Words From My Higher Self: Part 2

Welcome back to the Seeker and the Sage,

My friends.

A space for the ones who've been cracked open by life and chose to turn their pain into purpose.

My name is Harrison.

I'm a breathwork facilitator,

A coach,

And a man who has been through the fire.

Addiction,

Heartbreak,

Self-destruction,

Silence,

And everything in between.

I don't speak from a mountaintop.

No,

I speak from the middle of the storm that I've learned to dance in.

This podcast isn't about self-help cliches or pretending that I've got all the answers,

Not even close.

This is a transmission,

A remembering,

A space for truth,

Transformation,

And the kind of healing that begins not with fixing,

But with feeling.

And what you'll hear today in this episode is a collection of insights,

10 notes channeled from the spaces between my own evolution.

These came through stillness and chaos and breath,

The fragments of the soul speaking clearly when the mind finally quiets down.

I wrote them not to impress,

But to remind you,

You're not broken,

My friend.

You are becoming.

Here's what we're diving into today.

First up,

Why peace isn't the absence of thought,

But the end of inner warfare.

Why honesty isn't just noble,

It's magnetic.

Why there's no deadline for becoming who you already are.

What it means to treat pause as a prayer.

What real strength looks like when no one's watching.

How nervous system healing makes your dreams more reachable.

Why feeling stuck might mean you're exactly where you need to be.

The courage it takes to surrender,

The truth about expectations and giving,

And finally,

How every challenge is preparing you for what you're meant to carry.

So if you feel lost,

Overwhelmed,

Cracked open,

Or just hungry for something real,

This episode is for you.

Let's walk into the quiet together.

Let's remember.

Let's begin.

Quote number one for the day.

Peace isn't the absence of thoughts or feelings.

It's no longer going to war with them.

Peace is not a place I reach.

It's a practice I become.

All right,

Let's break this one down.

What does this mean?

Most people think peace means having no thoughts,

No anxiety,

No emotions pulling at you,

But that's not peace.

That's what I would call numbness.

That's just avoidance dressed up to look like stillness.

I like that.

For me,

Real peace started when I stopped trying to control everything going on in my mind and just started making space for it.

The thoughts didn't disappear.

The feelings didn't stop.

I just stopped fighting them.

I stopped going to war with myself every time something uncomfortable came up.

I stopped being a traffic policeman in my own mind.

Just let it run.

Peace isn't about escaping your internal world.

It's about learning how to sit with it without needing to fix,

Control,

Or run.

That's when everything shifted because suddenly I wasn't chasing peace like it was some mountaintop I had to reach.

I started practicing it like a moment by moment,

Breath by breath.

That's what I want you to take from this.

You don't have to wait until your mind is quiet or your heart feels calm to be at peace.

Peace is how you meet those parts of yourself.

It's how you gently show up.

If you're thinking a million different things right now or feeling like a storm inside you,

That doesn't mean you fail.

It might just mean you're in the middle of learning what peace actually is.

And maybe today that looks like putting down the sword.

Next up,

Being honest is always interesting.

Now this one might sound simple at first,

But it's one of those truths that hits deeper the more you sit with it.

You see,

We've all been taught to say the right thing,

Right?

To be polished,

Agreeable,

Inoffensive.

But you know what really connects people though?

Honesty does.

Not rehearsed honesty,

Not a mask,

But real,

Authentic honesty.

The kind that's a little messy,

A little vulnerable,

And a little scary to say out loud.

But when you tell the truth,

Specifically your truth,

Something happens.

The air changes.

People lean in.

Even if they don't agree with you,

They feel you.

And that feeling,

That's what we're starving for in this world.

Realness.

Depth.

Something that cuts through the surface level noise.

I've noticed in my own life,

Whether it's in coaching or relationships or just simple day-to-day conversations,

The moment I stop trying to impress and start telling the truth,

People open up.

They drop their guard and the space becomes alive.

So yeah,

Being honest is always interesting because the truth has a vibration to it.

You don't need big words or perfect timing.

No,

You just need truth.

Just you showing up without the mask.

And here's the thing,

My friends.

Even if your truth is,

I don't know,

Or I'm struggling,

Or I feel lost right now,

That's still real.

And real is so magnetic.

So if you're feeling disconnected,

Maybe try this.

Don't try to say the right thing.

Say the true thing.

That's where the real conversation starts.

All right.

Quote number three.

There is no deadline for becoming who I already am.

What does that even mean?

Well,

We live in a world that's constantly screaming at us to hurry up.

Be healed.

Be successful.

Be clear.

Be productive.

Ah,

Right?

And if you're not,

You feel like you're behind,

Right?

Like you've missed some invisible finish line everyone else seems to have crossed.

But here's what this line reminds me of.

You can't be late for a path that's yours.

And there is no deadline for becoming who you already are at your core.

So that version of you,

You know,

The one you're chasing,

The one you're striving for,

The one that you're trying to grow into.

That's not some future fantasy,

My friend.

That's your essence.

That's already in you.

And the work,

It's not about becoming someone new.

It's about remembering who you've always been beneath the fear,

Beneath the noise,

The trauma,

And the programming.

And here's where it gets even more real.

This quote is giving you permission to slow the hell down.

To breathe.

To trust your timing.

To realize that just because something hasn't happened yet doesn't mean it's not on the way.

You're not running out of time,

My friend.

You're ripening.

So the next time you feel like you're behind or not enough,

Pause.

You're not on a clock.

You're on a path.

And every breath you take in awareness brings you closer to the version of you that's been waiting with open arms.

Next up,

Strength isn't how loud you burn.

It's how deeply you stay.

So this one changed the way I see myself.

We're taught that strength is fire,

Right?

It's loud.

It's visible.

It's undeniable.

It's the grind.

It's the hustle.

But that's not the type of strength that saved my life.

Real strength,

It's not how bright you shine.

It's how grounded you stay when everything around you is falling apart.

It's how deeply you stay.

That line speaks to the version of me,

Excuse me,

That used to run.

That used to run from pain,

From discomfort,

From silence,

From vulnerability.

I thought strength was just pushing and plowing through,

Showing no weakness,

Staying on no matter what.

But I've learned that the strongest thing I've ever done was stay.

Stay with the breath when my ego begged me to quit.

Stay with grief when I wanted to know it out.

Stay with someone I loved instead of shutting down.

Stay with myself through all of it.

Because staying requires presence.

It requires a nervous system capacity.

It requires a love for yourself that doesn't need to prove anything to anyone.

Now,

You don't have to burn loud to be powerful,

My friends.

Sometimes your quiet,

Steady flame is exactly what the world and you need.

So I want you to ask yourself,

Can I stay with what's here?

Not fix it,

Not escape it,

Just stay.

That's strength,

My friend.

That's sovereignty.

That's the fire that never dies.

Okay,

Next up.

As we regulate the nervous system,

The things we put off become easier to begin.

So this one hits home for me because I used to beat myself up so badly for procrastinating.

I'd say things like,

Why can't I just start this?

Like,

I know I need to do this.

Why can't I do it?

But here's the truth that nobody tells you.

When your nervous system is highly dysregulated,

When you're in fight,

Flight,

Or freeze mode,

A state of sympathetic nervous system activation,

It doesn't matter how smart you are,

How badly you want it,

Your body won't let you begin.

So it's not about laziness.

It's not about lack of motivation.

Truthfully,

It's about safety.

See,

When your body doesn't feel safe,

It's not going to prioritize creativity,

Production,

Or growth.

It's going to prioritize survival.

That means it'll shut down your focus,

Drain your energy,

And will even make simple tasks feel overwhelming.

But when you regulate through things like breathwork,

Parasympathetic nervous system activating breathwork,

Cold exposure,

Grounding,

Rest,

Actual rest,

Peace without guilt,

Your nervous system shifts.

You go from chaos to coherence.

And suddenly,

The things you've been putting off,

Well,

They don't really feel like mountains anymore.

They don't feel impossible.

Now they actually feel possible.

You don't need more pressure.

What you need is more presence in this case.

So if you've been feeling stuck,

If you've been avoiding,

If you're feeling frozen,

Don't shame yourself.

Regulate yourself.

Ground,

Come back to the body,

And watch how what once felt impossible just begins to flow after that.

So I'm going to give this to you real quick.

A great way to regulate the nervous system is breathing in through the nose,

Pushing out the belly,

The diaphragm.

So into the belly,

Into the chest.

Hold for a few seconds,

And then do an extremely long exhale out the mouth,

Like 10 seconds long if you can.

Just,

And do that like five,

Six,

Seven times.

You can go on YouTube.

You can find videos how to do this all over YouTube,

All over the internet.

Find something,

Type in nervous system regulating breathwork,

And just go down a rabbit hole with it,

My friends.

You won't regret this.

This type of breathwork saved my life.

Okay,

This kind of goes with the last one we just talked about,

Quote number seven,

Feeling stuck.

What if you're just facing the space between versions of yourself?

I'll have you know that space is quite sacred.

So let me talk to the version of you that feels like nothing's working out right now.

The one who's not where they were,

But also not quite where they want to be.

Oh,

Believe me,

I understand that place so well,

Too well.

That in between space,

I understand that that can feel like a void,

Like something's wrong,

Like you've lost momentum,

You've lost clarity,

Hell,

Like you even lost yourself,

Right?

But what if I told you,

You're not stuck?

You're in transition.

And transition always feels a little chaotic before it becomes clear.

So let's jump back into this quote,

The space between versions of yourself.

That's not a mistake.

That's not a cocoon.

That's a womb of your next becoming,

My friend.

It's sacred because it's where the old you dissolves,

And the new you hasn't formed fully yet.

And yes,

I know this place feels disorienting,

Uncomfortable,

Emotional.

But this space,

It's where integration happens.

It's where your nervous system upgrades take root,

Where clarity begins to.

.

.

How do I word this?

Where clarity quietly starts to grow underneath all of that confusion.

Yes.

And like I've said,

I've been in that space more times than I can count.

And what I've learned is this.

If you can stay with it without rushing,

Numbing,

Judging,

I promise you,

You'll see the magic in it.

So if you're in the pause right now,

First off,

I'm happy for you.

If you feel unclear,

Unmotivated,

Or a little lost,

Get excited.

Maybe you're not lost.

Maybe you're just in the space between.

And maybe that space is exactly where your soul wants you.

Moving on to number eight.

All right.

Here it goes.

Surrender is trusting that whatever happens is for your highest good.

Even if you can't see how it would be.

Surrender is faith,

And faith is courage.

Okay,

What on earth does that mean?

This quote came through during one of the hardest seasons of my life,

Where nothing made sense,

Where I had no answers,

Where all I had left was trust.

And even that felt like a huge gamble.

You know,

I think most people hear the word surrender,

And they think it means giving up,

Like rolling over,

Resigning.

But real surrender,

That's one of the most,

That's one of the most courageous things you'll ever do.

Because surrender says,

I'm not going to force this anymore.

It's,

I'm going to trust the unfolding,

Even when it looks like chaos,

Even when it looks like loss,

Even when it hurts.

So let's dig back into that quote.

Even if you can't see how it would be.

That line right there is where faith lives.

Because real faith shows up when logic taps out.

When the plan falls apart,

When life breaks your heart open,

And you still whisper,

I trust this.

And not because it's easy,

But because your soul knows.

Your soul knows everything that's happening is shaping you.

It's sharpening you.

It's preparing you.

Let's go to the last part of that quote.

Surrender is faith,

And faith is courage.

So to me,

That means choosing trust is an act of bravery.

It's you standing at the edge of the unknown and saying,

I don't need to know how this ends.

I just need to know I won't abandon myself in the process.

So if you're holding on tight right now,

White knuckling the outcome,

Fighting for what is,

Maybe the next move isn't more effort.

Maybe it's surrender.

Not as defeat,

But as a sacred soul-led decision to trust what's becoming.

Okay,

Quote number nine.

When you give with expectation and return,

You lose.

So this one,

This one stung a little the first time it came through.

This one tweaked my ego a little bit.

Because if I'm being honest,

There were times in my life where when I gave from a place that sure it looked like love on the surface,

But underneath,

I was holding a scoreboard.

I expected appreciation,

Validation,

Reciprocation.

And when I didn't get it,

I would feel disappointed.

I'd feel hurt.

I'd feel resentful.

Sound familiar?

That's because I wasn't really giving.

I was trading,

Right?

And here's the truth that quote calls out.

The moment you attach a return to your giving,

Whether it's love,

Energy,

Time,

Money,

It stops being a gift and it becomes a contract.

And let's be real here.

Contracts breed disappointment because people will not always respond the way that you hoped they will.

They might not notice or thank you or love you back the way that you imagined.

And when you give with expectation,

I like to think that you hand your power over to how someone else is going to respond.

But when you give from overflow,

Because it's true for you,

Because it's aligned,

Because it's your essence,

You never lose.

Even if nothing comes back,

That kind of giving is clean.

It's free.

It's abundant.

And that's the kind of love that I'm learning to embody.

Not to prove something,

Not to be chosen,

But it's because it's who I am.

So if you've been feeling unseen or underappreciated lately,

Please pause and ask yourself,

Did I give from love or did I give to get something back?

No shame,

Just awareness.

Because that awareness,

That's how we heal the way we give.

Number 10 for the day,

And then we're going to wrap this up.

Your challenges prepare you for your purpose.

So let me say this loud,

Louder for the people in the back.

Your challenges prepare you for your purpose.

My friend,

You didn't go through all that pain,

All that loss,

All that rock-bottom silence for nothing.

The challenges you faced,

I know it's easy to view them as punishments,

But that's not what they are.

They're preparations.

And I know when you're in it,

It absolutely doesn't feel that way.

When you're in the middle of heartbreak or addiction or relapse or rejection,

It feels like the universe forgot about you.

But what I've come to understand is this,

Everything I've suffered through has shaped the exact man I needed to become to walk in my purpose.

I couldn't coach people through pain if I hadn't sat in that valley myself.

I couldn't teach breathwork for trauma if I hadn't faced my own traumas.

I couldn't speak life into others if I hadn't once felt lifeless myself.

So think of it like this,

Your story isn't a disqualification,

It's a credential.

The soul doesn't waste pain,

It alchemizes it,

It turns it into medicine.

So if you're in the fire right now,

I want you to hear this,

You're not behind,

You're not cursed,

You are being forged.

Your purpose requires a version of you who's not afraid to feel,

Not afraid to break,

Not afraid to rebuild,

And to rise with integrity.

Because once you've been through hell and you've made it out and your heart is still open,

Oh man,

You become unstoppable.

And here we are,

10 truths,

10 invitations,

10 chances to see yourself more clearly,

Not as a project to fix,

But as a soul remembering its way home.

So if you're in a messy middle right now,

If you're feeling the stretch,

The ache,

The in-between,

Pause,

Breathe,

And listen.

You are not broken,

You are becoming,

And everything you faced is preparing you for everything you're here to carry.

You don't need to rush,

You don't need to force,

You just need to stay with yourself long enough for the next version of you to rise from the ashes of the old one.

So thank you for walking this path with me,

For staying present,

For staying open,

And for staying human.

This is the Seeker and the Sage,

And I'll see you on the path.

Stay sacred,

Stay wild,

And blessed be.