Hello there.
So we've all been self isolating for a while now.
And at least if you're affected by the current corona situation.
And I have seen a shift in how people feel about their current position in this crisis.
In the beginning I noticed people being shocked and surprised that maybe they didn't know the amount of free time they had.
And they didn't really know what to do with it.
And then it shifted over to finding all these things to keep us busy and starting to work out from home.
Baking more,
Creating new recipes,
Transferring a lot of our activities online,
Making shared Zoom calls with our friends,
With colleagues.
Cleaning our house from top to bottom.
Making sure that we are keeping busy.
And recently I've felt a sort of pressure from people in that.
Pressure to succeed even at a time that is supposed to be there for doing nothing for so many of us.
Pressure to make the most out of this time.
To use this free time to its very last minute because it's so precious and we usually don't have enough of it.
I've personally also experienced these feelings to a very high degree.
I had to recently call in an intervention so to speak to make myself realize that I do not have to do something all the time that I can put down on a list that will make me look more effective.
I am allowed to do nothing.
To just sit there.
To look at the sky.
To smell the spring air.
To be in those Netflix if that's what I would like to do.
So I was wondering where this feeling comes from.
From feeling so much pressure,
Putting so much pressure on myself.
And the answer is very clear and simple yet so difficult to work with.
I realized how I wasn't feeling worthy enough.
Or just enough.
I can imagine that the feeling of not being enough is something really prevalent in a lot of our lives.
And surprisingly at this time as well.
Because once we strip down from what gives us meaning,
Which is often our job or what gives us purpose,
We are wondering what's left besides that?
What is there?
If we don't work,
If we don't provide for our families,
For ourselves.
If we don't give to society by either our job or our voluntary work or by raising our families or in whatever other way we used to do.
What is left?
Are we worthy?
Even at this time?
Are we worthy enough to do nothing?
I think that it is very important that in times like this we listen to what our inner selves tells us.
Are we not enough because that is what we feel deep down?
Or is it because we are seemingly told by society?
And if we're not enough,
Where does that feeling come from?
Are we comparing ourselves with other people,
Their successes,
Their way of life?
Or are we comparing ourselves with ourselves from yesterday,
From ten years ago?
So I invite you to think about this for a little bit.
And if you do feel unworthiness within yourself,
Try and see whether you can find anything that shows you that you've become a better yourself,
A better you,
Over the last days,
Weeks,
Years or even decades.
Have you learned a new skill within the last ten years?
Have you grown in your confidence,
In your independence,
In your freedom,
In your way of expression?
Have you formed closer relationships,
Meaningful relationships,
Deep relationships?
Have you found more peace within yourself?
Have you been able to mindfully enjoy a minute of the day by just looking up into the air,
Seeing a bird fly through the sky,
Notice the soft,
Warm spring air in your skin?
Have you felt any of this?
Can you see the worth in this?
Even if nothing comes to mind,
Can you feel the worth sitting here right now,
Listening to me speaking about your unworth and seeing this as a first step towards a life where you feel more worth?
You are enough.
You are worthy.
You just have to feel it from within.
Thank you for listening.
Namaste.
