When Golden Energy Replaces Ego

Before we start,

We'll just take a moment to feel into Amma's grace,

The creator's grace.

Guys,

We need it so much.

Yeah,

This poor overwrought world.

Yeah,

And Amma is again giving darshan.

Yeah,

So the whole,

The whole ashram's full of her,

Her grace.

And you guys are worth it,

Okay?

I want you to really think that,

That you're worth the grace that's coming to you,

That it's your birthright.

And it's not like,

You know,

That you can just you know,

It's grace.

You still get speeding tickets if you're speeding,

You know,

Grace.

But grace is like I've said before,

It's like you've got,

You're making an outfit and you realized that you've cut it too severely,

It's too small.

And you've wasted the fabric,

You've wasted the time.

And you get up and you go off in disgust and you come back and then you discover that actually it's okay,

That you can make the outfit after all,

That there is enough fabric.

Even if you know that you cut it too small.

Grace is like that.

It will over ride the usual rules of reality,

Okay?

Yeah.

But it works best when we're pure of heart and when we're,

Our thoughts are not,

You know,

When we're not sitting in hate and anger.

There's also just a little comment,

You know,

In the old days I would be very patient with people and it was sort of like with my family line.

This is what I did with my family line,

Bless them.

You can,

I'm sure you guys could just see me doing it.

They were quite intolerant with me and I would keep going the extra mile and trying harder.

I would get nowhere.

So I took this pattern into working with people.

I would go,

Oh,

They just don't get it.

They just don't get it.

And I'll tell you guys,

I am getting tougher.

And if I feel that somebody is sitting,

Seething with anger and resisting my input and seething with anger,

I will step back from them.

It's like,

I don't judge them.

I know what it's like to be stuck,

But I will give you a lot of room for you to work through this garbage so that you can greet me with an open heart and be willing to learn.

I mean,

We all get stuck in anger sometimes,

But I'm just getting very careful about what I bring my heart to now.

And it's good.

It's time.

It's long overdue actually.

Yeah.

Yeah.

You know,

One of my favorite fairy tales was a little match girl and she,

You know,

She was selling matches and she would light matches for comfort and heat and light.

And finally she used up all her matches and she died.

That is kind of a story of what happens,

What it's like to be a female and you're trying to offer light,

But you're not taking care of yourself.

You're not loving yourself in a big enough way.

It's way too wavy.

The female energy can get wavy.

And it's,

It's the,

You know,

The place you want to be in is the Empress,

Not the snobby Empress,

The Empress who's got this heart of gold.

Yeah.

And,

You know,

Any Empress with a heart of gold probably started off as a match girl and realized that that just didn't work and that she had to love herself.

Okay.

Primasut is going to stop talking and give you space,

You dear souls.

Has anybody not spoken?

Not had a question?

Some of you I'm sure want to speak,

But you're probably scared that you've taken up,

You know,

Too much time.

You spoke recently and it's good to give everybody a chance.

But it's not good if the question,

That saying is full of dead silence.

I have something to say.

Hi.

Okay.

Veronica,

Sweet one.

How are you?

I'm doing okay.

I wanted to speak about the email that you sent me about how Westerners seek things outside of themselves for the answers when the answers are from within truly.

And you said that to me twice,

Like that in back-to-back emails.

And at first I was,

I took it,

Like,

I heard it,

Right?

I listened to it and I was like,

Oh yeah,

Westerners,

They tend to do that,

But not me.

Right.

And then when you said it the second time,

I was like,

Okay,

Here's a clue.

Here's a clue from the universe.

I need to like,

Take a step back.

So I was really grateful that you brought that into my awareness that I needed to take a step back.

And I've been trying to do that lately and it's been kind of difficult,

Even though I have been really meditating and going within and trying to just like remain here throughout the day.

It's just been very difficult.

Yeah.

Okay.

Sweet one.

We can do that with doing energy sometimes.

Okay.

Like at the beginning of the journey,

We start trying to do it and yeah,

It's,

It's a rookie mistake kind of it's,

But it's not really wrong.

It's kind of good,

But you,

You know,

You're in this birthing process and it will have a life of its own and it will steer you,

You know.

Okay.

First of all,

Please understand that if we're really sincere,

We get brought to it.

Okay.

Now this is the rub with the journey.

If we're really sincere,

We'll be shown.

Now,

If we're not really sincere deeply,

We can go round in circles for a lifetime.

Okay.

But the sincerity comes from very deep in the heart.

It's not,

It's not the person necessarily who,

Who watches themselves,

Watches themselves vigilantly nine to five,

You know,

It's,

It's deeper than that.

Okay.

So I'm okay.

This is great.

So Veronica,

The,

The main thing you're going to be faced with on this journey for the next couple of years is you're going to face that hollowness we talked about.

Right.

Okay.

Right.

So when you go deeper,

You will find the hollowness comes up.

Okay.

So that's where,

Yeah,

Saying your mantra,

I will to will by will,

Or crying in sorrow at the,

At the hollowness,

Or just observing it.

Yeah.

Sweetie pie,

You're just learning to walk in this way.

So you're like a little toddler,

You know,

With a little chubby legs.

Any mom knows that toddlers and they're adorable,

Chubby legs,

And they try to walk and they're so determined and they go,

They just get up again.

Yeah,

Yeah.

Yeah.

I have enormous faith in you.

Okay.

Thanks.

Yeah.

And I'll tell you that it has been very difficult for Pramasutha to stay with herself at times,

You know,

It's,

You know,

The more the bigger a spiritual step,

The busier our minds are,

And the harder it is.

The thing that's just it is the busyness up here.

It's like,

I catch my thoughts drifting and I'm like,

Quit drifting out,

Right?

Stay,

Stay inside.

Okay.

So,

Okay.

Okay.

If you fight these thoughts at all,

You will make the problem bigger.

Okay.

You see,

This is again,

Rookies will fight their egos.

You don't want to do it.

You want to observe it like observing a difficult kid and doing what you can for yourself.

It's like you've got a kid who's throwing a temper tantrum in Walmart.

It's like,

That's what our minds can be like.

Okay.

Right.

Definitely.

Right.

Exactly.

So,

Just be with it.

You can always email me.

The subliminals are crucial,

I would say,

And just living your days.

I mean,

This is,

This is the journey.

You've got a,

It's like a two year process,

And it's to sort of,

You're learning how to walk.

Sweetie,

It's not that you need more comfort than this.

I can feel it,

But you know,

It's kind of it.

This is the journey.

It's like you and God,

Right?

But I'll tell you,

I have enormous faith in you.

Like you are really sincere.

Okay.

Yeah.

So thank you.

That's,

That's the main to keep.

I guess,

Keep the faith,

Keep the faith and then see people enough.

Like,

You know,

You don't have to cut off all things with your groups and everything.

See people enough that you don't start eating yourself up out of loneliness.

You know what I mean?

You don't want to do that.

Right.

You know,

And I do like,

For example,

Right now I'm visiting my dad with my kids.

Oh,

Good.

Good.

Yeah.

Good.

I heard you quit your job.

Did you?

I quit my job.

Yeah.

How does that feel?

It feels liberating and also scary.

Right.

I mean,

I want to make something of myself and I want to take my time into my own hands,

But I have to figure out a way to make money.

You know what I mean?

Yeah.

And the universe will show you be careful with family members.

Don't talk to them too much.

Okay.

You know,

Because when you have somebody,

You guys,

This is both in for all of you.

When you've got somebody in the family line who is stepping beyond the family,

Emotional climate,

The rest of them will say,

Don't do it because they never,

Yeah,

They never did it.

So that's exactly what happened.

I got,

Oh my gosh,

My aunt chewed me out for like 10 straight minutes over the phone screaming at me,

Like pulling out some real nastiness from within her to like spit it at me.

And the whole time I,

I stayed in my center and I was like,

Maybe we should calm down here.

And that was like adding fuel to the fire.

So I just had to let her play it out.

And we haven't spoken since.

And I did speak with my mother after that.

He was very business woman and she was able to mediate between the two of us,

Which I was grateful for.

Here's Edwin.

Hi,

Sweetie.

Hi,

Sweetie.

Yeah.

I,

I would be careful with family.

Just be careful.

They don't have to know what you're doing.

I'm too honest.

I already spilled all.

This is what I did too.

I know.

Oh,

Well,

You'll learn.

That's it.

You'll learn.

It's living learning.

Yeah.

It's all learning.

It's like,

And the thing is the more innocent we are,

The more we're like this.

So,

You know,

Well,

Yeah,

That's it.

I know that's it.

And I remember some channels saying to me that even though my family had difficult guilting with me,

They did say this channel said that actually I changed the whole climate from being obsessed with money.

It no longer was obsessed with money.

It was interesting.

That's my goal too,

Is I've really never been obsessed with money.

The people around me have,

And I've always,

You know,

Supported that vision or goal that they might've had for like a material gain,

But that's never been me.

And I've done what I needed to do to like earn a living and move throughout my life.

But now,

You know,

There's something really deep inside me.

That's telling me that I need to change my course of direction.

And I'm really trying to follow that.

And you're right.

People don't see it.

They don't understand it.

And then they decide that because they don't understand it,

It's obviously something wrong.

Yeah.

Yeah.

So just be careful.

And,

Um,

Do you have daily meditation practice?

Yes.

Okay.

And you keep to it?

I keep to it.

Yeah.

Okay.

Really do that.

I've been listening to the subliminals and the subliminal bedtime.

Yeah.

Do the positive ones.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Okay.

And then just observe.

This is your education.

Your life is your education.

I feel like I'm in like the school of the universe right now.

It is right.

You guys in the thirties is often the call of the soul when it gets really loud.

So it's really good that you're stepping forward,

Veronica and following it.

It can be a treacherous path.

So you,

Um,

Yeah.

So,

You know,

Stay,

I mean,

I'm glad you're coming to sat saying,

Stay close to any guidance and,

Um,

Just,

You know,

Do your best.

Your heart is the final adjudicator,

You know,

Your heart and how you feel is your reference point.

All I can do is,

You know,

Shine some light,

But your heart is.

Yeah.

I'm really grateful for the mirror.

Thank you.

Okay.

And remember I said,

It's already happened.

So,

Which is just so Alice in wonderland,

But it's not on your shoulders.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Okay.

Blessings.

Thank you.

Is there anybody else?

Frank,

What's it like to be back?

Frank,

Who is it that at the ashram?

Hey everyone.

Hey.

Yeah.

It's,

Um,

Uh,

Interesting to be back.

Um,

I had some,

So it took me some time to actually be here again.

So I think,

I think on like four days,

It took me to really be here back.

Um,

And I had a rough time actually.

I was started working on Monday and I have the kids on Monday already.

So I don't went into the normal life again.

Yeah.

It's been,

Um,

I think,

Uh,

I did some,

I had a really good time at the ashram.

It made a lot of opening my heart actually the time there.

Yes.

Yes.

I see.

Yeah.

I can still feel that.

And,

Um,

Even the Satsang we had there was really helpful at the beginning.

Do you remember,

Um,

I was talking,

I was talking about this rocks.

I feel around my heart and the rush and I was sitting at the,

Um,

At the hall and was meditating.

I had a nice experience with Amma.

I was asking for help with this and I just repeated her name in the meditation time.

And then I felt this heaviness on my heart,

Really,

Really hard.

And it kind of,

I saw it was like a pile of rocks and then,

Um,

Amma took all those rocks and we played,

Um,

Bowling with it.

So I was asking her to do a gently because I'm not the one that like wants to blow it up with dynamite or something.

So we played.

No,

No,

No,

No,

No.

It's good.

Yeah.

Beautiful.

So,

Um,

But I still know that there's a rock that is big one.

And I,

Um,

I was like kind of trying to ask her if we could remove that too,

But it didn't feel right actually,

Because it's kind of feels like it has to be gentle or really hard.

So I just decided,

Okay,

We stay what feels good for me.

And then all of a sudden it shifted from being hard on the heart and it went to the chest right here.

And I saw pressure when I meditate and get into this energy.

So I just would like to ask you about if that's just switched or how I just stay with it or feel into what did you hear?

Yeah.

Like,

So,

But what's your question?

Like the,

Like the rock in it,

Like,

And then you were talking about your high heart.

Exactly.

Yeah.

Then it switched,

Like the heaviness on the heart went away,

But kind of opened up to the high heart.

I think you call it.

Yeah.

Yeah.

It's the high heart.

Okay.

So don't any of this.

Okay.

Please.

Okay.

Don't,

Don't get your ego in there trying to orchestrate it.

Okay.

Witness it.

So this work is high heart work.

It is premise to the soul contribution.

So the high heart is when we clear our,

Our high heart,

We give the gift.

We came here to give.

So you don't want to rush this at all.

Sweet one.

Okay.

Yeah.

Just knowing that Amma is clearing that and you were so open at the ashram and you made that quantum leap.

You did.

I mean,

I saw it in the picture you showed me after Amma's,

After Arati.

And I said,

So Franca's picture after was like,

She was like a woman of substance.

Like what a woman kind of,

You know,

If you're walking down the street and you see somebody and you just know that they're functioning on all cylinders and they're really somebody no matter how rich they are or how important the job is.

That's what I saw.

You made that shift.

So don't just let it all Amma's working it.

She's just,

She's doing it.

She's doing it.

But the opening of the high heart will actually make things more difficult for you.

This is what you're going to find because you're,

You're going to be bumping up and you're going to go like,

Oh,

I have to walk and take care of this higher energy at the same time as do all the normal everyday things,

Take care of the kids and everything.

And that's why you need to just don't rush things.

You'll be shown how to do it.

Yeah.

That's what I actually felt in the ashram.

Everything that should happen will happen at the time and the space and the speed.

Yeah.

Right.

I mean,

Since I've known you,

You've opened very gracefully.

I think he'll just keep doing that,

You know?

Yeah.

Right.

And just patience.

Okay.

You guys,

The big,

I read my,

The satsang that I wrote,

But it's,

You know,

I don't know if it will be approved and I,

I won't hear for ages because I'm not leaving until the end of March.

So the guy told me they they'll be dealing with it way into the future,

But I read it to somebody and their comment was,

Oh,

I,

I didn't realize how,

How much patience is required.

It's patience that the reason that Pramasutra can stand before you today and offer guidance is just patience.

Yep.

Right.

Right.

Right.

My great-grandmother used to say,

You've got to take the good with the bad.

And it was sort of like,

It was sort of like the great old oak talking,

You know,

Where in,

She was so old and had seen so much that everything had gotten very simple and it came down to,

You got to take the good with the bad,

You know,

And,

You know,

Keep your focus on the divine.

Right.

Right.

And be patient.

If you feel flashes of anger,

Notice them.

You can even tell your boys,

You know,

It's like me,

I'd say,

Oh,

You guys,

Mom's cranky today.

So be careful.

Yeah.

Warning,

Warning.

This is for your own benefit.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Thank you.

Yeah.

There's room.

There's room for your humanity.

All moms need to know that there's room for your humanity.

Good.

Yeah.

Okay.

Good.

Anna,

How are you doing with your feet?

And his feet swelled up again.

They,

The swelling went down,

But then it's come back.

So how are you doing?

Talking of patience,

I feel,

Actually,

I feel a lot of numbness and emptiness.

And since we met this afternoon,

I really,

I feel anger and I feel all this stuff coming up and my feet actually got better.

They,

They are,

You know,

A bit,

They lost a bit of the fluids and I feel in,

I have the feeling I'm walking around in nowhere land.

I don't know.

Yeah.

It's like,

I don't belong.

It's,

It's like,

I don't belong.

Nowhere.

Right.

Oh,

Sweetie.

I remember feeling like that,

But you know what the answer is?

Look at the spelling of nowhere.

What does it also spell?

Oh,

This is important for all of you.

It spells now here.

Oh,

Right.

Oh,

This is beautiful.

Isn't it?

Yes.

Oh,

Wow.

Yes.

So whenever you guys,

You feel like you're walking around in nowhere's land,

You need to just come,

Come to your heart,

Come to the present and become now here,

Here now.

That's what's so great about English.

It's just,

It's right there.

Okay.

So all this,

Okay.

So,

You know,

What's good is all this emotional stuff came up that you were expressing in the swelling of your ankles.

So you stopped somatizing expressing it through your body and you went conscious on this material.

Now that's very good work that you were feeling it.

Oh,

This makes so much sense.

Yes.

Yeah.

Yeah.

This is our biggest problem.

You guys,

We don't understand quite how God is working through us and we,

We get scared and upset.

So yeah,

Sweetie pie,

It's for you to understand that you've got a vulnerability maybe around somatizing that maybe you see in others around you where,

You know,

Oh,

The body's acting up.

So what's hostage to the body when really we just actually have to feel our feelings often and the body will clear up.

Not always,

But a lot.

Okay.

Do you see?

Yes.

That's the spiritual journey is so humbling.

It's like it's signing up to be just humbled.

Yep.

Yeah.

Yes.

Okay.

So you guys,

Again,

I want it's teaching moment now and is ankle swollen,

Swelled.

So I would say if,

If I were Anna,

I would be saying to myself,

Okay,

I've,

I've,

I've missed something because it was going down and it's back up and I would go,

Okay,

I'm,

I'm missing something.

I've,

I,

The universe was sending me info and I missed it.

So it's sending me the flag of my ankles being swollen again.

And so you go,

Okay,

Please show me what's behind this swelling.

Please help me.

Help me go conscious on what's behind the swelling.

But you did that.

You went conscious on what's behind the swelling.

So it's all good.

But just for future,

You guys,

Like premise pseudo is a bit of a,

A private detective about all these things,

You know,

Like Sherlock Holmes,

Like,

You know,

The clue is your,

Your ankles are swelling again.

Okay.

There's a,

There's a problem.

There's something to be figured out to see.

It's,

It's,

I can feel you don't want to take the deeper responsibility.

Sweet one.

I can feel you kind of going like,

I don't want to have to like go be responsible.

I don't want to wake up and have to be responsible like that.

You're trying to stay smaller and asleep.

Can you feel this?

Yes.

Okay.

Okay.

This is where you and I are going to have problems.

So you might think to yourself,

Well,

Do I want another fight with her?

Do I want to step up?

Oh,

My goodness.

Oh,

Listen,

Premise is in full Cali mode.

We have no time.

Listen,

It's,

We have no time.

We need,

We need to be doing this waking up work.

We should have been doing it yesterday,

But at least we can do it today.

There's no maneuvering room.

We have to do it.

Yeah.

I've,

I've actually pushed two people back from the satsangs for some sabbaticals and I will do that.

Yeah.

Because there's no time.

This is coming from the creator,

This toughness.

Yeah.

We've got Los Angeles blazing.

Oh,

There's another story there.

There was a guy who set up a sprinkler system with his hose and some cheap,

Cheap sprinklers and his house was saved.

This is what I mean.

It would have cost him like $25,

$30.

And he saved his house because he saw that he could take action.

It's the same thing with your ankles,

Sweetie.

It's like,

If you see that you can take action and solve the problem of a swelling,

You see that you can solve it.

You can take this inner action.

You can step up to be more responsive to yourself.

And then you don't have to lose your house in a fire if you do that.

You guys,

This is,

This saved people from having to lose their house.

And I'm wondering,

How do people go to work if they've lost their house?

I mean,

I guess they lose their jobs too.

Anna,

You've gone very removed and,

Uh,

Unavailable.

Yeah.

Yeah,

I feel that.

Okay,

So after the satsang,

I want you to listen to it again and see the insanity of resisting this.

Okay.

Okay.

Nobody else can do it.

You have to see the insanity of resisting it.

You know,

You have to think about what you want in life.

Yeah,

I can't do that.

But I'll tell you guys,

We have to shift.

It's like,

Do your best.

I mean,

Don't force it.

Don't push yourself.

But it is the last call of the last call.

Yeah.

And when that rings in your ears,

You'll find that you learn how to walk a lot faster than if you think that there's just endless time.

Sometimes as children,

We were so unacknowledged for who we are that it can feel scary to come forward with the truth of us to be in truth.

But that's where,

That's where the,

That's the hero's journey.

You just,

You just come forward because you want to serve the collective.

You,

You don't want people suffering like you've suffered.

And you,

You just want to help people.

And so you walk through whatever you have to walk through.

It's like,

Swami Ji would sing this bhajan where he'd say that,

You know,

He'd take a thousand lives to be near Amma,

You know?

And when he sings it,

You really feel that he would.

It was kind of like that.

I've probably scared you all,

But I don't know,

You know,

I mean,

I've been facing people who've been fighting with me and it's like,

Why would somebody fight with me?

Like,

What's the point?

You know?

We're all human,

But you have to be,

Think about where we're going,

Where you want to go.

And you have to pick up your own cross,

You know,

That Christian image to pick up your cross and walk forward.

You're responsible for your wounding.

You're responsible to heal your wounding.

Nobody else can do it.

The thing is,

You know,

You can have other lifetimes and try again.

You know,

In the East,

They talk about that.

The thing you need is a authentic teacher and the desire to grow.

You need both those things.

So,

One doesn't work.

You can have a teacher,

And if you don't want to grow,

That won't work.

And if you want to grow and you don't have a good teacher,

That doesn't work well.

You need both.

Somebody else want to come forward?

I'm probably scared you all.

I don't know.

I was thinking of you,

Michael,

And I was hoping that you didn't go after this breakthrough.

Oh,

Then I've got it now.

It's also now,

Because it's ongoing now,

And it's like step by step by step,

Right?

Do you feel that I did that?

Well,

It's been what you've done in the past.

It's been a serious vulnerability.

So,

I just wanted to check with you.

Yeah.

Yeah.

I don't think so this time.

I had some nice experiences when I was meditating,

And I think I felt more compassion for,

You know,

My own journey,

As you said.

And I guess,

Well,

In a way,

Almost a reference for the journey I was on.

And I was feeling,

You know,

Reference for God.

It was,

You know,

It was a couple of times.

It wasn't every day.

Other days that I was meditating was just,

Yeah,

It was just,

You know,

I wasn't going any deeper.

I,

You know,

Didn't feel it.

But anyway,

I hope I wasn't doing it.

Um,

Sweetie,

We just do your best.

It's like,

Remember,

It's,

You know,

It's,

There's some days that are off,

We,

You know,

We might even meditate for a month and not feel like we're making any headway.

But then,

You know,

One day,

The next month,

There's a huge breakthrough.

It's just important to keep doing them no matter what is meditate,

You guys do do your practices.

And,

You know,

Don't,

Don't judge yourself and go,

Oh,

I'm doing it.

Oh,

I'm feeling a bit of compassion.

It's like,

You know,

Just really want to wake up.

And,

You know,

I just,

I just noticed it,

Because I want to remember it to journal it.

And then,

You know,

I try and keep it,

You know,

In mind,

Because I find some of these experiences,

I touch them.

And then I feel them in the moment.

And then it's hard to put into words,

Unless it's like a dream when you wake up,

What did I what did I stop,

Stop,

Stop,

Stop.

Okay.

Okay,

So keep your journal next to you and write a few words like,

Come on,

Then,

Like,

This is what you guys do,

You'll go,

There's somebody who said to me,

Oh,

I can't journal,

Because I can't even begin to,

To,

It's so it's too much to write.

And it's like,

If she doesn't get it out in paper,

She's going to circulate round with her head.

And she's going to make no progress.

Yeah.

So I'm just do it.

Michael,

Keep your journal near you.

And write down your experiences.

Right after.

Yeah.

Or put it on your phone.

And transcribe it.

You see,

You guys,

This is my big,

This is the biggest problem I find in working with you is you have to have the will to do it.

Yeah.

And people have the will to do it,

Just do it like the guy with the sprinklers.

He just put the sprinklers up.

He probably didn't talk about it.

He didn't give sermons about it.

He probably just did it.

And his house survived.

These things I'm telling you,

The information is,

There's no dogma in it is exactly like what works.

And if you do it,

You will move faster than if you make excuses.

None of us like being told what to do.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And Westerners were,

I mean,

Amma says it in one of her Awakened Children books,

She says,

Westerners,

It's really hard for us to go inside,

Like our whole conditioning is to stay outside.

So when you,

When you're getting teaching,

It's saying turn inside,

There's the whole resistance of your whole life.

And this isn't how we do things here in the West.

Yeah,

I get that.

But you have been doing this 40 years.

I don't have any more time,

You guys.

I don't think the world is any time.

Yeah.

You know,

It's just like what Franco is saying.

It's just when the rocks in your heart that are making it hard for you to follow this or open your heart when they,

Start to melt,

When there's a shift.

And you've,

You know,

The universe just gives you a way for your heart to open and it can happen any way.

And then when your heart opens,

All this stuff will get much easier.

Yeah,

It gets much easier,

It gets much easier to sit down and meditate,

Write in your journal.

You know,

I have so much compassion for you guys,

But understand,

You see,

I can't indulge you because that's not going to help you at all.

You know?

You guys,

You see,

Sometimes we got such ignorance of the journey that we think the spiritual journey is different than moral behavior.

So,

You know,

We think that,

You know,

I'm doing my meditation,

You know,

So if I'm just stepping over somebody who's lying in the street,

It's okay,

Because I'm just,

You know,

I'm doing my practices.

I mean,

This is how weird the journey can get.

And this is to remind you,

It's a total thing.

It's in every aspect of the way you live your life,

How you are with everybody.

How even,

I'll tell you,

Even buying a pair of shoes,

Whether you buy a pair of shoes and you take care of comfort and beauty,

Whether you express self-love through the shoes that you choose,

That's it.

You know,

The bluer,

The more depressed I felt,

The more I would smile and hold doors open for people because it would,

I would feel better.

It's funny,

I feel a really big kind of like demon energy,

Isn't it funny?

Who's like,

Is it be sitting on all of you?

And it's just ego.

Okay.

Demons,

You guys are just ego.

They're subtle egos.

They're not real.

Okay.

But I'm going to remove this guy.

And really,

He's on everybody.

Just feels he's on everybody.

Everybody's suffering from this.

Yeah.

So he's being,

I'm calling on Amma.

I'm going to help this guy.

And he's kind of like,

I'll tell you,

He's kind of sitting there.

He's,

He's fat.

He's ignorant.

He's,

He's,

He's not like so much mean as he's just kind of fat,

Like really,

Really overweight.

Really,

Really not taking care of his body.

Really,

Really dense thinking.

No light.

I mean,

There's nothing wrong with being overweight.

This guy,

It's just like,

He's just this big kind of blob of ignorance.

Okay.

It's that.

And he's sitting on everybody.

So it's everybody's issue in the,

In the fat thing.

And it's what I've been banging into.

And it will be,

You know,

It's a,

This is also premasutra going higher.

Like everything is one,

You guys,

You know,

Everything's one.

Yeah.

But he's being sent on his way on the herd.

He's being packed up.

He was keeping you kind of feeling safe and staying kind of ignorant,

Rather than what I'm saying to you,

Which is safety is in really waking up and smelling the coffee and like putting sprinkler systems in your house if you live in a fire zone.

Or if you think it's safe to stay in your old ego programs,

It's not.

Okay.

It's interesting.

He's trying to come back,

But he's not being allowed to.

Good.

No spiritual seeker,

A true one,

Would say that they voted for somebody because everybody else did,

Or people they respected did.

No seeker,

Real seeker would say that.

Because a real seeker would only vote for the person who they felt deeply was the right person.

They'd have to look,

A real seeker would look inside their heart and decide who to vote for.

So sometimes the collective,

You know,

Escape hatches that we use to not to avoid taking responsibility,

They're not going to work with this one.

Because this is waking up work,

It's friendly,

But yeah.

So this guy has gone.

I mean,

I can't even say he was a guy.

And I'm going to put something in place so that he can't come back.

But,

You know,

Stay awake.

Okay,

You guys,

Stay awake.

Be aware.

Does anybody feel a difference with this at all?

Lavanya,

You do?

Yeah.

Corinne,

Good.

Good.

Yeah,

Good.

Franka,

Good.

Trilla Chen,

Good.

Good,

Good,

Good.

Good.

Yeah,

Yeah.

Okay,

Good.

Yeah.

You know,

I feel a difference.

Like,

What a relief to get rid of that guy.

Trilla Chen,

How are you doing,

Dear one?

How am I doing?

Wow.

Not an easy one to answer.

I mean,

This.

.

.

Okay,

Stop for a minute.

Stop.

Yeah.

Maybe it's easier than you think.

Okay.

Okay.

You know,

It's three weeks now with this whole process of the back,

Back pain.

It's slowly increasing.

Yeah.

But it's interesting,

It's changing.

The pain is really changing,

Or the contraction.

It's more a contraction rather than a massive pain.

Right.

I think the process is keep on going,

That I'm much more in acceptance,

Going deeper in my prayers,

Sometimes,

Sometimes not,

Sometimes yes,

Depending on how I'm feeling.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And less and less wanting to fix it or control it,

As you call it,

Less.

I mean,

It's sometimes the old patterns obviously show up.

And,

You know,

I was this week with the osteopath,

But it's,

It's,

Yeah,

It's,

It's reducing itself.

Well,

It's good to go to the osteopath if he can help,

You know,

It's good.

Yeah.

I mean,

I think it's,

It helped to some good level.

Yeah.

And so the process keeps on going.

And it's interesting today is the very first time that I went to the German ashram since a good number of weeks.

It was an unusual long break because December was a really,

There were always something going on where I needed to stay with myself.

Now this whole back issue.

So it's beautiful to be back here.

But I think my changed somehow.

I'm really,

I'm really looking much more for myself,

Taking care of my own needs in terms of Siva,

Because,

You know,

It's so easy around Ahmad to be,

You know,

Fully,

Fully busy.

And it's still not an easy one because my week was still busy because I can work normally,

But I think something has really shifted in me.

And I cannot put it into real words.

Even though I feel it,

I feel it.

I think also my yoga classes this week,

Something shifted.

I don't know if I want to put words to it.

It's somehow more,

More softer,

More general,

More,

I don't know what it is.

That's what I've been wanting to hear.

This,

This for the shifts you made to get translated so that they help free other people.

That's it.

Yeah.

Good.

It's good.

In terms of subtle.

Yeah,

It is quite subtle.

Yeah.

Yeah.

I mean,

It's also a lot of responsibility drop from myself when I step back from the supervising Siva where I'm still doing a lot of Siva,

Even more Siva than usual,

Because we're still in handover periods and all that.

And still I have to drive some projects forward,

Which is very time consuming.

I would love to do less.

It's hard at the moment,

But somehow I feel lighter because,

You know,

At least final responsibility is gone.

It will be gone in some time.

So yeah,

It's,

I can feel it.

It's good.

Yeah.

It's good.

It's good.

This is the changes have been occurring in the being energy.

So when we make a change in the being energy,

It changes how we do things and everything gets lighter and easier.

We get more in the flow.

And for Westerners,

Like sometimes I have to put pressure on you to come out of doing and come into the being more.

So that's I've done with you to the champ,

But this is it.

This is great.

And once you realize that this way of living is available,

You can keep going there and making it bigger and stronger,

Giving over more.

Yeah.

You're hesitant.

You're kind of like,

I can feel it.

It's kind of like,

Yeah,

It's kind of like,

Well,

I've changed enough.

That's good enough.

And I'm like,

I don't want to watch it more.

Yeah.

This is,

This is the last call of the last call.

You guys,

I hope you have dreams about this.

The last call of the last call,

Please.

Please.

Nice dreams.

But yeah,

You know,

If,

If all of us shifted more into our hearts,

The wars would stop.

You know,

I was thinking about LA and the city of angels and the seed thought every,

Every,

Uh,

Every place on earth has got a seed thought of what it was formed in.

So this was something,

Some information that I got very interested in years ago.

So one of the things with the seed thought in India is patience.

It's a very patient country.

If you think about it,

You have to be,

Because it got like a billion people,

Everybody's speaking different languages.

You have to be right.

But Los Angeles,

I remember it was running from something running.

People are running away.

And,

You know,

It's so interesting.

And then the burning,

It's sort of like what happens in to us psychologically,

That if we're running away from ourselves,

We will walk into a spiritual fire that will then help us burn the ego away so that we can accept ourselves more,

Stop running,

Face ourselves.

Yeah.

And we're getting it played out right in front of us.

And interesting,

Just this is trivial.

San Francisco is the seed thought was like gold,

Right?

Gold rush.

So actually,

If you want to get rich,

It's a really good city to go to.

People get rich very quickly in San Francisco.

Isn't that funny?

Yeah.

You see,

It's so much deeper than we realize that we often don't even acknowledge this level of existence.

You know,

I'm always talking about how in the satsangs,

How the trees,

When we come to them,

Because we don't speak their language,

They quiver in fear when we approach them,

Because they're scared that we're going to chop them down or pull their leaves off.

Because we don't know their language.

You see,

This work is to help open you to the language of nature and the language of the heart,

So you can,

When you walk forward,

Mother Nature,

The trees aren't scared of you.

There's stories like spiritual masters,

I don't know,

Probably this has happened with Amma,

Where you know,

A spiritual master walks through in midwinter and the tree blossoms,

You know,

Because they feel the love and the spiritual master is speaking their language.

We're so out of touch,

You guys.

So don't hold on to your egos,

Your out-of-touch egos,

You know.

Yeah,

It feels safer,

But it isn't.

You know,

Really,

Mother Nature,

Really,

These wild storms,

If we all meditated,

They'd all quiet down.

And the simplicity,

I just have to say again about those guys that saved their houses,

This is how simple it is to take an action.

We've all been taught to,

It's what Eric,

My son,

Used to say,

To come in,

Sit down,

And shut up.

We've all been taught this.

Just to obey the rules.

So we obey the rules to the point of insanity.

And actually,

There were no rules saying that people couldn't set up their own private watering system on their houses,

But people are just so used to being so passive,

They didn't realize they could do it.

They didn't realize they were allowed to.

This is what this work is,

Helping you realize that you're allowed to come into your heart,

And it's safe to.

And,

You know,

Our child self will think that if we don't,

If we're stepping forward and paying attention to the information coming to us,

That we're going to get in trouble,

But it's the opposite.

People will respect you,

They'll feel what you're doing,

And you'll feel that people listen to you.

And they respect you for the way you're living your life.

So,

Michael,

You're not doing anything wrong.

There's something,

Though,

Between us which is kind of like,

You know,

Sometimes you,

And you do this much less than what you used to.

You used to really aim towards how Premasuda was going to react.

And to please Premasuda,

You're getting much better about remembering that it's your journey.

Yeah.

Yeah.

That's it.

And that will get the most praise from Premasuda.

And we've all got these,

I mean,

I would do that,

Too.

I mean,

I remember doing that.

So,

It's just human.

It's just being aware and self-correcting.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Blessings.

And I,

You know,

You guys are all so precious.

I don't want to,

I don't want to discourage you or make you feel lesser.

But this is high-level work,

You guys.

It's not just the garden variety of spiritual training.

Right.

Okay,

Good.

Okay,

Good.

Interesting.

This is helping you.

It's like there's some light coming to you now.

There's some golden light.

Mm-hmm.

Where this ignorant doughboy was sitting.

It's like,

Since he's gone now,

There's this golden light coming to you all.

This is it.

It's your soul energy.

It's coming to you.

Yeah.

And it will inform your cells.

You know,

That's such a great,

Amma's petal meditation is such a good meditation to do.

Because one of the things is,

You know,

You're thinking about all the cells of your body being informed by your soul.

And that it's like a sparkler.

You know,

Think of a sparkler that you light for Halloween,

That that's going on in your cells of your body as you let your soul energy in.

Yeah,

And it purifies.

And that's really why spiritual people often look younger,

Or if they don't look younger,

They've got more energy,

You know,

Their bodies are functioning.

Although sometimes they can be sick with taking on things for people.

So there's no,

But often there's a,

Like Krishnamurti,

J Krishnamurti was like giving satsangs till he was like 97 or something,

You know.

Look at Amma,

She's like 40 million people and she's still hugging.

It's like,

Oh my goodness.

Yep.

Yeah,

There's a lot of light coming in.

You know,

You did something very important during this question and answer.

It was a bit uncomfortable.

But I'll tell you,

This dough boy is long gone.

And it's as if there's this golden,

Golden light that's coming in behind you.

Yeah.

And you made room for it.

You made room for it.

Yeah.

And you're getting better about letting me correct you without being too decimated,

So it's good.

It's good.

I feel like I'm,

I'm training Sherpas,

You know,

To climb Everest,

You know.

I kind of,

Training a crack team of Sherpa,

Sherpas to help other people up.

Really?

Yeah.

It's true.

Yeah.

Think like this.

This is,

This is what,

You guys,

This is what works,

This kind of thinking.

And when you're thinking in that big way,

You can,

It gives you,

You can correct without feeling like,

Oh,

I'm doing it wrong.

You just correct.

You're like,

Ah,

I really want to help out here.

Yeah.

Very beautiful.

Yeah.

That's it.

That's it.

Some of you are feeling some real peace.

Don't feel bad if you're not.

You'll feel it later if you're not feeling it now.

But it's some real peace.

It's like,

Yeah,

I can go home.

The way home is clear.

It's not so hard.

I'm good enough the way I am.

That's it.

That's it.

That's it.

That's it.

That's it.

That's it.

It's interesting.

There's even some angelic,

Some angelic movement.

It's like,

Actually,

There's some,

Even some angels have come to some of you to help you.

There's no limit on the amount of grace that we can take in and allow.

There's no limit.

It's a gradual process.

It's often messy.

You're very,

Very beautiful,

You guys.

I'm going to surround you all in huge love and blessings.

This work has been off the charts,

You guys.

This is fantastic.

And remember,

It's just drip by drip,

And it all adds up.

It all adds up,

Drip by drip.

Thank you.