Freedom is Full of Joy Talk + Meditation

You you you you you you you making sure that all around is quiet and conducive to meditation meditation just making sure all is quiet and still so that this moment can be appreciated in meditation making sure that if there are any technologies or devices that you have making sure that they are turned off so that there is a moment of stillness so that you appreciate this transmission from a state of receptivity perhaps just breathing in and breathing out,

Relaxing the shoulders letting go of mundane thoughts and mundane activities and just breathing in in such a way where you are receptive to energy and the energy of the transmission letting go of any tension,

Letting go of any thoughts or feelings that create tension,

Stress,

Anxiety just coming back to the body,

Making sure the body is present and grounded within this state of openness or receptivity that allows for energy to flow,

The breath to flow,

For energy to flow for the space to be wonderfully still and wonderfully quiet,

Open and receptive as you let go of the mundane stresses and the mundane thoughts that create stresses and the mundane activities that may create tension or anxiety,

Feelings and thoughts that accumulate around those activities just as you let them go,

It's important to create a clear intention within your practice,

Within the meditational practice and sometimes the word intention is misunderstood,

We understand it to be create another thought or be more clear about the flow of our thinking or force a better thought to replace perhaps a thought that isn't so conducive to our well-being or better ourselves.

Intention in its truest sense has more to do with making a decision so an intention isn't an activity that is static,

It's not my intention for 2017 is to eat less or to exercise a little bit more it's not a static list of things that would help you feel better or perhaps create a better lifestyle or perhaps create a lifestyle that's conducive to not being as stressed or anxious about various activities that are just part of mundane living intention is more about creating a clear focus that allows you to in that moment to be clear enough so that a decision is made from a conscious space from a conscious understanding of your experience,

From a conscious space that understands what is going on that understands what's going on so you're not reacting to what is going on but rather a decision comes from a space of clarity and most of us don't function in this way,

Most of us make decisions all the time but they are not decisions that are taken from conscious perspective of or understanding of the world,

Of ourselves or of other people or of other situations,

Just it's an auto-response type decision so we're used to making all sorts of decisions,

Good ones and bad ones,

Ones that are helpful and ones that aren't helpful ones that are connected to old belief systems and we just have gotten used to making decisions from such a space reacting or falling into specific roles,

Victim roles or not good enough roles and making decisions or making some sort of decision from that space and so manifesting our experience of reality from a decision that we've made,

We have made the decision but a decision that is not conscious,

A decision that is limited to aspects of ourselves or the way we perceive the world or the way that we've understood the world or the way that we still understand the world that limits our perspective so it's not really a decision I would call that more a manipulation by the forces that you're not conscious of within yourself or around you that have the freedom to manipulate your perspective in a certain way that creates what seems like your own,

Very own decisions so intention is not that type of decision where you're just okay I'm free enough to now go to the fridge,

Open the fridge and eat all the cakes that are in the fridge because that's what is my decision,

I've decided to eat all those cakes and I feel good about it or so you say or so you believe while you're eating the cakes and then later on you think to yourself why did I go to the fridge,

Was it really me walking to the fridge or was there some sort of inner force that was compelling me or driving me to eat those cakes and perhaps I don't really know what that force is it just felt or seemed like the right thing to do in that moment,

It seemed like I was free enough to do those things,

At least I have cakes in the fridge to eat some people don't and that's what they want,

They want something and so it's true on some level they want something and they don't even know what they want because what they believe that they want for example symbolised by the cakes is just a subconscious manipulation that is driving them to want something the subconscious is driving the person to want something that isn't really what they want just like going to the fridge perhaps what was driving you to,

Driving the person,

You,

Anyone to go to the fridge and open the fridge and eat those cakes was an addiction,

Subconscious addiction,

Perhaps you're addicted to sugar,

It's said that sugar is a very addictive substance eating,

Emotional eating is a very difficult aspect of our behaviour but is that a true decision that we make from a conscious space or is it a reactive decision that is just on auto response so we're going to the fridge because really we're not wanting to make a clear decision within ourselves to perhaps understand what is going on to understand what is behind the lack that drives us to fill that lack with for example cakes that are in the fridge doesn't have to be that we go to the fridge,

I mean this is just a,

This is just like a picture that I'm putting out there for you to understand that sometimes the cakes are not really cakes sometimes they're certain behaviour patterns or certain ways of thinking or feeling that help us to satisfy that immediate need for a reactive process we're reacting to the situation by eating cakes or by perhaps playing the victim wrong or perhaps by saying to ourselves okay I make the decision to do this because then I will feel better but this that we're deciding upon is not really coming from a state of freedom but it's coming from a state of reactivity,

A state of desire,

Need to work with whatever it is the issue is but in a way that doesn't actually help you to understand the issue,

It just helps you to control the issue so eating the cake helps you to control that urge or that emptiness or that sense of stress or that sense of anxiety or that emotional lack and the lack of emotional understanding or emotional intelligence I call it whereby it's easier to eat the cake that's in the fridge than to sit and meditate and to be conscious and receptive and make a true decision to look at what is going on rather than just react and eat the cakes,

Everyone does this and it's called freedom I want to be free enough to do all that I want to do but what do you want to do?

Are you really wanting to do those things or is it just some force within yourself that is unconscious to,

Subconscious is unconscious it makes you,

It mails your perception of what's going on and that is what's driving you and you're saying I'm free because I'm giving that aspect of myself the freedom to manipulate me to be in a state of reactivity,

Now if you don't believe that this is who you are because you've created this image of yourself and we always do this,

This is what is known as the ego,

That you are this or that you are that I'm the perfect person,

I'm the wise person,

I'm the good person,

I'm the this person,

I'm the that person and you identify with your egoic role then sometimes the ego is somehow a secret spy somehow playing this game where it says to you one thing but it's really communicating to another level of yourself so it's saying to your mind yes,

You're a good person,

You're the best,

You're this,

You're that then the ego is communicating to that other aspect of yourself,

Perhaps the person that is a victim to their own feelings or the person inside of yourself that doesn't feel good enough and saying you know I'm speaking to this part of you that is playing this role and I'm supporting it because I'm the ego and I always support these roles when they don't have any substance,

They don't have any depth or understanding of the situation and really I understand you,

The victim or you,

The not good enough role that needs to be maintained or needs to be strengthened through this aspect of yourself that is the ego that supports all sorts of roles so you're not really being truthful,

You're not being real,

You're simply playing out roles and hence why reactivity happens so one minute you're this,

One minute you're that and if the two meet for example if the role of the victim realizes oh,

Something is pushing my buttons,

Something is not right here because I really don't want to feel this because it's painful to feel this and lose perspective of the world that I'm used to and so then I'll react and create all sorts of situations where there are auto responses and one of the reactions could be just going to the fridge and saying okay I don't want to feel this pain,

I don't want to feel this suffering,

I don't want to feel this confusion inside of myself let me fall back into my addiction,

Eating,

Materialism,

There are so many,

The ones that you really have to be clear about so that you can make a true decision in the moment when you are in meditation or when you are receptive the ones that you really need to be clear about are the ones that involve you,

Not the world it's so easy to say to yourself okay I will never go to the fridge and eat that cake,

It's not so easy of course we know that addiction is hard work but at least you have some reference,

Something that you can see something tangible that's there that you can actually work with but when it comes to roles that you're playing within yourself it's not so tangible,

It's not so obvious and it's very easy to fall into your identification with the ego or one specific role that the ego is playing with you,

The game that's being played out as your personality or one aspect of your personality and fall into that space of your personality for example I'm not good enough and get caught by it and lose perspective so that that is the perspective that you understand the world from rather than the perspective that sees beyond that and understands that's just one aspect of reality that's one role that you're playing but it's not really who you are,

It's a part of who you are and of course it's important to acknowledge but it's not truly who you are,

You know this but how can you know this if you're identifying with that role where in that moment you don't feel that and you don't sense that you are more than just the victim so then the solution is always to supplement your experience with an experience that helps to manage the experience that you're going through so whether that be eating cakes or playing out different roles that have nothing to do with you so being not truthful to yourself and not truthful to the world or whether it be emotional states,

Negative thought patterns or whether it be actual ways of interacting with the world that are in themselves based on the negativity that you're identifying as part of yourself so sadness or aggression or depression or irritation or miscommunication it's all part of that egoic realm that in the end has only one reference and that is your ego if you can step beyond that then of course you're making a very different decision than the decisions that most people make that is a very powerful thing to realize in your meditation that you're free enough to make a decision because you're making decisions all the time even though most of those decisions are reactive decisions or decisions coming from a level of understanding that is not conscious of complete space of reality it's just one aspect of your perception,

You're still making decisions so if you teach yourself in meditation,

In practice to create and make decisions from a very different space from a space where you are actually trusting yourself on a deeper level trusting yourself from the perspective where you know your potential is real and you trust that potential and you know even if it's not tangible in the moment of your experience even if what you feel doesn't correspond to this knowledge of potentiality within yourself if you make a decision in that moment to let go of the mundane and reach out for your potential then you've made a decision which is a clear intention of how you're going to continue your practice and that decision can be one of the most important decisions you make in your life because when you begin to create those decisions from a conscious space then you become more comfortable with being receptive to your potentiality rather than reacting to your negativity or your perceived negativity or the negativity that's manifest around you because of your perception of negativity and being receptive to your potentiality requires more than just making a clear decision in this way it requires emotional impact so it's no good one minute saying okay this is what I decide and then the emotional impact that's behind there sabotages your decision you know okay I'm not going to eat that cake but the emotional addiction is still there driving you still there creating space of conflict or a space of I want the cake you know and becomes like more a battle within yourself rather than a joyous emotional celebration of such a decision see happiness and joy when understood emotionally allows for the decision the conscious decision that you make to have a real tangible meaning within this moment it will create a sense of I understand what is going on so when we make a decision we need to smile okay I've made this you know if you go around okay it was a hard decision but I'm going to and then you're still allowing for the ego to feed you that emotional negative energy that okay you know it's really hard but I've made the decision I've made there is no decision that can be supported when the emotional nurture that's behind it is a negative it's like having a little baby and saying okay I love you and then just feeling all frustrated and upset that the baby's not allowing you to sleep or the baby needs their nappies changed there won't be any fun in the decision and so the decision will be very short in duration you know you'll either say you'll either find someone else to look after your baby or you'll feel frustrated you say oh can you please look after my baby and this is too much work your baby is the freedom to decide from a conscious space if you don't embrace that from a space of joy where you can nurture the baby with wow it's a miracle life is a miracle look at this there is another human being here that I'm holding and I can hold from a space of complete love or I can hold the baby from a space of complete understanding of what love means and communicate this love to the baby in the moment and be nurtured by this communication because of course you're nurtured by this communication but more importantly nurture a baby this decision from this communication so that what you're feeding your decision with is the conscious alignment that happens when it is clear to you that the mundane negative limited belief system the victim the for me role that creates reactivity is an interesting aspect of life but it is not reality and you align yourself with reality what is reality?

It is the potentiality of your experience and that is the freedom that we can choose the freedom means that we understand that nothing in the world is set in stone everything is possible whatever we do there is an unexpected situation that will pop up and show us that this experience has more meaning more purpose than the one that we sometimes like to hold on to that life is unexpected and the baby will grow and the baby will show us and teach us things about ourselves from a new perspective that we could never understand without stepping into a space of freedom where we nurture the decision or the baby from space of love rather than from a space of negativity if we continue to hold on to the negative we continue to reach out for those cakes in the fridge or to nurture the victim role within ourselves or to play out the egoic game that play out in life the egoic game that we are used to or that we don't even know that we are playing but subconsciously we are playing out within ourselves or within certain constellations around us then that is what you choose we are free to choose everything out there is chaotic and the chaos in itself is beautiful and has meaning but if we get caught in one perspective of the chaos then that is what happens within our experience it becomes chaotically limited to that one perspective but actually within the universe even though it is infinitely more complex than any mind can understand there is a pattern of alignment that is called consciousness and as we learn that that is the freedom that we can choose as we understand that through practice that is the freedom that we can choose rather than get so limited by the egoic roles that usually most of us stress and feel anxious about and keep reacting to then the potentiality of your being becomes part of the flow of your experience and your freedom naturally is full of joy and bliss just like a mother naturally feels the joy and bliss of what it means to be a mother holding a baby so as you breathe in and breathe out relaxing letting go of the mundane letting go of all the little worries all those little worries that create certain thoughts and feelings and coming back to the space of freedom breathing in and breathing out letting go just breathing in such in such a free way that the breath is beautiful the breath is like the universe the universe breathes with you every breath becomes a breath of consciousness as we listen to the who mantra as we open up to the vibration of receptility within in our practice today every step is a step of remembrance that you are free to create a choice within yourself right now that decision is your decision and it is wonderful to be so free the vibration of the who mantra helps to create more space helps to create sense of alignment that allows you to be more focused so that you can appreciate and nurture the space from consciousness thank you you you you you you you