#89. Unsatisfying Life | Vigyan Bhairav Tantra

Namaste sannyasa family and everyone.

A very warm welcome to all of you in this daily live meditation session with me,

Dhyan Se.

We are meditating on 112 meditation techniques of Dhyan Bhairav Tantra.

Let us begin this session by meditating on this very beautiful ancient Indian story.

There was a king who was turning 100 and then one day all of a sudden death appeared.

Death said to the king,

You are 100 now,

Time to move with me,

Time to die.

The king said,

Well 100 years but I have not yet lived.

I have not yet lived enough.

I have so many desires.

I have so many things unsatisfied in me.

I am in so much unsatisfaction.

I cannot die right now.

Then the death said,

I am here so I will take someone.

I will take you or I will take someone.

I have to take you along since I am here.

The king said,

Why don't you give me a chance to live some more.

Death said,

There is only one possibility.

You have 100 sons.

This king was a very great king.

He had a full kingdom of his own,

100 wives,

100 kids.

He had 100 sons.

So the death said,

You have 100 sons.

You give me one of your sons and I will give you 10 more years to live.

And then you can do whatever you want and I will come back after 10 years.

The king,

He called up all his 100 sons.

He lined them up.

He said,

You always said to me that you will do anything for your father.

Now is the time to prove that you love your father.

So who of you is going to die for your father?

You are the son of a king.

You are brave enough.

Who is ready to die for his father?

These 60,

70,

80 year old sons,

They were looking at each other.

Of course,

No one wanted to die.

They were still thinking about this whole thing.

Then all of a sudden,

A 19 year old son of this king,

He said,

I will die.

I will die for you.

Death was very surprised to see that all those older sons did not care about the father.

They were not ready to die.

But this 19 year old son,

He is ready to die at such a young age.

He took that son aside.

He said,

Why are you willing to die for your father?

Why are you willing to die at such a young age?

The son said something very significant,

Very important to contemplate on to meditate upon.

The son said,

Even after 100 years,

If my father is still full of desires,

Is still unsatisfied,

I don't want to live that life,

Which is so unsatisfying that even after 100 years,

I'm completely unsatisfied.

So what,

How does it matter if I live 19 years or if I live 100 years?

You give my father,

Let him fulfill his desires,

Give him life and take me along.

And this happened,

The death took that son and gave the king 10 more years to live.

And the story continues that after 10 years,

The death came again to the king.

King was still unsatisfied.

King was still not fulfilled with his desires.

King still wanted to have something more in life,

Which he has not yet experienced.

And the same thing happened one by one.

The sons were taken by the death and the king was given 10 more years and 10 more years every 10 years until he was 1000 years old.

Still the same story,

The story continued that the king was never satisfied.

The king was never fulfilled with his desires,

One after the other new desires came.

Reflect on this story.

This is all our story.

We may not have a 1000 years,

But even in this little time that we have,

If you observe your life,

So much unfulfillment,

So much dissatisfaction,

Why is there this dissatisfaction?

Life is there,

But you are not satisfied with life.

Whatever time is given to you appears to be less,

Appears to be insufficient and you are unsatisfied in this time.

Your dissatisfaction is there in life as if this time is not enough,

As if something is missing,

As if something is still there to be fulfilled constantly and is not being fulfilled.

Why is that happening?

If you contemplate over it,

If you meditate over it,

A great revelation happens to you.

You realize that this unsatisfaction,

This source of unsatisfaction or dissatisfaction in your life is because you are always living on the periphery.

This peripheral life,

This life which is constructed in layers and layers of desires and wishes and thoughts and all what you have acquired from the outside,

This has given you a life of this periphery and something very essential core,

The center is missing.

You are living as if you are living on the periphery and there is no center and unless there is this center,

Until there is this center,

You will always feel dissatisfied.

You will always feel unsatisfied with life and this periphery which is formed from all from the external world,

Your roles,

Your responsibilities,

Your titles,

Your descriptions,

I am the head of this department,

I am this,

I am that,

All these roles,

Responsibilities,

They are on the periphery,

They are giving you more and more desires,

They are giving you more and more thoughts,

They keep you unsatisfied because the fabric of this outer periphery that you are living,

The fabric of this external world is built on desires,

It cannot be fulfilled.

See,

Therefore,

You always have this wish to grow if it is in your career,

If it is in your life,

If it is in your money,

Anything in your life,

This external fabric cannot hold itself together unless it is having this sense of growing,

Having this sense of that it wants more,

This built is on dissatisfaction,

On unsatisfied life.

Because the center is missing and you are constantly working on the periphery,

Ignoring that you need to work on the center,

You are constantly pushing,

Still trying to fulfill everything on the periphery and this periphery can never be satisfied,

This periphery is always wanting more and more and more,

All you have to do is to look at the center.

And this growth is accompanied with meditation.

This happening is this spiritual awakening,

This happens in four stages.

If you are meditating regularly,

If you are coming across these contemplations in your life,

Where you go deeper in yourself,

Where you move your energies towards the center,

Your journey will be in four stages.

Stage one,

As you live right now,

You're living on the periphery without a center.

This life is life of unsatisfaction,

Of dissatisfaction.

Stage two,

As you move your energies towards your center,

As you look for yourself,

As you once again find yourself,

Find your being,

Find your true center,

As you start moving towards that,

This center starts to reveal,

It was always there,

It is not created,

It is not formed,

It was always there,

Now you are coming upon it once again,

It is revealed once again as your consciousness purifies.

So in this second stage,

Your energies are more towards yourself,

You still have the periphery,

You but now have the center as well,

You're established in yourself,

You're established in your center,

You feel once again alive in life,

When you go out,

You live the periphery,

But when you are in your silence,

You are in touch with that center.

While you are in the external world,

You may shift,

You may miss the center,

You may fall off the center to the periphery,

But as you are in meditation,

You're always back to the center.

This is stage two.

Then there is stage three,

Which is as you move further deeper in silence,

This periphery starts to blur away,

This periphery starts to melt,

And this,

All this persona that you're carrying,

All these masks that you're carrying on top of yourself,

These behaviors,

These etiquettes,

These gestures,

These desires,

These wishes,

All that is keeping you always unsatisfied,

All that is dropped,

And you're living only your center,

You're living only your true nature,

You're living only yourself.

The possibility to live that life is there,

But it is difficult.

In moments of silence,

In moments of deep meditation,

And a life towards sannyasa,

Is creating that possibility where you don't have to live the surface,

Where you don't have to live the periphery,

But you can live just the center as well.

The possibility is there.

And then the fourth,

The last stage,

Where there is no periphery,

There is no center,

You merge into the whole.

That self that is there,

That being that is there,

You also drop that and you live the no being,

You live the no self,

You live the no periphery,

The no center,

You live the whole.

Again,

The possibility of living that is there.

In this very life,

In this very human life,

The possibility of living as no periphery,

As no center,

As no self,

As no being,

Is also there.

Let us hear what Bhairava has to say in this movement,

In this journey from the periphery to the center and to the no center,

To the no self.

Bhairava in Vigyan Bhairavtantra gives this as a technique.

He says,

Whirling the body round and round,

And suddenly falling on the ground,

In that fall,

The supreme state arises.

This technique is for dancers.

This technique is coming from Sufism.

Let me repeat this technique and very briefly understand together what this technique is about and how to do this in meditation.

Not the exact same technique,

But what you could do while just simply sitting.

But listen to this again.

Whirling the body round and round,

And suddenly falling on the ground,

In that fall,

The supreme state arises.

Whirling the body round and round.

If you know about Sufism,

They have this technique for thousands of years,

This ancient tradition of Sufi whirling.

In that tradition,

In that dance,

The Sufi is just spinning round and round for a very long period of time,

For minutes and sometimes even for hours.

The Sufi is simply whirling round and round.

If you get a chance to see one of these Sufi whirling dances,

It is one of the most beautiful things in the world to see.

It is a meditation in itself,

To see that dance.

It is so transcendental.

It is such carrying such lucidity in it,

That when you just see that dance,

It reminds you of that space,

Of that center in you.

But what is happening when the Sufi is whirling,

When the body is whirling round and round,

The entire world that you carry along with you,

Within your mind,

All these thoughts,

All these projections,

All this self,

This pseudo-self,

This periphery that you have built up in your life and you are carrying all along the way,

This,

When you are whirling this all the time,

When you are whirling this for several minutes,

When you are in this dance,

You are thrown into something,

Into a center which is not moving.

When everything is moving in you,

There is something that is unmoving in you.

That center is revealed.

That center is felt.

You are thrown from the surface to the center.

That is why all these Sufis do this Sufi whirling.

That is the meditative purpose of the dance,

Of that technique,

That dynamically you allow everything that is moving to move in a circle and you are revealed to a center in that process.

That center that is unmoving,

That is yourself.

And as you suddenly fall,

As you stop that dance,

All of a sudden,

Even that center is dropped.

As the dancer completely all of a sudden stops this whirling and falls on the ground,

In that fall which is not calculated,

In that fall which is not of the mind prepared,

All of a sudden a fall,

In that fall not only the periphery falls but also this center,

The self falls as well.

And you once again are in this Supreme Self,

Which is the hole this arises in you.

So this Sufi whirling,

This is taking you from just being the periphery from this stage number one to all the way to stage number four and along the way of realizing yourself as the stage number two and losing the periphery of the stage number three and losing even the self of the stage number four.

Try that if you ever get a chance to do Sufi whirling not on your own in your home.

You may damage yourself,

You may damage your furniture,

But somewhere go to a Sufi whirling class if you have somewhere around you and see the magic of this whirling in action in meditation.

We will also have discourses on Sufism in the near future,

If not the next series,

But the next to next series will be on Sufism where I will go into these beautiful secrets,

Techniques and ways of the Sufi which have their own place in this world and must be lived by all meditators at least once in our lifetime.

For now,

How to do this as a practice while sitting in silence?

You will close your eyes and you will let your entire world revolve around you as if it is revolving around you in your imagination.

This whole periphery that you're living,

Your work,

Your things,

All your worries,

All your desires,

All your thoughts,

See that they form a certain circle and that circle is whirling around you.

It may slightly make you dizzy,

But it will immediately bring you to your center.

It will point you to your center where you will see that in this movement,

In this recognition of the movement,

There will be a recognition of the center as well.

And then you can move on from the center to the self and to even dropping that self,

Moving in complete silence,

In complete awareness in the whole.

Please close your eyes and take a posture that is comfortable for you.

With your body relaxed,

Alert,

Breath flowing naturally,

And awareness in your inner space.

As your breath settles,

Your awareness settles alone,

Your body rests.

Begin with the visualization that the whole world is revolving around you,

The world of desires,

The world of thoughts.

Your external world is just around you in a circle.

And it's moving around you at a very slow pace,

Yet moving,

Moving in circles.

Everything around you is in movement,

A circular movement.

And as you feel this movement,

In the middle of these movements,

Shift your awareness to that which is unmoving,

A center in you which is unmoving,

Always still.

You are your energy from the outside,

From the periphery to the center,

The unmoving center in you.

And awareness within at the unmoving center.

Resting at that center.

Awareness all directed to your center.

Resting at that center.

Resting at that center.

Resting at that center.

Let go of the periphery.

Let simply sit in the sense of self.

Let go of the periphery.

And with every breath,

Only the sense of self.

Let go of the periphery.

And slowly letting go of the self.

Let go of the periphery.

Rest in awareness,

In silence.

No self,

No periphery.

Let go of the periphery.

Let go of the periphery.

In a total let go.

Let go of the periphery.

Let go of the periphery.

Let go of the periphery.

Let go of the periphery.

Let go of the periphery.

Let go of the periphery.

Let go of the periphery.

Not leaving anything behind.

Immersing in this silence and awareness.

Being one with the whole.

Let go of the periphery.

Let go of the periphery.

Let go of the periphery.

Nothing of you is left.

Let go of the periphery.

Very gently and slowly open your eyes.

To the new.

Leaving everything of the old in the silence.

Letting it go into the whole.

Coming back to your center.

To your true nature.

To yourself.

To the love in you.

To the truth in you.

To the awareness in you that allows also for you to live on the periphery with awareness,

With consciousness.

And as you proceed on your spiritual journey,

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Thank you very much.

Namaste.