Caring For The Narcissist Parent Who Didn't Care For You

Hi and welcome to Recovering from Narcissistic Relationships with me Martha Curtis.

For the past two decades I have been helping individuals in their recovery journey from unhealthy and toxic and narcissistic relationships.

Today's episode is about caring for the parent who didn't care for you and that decision that you might have to make whether you actually want to care for your parent or maybe not.

Imagine being faced with this decision to care for your parent who has caused you pain.

Maybe they are aging,

Maybe they are struggling with health issues or maybe they are reaching out for help and now you are torn between a sense of duty on one hand and the emotional wounds they left behind.

How do you decide if caregiving is the right path for you or maybe if stepping back is the better choice?

My goal for you with this episode is that by the end of this episode you will have a clearer understanding of how to evaluate your capacity for caregiving and whether it actually aligns with your emotional health and your values.

You will feel much more empowered and confident in making a choice that honors both your well-being and also your very unique circumstances.

Let's think for a moment about the weight of the decision.

It's hard because deciding whether to care for a parent who didn't care for you brings up a lot of feelings such as guilt,

Anger and of course also confusion.

And it actually forces you to reconcile the past with the present.

It's not just about logistics.

It is actually about processing years of unresolved pain while also trying to figure out what's actually right for you.

And of course society,

Your culture,

Maybe your religion,

Often pushes the idea that children owe their parents care regardless of the history.

But here is the truth.

The truth is that you have the right to question this obligation,

Especially if fulfilling it could harm you.

So now you are faced with a choice.

And the first thing I would love for you to do is to simply reflect on your capacity.

And I will want you to ask yourself the following questions and I will give you some time to think about them.

The first one is,

What is your current emotional and physical capacity to provide care?

Let me ask you again.

What is your current emotional and physical capacity to provide care?

And you don't have to answer straight away.

You might be in a confused state.

You are unsure.

Take your time.

Then consider the next question.

How would caregiving impact your mental health and your personal life?

And you might consider the impact on you every time you spend time with your parent.

And how you want your personal life to look like.

What might you willing to sacrifice?

What is an absolute no-no?

What is your own individual need?

And the final question that I want you to consider is,

Are you or would you be doing the caregiving out of guilt,

Obligation,

Or because you genuinely want to?

What I'm asking here really is,

Is it a should or is it a want?

Because the want is authentic.

The should is that societal pressure.

If the thought of caregiving fills you with dread or resentment,

It might not be the right choice.

Another really important factor in deciding whether you want to be your parent's caregiver is to clarify your values.

What matters most to you?

Is it honoring your personal boundaries?

Is it offering practical help?

Or finding a balance between the two?

And how would that look like?

Are they even compatible?

Remember,

Your values,

Not external expectations,

Should guide your decision.

The next step is to evaluate potential alternative options.

Let's imagine you have decided that caregiving isn't feasible.

It would be detrimental to your mental health,

Maybe even to your family.

You might consider hiring professionals,

But sometimes that's too expensive,

You might not be able to afford it.

Then you might need to rely on community resources or involve other family members,

Especially if you have siblings.

Be especially careful if you have siblings and growing up you have been the scapegoat.

That would cause you even more harm,

Because those old family dynamics can come alive even more when you're doing caregiving.

Usually the scapegoat is the one who feels obligated to provide care for the parent,

But they are also the ones that get criticized,

Whereas the golden child often doesn't provide the main care,

Yet they get praised for everything.

And having to relive those childhood family dynamics can potentially be traumatizing.

If you have siblings,

What I recommend is to have a rota.

One week one sibling is responsible,

The next week the other.

And that will allow all of you respite.

Also have a shared family group chat,

Where you can update each other.

That will also help you in presenting a unified front.

What narcissistic parents often like to do is to play the game of divide and conquer.

They might give different information to different siblings.

But if you have all the information in the group chat,

You know exactly what has been said and what the truth is.

You are less likely to be drawn into any kind of triangulation and other drama.

Let's say you have decided you want to provide some caregiving.

Now the question is,

Do you want to be more hands-on,

Or do you want to choose a hands-off approach?

A hands-on approach means taking an active role in the day-to-day care of your parent.

And this can include visiting regularly to assist with tasks like cooking,

Cleaning,

Transport,

You might have to manage medical appointments,

Medications or even health decisions.

And,

Of course,

That also might mean providing emotional support through conversations and presence.

This approach might work for you if you feel emotionally equipped to handle frequent interactions with your parent.

It might also work for you if you value maintaining control over the quality of care they receive,

And also if you have a support system to help you manage the emotional and the physical demands.

But you might also choose a more hands-off approach.

You might take a step back from direct caregiving.

What would that look like?

You might hire a professional caregiver to handle daily tasks.

You might even be able to coordinate care remotely,

Such as managing finances,

Scheduling appointments or checking in by phone.

You might want to limit your involvement to occasional visits or very,

Very specific responsibilities.

If you feel that caregiving would significantly harm your mental health or trigger unresolved trauma,

Then this might be the approach for you.

Although I would say,

If it triggers your trauma and might harm you significantly,

Then maybe you want to rethink your decision about whether you want to provide any kind of caregiving at all.

In that case,

Remember to think about,

Well,

Is this more of a should,

Which is less authentic,

Or not authentic at all to you,

Or is this a want?

You actually want to do this,

And not out of guilt,

Not out of a sense of obligation,

But because you genuinely want to.

That hands-off approach might also work for you if you want to preserve your emotional well-being while still ensuring your parents' needs are met.

And you have to be comfortable with delegating tasks.

Your parent might have a health care worker who visits daily,

And you remotely handle the bills and the medical appointments,

And maybe visit once a month or just occasionally.

And that means that you can maintain your emotional distance more,

And that will protect your well-being,

And there is less of a chance of getting triggered or re-traumatized.

So how do you actually decide between the two?

And it's very simple.

You need to consider your own emotional threshold.

In most countries,

There is social support,

There are social workers,

Etc.

And I would suggest that you talk to your parent's GP,

That you get in contact with charities,

With organizations,

Like Age UK,

For example.

Most countries have organizations that are concerned with elderly care,

Etc.

There is a wealth of information out there how you can arrange help and home visits for your parents.

You might ask for financial support if needs be.

Remember,

Number one is your own health and mental well-being.

The question whether to provide care for your parent and then what kind of care,

If at all,

Can be quite an emotional challenge.

And some of the feelings that my clients have are,

For example,

Guilt,

Because there is this societal expectation that you have to take care of your elderly parent.

And I want you to stick with what the truth is.

The truth is,

You're not a bad person for protecting yourself.

You are choosing self-preservation over self-sacrifice.

And if you have children,

You will also be modeling healthy boundaries and self-preservation and self-care to them.

You very likely also will be feeling anger or even resentment.

And it's important that you acknowledge those feelings,

Because suppressing anger can only intensify it.

Remember,

Anger is a very human reaction.

It's a very human emotion.

Sometimes individuals hope that if they care for their elderly parent,

That this elderly parent will,

With age and by seeing how much their child cares for them,

That they might maybe express regret over how they treated their child,

That there might be some kind of closure,

Some kind of reconciliation.

If your parent is higher up on the narcissistic spectrum,

Then I would recommend that you accept that your parent may never acknowledge the harm that they caused you.

And,

You know,

Healing doesn't depend on their apology.

It depends solely on your ability to move forward.

And forgiveness is very personal.

It means different things to different people.

I also want to point out that there's quite a lot of research on the impact of being a caregiver to an abusive parent.

And the results often are a risk of depression,

Anxiety,

And emotional distress.

However,

There's also research that says that caregivers who set clear boundaries experience less stress and burnout.

So I might come down just to the kind of boundaries that you are setting in your caregiving.

And of course,

All this is easier if you have siblings and if you have healthy relationships with your siblings.

Ultimately,

Caring for a parent who didn't care for you is a deeply personal decision.

Whether you choose to provide hands-on care,

Take a step back,

Or find a middle ground,

The choice is yours and it is valid.

And no matter what you decide,

Remember protecting your well-being is not selfish.

It's necessary.

If this episode resonated with you and you think that it could help someone else,

Someone who is struggling with a similar decision,

Please share it with them.

Share it in forums.

And also feel free to send me a message.

Ask me anything.

If you have any ideas for future podcasts,

Maybe you have some questions,

Maybe you are at a crossroads,

I would love to hear from you.

Until next time!