Is The Knowingness Awareness Very Boring If I Paint My Nails – Am I Going Away From The Awareness?

2.

It's not boring really.

It is the actual peace that you are thirsting for.

Yeah,

But you have got used to the ragas and dveshas of the mind,

The likes and dislike tendency of the mind and you think this is normal.

Now you are recognising,

Oh the space in which this raga and dvesha is arising,

That is more peaceful.

That is what I really want.

But for a while you are going to shuttle between the old normal and the new normal.

So it will take some time and it depends on person's karma.

I cannot say how much it is going to take for 150 people attended.

I don't know who is going to be there.

So the shuttling will happen for some time and you need to mentally be prepared for the shuttling and that's fine.

Soon you will come to a point where in this space,

In this void only,

A desire comes up and I am the knower of the desire.

I am the container in which the desire has arisen.

I am the container in which this desire has dissolved.

What you read in Ashtavakra,

You will start experiencing.

It will be true experience.

Your experience will be like,

Yes,

Ashtavakra was right.

Now I know it.

It's like that.

So then they don't bother you.

Okay,

I have to paint the nails I paint.

That's just an old habit pattern.

I am not harming anybody or doing anything wrong here or not getting into any attachment.

Yeah.

That kind of and that's fine.

You are not going to stop living the life that you have been living.

Before enlightenment,

Cut wood,

Carry water.

After enlightenment,

Cut wood,

Carry water.

Only perspective has changed.

Instead of being that mind that was focused on things,

Now I am the knower or the space of knowingness in which these things arise and fall.

Yeah,

I have graduated.

Now even if I shuttle for a while,

That's acceptable.

That's fine.

But I have graduated.

And soon you will get there.

It's a one way street.

There's no about done.

So you will get there.

Definitely.