you to have the freedom to say,
You know what?
I get to say that.
I get to know that.
I get to validate that.
I'm going to take another deep breath and now we're going to move into the clearing phase.
And so what I'm envisioning in front of you is a fire.
You could have a small little tabletop barbecue grill.
You could have a raging,
Huge bonfire.
So whatever calls to you.
So I want you to imagine in front of you,
There's a fire.
So once you get it,
I want you again,
We're going to start at the mental part.
Any training,
Any thoughts,
Any previous examples from family or culture or gender of it's just best to not share this.
Why are you always talking,
Right?
So just notice anything that you literally heard or trained with,
Observed,
Overt,
Covert.
Just in your mind,
Just whatever your mind has that has stopped you.
And it could be,
I don't want to let people down or,
Oh my gosh,
This is going to make them mad.
And then what's going to happen?
So whatever that is,
So that layer,
Imagine you could command all that into the fire now,
Because here's what I know.
You are more powerful than you know.
You can command that gone with a simple decision.
And then the act,
Putting it in the fire,
Go now,
Go now.
I don't accept that any longer.
This is not my truth.
Go now.
So taking a moment here and just imagine all those thought forms,
All the teachings from other people.
Let them go.
Beautiful.
Taking a breath,
Trusting and knowing that this is occurring for you.
You are creating freedom and a release here.
So now I want you to go to any family situations,
Anything that emerges from your childhood or just family stuff,
Because our families have imprinted on us what we get to do and who we get to be.
And I do want to tell you,
It's okay to say,
I know you tried the best you can,
But I'm not accepting that today.
I know that might've come from love.
I know that you didn't know any better.
You did not intend me harm.
It's not disloyal as an adult to say,
I choose to let this go now.
This is not mine.
So see if you can encapsulate like what messages did I get about my ability to speak my truth?
Because a lot of us learned it was far safer.
We got loved by being quiet,
By silencing ourself and pretending we didn't know what we really knew.
So taking a moment now,
Grabbing all the energy that,
And truth is there's maybe emotion here.
This is deep stuff and it's okay.
Just witness it.
Just let it ride out there.
Different feelings can occur,
Breathe through it,
But any imprinting about your ability to speak the truth,
Any place you decide in,
In order to be loved,
I have to be what they want me to be.
So I have to not know what I really know and I have to be silent or pretend that might've been a great decision back then and today you can change it.
Take one more moment.
Anything related here,
I release now.
And then the final piece is the epigenetic or the ancestral,
Because a lot of things we do are not even ours,
Thought forms,
Patterns.
We carry them in.
So you might know what that is,
But you don't have to know what that is.
So what I mean by that is you can basically say any energy that I am caring for my ancestors as many lifetimes back as I need to go.
Anything that is contrary,
Me being a fully sovereign person in full authority of my truth,
Anything that that is,
Go now.
I honor you and I let this go for you,
For me,
For future generations.
I let any of that carried patterning from the generations ahead of me or behind me,
Go now.
Imagine throwing that all in the fire.
That's an energetic piece.
Just imagine you can even like flick it out of your hand,
Go into the fire now,
Beautiful.
Taking one more moment,
One more moment.
And I want you to stand and imagine you're moving your body.
So now you're in front of your fire and you're maybe dancing around and you can shake yourself a little bit.
And I want you to notice space and I want you to basically put your hands on your heart and say,
I now have the freedom and the ability and the permission to speak my truth.
And I use discernment.
I use wisdom.
So I am guided where it's safe,
But I no longer will pretend that I don't know my truth.
And I set myself up with safe people speaking.
Read that in and let me know how that feels in a moment.
Ah,
Great.
Beginning to come back,
Taking a moment.
Back in your body.
Very nice.
You know,
You can always return to this meditation and I'm trusting and knowing that we have made a big shift for you today.
Thank you for meditating with me.
