Hi guys,
So this week I'm definitely being guided to speak to you about love,
About loving,
About our desire and impulse to love others with all our heart unabashedly,
Without measure,
Without limitation,
And the pain that comes with not being able to fully express this love.
So my grandma lived until the ripe old age of 100 and I remember when she was at her nursing home somebody asked her what the secret to a long and happy life is and she really didn't hesitate she just smiled knowingly and with her kind gentle eyes she looked up at this lady and said you have to love everybody,
Just love,
Love everyone.
And that really impacted me and she passed away three years ago and I've really set an intention or a desire to carry on her legacy of love to be open hearted but I always felt like I wasn't fully there to a point of being able to love everybody fully and it had to do with pain from the past and how trauma and abandonment and betrayal can often lead to a closing of the heart and you know it's a rational reaction to have I feel when we're hurt to feel like we want to protect ourselves so we close ourselves off and we close our hearts but I realize that there's a certain pain associated with doing that as well because what happens is we don't allow love to enter in and we don't allow ourselves to express love and for someone like me who is just designed innately to love with all my heart and when I see people out in public I just feel this deep inner connection with them and I feel their joy I feel their pain and that empathic ability makes me feel so much love for others and I realize that I'm not living aligned with my truth I'm not living aligned with my authenticity when I can't fully express that love then the ego part of me my mind basically says well look what good it's done you in the past you've just been hurt over and over again and so I had to sit with that for a long time and this week is really when I'm getting some clarity on this conflict within me and I realize that there's a difference between expressing love from an authentic place versus the desire to be loved and that acting based out of either intention can have very different consequences so I realized for me in the past that a lot of what I thought was loving somebody was actually me trying to fix them or me thinking that they needed me to do something in some certain way to help them a lot of it was based on other people's perceived expectations and needs where I wasn't doing it from necessarily an authentic place yes I wanted to help them but it wasn't something that I was being guided to do it was coming from a place of I want to be needed I want to fix this for them I want to help them I want to see them happy so it was very much based on this desire to maybe control the consequences of me expressing my love whereas there's a totally different kind of love that just naturally springs from the heart and it just has to do with you know giving a compliment to somebody that you see walking on the street who looks especially beautiful or dressed up or opening the door for somebody or helping them pick up something that they've dropped just little good deeds and expressing love in that way and not doing these deeds out of trying to prove to somebody that I'm a good person or to change somebody's mind so that they like me again that has to do with trying to control how somebody thinks about me versus when I'm expressing love authentically for myself I'm simply being me and I'm allowing my soul to shine I'm allowing my heart to be open and free and that is empowering that I think is the secret my grandma was trying to convey when she said love everyone it didn't mean just give give give until you're completely depleted it didn't mean setting aside who I am and my values and my wants and my well-being for the sake of somebody else it wasn't about sacrifice but it was about connecting with that impulse to love within us and expressing it freely and fully to the world so I encourage you to take some time to reflect on the difference between loving authentically versus loving out of expectation or the need for validation or acceptance and how different these two feel because I feel that the this message is coming through right now for a very important reason and it's that we are all being called to open our hearts and love unabashedly and definitely it takes a lot of courage but at the same time the message coming through is that there's a way to do it where it doesn't deplete you that it only energizes you and uplifts you and inspires you so thank you for listening and peace love and blessings to you.
