Seeking The Meaning Of Life

Welcome to La Ve Homme,

Living Change with Colleen St.

Michael's.

I'm an intuitive development expert sharing the tools and information to partner with you as we enter this new era of inspiration,

Motivation,

Growth,

And healing.

Thank you for joining me on episode three.

What is the meaning of life?

So when I was reviewing my topics for the podcast,

I always go back to my sessions as a reference point,

As a professional intuitive and coach,

A medium.

It's always a question that I'm asked on numerous occasions.

So I really wanted to kind of dive into that topic because most of us are so confused as to what our life is supposed to be,

What we thought it was going to be,

The meaning behind it,

What is our purpose here?

So I have to take you on a journey and in the journey,

You have to understand,

We have to go back to the beginning to understand what has brought you to this place to even ask such a question.

So if you've thought to yourself,

Like,

What am I doing here?

Like what is,

What is my purpose here?

And it just feels like we're floundering.

It feels like there's confusion.

You feel lost.

You may be bored with life and we're not shown properly how to use all of our gifts and we tend to go into it head on with just that,

Our head.

And logic is to be human,

To use intuition and logic is to be whole.

And that's where we need to go back to the beginning.

And we need to understand from its conception,

The world that came before conception,

The soul's journey,

Our soul's journey,

Moving through different lifetimes,

Different experiences,

Different skin suits,

Different cultures,

Different races,

Different,

You know,

Physical appearances.

And why?

Because our soul has had many opportunities throughout its journey in Earth School.

Because when we understand the background of who we are and where we came from,

We learn that it's not a question that's found externally.

It's found internally.

Because each of us has come to Earth for a reason.

And there's a life plan for each of us that include the most challenging situations that we face in life.

And nothing is left to chance.

So we need to look inside for life's meaning to discover these hidden passageways that have been open for us.

So when we have self knowledge,

When we have some self awareness,

It's a great power to help us achieve what we desire in life.

So we must live by a choice and not by chance.

We need to learn how to stop,

Be still,

And tune in to our higher self.

And that is where it brings us to what is the higher self?

And you hear it often,

People talk about in meditation and in spiritual texts and if you've even seen it on memes,

It's like,

What would my higher self do?

And it feels like a disconnection.

And when we feel lost and we feel confused,

It is a disconnect.

It's a disconnect from our soul's imprint.

It's a disconnect from us tuning in to the station within us that's playing out all of the coordinates to the journey and why we're here.

And often I have people who request past life regressions and wanting to know who they were in past incarnations and wanting to know who they were in other lifetimes.

And it's a valuable tool because we can uncover some of our reasons as to why we feel certain things,

Why we feel passioned about other things,

Why we feel negativity towards those things and why we may feel held back.

Why we have fear for situations that we can't identify in this incarnation.

So it is so important to understand that we have to know the background and why we're here.

So each of us is a soul and we occupy a physical body and that's how we navigate Earth school.

And the soul's main purpose for incarnating back on this plane is to thrive,

To learn,

To grow because it is about the lessons that we grow through in life that help our soul's evolution.

And here we look at a person's physical age and we build stories around,

Well,

When someone is five,

They should be doing this.

When someone is 10,

They should be experiencing this milestone.

When you turn 18,

You are an adult,

You should be.

So we're constantly being guided by what we should be doing,

By what our chronological age is offering.

And that can really do a disjustice to many people who are learning at their soul's rate.

So we have our own fingerprints and every set of fingerprints is unique to all of the inhabitants of Gaia.

Every person who walks this Earth has their own fingerprints and every person who walks this Earth has their own unique soul chart that aligns with those fingerprints.

And in those soul charts are all of the lessons that we have chosen to grow through in this incarnation.

And every person that we meet is a teacher,

It is a guide that helps us on some level to grow.

And so often we're conditioned to look out and say,

Well,

Why would someone do that to me?

Or why is this happening to me?

Or why is that person gifted with wealth?

And why is that person so much smarter than I?

And why and why and why?

And to quiet the why is a simple answer and that is it's because they're following what their soul charts have guided them to do.

And we spend many years wasting time in worrying about the outside world's why.

And yet we create a vacancy within our own being that is offering us so much information to help guide us.

So it's important that we understand that each soul has chosen,

You have chosen to come and experience this lifetime.

We have a big say in the afterlife when we come back into this coronation of what we want to learn.

We may take eternity to grow through one lesson.

It may be very quickly that we learn other lessons,

But every single person is on their page of their growth.

And it creates a diverse world.

And our world is beautifully diverse,

Offering us opportunity after opportunity after opportunity to grow through these lessons.

And the soul desires the growth.

The soul desires the experience here on art school.

It is our separation.

It's like a veil of forgetfulness comes into this world with us where we forget that we are all part of a divine network.

And we have the answers.

We have the tools.

We have the ability to move through any of life's obstacles.

But it comes down to choice.

Do we choose to stay in the story that is creating an injustice within us?

Do we choose to stay in the seat of pain?

Do we choose to stay in the seat of struggle?

Do we choose to stay in our confusion and throw labels on it as you're looking for the meaning of life?

We have a choice.

It's one of the most powerful gifts that we came into this physical world holding.

Every single soul has free will,

Free choice.

That is what separates us from the spirit world.

When souls return back home and into the afterlife,

It is no longer free will.

It is love.

It is a higher frequency of vibrational,

All-knowing,

Infinite love.

So it's here that we create separation.

But the first separation starts with the lack of trust within ourselves.

It is the separation where we abandon ourselves,

Where we step out of our power and we start believing that the world around us knows what's best for us when we feel lost or confused.

To take your power back,

It starts by understanding that you are a divine being doing a human experience to grow through the lessons that your soul chose here to experience.

And I know what you're saying already.

Well,

I will never pick up a pencil again in the afterlife and come back and do this life.

And I agree because I have said that myself.

There are certain situations that I was like,

I must have been over eager that day to keep raising my hand.

And at the end of those situations,

When I can reflect back and ask,

What have I grown through?

What have I learned from the situation?

It has been the most important pivotal springboards of growth that I have experienced is when I was in real times of adversity,

Because the stories don't seem to flow as fluently through your head when you are in a time of adversity.

You're quick to surrender the BS.

You're quick to surrender the illusions that you're in the state of fixing something when you're just standing still.

So when you understand that,

You came with the power of intuition.

Your intuitive voice within is connected to your soul's life chart.

You came here to grow through the struggles of understanding the opposite side.

And I'll say,

When I'm sitting with guests,

Is that they don't understand why they're experiencing this in their life.

And if we were to do a past life regression,

We'll find that they have experienced this same exact situation,

But they were the person who was creating harm.

They were the person who was creating chaos.

So the soul needs to understand the other side.

It's a different perspective.

And so when it comes here to experience some things,

It's just viewing life through a different perspective.

And when we can view it from that higher place,

We can then come back and ask ourselves,

What do I have control over?

So we don't have control over if bad people in your mind are hurting someone else.

How you control is how you respond.

And we put all these labels of good and bad,

Right and wrong.

And that's,

Again,

A human condition.

Nothing is good or bad.

It's the consequences of.

And often I hear people when they talk about karma or the energy of karma and how karma is a bitch.

And karma is not.

Karma is neither good nor bad,

But it is the energy that you are projecting out like a boomerang that energy is coming back.

So it may take lifetimes to neutralize karma.

And so we may have experiences here with people that we have done past lives with.

And we are now experiencing the karma from that experience,

The energy that was shared from that experience.

So it is not that something is good or bad,

But it is to see from a different perspective,

To sit in the shoes of someone else is truly how we tend to grow when we're looking through a situation through the eyes of another person and how they feel.

And we can do that here.

We don't have to wait till we get to the other side because in the life review,

We will experience that.

Again,

It's not good or bad,

Right or wrong.

This is all human labeling.

It's judgment is a human condition.

It's not a spirit condition.

So when you're searching for the meaning of life,

It is only a question that you can ask yourself honestly.

And you might find that asking yourself,

What am I doing that feels meaningless?

And start with the things that you know feel meaningless.

And then that will help draw you closer to knowing what you do desire.

And contrast offers us amazing amounts of information.

Because when you know what you don't like,

It surely can pull you in the better direction of finding what it is that you desire.

Because it is a personal desire that we have for fulfillment.

It is a personal desire that we come into this plane to not only have a co-creation with other people,

But to get back into our basics.

And the fundamental reason of being here is that we not only came here to grow,

But to be a teacher to others as we are a student to some.

And often amassed.

So I don't understand this as to like,

Well,

Why would little kids come here and get sick?

Why would people,

You know,

Why do children get cancer?

Why do children have these disabilities?

Well,

These are very special souls.

Because again,

Like we spoke about that on this plane,

We look at people as they are skin suit as how we can tell what age they are.

Oh,

That person's 25.

Oh,

They're 45,

95.

However that age is,

It really is just an earthly indicator.

But it's the soul's age that is of importance.

Because every soul comes here with a birth date and an end date and not one moment do they leave the world before it is their time.

Unless it is a personal decision to remove yourself from this world.

Because that is not in our soul charts to take our physical lives.

That is an action which is where the person feels pain and they are again welcomed home back into the afterlife with loving arms.

And in any other situation other than suicide,

It is then the soul is here at the allotted amount of time that it has designed to have these experiences.

And again we talk about this veil of forgetfulness because we forget.

We forget that this is our temporary home and that every day is an opportunity to grow,

To learn,

To become everything that we desire without the separation.

And confusion comes from when we separate.

We separate from the belief in ourselves.

We separate from our intuition.

We separate from our wholeness.

That we are mind,

Body and spirit in this journey.

And not just the mental place.

Because the mental place will only offer you half the answers.

To be smart does not mean that you are spiritually evolved.

It means you are smart.

So it is to kind of strip back and just dissolve those layers that we have created as how we label people to be.

We look at someone as having a financial success that they are very successful people.

Well in the physical plane,

Yes.

But what is their spiritual bank accounts doing?

What is their mind maybe guiding them but there is also a body and a spirit that is connected.

And they are only using that portion to help them in this journey.

But to create wholeness is tapping into all the resources that we have.

Our physical body,

Our spirit and our mind.

Creating wholeness because all of the answers that we seek are within our spiritual bank accounts.

And it is not about religion and it is not about the belief systems that have been created from generation to generation that creates separation.

It is coming back to the origin of why we are here and how we came into this world as a whole being.

A whole spirit,

A whole mind,

A whole body.

And when a child comes into this world,

They come in and if there is illness,

If there is something that is on our view as just so sad,

So horrific and it is,

It is hard to watch.

And the reality is they are teacher souls.

They did not come here to learn.

They came here to teach.

They have come to teach compassion.

They have come to teach value in our breath.

They have come to teach us kindness,

Forgiveness,

A remembrance that every day is not a guarantee but a gift.

And to embrace that gift and to live with the remembrance that we are here for a short time.

And that in this time,

What is it that we want to bring into the world?

What is it that we want to share with the world as a gift?

And when we learn to go within ourselves and get out of that mental space,

Because the ego is always triggered in that mental space,

It is ego is not your amigo.

It is edging God out.

It is creating a separation from your truth and knowing that you are here with all of the tools.

But if there's a lot of confusion,

If there's a lot of chaos in your mind and in your world,

It's not for the world around you to stop.

It is for you to stop the chaos that you're allowing because there's a beautiful saying by a woman named Glenda Cloud and it says,

Change is inevitable but growth is intentional.

So it's making an intention to grow out of that situation that's creating chaos and creates that separation.

It creates the delusion and creates confusion that we have control over things that don't belong to us.

But when you step out and ask yourselves,

How can I remove myself to think beyond,

To feel beyond this situation?

Am I creating myself as a victim of this life or a volunteer or a victor?

And that is so,

So moving when you honestly answer that question.

And if you're always feeling disconnected from happiness because you feel like you're just chasing happiness or chasing something to create meaning,

We will never recognize the everyday life opportunities that come in front of us.

It's our destiny to be defined as to what doors of opportunity we choose to walk through.

And it is the most important conscious decision you can make of asking yourself,

What choice do I have?

Because you often hear that statement coming in daily conversations.

It's like,

Well,

What choice do I have?

I have to do this.

No,

You are robbing yourself of power by surrendering that power of choice.

We might not always like what the choice is,

But we can never say that we do not have a choice.

And when we go into understanding that,

We can better allow ourselves to understand why a lot of the experiences you have have happened.

How have you co-created with different parts of your life?

And often,

People will say during session,

And again,

I have asked myself in my years of development,

Why would this happen to me?

Why would this situation happen?

And we always have to go back from that higher perch so that we can take a view that is non-judgmental but observant.

And ask yourself the question,

How many times did I feel inside of me that something wasn't right?

How many times did I feel a negative nudge to maybe not make that decision,

To maybe not go forward with that?

We're consistently being nudged.

We're consistently being tapped on,

God-winked and wingslapped every single day.

We either have a choice not to listen,

Not to acknowledge it,

Or we have a choice to at least be present enough to sit and ask yourself,

What messages have I gotten inward that I have not chosen to follow?

And it's,

Again,

Not about judgment.

It's not about punishment,

Persecution.

It is about the realizations that you have this enormous gift within you,

And it's choosing to use it.

Our thoughts can become our heaven or our hell.

And it is about taking that intentional action to understand that we've had many experiences over many lifetimes.

And in those past lives,

We have had joy,

We have had wealth,

We have had all the different experiences,

And what is it that you want to experience in this lifetime?

I always say that in the beginning,

When I was seeing that movie Groundhog's Day,

Where it was like the same thing just kept happening over and over and over again,

And I was like,

What the heck?

Why does this keep happening over and over and over again?

And what I was missing is that when a life lesson is in front of us,

Until we take the doorknob to that lesson and open that door to go in,

It will keep repeating.

Or we can have the choice where we say,

Okay,

Stop.

This is a familiar pattern,

And this is not a pattern that I want to participate in anymore.

And that's how we understand and identify what our life lessons are to grow through.

But every soul came here to experience self-love.

Because when we have self-love,

We have a better connection with our being.

Because when we have self-love,

We are not allowing ourselves to attract people who are unhealthy.

When we have self-love,

We don't attract people who are abusive to us,

Either words or verbally.

When we have self-love,

We don't negotiate what our morals or our boundaries are.

And when we have self-love,

We don't feel unappreciated.

We feel empowered to take those steps in recognizing that we are not using our boundaries to push people away.

We're just using our boundaries to preserve what we're working so hard to protect.

And that's when we understand that we start attracting different people,

Different situations,

Different experiences into our lives.

So all of us here came to experience self-love on this journey.

We all came here to experience kindness.

We all came here to experience forgiveness.

We all came here to experience love.

And not love that is a weapon,

Not love that is to be taken,

Not love that is hurtful.

It is source love where we can love someone on a source level and choose not to have them in our life because they are not helping us to grow,

That their energetic trail is not of negativity or it does not feel heavy.

So it is a love where we can love people but make the choice that it is okay not to have them in your world.

We don't have to like everyone that is in our world.

You don't have to like how they show up,

But we can still love them.

And that's what separates soul love from human love.

Soul love is just a conscious stream of energy.

So when you ask what is my purpose here,

It starts asking yourself the investigative questions of what brings me joy.

What joy do I feel with inside of me?

What practices do I use on the daily to support my joy?

Have I sought to have only material items to bring happiness or have I held the belief that I can only feel enough if I have a person standing next to me?

Because all of these things are just separating us from our truth and it creates a separation from ourselves and then creates a feeling of unworthiness.

So as you listen,

Be kind to yourself and know that your intuitive mind is a sacred gift and the rational mind is a faithful servant.

And we have created a society that honors the servant and has forgotten the gift.

And that's by Albert Einstein.

So remember your gift.

Remember the gift that's in you.

Remember who you are.

You're a divine perfect being of light,

Source light,

Infinite knowledge,

Wisdom,

And capable of anything that you desire in this life.

I am Colleen St.

Michael's living La Veum.