Day 33 -Finding Light In The Dark - April 15

Hello and welcome to Five Minutes in Nature with me Liz Scott and it's day 33 of my pilgrimage as I walk across England from Cornwall to Norfolk following the Michael and Mary energy currents.

And I've got about three quarters of a mile to go before I finish today and I'm sitting on a bench which has been very kindly placed overlooking a couple of fields and as I look to my left I can see red kites in the air these are birds of prey sort of swooping and catching the wind and if I look to my if I look to my right um from this bench I can see a green field and then a woodland copse which is the direction I'm actually heading in and behind me are brambles and we've got some blackthorn at the moment today it's been a day of blackthorn the blackthorn blossom is a beautiful white it it covers the hedgerows with this haze of white and it's just been quite extraordinary to see at times it's so beautiful and today's been a tough day it's tough day walking I am tired both physically and mentally now and there's been a persistent easterly wind and I've been walking into that wind pushing against that wind and just feeling it quite draining as I'm walking the good news is though is that it's quite a cool wind so even though it's sunny and there's blue skies I've felt a good temperature as I've walked today it's not been too hot and I've visited places like Dorchester on Thames with the abbey there which was very special that's across the Mary energy line the abbey and I went in and I sat there for a while in this very cool space at very high ceilings it felt as though over the years it had soaked up spirituality and it was almost radiating out yeah it reminded me I don't know if this rings a bell with you but on a very hot sunny day when a brick wall or a wall heats up in the evening even though it's cooler the wall is still warm it's still radiating a heat and that's how it felt to me in Dorchester abbey it felt as though it was radiating this sense of peace and calm and settledness and spirituality it was a very special experience and after I left the abbey I sat there for a little while I found somewhere to have my lunch that was out of the wind and quite surprisingly for me as I sat there having my cup of tea and eat my sandwich I just burst into tears I think partly it was tiredness but also what came to mind is that as I've been walking that day it's a lot of arable land a lot of farmland it's been very very dry over the past few weeks and I was walking along land which was rock hard and cracked and it just looked like a desert and at one point I was walking beside the edge of a woodland and on one side on my left hand side with this was this feel that was just dust dusty being whipped up in the air and on my right hand side was a woodland and as I looked into the woodland it had this glossy green lush undergrowth of grass and nettles growing up and the leaves were just starting to come out there was this freshness this sense of life the birds were singing in the woodland in the field there was nothing it was it was empty it was bereft and somehow this just stayed with me and as I sat up for my lunch and burst into tears I think I was feeling the enormity of all the problems in the world the climate crisis the lack of wildlife we're going through an extinct an extinction of wildlife the the sense of the changes at geopolitical levels everything for me just felt very unsettling in that minute as I sat down drinking my tea and the tears arrived I felt helpless I felt hopeless and it's it's good to feel like that sometimes I'm really happy with feelings as they arise and I know that this pilgrimage is facilitating that and I'm very happy that they arise and do their thing and then it just came to me as the tears quietened and I was thinking what is what is mine to do what am I supposed to do and the answer was really clear the answer was just walk what's mine to do at the moment is to walk it's not to solve the world's problems it's just to walk and that really settled me so that's what I'm left with today is it's not on me to solve everything in the world at the moment what's mine to do what's mine to do in the world is to walk