Questions And Answers From Living In Truth Group

So Lion,

You were going to say something.

Yeah,

Okay.

I have,

I just want to say I have had a heart opening.

It feels like a head ache.

Like a headache?

Yeah.

Like a head ache.

And there was no fear and no panic.

I know it's just a heart opening and I feel safe and good.

Good.

Yeah.

Good.

Yeah.

So I'm interested in how you could have any fear or panic around a heart opening.

What does a heart opening feel like for you?

It was,

It feels like a head ache.

It's like a lot of pain in my heart.

I think,

Okay,

It's a heart opening.

It was at night.

Okay,

Good.

And it was just a few minutes.

And I think,

Okay,

All is good.

All helpers are here.

And Ama is here.

Prema Sura is here.

All are here.

Good.

Yeah.

Good.

That's it.

Good for you.

Good for you.

The headache would have been a bit of emotional.

Opening your heart.

And yeah,

It's often a pain in your heart.

It will be a physical pain.

And when you just flow with it,

Pain doesn't last very long.

So this is great.

Good.

Good work,

Client.

Yeah,

And I'm happy.

Yeah.

I'm very happy the last few days.

Fantastic.

And I'm more me.

That's it.

Yeah.

Fantastic.

And you can do this over and over again,

Right?

Yeah,

Right.

Good.

I'm actually funny when you're talking.

I'm seeing you water skiing and going over waves.

Yeah.

Like this.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Not really.

It's like,

Yeah.

Yeah.

That's great.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah,

That's it.

I mean,

That's really why I provide these tools so that you can navigate.

Yeah.

Good.

OK.

You know,

The just because I know other people be listening,

I'm going to it's the transcendent body approach that's on my website,

The Compassionate Shaman,

And outlines about the meanings of the parts of the body.

And when the heart hurts,

It's often a heart,

A heart opening.

Although,

You know,

You should go to the doctor if there's,

You know,

Like sometimes we have to go to the doctor.

Anyway,

Does anybody have any other questions or comments?

I do.

Last night,

Not last night,

The night before,

Friday night,

I so often in the last like few months I've gone to bed and I have a wave of panic that hits me,

Like anxiety,

Not panic,

But anxiety.

And,

And so I've just been more,

You know,

Noticing it more and going,

Oh,

That's interesting.

Why am I feeling that?

Give it over,

Amma,

You know,

But it's still there.

Yeah.

On Friday night,

I just,

I had had a really good day.

And so when I went to bed,

And this feeling,

It was so funny because it came and I went and I laughed out loud and I went,

Oh,

There you are again.

And I went,

Yeah,

I mean,

It,

It felt beyond me,

To be honest,

It felt beyond me,

I,

That I laughed,

And I went,

Oh,

There you are again.

And I,

And it left,

And I fell asleep in like two minutes.

And so yesterday morning,

I had the most like magical kind of experience of like my,

You know,

My crown being really wide open.

And I went out and I spent time with Harv a little bit,

He called me out of the blue and said,

You know,

Will you meet me?

And I just had this beautiful kind of interchange with everybody I spoke to yesterday,

Like I was having back and forth chats with people on marketplace,

Giving away stuff and it was just like so beautiful.

Everybody was just like,

And I just felt this warming up the world kind of feeling,

You know,

Feeling of a bigger like,

I felt so much more connected to everyone,

Like strangers,

Just felt so connected.

And then I had about three or four days ago,

It's been bugging me for the last like three or four days,

Ama had posted something about cleaning up your garden,

She was giving an analogy about taking care of your garden.

And it's been bugging me for a bit now that it's like my garden was such a mess with like getting ready and everything.

So I spent like five hours out in the garden yesterday.

And I just felt and then I could hear all the neighbors were out because they were saying it was going to snow today and so everybody was out and everybody was kind of industrious and doing this thing and I just felt this incredible piece and then I got this blistering headache,

While I was out there.

So I was like,

So I'm feeling more that kind of opening and you know the expansion contraction but also just like yeah like what we're talking about the crown chakra opening well of course you get the,

You'll get the both and then it lifted,

Like after I came inside and after about 30 minutes it just lifted.

That's it,

And and to the others listening to us talking again it's time that we were evolving,

And when you evolve physically when you let your soul in,

You will have these bodily sensations like Pratibha is describing,

And the headache,

Often will come,

It's like the ego goes,

Oh,

Not allowed,

Not allowed,

And just witnessed it like you did.

That's great Pratibha.

That's it.

You see,

So you guys this is it,

It's like it's a walking,

It's a walking process you walk through it on a daily basis but staying conscious.

That's it.

Fantastic.

Isn't it empowering Pratibha?

It is and you know what,

I'll tell you a byproduct of it too.

This morning,

I woke up,

I can't even tell you who it was that came into my mind,

But it was like an old pattern of like,

Oh yeah that person I don't like them.

It was just like,

And I went like,

Oh,

Why are you doing that?

You know like,

Oh,

Why are you doing that?

Where's that coming from?

You had a really good day yesterday,

You could feel what it was to be in flow and like what it was like my ego was just going boom,

Coming in and going,

Yeah,

Let's go this direction.

It was like,

No,

No,

No,

I'm not going there.

So it was just the level of awareness,

Right?

Like just being more aware of the thoughts when they're coming in and going like,

Oh,

Okay.

That's it.

Okay,

So that's where the spiritual teachers talk about the importance of staying present.

Yeah,

So that you notice these things because if you're not present,

You don't notice and all of a sudden your ego's got you under its control again.

That's very good.

I can't believe this,

I've died and gone to heaven.

I know,

Well I have to tell you too,

The other thing is,

I saw your email when you said watch your three videos,

Right?

Your three videos that you just put up,

You're wearing black,

Right?

In the three.

And they really just went right into my heart.

And I just kept watching them over and over again.

I could feel the kind of magic around my life.

Like they were so powerful for me to watch,

Like so powerful.

So I just kept watching them.

They're amazing.

Well,

I think you're opening more to it,

Right?

Yeah,

Thank you.

But you're ready,

Right?

Yeah,

And you're obviously got enough trust of this process.

Yeah.

I think so,

Yeah.

I mean,

And there's this enhanced love power coming through this one at this point,

Right?

This is what you're hearing.

Yeah,

Yeah.

Yeah,

Well,

Like,

That's what I'm saying.

I could really feel that.

And I know part of it is even you were talking in the videos about how,

How many times someone will say something to you and then finally it's like the penny drops,

Right?

And you kind of go,

Oh,

And it's just the body.

It's like getting it in your body,

Right?

And it's just the penny dropping in your body.

And going like,

All she says is the truth.

All of it,

All of it.

You know,

Like,

If you just know that theoretically,

You will move a lot faster.

Okay.

Yeah.

This is pioneer work,

You know,

And it's really,

You know,

We could have a few nuclear bombs drop because of the resistance to the simplicity of this.

That's what though,

And that's why it's so important to live it.

So that,

You know,

Prevails like you warming up the world like you felt and,

And like you were talking about to just warm up the world.

Yeah.

Yeah,

And my,

My life is in the moment change all things.

My artwork is going more out.

You guys,

We are like functioning at 90% intellect,

10% head.

And so we're so off.

And when we start to crack at these incredible gifts,

Like really to be 50,

50,

50 of the intellect and heart would be good.

And really,

As you evolve,

You become 100% in the heart,

And your intellect just goes along for the ride.

This is good work.

You guys,

It's good.

This is funny because you just said that and I had a question.

And I think you just answered the question,

Because I was,

It was around challenges,

And it was just,

You know,

Around like as you evolve.

Do you still have the same number of challenges or do they just feel like,

Like,

Or do you just get fewer or both?

Like does it feel like there's fewer challenges,

And it's like so much like you just know so much that it's just a correction or it's just a,

Your soul trying to.

.

.

It's like a more heart muscle development so you've been through it enough.

It's sort of like a woman who's had like 15 kids.

So you know,

Pregnancy becomes meh,

Here I'm doing it again.

Right.

So it's like that,

But on the journey,

The journey's got its own rhythm.

So there are points in the journey that are just very difficult,

Even if you're a seasoned seeker.

Yeah,

That there's,

There can be points of difficulty where,

You know,

It's harder than usual.

Right.

It becomes more and more total.

So you think of a pregnant woman who's giving birth,

Like that's what I was talking about the videos and she's just in the pain.

Right.

So,

As you go on the journey.

There are sometimes more and more of you is in the transition.

And so it's a,

You know,

You might have a kind of no God exists from the,

You know,

Your experience.

But it's a big step,

You know,

Think of climbing a mountain it's like when you're faced with a big rock face.

Right.

So,

Transition is a pretty good.

So transition is a pretty good visual for me,

Because it's like crazy making right it's like you can't even focus on anything,

But you're just like in it right you're so you know,

This is what the world's in we don't realize it but we're in transition.

I mean,

And it will get first,

Maybe.

Sorry,

I've got it.

That's so weird.

Hold on.

Yeah.

Yeah,

We're in the transition.

Yeah.

I mean we're,

We're bumping up the human race is bumping up,

And we're,

We're trying to hold on to the past.

And again,

That's why this kind of work where you got tools for how to make the transition yourself is the greatest gift you can give humanity,

Because if you do it,

Then that sets in motion,

Other people finding a way to do it and who knows the power of even this video.

Really,

For making bringing it down to the ground and me and making it clear to all of us that we can do it.

It's not just for the,

I don't know,

The golden few who the one spiritual 1% to to evolve any of us can do it.

It's very democratic you know I say,

You know that you know that expression says many are called but fewer chosen.

It's the truth of it is many are called and few say yes.

So it's not a matter of being chosen it's a matter of choosing.

Bear you look a little stricken.

You look like a deer in the headlights for some reason.

When you were saying that last bit,

I was thinking of some of my family members,

And how recently I've been having these thoughts like realizing how much I've kind of written off the possibility of them,

Becoming more aware or growing past old patterns.

Yeah.

And I think some of it came from my own like letting go of trying to help or change,

And just being like,

Hey,

You're on your journey.

But with it kind of came to this cynicism of like,

Okay,

Well you're just,

You're just stuck there.

Yeah,

You're just a loser.

Spiritually with people we call them losing spiritually it's terrible.

Yeah.

Yeah,

And and realizing,

Like lately.

Just recently I was on the phone with my sister,

And I just had this thought I realized while I was talking to her.

Like,

That was changing in the conversation.

Like,

I was noticing where she'd be talking about something and my,

My inner reaction was immediately this sort of eye rolling like,

Oh,

Whatever you say but like,

I know better than you,

And then,

And then changing it in the moment,

And feeling like actually know like think she is growing,

Like I think,

And,

And she might be like grow in ways that I would never have possible like it was like I,

I kind of just softened to the possibility of me.

Not knowing what's best for her.

Like I think I do.

And so yeah when you're talking just now I was thinking about her and then others as well,

But I could do that more with.

Yeah,

You guys.

You have to watchful ego,

Because it will come in,

And we're in a very kind of hierarchical judgmental time.

So it's really easy for that to then start to do that spiritually.

So,

Yeah,

So good.

I mean to remind yourself that we're all divine beings.

And,

You know,

We were not God,

I mean we're,

We're part of God but we're not the God who knows everything about all their lives say all your sister's lives and what she's what she's doing here.

Right.

Different than what you're doing here.

Yeah.

Good.

Good.

How are you feeling physically with your pregnancy.

You're feeling.

Definitely getting more,

More birth oriented,

I'm two months away now.

So,

My,

My belly's feeling big and I'm slowing down.

And,

I mean,

It's so central to me right now so whenever you,

You talk about given allergies with pregnant women or birth,

Like,

It really,

It really hits home for me right now.

Yeah,

I guess so.

I guess so.

Huh.

You know,

I might even be raising it because you're,

You're in the group,

You know what I mean,

It might be no really it might be even coloring what I'm talking about.

Yeah.

And you know an interesting thing about like talking about the contractions and the pain and,

You know,

Imagining a woman with 15 children.

I mean I'm on number three right now,

But if I,

If I just think about the first one versus the second,

The first,

My first labor it was very long.

And by the time he was actually born.

I was,

It was like I was so I think so many,

Like,

Kind of natural anti like painkiller hormones had kicked in that I was just sort of like,

Half gone,

Like at that point they could have done anything to me and I wouldn't have cared like it was just,

I was,

I was in another state.

And in my,

For my second,

It was super fast.

It happened so fast it was less than three hours.

And I remember at the time thinking,

Oh,

Like I was so lucid and present with it like I didn't have.

It didn't last long enough for me to like,

Get to a completely altered state.

So I could just feel every single thing.

I could feel like his skull going through the bones and my head.

And then afterwards.

I mean,

It was the most amazing experience so just comparing the two like the one that was kind of drawn out and I kind of had to numb out at a point,

Out of necessity.

And then the second one which was much faster.

But way more intense and way more like crystal clear.

Just two very different experiences but,

But both really amazing and I'd say the second one was almost more difficult in a way but not like in some ways it more difficult but in some ways,

Less so.

But the presence was just a really key.

Yeah,

I think it's a good practice for staying present in your life going through that birth.

And actually I remember working with you beforehand around staying present.

And I think you.

I don't know if you told me about this birth process but you actually did make a shift into becoming more present as a result of that birth,

And that is something that can help us.

Do you see what I mean?

With being female,

Everything can help us move us forward.

Yeah,

Yeah,

Yeah,

It was way more clear that time around,

That it really was catalyzing if I chose to take it that way.

Yeah,

But you're,

And you have moved into being more present in your life right you're able to walk through,

Through experiences that you're not comfortable with and you don't run from them now.

You wrote that to me,

That you just stay present right?

That's the secret to evolution you guys.

When you want to run from your feelings and thoughts,

Just stay with it and pray to God,

Don't run,

Don't distract yourself.

Or if you have to distract yourself,

Observe it and take responsibility go like okay I'm distracting myself I know this is not helpful.

Please,

Universe please bring me back to being able to be present with it.

Right.

Good bear.

Yeah,

I wrote bear a note saying I've been watching her over the last three years and I was really pleased.

Because I know this it's a hard one to to walk this walk,

But it's so worth it.

And sometimes you know it's just like a child we need a bit of validation.

But,

Yeah,

It's like when a child makes his bed in the morning.

Good work.

Good work.

Alexa you're very quiet.

Yeah,

Well yeah I was just asking myself,

What was the reason why the second birth was so different from the first one with bear,

And that you gave the answer.

Yeah,

Because she was more present and yeah.

Yeah,

But other than that,

You posted the videos about spiritual awakening and.

Oh,

Okay.

It was like the question,

Like,

During the transition or as you awaken spiritually it might seem to you that the 3d reality is unimportant,

And that is like one hard thing to to balance spiritual life and the 3d life and yeah so this was the one thing that actually hit home for me much more than a lot of other problems that were.

Yeah,

I mean,

Good.

Yes.

Yeah,

So maybe you can talk about this,

How to balance spiritual and 3d life.

Yeah,

Yeah,

I empathize with this I know you're working at a profession.

You know,

What will balance it is.

If you really want to grow spiritually.

You'll do it.

You'll the balance will come out of that out of your desire to grow you can't sort of step back from it and come up with a formula.

You know this is what we're big on stepping back coming up with the formula,

There's no formula.

It's,

It's really if the penny will drop and you understand that your 3d experience,

Everything about it is sent to help you evolve.

Yes,

Well,

So I think my problem is more that I think that difficult things are okay with me because they helped me evolve,

But that it's like,

Yeah,

Almost like I don't want anything in the 3d reality and you know I don't have goals,

The 3d reality because they seem.

Yeah,

Maybe unimportant to me and I don't know what,

Like the mistake of my thinking is and yes so.

Yeah.

Well,

I don't know that that's a mistake.

I mean,

You know like it,

People have had a lot of lifetimes are usually less interested in accumulating material things.

So,

A profession might call call us because we want to help people,

But we might,

You know,

Not have a lot of material goals like,

You know,

Really I mean the ideal is to live as a in the east they call it a karma,

Yogi is somebody who goes to work and does the work for God,

And then you know they get paid and they see to their 3d existence and rent and stuff but they're not focused on it.

Yes,

But I also mean other things than job.

It's like most people have goals in life what they want,

And I kind of probably,

I don't know,

I don't know if I have any.

So this is like one thing that,

Yeah,

I might feel like caught caught up in the 3d life.

If I have any goals or like it's,

Yeah,

Well,

Do you want to be happy.

Well,

I'm not even sure about this because the difficult experiences help me.

Yes.

Well,

Sweetie pie though the difficult they do,

But the point of the difficult experiences is for us to learn how to evolve in a happier way.

It's actually to become happier more at peace.

Yeah.

Like,

Alexa,

I feel you need a heart expansion round,

Accepting Alexa and seeing her beauty.

And then your life would become easier and happier and truer.

Yeah.

How do you feel when I say that?

I'm probably just trying to understand it in my head.

And it's like,

Yeah.

Well,

Okay,

I can definitely understand what is resonating is that,

Yeah,

I should be,

Yeah,

Like connect to what I really want inside.

So like,

Maybe accept that or,

You know,

Let this happen inside of me.

And,

Yeah,

So this kind of acceptance.

Yes.

Well,

It's more like accepting the three year old Alexa,

It's like more,

It's more accepting the three year old Alexa,

More like loving your,

Your little munchkin self,

Your little,

Your intrinsic self more,

Your intrinsic humanity,

Your innocent humanity,

Loving that more.

You've really trained to go up into your head to figure it out.

And it's,

There's a lot of this grief underneath this Alexa,

The sorrow underneath this that I think you're scared of feeling.

And I understand,

I understand it.

I'm scared of feeling it.

But you know that right you know that you're kind of out of touch with your self.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Right,

Good.

Just this is good work.

Just this,

Just what you're doing.

This is very good work.

Yeah.

That's how it's been in the past you've been out of touch with your real self but your is growing.

And so you're,

You're able to you,

You're just able to acknowledge peacefully like you're doing.

And that's it.

I did not send a last question.

What was before the peacefully to grasp you're acknowledging.

Sorry my internet things.

You're,

Yeah,

You're understanding it you're acknowledging it,

It's like it's like you're just at peace and going yes it's it's actually a surrender.

Alexa you're in the surrender.

Yeah.

Just the truth of it.

It's like you trust the truth of this enough.

Yeah,

That's good.

That's it.

Good.

And,

Okay,

Good.

This is good.

It's like there's a lot of love coming to you it's like I'm really,

I'm really pouring love,

I mean,

It's,

It's being poured out of me it's like I'm not trying to do it,

It's just pouring out of me to you.

Yeah,

Yeah.

Yeah.

That's beautiful.

This is an important step and you'll be able to build on it.

Yeah.

Like,

Yeah,

I mean,

You know when you've got a profession like that like,

You know,

A cerebral profession.

You know,

The spiritual journey you have to do it kind of gradually,

Because you've got these very 3d commitments.

So it has to be gradual just.

Okay,

Have I lost you a bit with that.

What did you think when I said that.

I think that I thought that my profession doesn't seem so important to me.

It's like,

It's really not a.

Yeah,

Like,

It's just trained your thinking that's the.

You know what trains your thinking and trains you,

You have to think in a particular way to do it.

Right,

So it's very left brain so this,

This is more,

This is helping your,

Your right brain come in a little more to balance to make room for it for this bigger understanding.

Yeah.

Okay,

Good.

Okay,

So I'm seeing some light bubble up in your heart,

It's like,

You know,

I've told you I've enormous respect for you.

So I'm seeing this light coming into your heart is very good.

Yeah,

You'll just,

You know,

All of the rest that the people who've spoken you know have no me longer than you,

And they,

You know they've,

They've just,

They just bumble into it right ladies,

You know,

It's a bumbling process you just get there right lion it's like you just get there.

Yeah,

You do,

You'll just get there.

So,

You just keep turning up for these.

Yeah.

And you're good enough.

Okay,

I have to Okay,

I'm,

There's an exclamation mark you're good enough.

Okay.

Can you say I'm good enough.

Um,

Yes.

I mean,

Yes,

I can say it.

Yeah,

Just,

Just say it.

I'm good enough.

You're good enough.

Yeah.

It's like you guys when we say stuff like that,

It,

It informs our unconscious.

It's like taking the tiller and steering your unconscious in the direction you're wanting to go.

Yeah.

Okay,

Good.

Okay,

Good.

Good Alexa.

Okay.

Anybody have any.

I had a question that was good.

That's been rolling around in my head.

And I was wondering if you could talk more about how the people that we have in our lives or people we come across or situations that are like difficult.

Maybe it's not just difficult,

How they're.

I think you said they're a reflection of ourselves or what we reflect back to us what we need to learn or work on in that moment.

I was just curious about that.

One more.

Yeah.

Okay,

So supposing somebody marry somebody who's not very nice to them.

Okay,

So that person is reflecting back.

That's how the individual really feels about herself or himself.

You see what I mean.

And a lot of what people reflect back to us is deep in our subconscious so we can't see it.

You know,

We can't really see why we've got somebody in our lives,

You know,

It's best you know just focus on love and gratitude and wanting to awaken and then the deeper reason for things will show up as your deeper complex is clear.

See a lot of stuff is really subterranean like the subconscious might have 1000 levels.

And it might be level 997.

About why a person is in your life,

You know,

So it's like how deep can you go,

And one of the.

I'm going to come back to the power of this work is because to the depth that I've cleared in my unconscious.

Then,

Even my words can go that deep in you guys.

See.

Yeah.

Who are you thinking about particularly piano.

I'm interested.

Is anybody particular.

Um,

I think just like June generally past romantic relationships.

And then also family.

Yeah.

My dad,

Our conversation earlier a lot about my dad.

Well sometimes yeah we're balancing karma,

We might have a karma with somebody you know,

Might have had old battles with somebody.

You know,

We might,

You know,

Have hated them in other lives,

And they're here again for us to come to balance.

Yeah.

Yeah,

Like sometimes mothers will get a child who they were hard on in the previous life,

And they,

The child comes again for a correction to occur,

Or parents you know not just a mom or dad.

And the parent will often have trouble with that individual,

And the child will have trouble with that parent.

The more you focus on love and gratitude and and and and meditate like,

You know,

Focus on the silence within,

You know,

Like,

Just know there's silence within underneath all the voices that will clear things the quickest.

Sometimes we go in and we try to fix and it's not that useful.

Yeah.

Yeah.

After our session.

Yesterday,

When I went to bed last night.

My mind was very active replaying and kind of digging into everything but,

And I was thinking a lot about my dad and I practice sending love towards him and gratitude and forgiveness,

And I just lost it.

And I was just stopping.

And,

Yeah,

It was tough,

But I felt better after I felt like it was a huge release and like we talked about yeah I just I felt less like angry and less blame me and just,

Yeah.

And more just like not feeling sorry for him but more just,

I guess a bit more of an understanding.

Yeah.

Yeah,

That's good.

You know when we in the session,

We were working with your blueprint right and I talked about how your hand was holding on to this darkness,

Like close to the heart.

Well,

In the session you you released out that.

And so,

You.

So you would then go through and integrate that emotionally and spiritually and I mean this is the best news,

Sweetie because this is going to open you up to become more the real Brianna,

I mean,

Like,

You know,

Lots of times people,

They walk around their whole lives with this stuff is fantastic and I think that's great that you could allow yourself to feel the sorrow,

Like that.

Yeah,

It's fantastic.

You'll notice a big change,

You will,

You will,

You'll just notice a really much more spacious feeling around all about your dad,

Much more spacious.

And I felt a lot better this morning.

I felt,

I felt that story.

Okay,

So Brianna we were talking about maybe your future doing healing work.

This is the kind of thing I did in spades.

Okay.

Yeah.

As far as I've gotten.

And see,

We can't really make any progress on the spiritual journey without doing this,

Just going through what you're going through.

And it's not for it to be take a long time.

I mean,

The shorter the better if it's just one night,

And you've,

You know,

Cleared this complex.

You know,

At least on,

There'll be more levels to it,

But this is a significant clearing maybe you've cleared 25 levels maybe there are 100 levels.

Yeah.

This is,

This is the this is the work that will really change the world,

You know,

Is if we deal with this stuff emotionally.

It's good.

It's like badge of honor,

You know,

Badge of honor,

Big badge of honor for me.

Yeah,

You look about 12 you did last time too I think.

For puberty 12.

Okay.

So elephant you said anything.

Yeah,

I'm just wondering about the subject of levels,

You talked about the levels of complexes.

And this is something I often wonder why special emotional states and complexes appear again and again and again.

And now I just thought,

Oh,

So bring in the concept of level.

So it's always another level of clearing.

It always is.

Yeah,

Yeah.

So,

This is really.

I can be much more compassionate with myself when I think about that,

Because I was like going,

Oh,

You haven't learned that you're still doing the same stuff as you always did.

And when I think about it in this way,

I can,

I can see the process in it and I can see it feels.

I can love myself more when I see it like that.

Good.

Yeah,

It really,

It,

It goes just back in time like a lot of things are just clearly when I think about it this way.

Yeah,

I actually think when we make a shift that there's a level sometimes we can actually change dimensions.

We're in a new dimension where our heart is freer.

Yeah.

So,

So when you make a,

When you make a shift in the present,

What will happen is your past alters.

So if you shift into more forgiveness.

It's like a domino effect.

This was the feeling like a domino effect.

Yeah,

Yeah,

Right.

Yes,

It's your past wasn't so painful.

Yeah.

Yes.

Oh,

This is a beautiful metaphor or picture or whatever I really love it.

Oh,

Yeah.

Yeah,

Good.

Yeah.

Good.

Yeah.

All this stuff that I teach you is just all the stuff that I learned by going through the process that Brianna went through.

And that you guys go through too but,

You know,

Because I know exactly what the body body work sessions and that for her to go right into it so cleanly.

It's very good.

So,

So,

Elephant Yeah,

This is this importance of understanding the spiritual journey,

Cerebrally and and,

You know,

Again,

Watching videos and and reading spiritual books,

You,

You end up with a comprehension it pulls you out of just that the emotions and the chaos of the emotions so that you get this distilled understanding finally.

Yeah,

But I'm feeling that there's a message to you is don't try to hold on to your experience don't try to don't try to hold on to it like flow.

Yeah,

Don't try to,

Oh,

This is what people do they they stand there and they go I figured it out now.

But they try to figure it out.

It's like flow with it just go.

I'm seeking more truth and,

And,

Yeah,

And just flow.

I don't know why I'm getting that because it's not particularly from what you're said,

But I'm just getting a bulletin from the angels.

Okay.

It makes sense for me,

Just to flow.

Yeah,

So I can I can flow with my heart and my thoughts and my mind is just not so important at the moment when I'm flowing.

It's like talking you know the way they were talking about you just flow so your heart opens and you're maybe have a headache and you just flow along with it it's like,

I'll tell you,

Elephant psychologically trained people,

Particularly have trouble,

Because they'll keep on trying to go to the watchtower of the observation point to figure it out,

And I'll tell you that watchtower.

It needs to be overturned.

It's just a phony perspective it's coming from your ego,

It's,

It's just needs to be a tsunami to come and just knock it over.

So if you're going to the ashram in December,

Maybe that will happen because.

Oh,

Yeah.

Okay,

I get it.

It's not,

This is where people get stuck.

It's like they'll,

You know,

Judge themselves.

Oh,

This is a good Oh good I'm doing it right now I know I've,

I'm,

I'm having a good thought,

Oh I'm doing it right to this like,

Oh,

Please.

You know,

It's just flow along and if you notice your thoughts being negative just keep giving them to God.

Yeah,

No,

Go for it.

Well,

When you're talking about this and it was sort of part of the question but is this kind of where religiosity comes from to like you're doing it right or you're doing it wrong.

Oh,

That's all right.

Yeah,

I'll tell you where like as soon as people say well this.

When they soon as they say like somebody says like,

You know you have a perception you might know truth,

And somebody says,

Well,

Is the science behind this or not.

That is exactly religiosity.

It's like,

Because the actual the actual event,

The experience of the person is,

Is a true experience.

And of course the sciences in it,

But it's not the separate from the experience to understand the sciences separate experiences woven into it.

Right,

It's anything that our big,

Our big,

Big problem is this alienation of separation,

We all have these watchtowers,

Where we're observing our lives and judging ourselves and judging each other and it,

They just need us,

Tommy.

We just a tsunami of love to come,

We just and float serve love.

I mean,

I guess we'll get our tsunami.

I mean,

You know,

If you look at any difficult events in the outer world and just go okay this is a tsunami.

So,

You know,

To knock over these to this alienation is so deep rooted in our cultures in the West in culture and it's you guys it's we're,

We're having mental breakdowns.

You know,

Like,

You know,

Even climate change so we're so much money spent and,

And,

And all these rules and everything,

And nothing's nothing's really addressing the problem,

Or,

You know,

The,

The other one I said I was telling I think it was you pretty about this.

This,

And it was from emotional IQ group and it was about tantrums,

And the whole thing was about they were renaming tantrums.

And then there was a big discussion between the parents about who like the new name at all,

And the fact the child was having trouble just got lost.

You see what I mean with this we're like getting so divorced from reality by going up into our heads.

It makes me.

Or go ahead.

No,

You go.

It makes me laugh.

When I realize how much when I think back to being a kid,

And with my mom,

Her and I like one of the biggest things that we bonded over was that analysis of like ourselves or other people and like,

Like there was such a comfort in it,

Like we'd sit down and we talk and we think and we'd like hash out,

Like,

Yeah,

Psychoanalyze,

You know,

My bully at school,

Or right or other or you know whatever was going on and like really coming to some like,

You know,

Completely intellectual explanation for like well this is why it's happening and,

And I would feel this like satisfaction once we kind of got there and it's like we had figured out what was right and wrong.

And it's funny to think back on that now.

And just to realize also how I'm relearning what to take comfort in.

Because I took comfort in.

And so,

It's like,

I'm starting to.

It's like I've had to retrain like the feeling or my judgment of the feeling like what I understand.

It's very feminine to do that,

You know,

To step back and analyze I mean it's,

It's one of the things we do.

I remember with my mom,

The same thing and then I get up from talking with her I feel better.

And then I noticed about 15 minutes later that I felt this horrible hollow feeling of what what happened to that good feeling,

Because,

Because it was just baloney so it didn't hold.

You see what I mean,

It wasn't deep enough it didn't hold.

Do you notice how long it lasted the feeling of.

Really notice it,

Or maybe it yeah maybe it lasted longer I think I was pumped out to the deeper feelings.

Or maybe we would,

I would just seek to then do more of it.

As soon as the feeling subsided.

That's good training for being a healer,

But yeah you you just what you do is instead you just connect everything to God instead you,

You,

You focus on embodying your soul and you give everything to God.

And then some of that material can be useful,

Sometimes it can help us to understand,

Help us reframe some judgment,

You know if we understand them,

Why they're doing something.

It's not all wasted.

There.

Yeah,

Yeah,

I can see how that can be done in a really compassionate way as well.

Yeah.

Yeah.

I remember asking a child,

What's about why that feeling of comfort disappeared so quickly.

And the channel basically said,

Women have been trivialized,

And they trivialize themselves.

They do stuff that pours out their power,

You know,

So they dissipate energy,

So they don't have to deal with it so one of the things my mom did would talk to me ad nauseum and dissipate her energy.

Tell me this,

Just tell me stuff that upset her.

And then she felt better.

Right.

And she didn't deal with it.

And meanwhile,

I was full of it.

I've been filled to the brim with all this stuff.

Power comes as you realize that you're a divine being,

And there's really a lot of need for the feminine face of God material to come forward so you know it's going to come in through the obviously the female.

It's just sort of a change that women need to make from their old kind of patterns if you notice a lot of you guys have poured your power out.

You would leak it,

As opposed to really learning to contain your experience and,

You know,

Talk to God and and learn and become a more powerful light,

Day by day,

Women can feel victims,

You know,

Our training,

And it's,

It's,

It's dangerous,

It's not going to help the world.

But,

You know,

Forgive yourself crazy.

You know,

I walked around for pouring out this stuff and pouring out my forward motion and feeling like a victim and feeling sorry for myself and everything till,

Till I was brought to being able to,

To not live that way to live in a more powerful way.

When you realize that you've really got a gift to give you give it.

What you guys all need to know.

You need to get that you personally have something to do here.

I can feel it right now.

And you need to give it.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Or allow it to be given.

We're attached to our names,

To the class we were born into our address to our parents,

To the circumstances of our upbringing.

And that,

As long as we're attached to that.

We're not going to be in truth.

So you need to change your center of gravity,

Away from all that to becoming an expression of your soul,

A presence.

And sometimes the richer we were brought up,

The harder it is to let go of it.

And it can really stand in our way.

You guys I've got to get something to drink.

Hold on.

There's a lot of astrologically,

It couldn't be happening in the next five or six months.

Five months,

Particularly.

So,

A lot of what can you repeat that.

Movement astrologically.

Yeah,

The next during the next five months.

So,

It's part of why this session is kind of heavy hitting.

You can.

Yeah.

You just,

You know,

Just gradually just let yourself change me just open yourselves to what I'm saying.

Because you're divine being and you know who you were born as is just a cloak you're wearing.

And women you know we're like,

You see,

We really need feminine energy right now.

And we get very focused on our families and very bonded to our families,

And then we forget to bond to God.

You know,

And we'll have all sorts of storylines about our families and where we grew up and everything and it's just like just bond to your soul.

Just make that your goal.

Because you've had like 1000 lives and so you know the circumstances of this particular life are not that important.

It's whether you get onto your,

Your soul gift or not,

Whether you give your gift,

Which you might not even have to do anything maybe just having a peaceful presence is your gift you know it's not like you have to run out and slay the world.

But be brave enough to follow your impulses.

Like I've,

There's several people I know and they they'll have impulses to do something to share their gifts.

And then,

You know,

Maybe they don't do it and that's that's a big mistake.

Just do it to get the impulse follow it.

And,

And then see what happens.

But don't.

And then what women do out of they feel like victims and they feel like that they're not good enough,

They second rate men so they,

They often have a tendency to squish their impulses,

Don't do that.

I mean,

Where would we be.

I would have like followed my impulses right to develop this gift I mean,

I wouldn't be here for you guys so there'll be people that you're to be for that are that you've got,

You've got agreements to meet in the future and have some kind of even discussion or something.

And if you're not there.

They,

They're like,

What,

What.

Really,

I mean this is.

It's like,

Really it matters.

It's so funny because I just want to say this is increased focus to our on our parents and I feel for the younger women,

You know,

Like,

I just have the feeling everybody's looking in the mirror and noticing every wrinkle and it's like,

Just love.

Stop looking in the mirror,

Just look in the mirror and love yourself and then love humanity,

You know.

Good.

You're there.

You wanting to say,

I thought you.

Oh no just nodding.

I came across something.

Last night I was scrolling through,

I was trying to find like an organizing board to put up on the wall like a cork board and a blackboard and.

And I was like,

Oh,

I see this one and in the description,

You know they were listing out like all the things you could do with your,

Like,

Cork board,

And one of them was making a selfie shrine.

Wow,

Like,

Wow that's actually being described as like a way like that self love.

That's like a way to,

You know,

Do positive affirmations.

It struck me as really sad.

Yeah.

Yeah.

What can I say,

More sense of comedy.

Really,

It's like Monty Python.

Unless I'm doing it for you.

I said,

Unless someone's doing it for you because I got given that and I was like horrified.

I was given a big like picture of a million pictures of myself.

And the person loves you.

Yes.

I know it was so fun but the funniest part was is that I like they were all really good.

A lot of them are really goofy pictures where I was making faces and like I thought oh that's terrible.

Oh,

Why do you,

You know,

And it was like oh no this is so cute.

And I felt it was kind of like a shrine to look at and go like,

Okay,

Accept yourself and all the different.

Okay,

Good.

And having the flexibility of mind that you could see like maybe the lesson in it.

Good.

That's it.

What's it's sort of funny because we've got this,

You know this push toward love of self.

And then we've got the reflection of it as being like this selfie shrine right.

So,

I guess maybe it's always in periods like this where,

You know,

Periods where there are a lot of masters around,

Like a lot of avatars.

Then the light that they're bringing shines,

You know,

Shines a light on the darkness with humanity like the,

The darkness is coming up to be released this self obsession is coming up to be released but we're just caught in it right now.

Yeah.

More of you guys that walk your talk that will help loosen the hold of this selfishness on the collective.

It's the most powerful thing we can do.

Yeah.

Yeah.

I really feel the propelling motion of that.

When you talk about that I just feel really filled up,

Like the momentum that that gives.

Right.

Good.

Yeah.

It's catalyzing your gift right catalyzing,

It's reminding you,

You're remembering it's why you're here.

Yeah,

Brianna you have sunk back into what,

Where are you what are you thinking,

You sort of sunk back into something.

I was just thinking about,

And we talked about the selfies and the,

And the,

Which and the focus on appearance about the dating app that I recently signed up for that I was telling you about how it.

Yeah,

It's just been a very weird experience.

And I didn't like very quickly easily get caught up and just what somebody looks like and,

And just how I really don't like it and I don't think it's I'm going to use it because I can't,

But that humanity isn't there.

So I was just thinking about that in my head.

And this is what takes the courage on the journey is like you have to like follow your feeling about what to do and sometimes we can't do the things that the culture sanctioning and saying is good.

So,

Yeah.

So it takes guts to refer to yourself and actually just follow what you're steered to do,

Because we can slow ourselves down by going on these detours where we're not,

We overruled our intuition and we do it anyway and then it will have a bad,

It'll have a bad outcome.

There's probably some dating thing or,

Or something that you could do that will fit you.

You know they're,

I don't know,

Philosophy for cafes and stuff like that kind of,

There's some stuff out there that might be kind of fun,

You know,

You might.

Yeah,

I really,

I really was pushing myself to sign up and go for it and push myself out of my comfort zone and meet people and have those connections because I tend to isolate.

And it's not making me feel good.

It's like a very icky visceral reaction to the experience.

Okay,

Well then don't do it.

This is it.

This is don't do it.

Okay,

That's good.

That's good.

Do you know Daphne de Maurier who was an English writer in the early 19th century.

Do you guys know her,

Rebecca?

I love her,

She's one of my favorite authors.

You know what,

So she sat and wrote,

And one day,

This Navy captain knocked on the door,

Knocked on her door,

And had read one of her books and wanted to get to know her and she married him.

It's like,

It's like really,

You know,

It's really in some ways for the men to find us.

Do you know?

Really.

You know,

Don't do things that don't feel good because you won't find the right person there.

That's what that's the feeling I'm getting from this.

Yeah.

So,

Just retire it.

Yeah,

You know,

I mean,

Maybe the universe wants you to do something else.

There's another app or something but I don't know.

I guess I had a question off of that it's like how,

How do you like bear you kind of brought this up like in your,

In your partnership,

Just when you're on one person's on a journey and and meeting people while you're on that journey and is that even the right time for me to be looking or am I overthinking it and it's all gonna work out the way it's supposed to I just I guess that kind of bumbles around in my mind is,

Should I even really be giving that energy,

Dating,

And I'll just let it.

Let it unfold.

Yeah.

My opinion is that if you're gonna maybe it sounds cliche but I think if there's a person that you're meant to meet,

You're going to meet them,

Whether you're like focusing on dating or not.

Yeah,

The people just come,

Come,

Or don't come depending on what's right and I've often felt that like,

Like focusing on like hey now I'm going to go like I've definitely gone through it and I've watched a lot of friends go through it where like they feel like they've come out of some phase,

And now they're like hey now I'm ready for a partner.

It's like I've done this phase and like my next,

Like to do list thing to check off is to get the right partner.

And I just don't think it works that way at all.

Go into get groceries.

Yeah,

I think I,

Yeah,

I probably know the answer to my own question.

And it's that,

Yeah.

That's the thing.

We often know the answer to your own question exactly.

It is part of why,

You know,

Lots of times spiritual people do tend to like to spend a lot of time alone so they can actually get down to how they really feel about things.

Right.

Yeah.

But it's also risky too because you can't blame anybody else.

Well it's true,

You just rise or fall on your own.

But you can have a spiritual fall and pick yourself up again,

You know,

In fact,

Anybody who's really on the journey will have done that will have had spiritual falls.

They've tripped over their ego and made a mistake and they have to pick themselves up.

So maybe you dodged the bullet with this app,

You know that you would have had a fall and had to pick yourself up.

But you guys never do something if you if you feel really bad about it,

Just don't.

And never go see somebody for any kind of therapy or body work or anything unless you feel really good about that person.

The main thing is the key to the spiritual journey is sincerity.

So the most sincere person becomes the teacher,

Basically.

I mean,

It's just so simple.

It just takes such a long time that we don't see the cause and effect.

But the deeper your intention and the purer your intention,

The more progress you make.

And you can't legislate it.

It's like,

You know,

The complexes will come up.

You know,

You'll go through periods of confusion and the complexes come up and then it clears and then you go,

Oh,

I thought I was on the journey,

But I wasn't really.

Now I get it.

And I'll tell you,

You still won't get it.

Just do that again and again and again.

This is exactly what I feel.

Yeah.

Again and again.

Again and again.

But we're all like this.

Like,

It's it's because it's sort of like this is come out of your conditioning and just join the human race.

See what I mean?

Just you're one of eight billion.

You know.

You're this one.

We're all God.

And each of you is this one.

And I'm this one.

But we're all like equally valuable.

We're just part of God.

And you can lodge on that.

Lodge in the God within you.

You don't have to prove anything.

You don't have to do anything.

But I feel it's getting in there.

Your head is getting involved in this and not in a good way.

What's what's going on?

Oh,

I think I was just I think I've just been thinking about it.

Yeah,

Probably too much with my head and think I got caught in the piece about you talking about the when you think you know what you don't know it.

I was just thinking about that over and over and over again.

And I was thinking,

I guess that's where my head was coming in.

And then I was thinking,

Well,

How do I wrap my head around that?

Right.

Or how do I?

Yeah,

I don't know.

I got caught in that.

Yeah.

Okay.

Yeah,

Yeah,

Yeah.

Right.

So,

And what it's showing you is that part of you is still in the watchtower.

Yeah,

You're not flowing.

Right.

Because if you're really flowing,

It'd be like a no brainer.

Yeah,

Of course.

It's gonna be like that.

Yeah,

Yeah,

Yeah.

You guys did the you'll get closer and closer to me.

The more you get this.

You know,

Like,

The thing is the teacher,

Really,

The teachers get closer to the people who are bringing in their energy.

Like the teachers doing it.

Do you know like that are?

It's like I started getting Ama as I went deeper in myself,

Then I got closer to Ama,

To see what I mean.

And it was seamless.

I mean,

And and she could help me far more and she gave me far more attention.

Because I had cleared enough of my resistances to make it easy for her basically.

And also then I understood the journey more.

Like,

How,

How it's the journey is just like being a flower.

You guys.

It's just being a lotus.

It's like your seed,

You grow,

You know,

There's the experience of the mud.

But you're also a seed and you're growing.

And then,

You know,

Finally you come to the blossoming and you're not even thinking about the mud then you're just thinking of the just the awareness.

But it's just be gentle with yourself.

So you guys,

It's very beautiful.

All of you guys.

All of you.

It's just the Watchtower.

If you take that home about like noticing when you go into the Watchtower,

Try to figure stuff out as opposed to,

You know,

Lying in your bed and praying to God and having some tears.

That's it.

We're trained to live in the Watchtower.

I mean,

And this is the science,

We'll say the Watchtower is,

Oh,

This is the science.

Science is good.

I mean,

If there are other people listening to this,

I mean,

You guys get what I mean.

But I'm just talking about when science is used outside ourselves when it becomes a religiosity that we're,

Okay,

That we're,

We're measuring ourselves.

Okay,

So for example,

Say a woman,

Maybe has a spiritual experience on the,

On the giving birth.

It is exquisite,

It's added to her love for her child.

It's made her a better person.

But if somebody comes in and goes well the science says that's not possible.

Do you see what I mean?

Like that's,

That's what happens to a lot of our deeper understanding and actually the real science at the higher levels.

The spirituality and science unite,

There's no separation,

But at the commonly understood level,

It's,

It's like this is dogmatic,

Anti-psychic,

Anti expansion of our capabilities.

Science gets used to sort of,

As if to chunk us down into a very small 3D understanding and that going beyond that is not allowed.

Do you understand?

That's why there's fights about whether psychic abilities exist,

Or fights about near death experiences or anybody who's tapped into their soul knows these things happen.

Any mother knows psychic,

Has psychic abilities.

Like it's just,

I just find it so odd what we're doing.

We have so many scientific tests about whether psychic exists and it's like they've existed through time and any mom,

Any loving mom will know how her children are doing,

Whether she can see them or not.

So that's where it turns into,

It's actually a dissing of feminine energy,

You see,

And this is part of why women feel bad about themselves.

My mom turned off her psychic abilities.

I mean,

She basically decided to die.

You know,

She was alive physically,

But she turned off the best of herself to function and that just,

How could that be a good thing to do?

To become less.

Do you understand what I'm saying?

Can somebody summarize it?

I don't know if I can summarize it,

But I have felt a lot of anger and just wanting to not even engage or listen to the outside world when I feel so angry about this like pitting of like emotionality and reason.

And it's like,

If a woman or anyone for that matter can't make the argument sound very rational,

They're just dismissed as like,

Well,

You're defying logic,

Or you're going against rational,

You're just not being rational and so therefore,

You're not.

And,

But then to even get caught in the argument to oppose that and say,

Well,

No emotion is just as important or more important than reason.

It's like it's still looking at them as two separate things.

And I want to just scream and say,

It is logical,

It is rational,

It's just like you're saying it's like a higher,

It's a bigger logic than our little minds.

Okay,

So Bear,

The place for your inquiry is,

What's the root of the anger,

Because your anger will be very logical at root,

But it will have to do with your childhood.

Okay,

So,

So even our response to the outside world when we're angry about something,

We're honor bound to notice it.

Yeah,

You're right,

You're right.

I mean,

I agree with you,

But like,

I feel angry about like,

I'm pretty sure that as a small child,

And definitely as an older kid it was very well developed.

I learned how to speak very articulately and rationally and logically to win arguments.

And that was the way that I was,

That I could get appreciation or respect from other people in my family,

And I feel angry about that now because it,

It made me numb out and diminish this whole other part of me that I'm now trying to retrieve.

So there,

There's anger.

Okay,

So,

But it's like give it to God okay so it starts to heal.

You're holding on to it.

Give it,

Give it over to God.

Because you've got a nice rational explanation for your anger,

Right?

I mean,

This is what we do.

And it becomes part of our storyline and everything but if it's anger,

It's your ego.

In fact,

You see,

Emotions,

Guys,

They do come from our ego,

It's like the higher you go on the spiritual journey,

The less emotion you feel,

You just become neutral.

Okay,

But the,

When you,

Like if you go into feeling this anger and feeling it so that it will lift.

You will get some really important bulletins from your soul coming into you that will help you become more and more neutral,

Less and less reactive to things.

And that's how you become powerful.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Okay,

And you've done that a lot I'm just,

It's,

You see this is our egos fool us over and over,

You will stumble over your watchtower and how you're still,

You know,

Doing it lion,

Have you got something,

A comment.

I,

I have this feelings.

In the moment that I know that I nothing know,

But I,

The feelings.

It's more in harmony.

In the last days,

I feel more freedom,

I don't know how to do to describe.

No,

No,

No,

No,

No,

That's really good.

And you and you,

What you went through,

I mean you're learning how to flow.

So yeah,

Yeah.

Yeah,

That's good.

It's good.

It's more that I don't know nothing.

That's what happens and we're,

We're,

You guys were always beginners,

You're always a beginner,

Just always think of yourself as a beginner,

You don't know,

And keep talking to the universe and asking for help.

Alexa,

How are you doing?

I'm good,

I think.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And so,

You also mean okay like the feelings and the intuition is like the same thing,

Right,

When we talk about it.

Yes,

But also,

Yeah,

Intuition is also nothing irrational it's actually information that we get before we can put it in the words.

Yeah,

Yeah,

Yeah,

This is it.

I think it's all very logical.

So the logic of the heart,

And it's a little bit different than the smaller logic of the head.

Yeah.

Because I'm going to go around to each person,

And just,

So it's 11,

Getting on for 1140.

So I'm going to go around to each person if there's any question or comment.

There's,

There's no,

We don't have to close it also take whatever time you need to.

But I'm just steering towards completion.

So,

Pratibha,

Is there anything you can understand or?

I just got really really cold so I think I'm kind of in shock a little bit like I feel like my body's in a little bit of shock over that loop that I was talking about,

And feeling the Watchtower thing,

And feeling a little disheartened about it,

But I should,

I mean,

In a way I feel like I shouldn't because it's just,

This is it.

This is the journey but I somehow feel a little disheartened after having had a day,

Not that.

Do you know what I mean?

I just feel disheartened.

I know,

It's like you just need to let go.

I mean,

I get it.

Like,

Oh you're going like,

Oh now I've got it.

Yeah I know,

I know.

I don't after all and it's like,

It's all I,

I,

I,

Take away the I.

It's just,

Get interested in God.

Yeah.

But it's okay,

This is what we're like,

And,

You know,

To be able to be humble enough to do a group like this is very good work so,

Because all the warts and everything get exposed,

Which is why it works but it's hard.

I get it.

Yeah.

And,

You know,

It's just the cold,

Being cold is the injured child,

So just love yourself sweetie arms around yourself.

It's just where you got hurt as a little one.

Yeah.

I know I can even whenever you say that I can feel that.

I felt a sense of like,

You're wrong a lot.

Right,

Not meaning that I,

It just,

I felt that as a kid right like you're,

You were wrong a lot,

Like,

Yeah.

You were just,

Yeah,

You didn't know anything,

You were wrong a lot.

Yeah,

And if our parents don't love themselves,

That's the prevailing climate,

Right.

Yeah,

Yeah.

I get it.

So getting your arms around that just yeah and then compassion and compassion for all the kids in the world,

Coming from here.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Good.

Good.

Yeah,

Compassion.

Good.

Yeah,

What I'm feeling is pretty but it's like,

You know a lot you've known me for a long time so you know about this body stuff so it's really your just decision to implement it.

Like,

You know,

To decide to really get it in a big way so we even noticing your old.

You could have gone to,

Oh that's my trauma coldest trauma healing.

Colder.

That's right.

You're not wrong.

I'm not making you wrong.

Yeah.

Okay.

I'm just we don't have any time.

I'm a said come quickly children.

I'll tell you when I read that I got really big alarm bells.

So,

You know,

And so,

And this is where I'm saying like here what I'm saying is an awakened person don't just go it's mom or I don't have to pay attention,

Like,

Yeah.

Okay,

Come quickly.

Come quickly pretty.

Good.

Okay,

Good.

It's great.

Brianna 12 year old.

Um,

I have.

I think my takeaway from today and our session yesterday too is just kind of less needing to dissect the add the reason for everything,

The logic the why is that the case.

And just,

Yeah,

Surrender to the feelings and practicing giving it over as my big is my big takeaway and not trying to rationalize everything and because it'll,

It'll come eventually.

I'll understand or I won't,

But,

You know,

Hopefully I do,

But.

Yeah,

So the Teva and Brianna,

What happens is if you make enough room inside your heart,

The insights bubble up.

The information bubbles up and you get information and you get re woven from inside.

You see when you let go of the watchtower,

You start allowing to be rewoven,

And that's what I'm talking about.

Yeah,

Okay,

Good.

Okay,

Just do your best to that.

So,

So good.

Okay,

Lion.

Maybe there's,

Maybe there's not much for you to say I don't want to put you on the spot.

But I just want to do.

I feel a healing in my throat.

Healing.

Yeah.

The shack was clearing here and in my throat.

Could I've lost you guys.

Can you hear me.

Yeah.

Yeah.

How to get back to you.

Well,

Can you see my face anyway.

Yes,

We can.

Well then I'll just leave it as is.

So,

Okay,

I missed that lion,

What was.

What did you say,

I feel a healing in my throat.

Good.

Good.

That's it.

More able to just speak the truth.

Yeah.

Good.

Good.

And.

Good.

And I'm feeling all this changes the,

They're going to help you be happier on the earth.

Lion.

That's really good work.

Yeah.

Okay.

Anna.

Yeah.

How about you.

I'm.

I'm,

I feel pretty peaceful inside myself and I feel like this.

This thing about I don't understand,

And I don't,

I don't get it.

I'm not so upset about it to,

To not understanding something,

But I can,

I can say okay but this is a good point to start steering towards understanding more,

I can be more.

Yeah.

With this,

With this thing.

Oh,

I don't get it,

You know.

Yeah.

Right.

But I feel inside myself.

Yeah.

That you don't get it.

Can you can you give that to God.

Right.

Yeah,

Yeah,

Yeah,

And I can,

And I don't feel bad about myself when,

When I get it that I don't get it,

Or,

You know,

When I,

I don't know,

When I find myself circling around or when I feel bad about myself,

I can.

Yeah.

You're talking to me from a more superficial place than I want to,

Like,

You're saying it's all wrapped up kind of,

I don't know,

I just I just getting alarm bells.

Like,

Yeah.

So,

I mean,

If you get that you'll get it when you want to get it.

And that if you don't get it because you don't want to get it.

Yeah,

That's probably it.

Well,

It is it not probably sweetie like that it is because you've known me for three years or whatever it's like,

It's not,

It's not brain surgery it's like it's just deciding to not identify with your condition personality and deciding to identify with more your God self,

Like,

Changing your center of gravity.

From,

From I'm Anna to I'm a divine being.

And I'm in this body and I'm,

I'm here for a reason.

Yeah.

Yeah,

I can feel you.

You don't know really how you feel.

I'm doing a bit of surgery on you because I feel too.

I think,

You know,

If you just play with that that you that you,

You know,

Just,

I mean,

If you just put your arms around it.

Don't know because you don't want to.

There's no big mystery.

You really want to get this you will.

Because it's so simple what I'm what I teach,

It's just brain numbingly simple.

Really.

So,

It's like,

We get it when we,

When we want to.

Yeah.

Yeah.

So how do you feel about that.

This is pretty much the truth.

Yeah,

And I can feel I can,

I can feel it as something to do with wanting to understand and to really wanting to do it right.

Yeah,

And you're saying this from the Watchtower.

You're speaking from the Watchtower.

Okay,

No,

I'm just telling you that you are like,

You know,

If you just go okay.

I'm saying all this from being in the Watchtower like just accept the truth of it and let it change you.

Let,

Let the truth change you.

This is what I was talking about from the very beginning of the session before we started recording.

Let the truth change you,

Like,

Let me get through to you.

It's like what a waste.

Not to.

Yeah,

But also toe,

Rip yourself apart.

You know,

You know,

Just notice that you're in resistance and and made upset you made upset you but don't eat yourself up.

Yeah,

Yeah.

Yeah.

Okay.

Alexa,

How about you.

Yeah,

It was just noticing that,

Like,

I shared some symptoms with with you.

For example,

The headache or pressure on the head that Pratibha and Lion said in the beginning.

I had the whole past week and I even thought I had like high blood pressure and then I took,

I mean the blood pressure test and my blood pressure was below the normal blood pressure so it was very,

Yeah,

Like,

Strange to me.

And also the sensation with the coldness that Pratibha was talking about,

I had a lot like in the beginning of the session here.

And now it's just the hands.

Yeah.

It's good.

Love to your hands.

Yeah.

And yes,

I think line was also talking about the throat chakra.

So I also went into this session with some.

Yeah,

Like a sore throat.

And it's probably going to be better.

Pretty soon.

After the session also.

Yeah.

So sweetie if you guys still feeling pressure on the top of your head.

Yeah,

It's,

You know,

Lifted or yeah,

It's no now it's better.

Yeah.

So,

What is,

Can somebody tell me what pressure on the body always is?

I've said it like 500 times.

It's okay.

Your soul.

And what's your soul,

Why is it happening?

It's wanting to come in.

Wherever it's coming from.

Yeah,

And it's resistance because,

Yeah,

If we have like pressure it's the resistance we have to the soul or is it?

Yeah,

But sweetie pie.

Okay,

Again,

You guys really pay attention.

So,

Okay.

The reason I have made progress like I have,

Because when I would get like pressure on the top of my head,

I'd go,

Oh,

My soul wants to come into my body.

I'll let it in.

Come in soul.

Okay.

Okay.

What we're conditioned to do is focus go into the Watchtower and focus on resistance.

That won't help you at all.

Don't do that.

Just go,

Your soul is coming into your body.

This is fantastic.

It's a clearing of your crown chakra.

Yeah,

Clearing your connection to God so that you'll find God,

God becomes will feel more loving to you less judgmental.

Yeah,

You guys,

Please.

Get this so much love power now.

You're feeling love power.

Lots of love.

This is,

It's a very childlike response that I have,

But it's,

It's what,

Why I've been speeded along.

That's it.

Okay,

Like Alexa is good.

I can feel the pennies dropping for you more.

And you know,

You have this innocence in you I see it so strongly,

So you're such a candidate for this kind of work.

Okay.

Yeah.

Okay,

Good.

Medal of Honor.

Okay,

You got it.

You look like a little three year old,

Whose mom has just hugged her.

That's it.

That's what I'm wanting to see.

That's what I'm wanting to see.

It's fantastic.

Okay,

Good.

Okay,

There.

All your names,

But they all,

They're all really good.

Yeah.

I was just writing down that last one,

Saying,

Okay,

Come in,

So it's just such a simple reminder.

It is so simple.

It is out of the watchtower,

It is in the flow.

Come on in,

Soul.

You growth will go way faster.

Print out that,

You know that transcendent body approach it's like,

It's all there.

You can imagine what my life is like you imagine.

Passion for privacy.

Yeah,

I don't really have any last questions.

I'm feeling really motivated to like going back to,

At the beginning,

The birth analogy.

And when I talked about my second child and the intensity.

And it's like having my whole being devoted to the transition.

Like,

Having that be the goal feels that is the goal,

You guys,

That is the goal.

Yeah.

It's a high goal.

But it feels like a really North Star.

Yeah.

Okay,

Now,

I'm going to complicate things in a way,

The part of you that's that you said you're excited about it or eager for it.

There's probably motivated,

Motivated,

Okay,

There's probably ego coming in to motivate you to understand this is how tricky the ego will get.

Yeah.

Yeah.

So you might find that,

You know,

You get really motivated and then shortly after you're gonna get frustrated.

When you bang into a wall,

And the wall will be just be a new like you guys this is why we need full presence to to notice all the tricks of the ego.

But I'm just,

And it's good work,

What you're doing,

I'm just,

I'm wanting to show you the enormity of the study,

Really.

So for you to come out of the shallows,

You know,

And come into a deeper understanding with me.

Yeah.

Right.

Yeah,

I get that.

Patient with yourself and compassionate.

And you're not wrong to feel motivated.

But it will be ego because the soul just flows along and except.

Yeah.

But,

Okay,

You've,

You've,

You're crushed something I've crushed you.

No,

It.

I'm likening the motivation to like,

The way you feel when you're,

You've decided like a new diet to take and you're right,

Exactly.

I'm starting this new diet and I've got the plan and I'm like,

Yeah,

Right.

That at 11 o'clock.

Yeah,

You're having like a course.

Yeah,

That's,

That is really helpful to notice that.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah,

The egos like,

Yeah,

And just utter patience and really,

You know,

Say your mantra.

I mean,

Just keep your minds on the bigger goal like elephant remember I was talking to you about that part of the problem is small thoughts,

Keep your thoughts big.

Yeah,

That is,

I'll tell you if you just notice your thoughts and and and and make them bigger.

Like,

Yeah,

And you find the will to do that,

You will start to go in the flow more.

You guys do you see it is a radical kind of embrace of yourself,

And what goes on with you.

Do you know what I mean and noticing everything as much as possible and then on top of this,

You have to notice how you are with others and pay the rent,

And I like I get it.

It's a challenge but it's,

It's a joy and it's,

It's what will bring peace to the world,

You guys.

And who knows the reverberations from this group you know finally you know,

Who knows,

Who knows how many years the tapes even from the group will be listened to,

You don't know the stuff from some teachers from like 40 years ago.

No,

You don't know you might be like,

Like the new suffragettes you know.

Yeah,

Well what dreams may come and there's no ceilings,

And just,

I'll tell you that the reason that some spiritual books last centuries,

Is because they've been written in truth.

It is true.

Love is truth,

And that is where the power is so you know,

If we're really true group,

You know,

Who knows.

Yeah.

Okay,

Well bless your hearts all of you thank you thank you thank you for coming.

Thank you for listening.

Thank you.

You are so deep in my heart.

All of you guys.

We are all in my heart very deeply.

Bless your,

Bless your dear hearts.

Okay.

Okay.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Bye.