Words From My Higher Self: Part 1

Welcome to The Seeker and the Sage,

A podcast,

I guess we'll call it that,

About remembering what we've always known.

I'm Harrison,

A seeker of truth,

A student of suffering,

And a soul who writes down what the silence teaches me.

Each episode is a passage from my living journal.

I call them words from my higher self.

Now,

They're not perfect,

They're certainly not polished,

But they're real,

They're raw,

And they've kept me alive when nothing else could.

This show is a home for the wanderers,

The ones who feel too much,

Ask too many questions,

And sense there's more to life than just surviving it.

Here we talk about transformation,

Healing,

Breath,

Stillness,

Addiction,

Purpose,

And the sacred art of becoming.

I don't speak as a guru,

I speak as someone who's still learning to listen.

So if you're walking your own path of awakening,

Welcome.

You are a seeker,

And maybe through these words,

You'll hear the voice of your own sage.

Before we begin,

I want to share something sacred,

A passage from a dear friend of mine.

Her words cracked something open in me when she said this,

And I believe they'll do the same for you.

This is what she taught me about love.

I've learned that love is not about holding on,

It's about allowing yourself to be changed.

In her words,

I loved someone so deeply that it broke open every illusion I had about who I was supposed to be.

And when he was gone,

The pain didn't leave a hole,

It carved out a temple.

That's the secret.

Love doesn't leave us empty,

It makes space.

And in that space,

We either build a shrine to longing,

Or an altar to becoming.

She chose becoming.

Let your love story refine you,

Not define you,

She told me.

Let them teach you to love yourself in all the places you once tried to hide for the sake of being wanted.

And one day,

When the right one comes,

You'll recognize them,

Not by how they chase you,

But by how they rest beside your fire without fear.

A little bit more,

I got my notes here on the topic of love.

Do not look for a lover who completes your silence.

Look for the one who joins you in it.

You do not belong to the masses,

So do not hand your heart to the uninitiated.

Let love find you when you are not hiding yourself to be chosen.

Let it burn where it must,

And bless the ashes when it's done.

Got one more,

One more bar to drop on this.

Love doesn't come to complete you,

It comes to awaken what you buried to survive.

Don't seek a love that pacifies you.

Seek a love that terrifies your ego and gently holds your soul.

I can tell you from my experience in life,

I've always confused love with attachment.

I think that's kind of what this quote is speaking to,

Right?

Love doesn't come to complete you,

It comes to awaken you.

It comes to show you all the illusions that you had up,

All the walls,

The barriers,

The ego,

All of that.

And real love will obliterate that,

But it will still gently hold your soul through all of that fire.

That's what I choose to believe real love is.

All right,

So we had all those love quotes now.

What I'm gonna do now is just go through line by line in my journal here and just drop random bits of stuff that I wrote down.

So here's the first one.

Self-discovery is one of the greatest forms of self-love.

So ask yourself,

How often do you get curious about who you are?

What makes you who you are?

Why you think the way you do?

Why you act the way you do?

All these kinds of things,

Asking yourself these questions and dissecting it,

Right?

That is self-discovery.

What do I like?

What don't I like?

What do I think my purpose is?

These kinds of things.

And the deeper you go into that self-discovery,

From what I've learned,

That's how you truly begin to love yourself more.

You came here into this reality,

This world,

And all you have at the end of it is this physical body.

We must come to understand this vessel,

And through understanding it,

We learn to love it.

The next one I have here is this,

And I'll preface this a little bit.

I've spent a lot of my life alone.

Sure,

I've been in relationships.

Sure,

I have friends,

But a lot of my life has been spent alone,

Thinking,

Asking questions,

All these kinds of things,

And stillness.

And what I wrote down from that was this.

This lifetime has given me ample time to spend with myself,

For my purpose is to love who I am.

So the way I see it is like this.

This lifetime,

I really think I'm meant to understand who I am.

I'm meant to love who I am.

And in order to do that,

I have to spend a lot of time alone with myself,

Right?

So I like to believe that the universe,

God,

Whatever you'd like to call it,

Purposefully isolated me,

Purposefully put me into isolation so that I could sit with my being and come to love it.

Now,

I have to be honest,

This is one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life,

To be alone.

I always tried to fill that silence with people,

With addictions,

With substances,

All kinds of things,

Anything to escape who I am.

But I don't do that anymore.

And in the process of just sitting with me,

Oh,

My life has changed so much.

All right,

The next one I got.

The ability to forgive is a demonstration of self-love.

If you can forgive someone and no longer hold onto pain and hurt,

You show proof of loving yourself.

Because holding onto anger hurts us.

And if you choose to hurt yourself,

You do not love yourself.

Makes sense.

It's like that old quote says,

Holding onto anger or anger itself is like drinking poison and expecting someone else to die.

The reality is,

By giving the emotion of anger energy,

By giving it your conscious attention and awareness,

You are hurting yourself.

And through forgiveness,

We just let all of that go.

You just decide to,

I'm no longer going to give these emotions energy.

And doing that is an incredible act of self-love.

Moving on to the next one.

Discomfort.

Being in discomfort,

Being uncomfortable means that growth is happening.

You probably hear all these hard asses on TikTok and Instagram saying that's kind of stuff,

Right?

Pain is weakness leaving the body.

I prefer to use the words,

Discomfort means growth is happening.

Putting yourself into uncomfortable situations,

No matter how hard they are,

Is how we grow.

I'm going to give you an example from my life,

And this one's going to be heavy,

But so be it.

Through the past 20 years of my life,

I struggled terribly with addictions,

From anabolic steroids to substances to pornography,

Lust.

And breaking those was the most uncomfortable thing I ever did.

It was the most uncomfortable thing I ever had to go through.

But because I subjected myself to that,

I grew.

I started to see things for what they really are.

I started to break illusions.

That discomfort broke my illusions.

Here's one that I really like on the topic of purpose.

You're not meant to get far on a path you were never meant to walk.

So ask yourself this,

How many times have you been in a job that's just,

It's just not progressing,

Or you're pursuing a career that's just not going anywhere,

Or friendships that are just not fulfilling,

Relationships.

Those are the things that I like to interpret,

Is that that's life's way of telling you,

God's way,

The universe's way,

What have you,

Of saying,

Hey,

This isn't your path,

That's why it feels like this.

That's just my two cents.

Here's one I've learned on the topic of manifestation.

I know everybody talks about this one,

So I'm not going to go crazy here,

But I like to think of every single thought as a creation.

Every thought is a creation,

And all thoughts manifest into the world around us.

What you continue to think and feel is what you attract,

And I like to believe that that reflects into our reality around us.

So a little thing that I've taught myself is this,

All thoughts manifest,

Counter-manifest the negative ones.

For instance,

Like lust,

Envision the equal opposite.

So let me go into a little more detail on this.

I like to believe that we move in the direction of our strongest thought.

So say I'm thinking extremely lustful thoughts.

I'm thinking about how I want to do some self-gratification or get on a dating app and try and get with a bunch of women,

Whatever.

The more I think about that,

The more likely I am to do it.

But what I started training my mind to do is when I get these thoughts that I identify as negative that will lead to a negative outcome,

I begin to envision the equal opposite of that thought.

So lust,

I'm thinking lustful thoughts.

Well,

What's the opposite of lust?

Love.

So let me envision in my mind what real love would feel like instead of what lust feels like.

And sure enough,

Practicing that day in and day out,

Well,

I don't really get the lustful thoughts anymore.

And when they do come,

I can quickly override it so that it doesn't become something bad.

So next up,

I heard this one the other day and it stopped me mid-breath.

Wisdom comes from listening and the prerequisite for that is silence.

Just sit with that for a second.

We all want wisdom,

Right?

Not just knowledge.

Wisdom,

The kind that lands in your bones and changes the way you move through the world.

But we chase it like it's something out there,

Somewhere in a book or a quote or a podcast or a teacher.

And yet,

This line reminds us that wisdom isn't something you grab.

It's something you receive.

But you can only receive it if you're quiet enough to hear it.

You see,

Silence isn't emptiness.

I like to view silence as a doorway.

And the deeper you go into it,

The more you begin to hear the things that were always there.

Your intuition,

Your higher self,

God,

The universe,

The voice beneath the noise,

Whatever name you give it.

The problem is,

We're addicted to filling that space.

Scrolling,

Thinking,

Fixing,

Overanalyzing.

To quote Eckhart Tolle,

Thinking is a disease and I swear by that.

We want to be wise but we rarely give wisdom a chance to speak.

So here's the hard truth in my opinion.

If you can't sit in silence,

You'll never learn how to listen.

If you can't listen,

You'll keep mistaking noise for truth.

Take that in.

I want you to take that personally because it might just change how you start your mornings,

Or how you end your day,

Or how you treat those quiet moments where it feels like nothing's happening.

That's where everything is happening.

That's where wisdom lives.

Not in the chaos,

Not in the clamor,

But in the quiet.

All right,

Next up in this collection of soul notes,

A line that came through like a beam in the dark for me.

Now forget where I heard this,

But it goes like this.

When you act from love instead of cursing the darkness,

The radiance of your true self will light the path for you.

Now let's pause right there because this one isn't just poetic.

I like to think this is a compass.

It's a reminder of what happens when we stop reacting to life and start responding from our highest truth.

First part of the quote,

When you act from love,

That's the invitation.

Not to react,

Not to spiral,

Not to point fingers at the storm,

But to act consciously from the deepest part of you.

From love.

Love isn't soft.

It's not the safest option here.

It's the boldest move you can make,

Especially in the face of pain,

Fear,

Or uncertainty.

When you choose love,

You're not being naive.

You're being sober.

So when you act from love,

Instead of cursing the darkness,

Let's focus on that second part.

Instead of cursing the darkness,

This is where most of us get caught,

Right?

We curse the timing,

The trauma,

The betrayal,

The ache.

We blame the dark as if our suffering could somehow guilt the universe into sending us light.

But the more we resist what's happening,

The more we feed it.

Darkness doesn't shrink when you scream at it.

It shrinks when you shine.

So when you act from love,

Instead of cursing the darkness,

The radiance of your true self will light the path.

Now this part's the revelation.

The radiance of your true self will light the path.

This is the revelation.

Your true self isn't hiding.

It's just buried beneath the noise,

The fear,

The defenses.

When you act from love,

Even if it's quiet,

Even if it's hard,

Your light starts to break through.

You become the lamp,

The lighthouse,

The living embodiment of the path forward.

Not only for yourself,

But for everyone walking behind you too.

Okay,

So what does this really mean?

Sounds kind of poetic,

Fluffy,

Spiritual,

Whatever.

Here's what I think this means.

It means you don't need to wait for clarity before you move.

You don't need the storm to pass before you choose peace.

You don't need to fix the darkness to become light.

Acting from love is the ultimate rebellion in a world addicted to fear.

It's not about pretending everything is okay.

It's about deciding that who you are matters more than what's happening around you.

Your light isn't something you earn once you've healed.

Absolutely not.

It's something you access every time you choose to love anyway.

Love through the grief.

Love through the unknown.

Love through the part of you that's still learning how to love yourself.

Because the truth is,

You were never meant to curse the dark.

You were meant to glow inside it.

All right,

Next up in the soul scroll of wisdom.

God,

That sounds cheesy.

It'll never mind.

A deceptively simple one that changed the way I speak to myself.

So here's the line.

What ifs should always be positive?

What ifs should always be positive?

So let's unpack that.

How many times have you said,

What if I fail?

What if it's too late?

What if I'm not enough?

What if I never heal?

Most of our what ifs are fear-wrapped predictions of pain.

They're mental rehearsals for disaster.

But what if we flipped the script here?

What if it works?

What if you succeed beyond your wildest plans?

What if this breakdown is the exact portal you needed?

What if life is actually conspiring for you?

Here's what I like to do.

See what if as a door.

And whether that door leads to fear or possibility depends on which version of you is speaking.

Fear asks,

What if I get hurt?

Love asks,

What if this frees me?

So this quote is a challenge to take back control of the questions that shape your reality,

To become the author of your mind,

Not just its echo chamber.

Because your brain will follow whatever story you tell it most often.

So when the next what if comes up,

Pause.

Catch it.

Flip it.

Flip the script on it.

Go from fear to love.

Transmute it,

My friends.

What if this is the beginning of everything?

What if you're more powerful than you think?

What if love is coming?

What if this version of you becomes your favorite one yet?

Here's what I like to believe.

Your thoughts are a spell.

And what if is the want?

So choose carefully and cast wisely.

Wisely.

So let's bring this one to a close.

Today we explored how wisdom isn't something you chase.

It's something you hear when you finally get quiet enough to listen.

We talked about love,

Not as a feeling,

But as a path.

A choice that lights the way when everything else feels dark.

And we flipped the script on fear by reminding ourselves what ifs should always be positive.

Because your future bends in the direction of your imagination.

Now these aren't just quotes to admire.

What we discussed here today are truths to live.

So my question for you listening to this is this.

Where can you choose love instead of fear today?

What's the what if that your soul actually wants to believe?

And when the world gets loud,

Can you still hear the quiet voice of your higher self reminding you who you really are?

Take what landed,

Leave what didn't.

And if it stirred something in you,

Write about it,

Breathe into it,

Become it.

Thank you for walking with me today.

This has been another entry in words for my higher self inside the seeker and the sage.

Until next time,

Stay sacred,

Stay wild,

And above all,

Keep seeking.

Blessed be my friends.