Good morning,
Good evening,
Good afternoon,
Wherever you may be,
Whatever you may be doing,
Hello and welcome to this evolution.
I wanted today to talk about procrastination,
And I've been thinking about this topic for a while now,
And every time I think about it and start to prepare for it,
Another layer of it is revealed to itself,
Whether that be something I see on social media or something I hear on a podcast,
And it always just reminds me about how true it is,
That phrase of trust the process.
I mean,
Yesterday for me was a tricky and difficult day.
I felt an insecurity that I haven't felt in a very long time.
The reason why is the reason why I'm not sure as to what the reason was,
I have an idea.
What I was able to do was anchor in the fact and the certainty that this too shall pass.
I don't want to go down the rabbit hole of talking about that,
Because to be honest,
I can't remember.
I think I've done a podcast about that already,
But if not,
I'm going to do one.
I have.
But I was able to sit in the bleep,
Which was something that a conversation I had with my therapist five years ago now,
Wow,
About being able to just sit in the stuff and accept where you are at that moment in time.
But again,
I digress.
Today is about procrastination.
Really,
Really,
Really been,
Especially in the last six,
Seven months,
But increasingly over the last 18 months,
It's been feeling more and more procrastination.
The reasons as to why,
Again,
Don't know.
And all too often,
What I've learned is to not really expend the energy on trying to figure out the why's of something and just accepting it for what it is and looking at the method of moving the ball down the field.
I was going to do a podcast today about boredom.
Well,
Not today,
Last week about boredom.
It didn't feel right to do it.
So I didn't do it.
And I was going to do a podcast about procrastination over the weekend.
It didn't feel right to do it.
Then I listened to a podcast on Sunday about consistency.
And boy,
Oh boy,
Was that the one.
Consistency is the root for me,
At least in this situation,
In this present moment.
Consistency is where it all anchors in.
And my feeling yesterday actually really started on Sunday.
I kind of woke up on Sunday and I was just like,
Whoa.
So one thing I did realize and did know is that whenever I get off my ritual and lack of sleep and other coping mechanisms,
I often get into that space because I leaned into the ritual and the ritual was I did a shadow work practice.
And whilst it wasn't as quote unquote intense as it sometimes is,
It did reveal and it circled me back to self-compassion and it circled me back to simplifying things.
What I often do is layer.
Oh,
In this time block,
I'm going to do this and this and then this and then this.
And the next thing you know,
I've got 11 things to do.
And consciously or subconsciously,
The almost obvious inability to get through that list creates something.
And so what that part of me was essentially telling me to do was to just simplify things,
Focus on one or two things and identify.
And so what I did was I did my wheel of life.
And I did my wheel of life at the same time as a restart on Insight Timer in terms of my consistent days.
I'd gotten up to 249 days and then I hadn't officially meditated on the platform for about three,
Four days.
I started back at zero and I was comfortable with that because even though I had done things off the platform,
I was comfortable with that because for me,
I kind of drew that as a line in the sand.
And that line in the sand was about consistency.
And I'm going to talk properly about consistency in the next episode.
This is just the precursor,
The teaser some may say.
And what I'll close this exercise with is talking about the wheel of life.
So I did my wheel of life.
And again,
Interestingly enough,
I found myself again wanting to layer things.
So I reached out to,
I've got two people on my becoming your best friend who are going through this process with me.
And I was like,
Hey guys,
Let's all do our wheel of life.
And the minute I sent that,
There was something in me,
Which was just like,
Hmm.
And I smiled.
So I'm going to open up my wheel of life now,
12th of October.
On the wheel of life,
I had my wife,
My children,
My family,
My friends,
Sleep and routine,
Work,
My in this practice and in fun.
And the one which had the biggest difference,
Difference of eight was sleep and routine.
And that is always so important for me.
Like,
I've always been a self-diagnosed night owl.
And yet,
It's this time of day,
It's 537,
When I have the peace and I have the place of mind to record and to lean into my routine.
And over the course of the next few weeks,
I'm going to talk about my routine.
And hopefully,
Together we can panel beat a routine for you out there.
Because for me,
That morning routine is and always has been so unbelievably critical and key to everything.
So,
Do circle back and let's start this together.
Speaking to you again,
All the best.
Honor your truth,
Keep growing,
Keep becoming.
Thank you and we'll see you next time.
