Whatever meditation object we are using,
Whether the breath,
Contemplation of the Buddha,
Recollection of the Buddha,
Loving-kindness,
Body contemplation for elements.
Let us be careful that we are not making it into an exercise of I-making and mind-making.
My meditation,
My meditation is not good,
Or my meditation is fantastic.
I am a great meditator,
I can't meditate,
I need to attain samadhi,
Get samadhi,
I want to become an Abhahant so that I am an Abhahant and so on.
And you notice already semantically how much the I,
Me,
Mine,
And that is what makes the meditation heavy,
That is what gives the meditation headaches on people,
Experience.
Of course we can't overcome the illusion of self,
I,
Me,
And mine,
Just semantically by using different words,
But even if we don't have deep insight yet into not-self,
We can use another sannyā,
We can deliberately develop the perception of not-self,
The perception of not-mine,
Perception of not-me.
So rather than I am meditating now,
My meditation is like this or that,
Just sitting,
Watching,
Being aware,
What arises.
Not my breath,
I am breathing,
But just breath going in,
Breath going out,
Watching the breath,
Being aware of the breath.
Not my mind is too restless,
I can't meditate,
But just noticing when the mind runs off and bringing it back mindfully,
Catching the mind,
Bringing it back.
No proliferation into it doesn't work,
I can't meditate,
I am not a meditator,
Or anything like that,
Just catching the mind,
Bringing it back to the breath.
Of course also towards the distractions,
Not I am thinking too much,
My thoughts disturb me in my meditation,
Just these thoughts are not me,
Not my thoughts,
Not me,
Not mine,
Not I,
Developing another sannyā,
Towards the thinking,
Developing the perception of not I,
Not me,
Not mine,
Not self,
Towards all these thoughts,
It's often more conducive than fighting them,
Which may reinforce the thinking process.
I have to stop thinking,
I think the wrong thoughts,
So now I stop my thoughts from being wrong,
Too much I,
That's not my thoughts,
Not me,
Not mine,
That's the way to go.
Not me,
Not mine,
Any thought arising,
Great thought,
Silly thought,
Sensual thought,
Angry thought,
Not me,
Not mine,
Not I,
Not I,
Not mine,
Not me,
Not me,
Not mine,
Not I,
Not mine,
Not me,
The past,
The future,
We apply another sannyā,
Not when this happened to me and that person hurt my feelings so much and I was so upset,
Just a memory,
Images arising,
We contemplate,
Not I,
Not mine,
Not me,
Not me,
Not mine,
Not I,
The future we apply another sannyā,
Perception of not self to the future,
Not I will be doing this and then I will get this for me,
Or if this is going to happen to me then I be in big trouble,
Or just whatever concern or worry or hope arises we just contemplate it as not me,
Not mine,
Just an emotion,
An idea,
An anxiety,
Not I,
Not me,
Not mine,
Not mine,
Not me,
Not I,
Not I,
Not me,
Not mine,
Not mine,
Not me,
Not I,
And the problemless shrinks away,
Suddenly no longer a big issue,
Just this little I,
Me,
Mine which makes everything into such a big issue,
So as we meditate internally,
Externally,
We always apply another sannyā,
Just breathing in,
Breathing out,
Not I breathe,
My breath,
Not my breath,
Just breath going in,
Breath going out,
We feel peaceful and content,
We just notice we are there,
Peaceful,
Content,
Not I am getting more peaceful,
But now my contentment,
Not like that,
Just noticing quiet peace,
Whatever disturbance,
Obstruction arises,
Not me,
Not mine,
Not I,
Not me,
Not mine,
Not mine,
Not me,
Not I,
This is how the meditation is just cruising along,
Without this big heavy clots,
Weighty clots of I,
Me,
Mine,
Everything is in the light,
Clear and easy.
